Buffy had helped Spike walk back to within a street or so of the place he
was staying, he had asked her to leave him there and she had done so.
Her mind was still preoccupied with establishing what she was feeling with regards to his return.
Something in her had leapt when she had first caught sight of him, something deep and primal, she was unprepared. Oh course she had thought about him returning, considered what she would do, what she would feel but all the planning in the world hadn't prepared her for actually setting eye's on him again.
She returned home and flopped herself on the sofa,
Buffy " right, so time to be sensible this time, no hiding away from what I feel, look where that landed me last time, no, gotta think this through carefully be grown up about it…"
Dawn " Buffy, that's not you talking to yourself again is it"
Dawn wondered into the living room, all dressed up and ready to go,
Buffy " oh no" turning to see Dawn " you, going somewhere"
Dawn "ya huh, Tuesday, Bronze, 8.00 you have a date remember, you do remember? And dawn gets to tag along and hang out with Xander and Will"
Buffy " Dawn does, does she, oh yeah I remember, date, what was his name again? "
Dawn " Dave I think, you remember cute, but ever so slightly a moron, "
Buffy " oh and I'm going out on a date with moron, because?"
Dawn " because you havn't had a date since Spike left, and your getting a little desperate"
Spike, since Spike left, buffy's thoughts jolted back to earlier that evening, watching him limp away from her down the alley, not heading towards the cemetery, she knew he wasn't back in the crypt, so where exactly was he staying?
Dawn " hello Buffy still in there? "
Buffy " oh yeah, so what times this date of mine then? "
Dawn " half an hour, you've gotta get ready in half an hour, and thats in no way gonna be long enough "
Buffy " what is that suppose to mean, I look fine, come on the guys a moron what do I care what I look like "
Dawn " *softly* you used to care, look how are you ever gonna find a man if you don't try a little harder"
Buffy " I never used to have to try, they just fell in love with me, whether I liked it or not"
Dawn " Spike"
Buffy " what, who mentioned Spike? "
Dawn " you did, they just fell in love with you whether you liked it or not, your talking about Spike, I can always tell, when your doing the Spike thinking you start staring out of the window, aimlessly "
Buffy " do not, and lots of guys have fallen for me whether I liked it or not, not just Spike "
Dawn " but you were thinking about Spike though? "
Buffy " yeah, guess I was "
Dawn " I'm sorry, you know that it all went wrong"
Buffy " well wasn't gonna go any other way was it, so date time hey, right I'll go make myself presentable, one moron is better than no moron hey"
She struggled for a smile, trying to reassure Dawn, but smiling whilst remembering how things had ended with Spike wasn't easy, the memories were still too painful, and she realised had been refreshed by seeing him again, feeling him close.
Buffy and Dawn entered the bronze, spotted Willow and Xander already seated and joined them
Willow " guy's, you just got here on time, Xanders off to the bar"
Xander " I am? Yes I am, right drinks for one and all coming up, ones of the non-alcoholic variety for the Dawnster of course, and Buffy all ready for your date-a-fied
Evening?"
Buffy " *sarcastically* oh yeah"
Xander " hey come on, a little enthusiasm please, Dave's a real nice guy. You know, goes out in the daylight, beating heart, no obtrusive bumpies "
Buffy " funny, but it takes a little more than simply being human you know, it might help if I actually liked him "
Xander getting a little annoyed " right well that's the way you wanna play it, "
As Xander headed for the bar Buffy turned to Willow and Dawn.
Buffy " you guy's get it right, it's not just a case of, oh look nice guy who likes you, not a vampire, kinda cute, ohh yeah I'll happily jump on him and propose within the hour, that's not what it's about, right? "
Willow " right, we get it, and yeah maybe Xanders being a little pushy but, Buffy you've gotta give another guy a chance sometime, your gonna start running out of excuses pretty soon, and guys "
Buffy " excuses, what excuses? So I don't fall for every guy you lot throw in front of me, maybe I'm not as desperate as you like to think I am"
Dawn " Buffy no that's not what we think, but every guy you meet you just reject, you keep pushing them away, cause what? They're not Spike? "
Buffy " what? where the hell did that come from? who mentioned Spike? Is that what you think? I'm not interested in anyone cause of Spike, come on, after all that happened, give me a little credit, maybe, just maybe, I'm not in the right place for this relationship that you keep wanting to throw on me "
As Buffy crossed her arms and sat back in her chair glaring at her three friends, Dave arrived at the table, smile plastered on his face,
Dave " hey all " looking directly at Buffy " hey, Buffy, good to see you again"
Buffy " hey, yeah "
Ok so she's gonna have to go through with this now and maybe they have a point, maybe just a little one, if she's comparing all guy's with Spike she's gonna be alone a long time. Not that Spike made some kind of perfect boyfriend material, god no, but the feelings, the ones he could muster from somewhere deep inside her, they were gonna be hard to replicate.
Ok so I may continue this, if it's worth it, next part more B/S please please please R+R good or bad , any comments please
Her mind was still preoccupied with establishing what she was feeling with regards to his return.
Something in her had leapt when she had first caught sight of him, something deep and primal, she was unprepared. Oh course she had thought about him returning, considered what she would do, what she would feel but all the planning in the world hadn't prepared her for actually setting eye's on him again.
She returned home and flopped herself on the sofa,
Buffy " right, so time to be sensible this time, no hiding away from what I feel, look where that landed me last time, no, gotta think this through carefully be grown up about it…"
Dawn " Buffy, that's not you talking to yourself again is it"
Dawn wondered into the living room, all dressed up and ready to go,
Buffy " oh no" turning to see Dawn " you, going somewhere"
Dawn "ya huh, Tuesday, Bronze, 8.00 you have a date remember, you do remember? And dawn gets to tag along and hang out with Xander and Will"
Buffy " Dawn does, does she, oh yeah I remember, date, what was his name again? "
Dawn " Dave I think, you remember cute, but ever so slightly a moron, "
Buffy " oh and I'm going out on a date with moron, because?"
Dawn " because you havn't had a date since Spike left, and your getting a little desperate"
Spike, since Spike left, buffy's thoughts jolted back to earlier that evening, watching him limp away from her down the alley, not heading towards the cemetery, she knew he wasn't back in the crypt, so where exactly was he staying?
Dawn " hello Buffy still in there? "
Buffy " oh yeah, so what times this date of mine then? "
Dawn " half an hour, you've gotta get ready in half an hour, and thats in no way gonna be long enough "
Buffy " what is that suppose to mean, I look fine, come on the guys a moron what do I care what I look like "
Dawn " *softly* you used to care, look how are you ever gonna find a man if you don't try a little harder"
Buffy " I never used to have to try, they just fell in love with me, whether I liked it or not"
Dawn " Spike"
Buffy " what, who mentioned Spike? "
Dawn " you did, they just fell in love with you whether you liked it or not, your talking about Spike, I can always tell, when your doing the Spike thinking you start staring out of the window, aimlessly "
Buffy " do not, and lots of guys have fallen for me whether I liked it or not, not just Spike "
Dawn " but you were thinking about Spike though? "
Buffy " yeah, guess I was "
Dawn " I'm sorry, you know that it all went wrong"
Buffy " well wasn't gonna go any other way was it, so date time hey, right I'll go make myself presentable, one moron is better than no moron hey"
She struggled for a smile, trying to reassure Dawn, but smiling whilst remembering how things had ended with Spike wasn't easy, the memories were still too painful, and she realised had been refreshed by seeing him again, feeling him close.
Buffy and Dawn entered the bronze, spotted Willow and Xander already seated and joined them
Willow " guy's, you just got here on time, Xanders off to the bar"
Xander " I am? Yes I am, right drinks for one and all coming up, ones of the non-alcoholic variety for the Dawnster of course, and Buffy all ready for your date-a-fied
Evening?"
Buffy " *sarcastically* oh yeah"
Xander " hey come on, a little enthusiasm please, Dave's a real nice guy. You know, goes out in the daylight, beating heart, no obtrusive bumpies "
Buffy " funny, but it takes a little more than simply being human you know, it might help if I actually liked him "
Xander getting a little annoyed " right well that's the way you wanna play it, "
As Xander headed for the bar Buffy turned to Willow and Dawn.
Buffy " you guy's get it right, it's not just a case of, oh look nice guy who likes you, not a vampire, kinda cute, ohh yeah I'll happily jump on him and propose within the hour, that's not what it's about, right? "
Willow " right, we get it, and yeah maybe Xanders being a little pushy but, Buffy you've gotta give another guy a chance sometime, your gonna start running out of excuses pretty soon, and guys "
Buffy " excuses, what excuses? So I don't fall for every guy you lot throw in front of me, maybe I'm not as desperate as you like to think I am"
Dawn " Buffy no that's not what we think, but every guy you meet you just reject, you keep pushing them away, cause what? They're not Spike? "
Buffy " what? where the hell did that come from? who mentioned Spike? Is that what you think? I'm not interested in anyone cause of Spike, come on, after all that happened, give me a little credit, maybe, just maybe, I'm not in the right place for this relationship that you keep wanting to throw on me "
As Buffy crossed her arms and sat back in her chair glaring at her three friends, Dave arrived at the table, smile plastered on his face,
Dave " hey all " looking directly at Buffy " hey, Buffy, good to see you again"
Buffy " hey, yeah "
Ok so she's gonna have to go through with this now and maybe they have a point, maybe just a little one, if she's comparing all guy's with Spike she's gonna be alone a long time. Not that Spike made some kind of perfect boyfriend material, god no, but the feelings, the ones he could muster from somewhere deep inside her, they were gonna be hard to replicate.
Ok so I may continue this, if it's worth it, next part more B/S please please please R+R good or bad , any comments please
