Rated: PG –17

Author's note: You know that I like Celine Dion a lot - so this is also named after one of her great songs! I know that this story is sad, partly but sometimes it's also humorous and interesting.

Comments: miss.parker@gmx.at or mary_eve_parker@yahoo.com

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CHAPTER 9 – T H E B E A U T Y A N D T H E B E A S T

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Time went on. Another 3 weeks in the old and icy North of Canada. He was less at home, not interested in me or even talking to me. Not interested in you Brutus or in me. He doesn't care about us anymore.

I for myself have decided to get the baby. It was the only thing I could do. And if I would get it alone, I don't care.

He started a fire in the living room. It was cold and I was freezing a bit.

Jarod what day is today?

Why do you want to know that? With a unheeding voice.

I smiled.

To hear your voice ... nope ... only a joke ... I wanted to calculate a bit ... my due date I mean.

Ah ...

He smiled but it wasn't the smile I loved such a lot. It wasn't the baby grin! It was much more different and hard now.

Today is December 3rd.

Thank you and which day. I lost the time.

Saturday.

Thanks Jarod.

He tried to go away, to leave me alone.

Stop Jarod stop.

He stopped abruptly, not smiling only with a strange and wild look on his face.

What? He said harshly.

I was afraid of how he would react, what would come next.

Something changed and I don't like it.

He turned around. Shit the look. I stood in front of the fire.

Yes Parker I don't run and you don't try to catch me He shouted at me.

Shit that was hard. He turned around and went out. That hurts! I went to the bedroom. That hurts! I closed the door behind me and slid down to the floor, the back to the closed door.

Brutus my dear, I think we'll have to take it on our own. He doesn't want us. Now we are left alone.

Tears were streaming down my cheeks. The light skin powder was ruined now. The room was not as sunny as the living room but it was my own area.

I went to my cupboard, put out a bag and put all the stuff from me in it. It wasn't much. The last thing I did was heading to the mirror. You look good Mary. How about Brutus? I said to myself. I touched my belly, put my hand under my shirt. I didn't start to show yet but it was only a matter of time. It feels good to have you Brutus. I zipped my bag and headed out of my room, taking on my jacked. I went out into the snow. Jarod was nowhere to me seen. Thanks god that he's not here!

It's cold out here, snowing hard. I went to the woods, the jacked pulling it tighter around me. It was pretty cold, more than cold.

If something should happen to me or to you Brutus, you have to know that I really love you! I wasn't in the woods. In front of me only trees, lesser falling snow. You are my everything.

The snow was more than 1 foot deep, it wasn't easy to go. I wasn't going I was running, running away from the world and what my future. Now I was in the woods. I stopped shortly, to get some breath. Your condition is bad. You should start running again Parker! It was cold. Breath Parker breath! I put my hand against a trunk, to get some breath. Breathing was hard.

How could he say words like these to me? Tears were running down my face.

Now it's your time to stop Parker. Stop and shut up Parker.

He grabbed me at my appendix. Stop it Parker.

I headed forward like I wouldn't feel the bruise he made with his fingers on my appendix, like I wouldn't notice him.

Stop please ... Mary Eve Parker ... do me a favour .... stop and shut up. His voice was low, arrogating.

I tried to start running but it was impossible, he hold me so tight. I could feel his breath against my neck. I started to freeze. Why are you so sensitive Parker if he's around you?

Let me go Jarod, let me go.

You like it when he holds you tight. Don't you?

I'll not let you go, not you and not Brutus.

He mentioned you Brutus, have you heard it?

Be silent once please if not I will carry you back to the cottage.

I was only on the way to say a word when I felt his arms around me, perking me up.

No Jarod.

He didn't answer me and I stopped fighting soon. It was obvious that he didn't want to put me down.

You could hold me like that every day if you only want to Jarod. Your are the only one who was ever really in love with me, the only one who was able to ride me over the edge like that!

Please Jarod I can't stand it anymore .... during the last weeks ... I don't want to be alone here anymore ... I have been to much alone during my short life yet.

Calm down Parker. I am really sorry that it seemed to you like I would leave you. I could never leave you.

But what do you want to say? I asked him. Parker don't be nervous.

Let's just talk where it is warmer Parker, nothing more okay? he asked me and let me down on the porch. I needed a minute to get the balance again.

We went in. It was really warm in there or was I so frozen?

Let him say something nice please. Son of god he has masculine shoulders and he's so strong and so handsome. I sat on the couch and put my hands near the fire. I felt how the ice melt from my hair.

What's gone wrong? I asked, glaring at him. I took the cup of tea he brought me and slid my fingers around the warm stuff, staring into the fire. Fire has always been something fascinating for me. I love it. Thanks god that I could afford an open one in my * own * bedroom at * home *

It's such a lot you don't know Parker ... maybe it's that the Centre sent new hunters and it's not only your brother Lyle, it's also Raines and of course your father too. I was so shocked that he's now on this active side too. Or it's that I don't know what to do next at the moment. I am not sure ... I mean we can't do one mistake!

So it's not me ... not that ... shit ...that ... you don't like me anymore? I couldn't look at him, that was too much now.

During saying that I put his hand under my pullover. He has to feel what's going on in me. It's too much to tell. Maybe that's easier. My skin was burning when I felt his hand on my belly, it was like being 16 again.

It will not be easy Jarod, not for me and not for you if you want me to stay with you. I will start to show soon that's my feeling on it. I don't know how much time we have now, maybe only a couple of weeks. Brutus is growing well and I know that I want him.

His hand was so warm on my skin. I could die for that feeling, to have him like that forever and ever. Parker be brave and show him more! Maybe this genius guy just needs a hint

Slowly I let his hand wander under mine up to my left breast.

Look Jar. I said, putting his hand above my heart, so on my breast. What do you feel Jarod – my hard nipple or just my heartbeat? Now I am waiting. I hate waiting and you know that quite well!

He looked at me in a mixture between nervous, shocked and amazed. I observed him and his reaction a bit. He did just hold me, hold my breast and did nothing. I could feel his pulse on my skin, his hand was so warm.

Tell him what he should recognise! I looked into his deep brown chocolate eyes. He was such a handsome guy, fitting his trousers and shirts perfectly. The room was warm, the light of the open fire let shine in a bit reddish. It was something like a romantic surrounding. It made me feel good, made me feel like a woman, not only a huntress, not only a victim of my father's and not of anybody from the Centre. I was who I ever wanted to be – a woman and in less than a year a loving mother. I don't want to go back, to leave everything I have now, not now and not in the future. I am what I wanted to be, wanted to be!

I feel your heartbeat be said with a smile on his lips.

I looked at him. He doesn't seem to be very sure about what he just said to me, maybe knowing that it wasn't my heartbeat he should feel.

You know Jar that it's not my heartbeat! I wasn't able to look in the chocolate brown eyes, saying that.

Thanks god that it came out that easily.

I could see a mixture between shock and smile blushing on his face. What will you do or say next Jar?

Oh ... That's all he said, nothing more.

Yes he said nothing more but he did well on doing something more effective. Could you run your thumb a bit slower about my rock hard nipples, it starts to hurt ... but I can't tell you that Jar because you might stop if I do so.

His thumb was running fast and a bit furious over my nipple, the rest of the hand rested above my heart. You have to feel my pulse raising!

Did I moan? I was thinking. Something had found it way outside the deep of my throat. If yes ... it's long ago since I had done it the last time Jar ... isn't that what you always wanted Parker ... how long is it since I felt this feeling growing inside me so fast? ... if you would know what I want more from you boy ... it can't be the only thing now ... you arouse me so badly ... but you have to make the next step ... it's your turn boy. Confusion.

He stopped and was now * only * looking at me, his hand still holding my breast.

Do you want to fuck me or wait much longer? I looked into his eyes, now tried to focus his thoughts.

Not this look Jarod – I don't like it and you know that quite well ... what's going on in your little handsome brain?

* NO * Parker he said harshly. He stood up and went to the window not facing me.

What going on Jar? I mean you caress my breast in the one moment and run away in the next? What's going on and what's happening here?

Jarod ... I ... I wanted to tell him what's going on in me when he interrupted me in such a unfriendly way, I wasn't used to remember him using ever before.

No not Parker! Don't say a word.

I stood up and moved next to him, slowly not to unsettle him to much. I really wanted to speak to him.

What have I done wrong ... was my heartbeat to fast ... my moan to load ... what was it?

It was just what you did and how you acted the last days!

Have I said it loud before? I thought I was only thinking.

It's also that your father is now out and hunting ... and it's not me who he's out for! It's you Parker ... you and your baby!

What?

But ... I wanted to say.

Don't say a word now ... shut once up in your life ... If you want to be hold – tell me but don't act in this way with me, it's childish. I am not 18 anymore and you're not 16. Nowadays I know what stuff comes next.

So you don't want to ... want me be hold tight ... not ... not kiss me and do other things?

I started to gasp silently.

What have I done or said in the wrong way to make him so upset? So you know what I want from you? I thought I wasn't only trained to be a lawyer! I am also an observer, a good one .... I saw the bulk in your trousers when you touched me. I couldn't say that loudly.

It's time to go a bit further Parker

Parker .... he tried to say something when I got proactive – I pulled the pullover over my head and hold it in my left hand, standing with my bare chest in front of him. My teats were erected, unable to be overlooked.

Do you know what that means? I asked him harshly and rough.

I was too fast for him, putting my hand on the bulk, rubbing it hard.

I am not stupid Parker He tried to sound serious but he didn't, not to me. Do me a favour he continued. Parker!

I looked into his eyes, starring into him. Please let me surrender all that!

Everything you want me to do Jar. I smiled at him.

Stop rubbing my cock that way.

Why? Do you prefer another way?

Since when are you so * ordinary * and direct? His breath was getting faster, heavily.

I like to feel your hard cock in my hand.

He took a deep loud breath. I don't want to loose what we have now. another deep breath. The friendship that we have now is special.

What shall I answer to that Jar ... to give you an appropriate answer?

I don't want a loveship either! I said.

Oh I wanted one with every cell of my body.

I just wanted to have good hard sex! Nothing more than that!

I looked up in his face, constantly rubbing his cock and kneading his balls in the other hand. And I was smiling at him, like a child getting ice cream.

No sex Parker and stop that now. He said more harshly than before but with a deeper voice.

I want him so badly ... why can't he even think about trusting into me ... riding me over the edge?

I just was thinking of having good sex before giving birth to Brutus ... have a positive ending contact to have a positive stance before ... nothing more!

What was so stupid on that Jar? I mean you have fucked me before that too! ... since when am I so lukewarm? Oh yeah ... since this special night and my lost afterwards.

You don't know what you're saying Parker. You aren't yourself! He hissed at me.

If you would know how much I am who I am, not hiding anything for ages. I looked straight into his wonderful eyes – I could melt right where I was standing. You know Brutus that I want nothing more for you than being loved in every way. So mum want's to be loved too. I grinned in that goofy why while I let my inner voice tell Brutus this lines.

Don't you like what you see Jar? I tried to look like a hurt puppy.

It's not important what I want or what I like!

It does Jarod! Just answer my question now! I said sharply.

I wanted an answer and the right one of course. My hand was still on his trousers. What can I do if it's not the right one? Squeeze him a bit?

You are a wonderful woman Parker ... with a big heart ... and with a wonderful and breathtaking ... I couldn't let him finish this sentence.

I covered my mouth and ran into the bathroom. Always in the right situation Parker!

I puked. Morning sickness developed in an all day sickness. My stomach was empty now, wasn't it? I was kneeling over the toilet, trying to get some breath. Suddenly I felt a pair of hands rubbing my back.

It's not that you don't taste me 'Mary' I only think that that it's not right. You shouldn't have a relationship with such a fucked up guy like me now. You should concentrate of taking care of you and the baby.

Between taking some breath I taste you? And I had to puke again.

Of course you do, you always did but that doesn't matter right now. I only want you to get a healthy baby ... in peace.

He put a quilt around my shoulders which I brought to the bathroom during last night. I felt his strong arms on my shoulders. Amazing.

I mean Jarod .... It was no fun before ... I want to have good sex, just one passionate night ... I'm pregnant and Brutus is all I have now. I want to forget how he happened. I finished fast. I looked at him. And if you aren't interested or you do not want it's okay with me – I'll go town and find somebody for my ONS.

ONS?

One Night Stand!

He looked at me – shocked and angry.

You don't mean to ...?

Yes I do. You know me. I always get what I want.

Yes you do. But why me? I grinned mischievous.

Because you are the best kisser and fucker I know.

I would give a penny for his thoughts ... tons of pennies.

Thanks but you can't compare this first quick time to ...

What?

That's what you think about the our night? – just a quickie? I shouted.

Oh god behave of course not. I emptied again, listening to his words clearly.

So tell me what had it been for you Jar?

He looked at me unbelievingly. Tell me correct answer Jarod.

Do I really have to tell you what it meant to me Parker?

I nodded, unable to speak, just watching him getting up from the floor and bringing me a glass of water. He smiled when he handed it in.

Mary it was the best time of all.

I get up from the toilet and sat on the edge of the bath tube. I looked in his eyes intensively.

More please. I said softly, as nice as possible, in a deep slow way.

Your shirt was that short ... that I could see your breasts nearly and the trousers .... that tight that I was able to see every muscle of yours when you robbed through the vents in front of me.

What shall I say more? He's the most wonderful and incredible honest guy you've ever met Parker and you met a lot of guys.

Your lips were that soft, your tongue so wild and your nipples as erected as the moment we came into the bath here.

Oh my goodness .... what do you imagine Jarod ... to arouse me boy? I can feel the wetness raise up between my sporty tights. What's your plan boy?

I remember to kiss your bellybutton and getting southward. Than robbing to a larger vent tube, loosing your cloths slowly and your invitation to ... join you. I also remember that it was not to nice for you when I trusted into you. I hurt you – you didn't moan ... you screamed silently when I tried to comfort you. His voice was getting slower, deeper and more into thinking and remembering these pictures.

I hadn't have these exact pictures ... wasn't this guy embarrassing?

But pain ended after the first stroke. I answered shyly.

Yes you came quite fast for my imagination.

Hey you are a 'big boy' I smiled at him.

I also remember the small dark black nevus' under your panties on the inside of your left thigh.

And?

I couldn't want anymore ... I could come right now if I would want to!

We had finished quite fast in my mind.

It was our both first time ...

... playing the game of adults. He finished my sentence.

You were that tight Parker ... I was afraid of hurting you.

But pain can bring you over the edge. I said with a goofy smile.

There was a small silence now. We both know why. I feel fantastic that he enjoyed it as much as I did and remembers it of course. What do you want more?

Why didn't you come again? he asked deep voiced.

Good question.

I was sent back to Vienna the next day.

I remember they moment clearly when Daddy told me that I have to go back. I didn't want to but he forced me to. I cried all the night. Nobody was there to talk with, not even Syd because the topic was too hot even for Syd ... Syd.

But you were just at home for a couple of days!

I know, 3 to be exact. I looked at him, my eyes aqueous.

They must have noticed something .... he said chary.

Maybe you screamed to loud when you came Jar? I said jokingly.

Possible ... you remember that scream?

That's getting funny now.

How could I forget you screaming my name so loud and so deep. Shortly after you stopped you bite me into my lip when you tried to cover my mouth.

Sorry. But it wasn't too effective at either –you screamed as loud as I did!

Jarod is laughing – about you maybe Parker. At this moment you should ....

I think we should end up here but you are right I shouted your name ....

During that your inner muscles imprisoned me ... so hard ... unable to let me pull out ... that mistake of mine caused you a lot of pain later. Sorry ...

Don't say Jarod ... the following 6 months were the best of my life.

Till now Brutus? Don't cause her that pain again!

I smiled at him. He's just perfect.

It's cute how you talk with him.

Kiss me Jarod ... kiss me

He didn't just went with a big smile out of the bathroom.



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Chapter 10 is coming soon. :)