Note: I am not much better actually but I want to keep the story . thanks
to Pam, Mary, Kathy, Julia, Tiffany, Tamara, Siân, Charlene, Matt and
Claire for being my best friends and always having time for me to talk.
Thanks to Céline Dion for being one of the most amazing singer with the
most wonderful songs - each is an inspiration.
THX to Dianne - she'll give me a good Beta I know *g*
Rating: NC 17 - mostly for birth act Archive: yes where every you want it -just drop me a line All the other 22 parts missed - or just one? www.eves-paradise.de.vu Feedback: mary_eve_parker@yahoo.com
They don't have to see you cry
Chapter 23
I hate you than I love you
*****
I was standing in the kitchen, arms around my belly screaming. Within a minute the whole family was around me, watching me. Jarod kept me into his arms, letting me rest into his lap on the floor.
"What happened?"
"I think she's going to go into labour"
"Isn't it a little early?" Debbie asked me with one of her familiar looks. I shook my head.
"We are straight on time Debbie" I breathed hard. "I couldn't carry them a day more, I would explode within a second when I just think about it." I tried to smile.
"You okay now?" Jarod asked me, let his hands rest on my belly.
"I am not sure Jarod . somebody should phone the doctor please."
Debbie ran and called him and she was told that he would be here in about 20 minutes. Jarod was scared why I didn't trust him to bring them to earth, I noticed the look.
Father Padraigh and Julian went back to the living room, like Jarod told them.
"You can help Jarod, but this birth will not be easy, so I want you on my side and not down at my feed look into my stretched vagina."
He smiled at me and kissed me softly on my check when the next contraction hit me.
"They are very short behind each other, only 15 minutes apart."
I nodded, still in pain. He was right, it will go fast maybe and I really hoped that the doc will make it in time. I couldn't bring them to earth without him. He was perfect the time Jarod wasn't there, helped me a lot, listened to my problems and stuff like that. I couldn't discuss everything with Debbie. She was an angel and she took care of me and of Julian of course but she was too young and innocent to understand my problems about the loss of Jarod in my life. But thanks god that this problems were far behind us now. We were together again, together and nobody would ever be able to split us up.
"Jarod .. what's happening now?"
"We are going to have our babies!" He whispered into my ear, kissing me softly.
Be strong Mary an inner voice told me It will get easy, they'll not flitch out of you easily. It will them take long and you have to be strong.
Mamma?
I am with you my darling.
I will need your strength Mamma
You have the most wonderful man on your side, so what do you want more than that?
You Mamma .
Mary I am always with you.
I know.
So be strong now ..
And the next contraction hit me.
I cant be that strong Mamma.
Its not that bad yet at all.
It will get worse?
Girl I laid nearly 17 hours in labour before they made the c-sec .
I can't Mamma.
You can and it looks like it will not take you that long.
I really hope so
"Don't press yet Mary, not yet" Jarod said to me. The doctor arrived this minute and Jarod ran to him, telling him the facts, the time between the contractions - about 10 minutes - and everything else he would need to know.
"So how are we doing Mary?" He asked me.
I rested on my bed, don't ask me how I get there, I think Jarod and the doc carried me up the stairs.
"It hurts likes hell for sure doc."
"I am sure it does. Let me have a look how far we are." he said and helped me out of the wide boxers.
"Wanna stay Jarod?" I asked him with a grin and he sat down on the bed next to me.
The doctor inspected my vagina and how far we were now. Well I remembered what he told me clearly.
"Well we are about 3 ½ inch now, but we'll need a little more to get a head through it." He looked at me with a grin. "During the next contractions you shouldn't press, breath like I told you"
I did and I really tried not to press, even if its was very hard not to do so. It felt incredible to know than within a couple of minutes a small body will suck in the first breaths of fresh earth air and you were god's to give life to this little body.
Jarod sat next to me.
"Mary we've never discussed any names . I mean maybe . we should now. its just if ."
"We should Jarod that's true . so any ideas ?" "I like a couple of names a lot Mary, that's not the fact. I want to know what you like!"
Another contraction ripped my body and I cried out softly.
"Boys or girls? Do you know it?"
"No we don't know it Jarod . unfortunately not."
"What about Jessica?"
I shock my head. I wanted names which are unique, not too unique but not all day in use.
"I like Theodora a lot" I told him, letting his hand rest on my belly.
"Theodora sounds nice to me." he smiled " but please stop squeezing my hand that hard"
"Sorry" I looked at him, trying to smile a bit "but we need more than one name, remember?"
"I remember everything now darling . I also like Georgina and Virginia"
"Jarod you cant name a kid after a British Queen which was too stupid to get laid." I giggled when he cooled my sweaty forehead with wet towel.
He laughed with me about my last statement. "I remembered you loved Tudor History - so why don't call her Elizabeth?"
"No good luck with this name lover boy - I want her to get boyfriends and remember the stories I told you about Queen Elizabeth I.? Well what about Charlene?"
"You have an incredible taste in name honey."
"I love it when you call me pet names sweetie, I missed it."
"Love you . but honey we also need boy names . I love Julian but I cant think of any other nice names right now. What about you?"
He wants me to relax in the situation, between the contractions. Sweet
And thinking of the next contraction it came - harder than before and the pain was unbelievable. I squeezed his hand hard, I know that I and I was sorry for it but I couldn't stand it.
"Sorry Jarod" I said when it was over. "I like the name Oliver a lot, and what about Henry .."
"Parker don't say Cary now - you cant name your kid after one of the best Hollywood actors . the man"
"I like the name Jarod . Cary stands for a strong man with wonderful eyes."
"I thought mine are the best" he joked around.
"Yours are incredible Jarod, be sure about that . but there are other males with unbelievable eyes in the world too."
"Look into my eyes and tell me that again"
So I did and had to laugh all the time. I couldn't think that labour was so funny before. Has somebody had such a labour before? I couldn't think of something more amazing than that.
"You are unbelievable Jarod." He said and let my head rest on his shoulder. "I love you"
"I love you too sweetie and soon we'll be able to held them in our arms, soon I swear."
"But it hurts such a lot."
"I know Mary, I know .. but we will get through it and today at night we'll sleep and will be awake every hour because one of them is crying."
"Hopefully not honey, I want to sleep . I haven't had the possibility to sleep comfortable the last 3 months." I giggled.
******
We laughed a lot during the next couple of hours. I haven't had the possibility to look at a watch but I just noticed that the sun was going down and I was still in labour and the pain became more and more unbelievable. I started to scream and Jarod told me that my contractions came now every 2 minutes. So it shouldn't take me too long anymore.
He headed downstairs to look for the doctor whom I have sent out of the room to drink some coffee and smoke his long wanted cigarette. I hadn't smoked since . since . well I can't even remember the taste of smoke in my mouth.
I started to scream now at each contraction which hit me, ripped over my former delicate body.
*******
"It will be soon over Mary" The doc told me with a huge smile on his face when he looked between my legs.
"Want to see Jarod? She started to press a little, even if I told her not to do but that's normal .. Jarod come over and see the dark hair. on the baby's head of course."
I looked firstly a little stunned about the dark hair comment till he added baby's head .. the baby's head. The miracle will happen soon, I could feel the pain getting more and more and he told me now to press and I did. I breathed with Jarod together and we both pressed. Jarod was now sitting behind me, letting my tired body rest against his, holding his hands. He was giving me the energy I needed to stay alive during this pain, and it should be the same two more times. Shit that hurts
Be strong A voice in my head told me and I will be strong.
"So press hard now Mary" So did I but pain only got heavier and heavier and nothing changed, except the pain of course.
"What do you see?" Jarod asked the doc, while he was massaging my shoulders.
"I see the head and I think I can see one ear . so Mary . next contraction push as much as you can honey."
I just nodded and I did it, press and I think I nearly died in the moment I hurt something scream. It wasn't that painful but the last push, when I think the shoulder escaped my belly hurt like a bitch. But now . now the baby was there.
"Here it is .." the doctor smiled and cut the cord. The baby screamed with all its power.
"What is it?" I asked tired, my eyes half closed before the next contraction hit me.
"We have a little girl here with wonderful dark hair and incredible ice blue eyes."
"Who could be different .. she's her mother" Jarod whispered into my ear and his hands were resting on my swollen belly, pressing a little against it to help me like the doc told him.
The doctor laid the baby in a thick soft blue towel next to him on the queen size bed when I started to scream and press again.
"It will be over soon" he told me and I couldn't wait that this would come true.
The little girl in the cobalt towel, smiled at me and her eyes were more than incredible blue. I lost myself in looking into her eyes, it was amazing.
"Mary ... Mary . press again" the man behind told me.
"Hui .. yes sure"
So I did and within a couple of minutes and pushed our second baby was born.
"No we have a boy Mary" he smiled at us "Congratulations".
Jarod hugged me from behind, that's what I really needed now. My boy was there, the boy I was dreaming of, the little boy who wanted to play with his sisters. All the dreams of the last months seemed to come true. God gave me the luck to hear voices and they told me the truth. Mamma look down on us and see what happened . we will be a real family within an hour.
And it happened like that. A couple of pushes later and less pain the second girl saw the light on earth the first time. She wasn't screaming or something like that. Jarod climbed out of behind me and helped the doctor cleaning the kids.
I couldn't believe it. They were born, all three and they were healthy, like it sound. I also couldn't believe it when Jarod come back to the room with two bundles in blue and yellow back to the room, both crying loudly.
I could only cry when Jarod sat down next to me and let me have a look at them. The bundle in the blue one was our first born daughter.
"So say hello to Mamma Teddy!" he said and handed her to me. She was so small and caused me such a lot of pain. I couldn't believe it that it was over.
"Hello my darling" I said when I got the first look into her wonderful incredible blue eyes.
"She looks like you Parker . I love you such a lot I can't describe." He said and leaned over to kiss me.
"I love you too Jarod."
In exactly this moment the doctor arrived with the last bundle and with Debbie and Julian. Both kids had tears in their eyes. Julian ran to the bed, and with a little helped he climbed up to me, sitting on the other side and looking at the baby in my arms.
"You should start feeding them Mary" The doc told me and handed Jarod the mint bundle. "I will go and wash my hands. I will be back soon."
Slowly I opened my gown and let Teddy, like her name was now, find the nipple to nurse her and it didn't take long, within a second she had found my breast and start to suck hard. She was little but this pressure was sweet.
Julian had one hand on my hip to be able to see the face of the baby a bit better.
"So Julian this is Theodora, and the one in the white towel on Daddy's arm is Oliver ."
I thought that Theodora might be fallen asleep because she stopped sucking and her eyes were softly closed now her little mouth smiling at me.
" . and this here" Jarod tipped the towel a little away "this is Georgina Catherine" he said with a smile on his lips.
He knew that I would never want a kid to be named after my mother, not to have Catherine as her first name, but this combination seemed lovely.
Debbie sat next to Julian, holding his little hands a bit away from touching the baby to hard. She smiled at me and softly brushed Teddy's hair.
"Want to hold her Debbie" with tears in her eyes she nodded and I gave her the little baby and started to nurse Oliver on my other breast. He was a cutie. His hair was a little lighter than Teddy's and his eyes like Jarod's. I couldn't believe it and noticed that Jarod grinned at me.
Now the miracle had finished, we were a full family and had the best babysitter and friend we could think of - Debbie.
During the next minutes the doctor came back with Father Padraigh and both smiled when they noticed us seven sitting at the bed, like a real family.
"You look amazing Mary" he said when Julian ran to him and he put him into his embrace.
"Thanks Father."
*****
This should be the most wonderful day in my life, shouldn't it? I had everything I ever wanted to have and when I say everything I mean really everything. I have my family around me, all the people I love and my beloved Debbie - what do I want more?
___ TBC ___
Rating: NC 17 - mostly for birth act Archive: yes where every you want it -just drop me a line All the other 22 parts missed - or just one? www.eves-paradise.de.vu Feedback: mary_eve_parker@yahoo.com
They don't have to see you cry
Chapter 23
I hate you than I love you
*****
I was standing in the kitchen, arms around my belly screaming. Within a minute the whole family was around me, watching me. Jarod kept me into his arms, letting me rest into his lap on the floor.
"What happened?"
"I think she's going to go into labour"
"Isn't it a little early?" Debbie asked me with one of her familiar looks. I shook my head.
"We are straight on time Debbie" I breathed hard. "I couldn't carry them a day more, I would explode within a second when I just think about it." I tried to smile.
"You okay now?" Jarod asked me, let his hands rest on my belly.
"I am not sure Jarod . somebody should phone the doctor please."
Debbie ran and called him and she was told that he would be here in about 20 minutes. Jarod was scared why I didn't trust him to bring them to earth, I noticed the look.
Father Padraigh and Julian went back to the living room, like Jarod told them.
"You can help Jarod, but this birth will not be easy, so I want you on my side and not down at my feed look into my stretched vagina."
He smiled at me and kissed me softly on my check when the next contraction hit me.
"They are very short behind each other, only 15 minutes apart."
I nodded, still in pain. He was right, it will go fast maybe and I really hoped that the doc will make it in time. I couldn't bring them to earth without him. He was perfect the time Jarod wasn't there, helped me a lot, listened to my problems and stuff like that. I couldn't discuss everything with Debbie. She was an angel and she took care of me and of Julian of course but she was too young and innocent to understand my problems about the loss of Jarod in my life. But thanks god that this problems were far behind us now. We were together again, together and nobody would ever be able to split us up.
"Jarod .. what's happening now?"
"We are going to have our babies!" He whispered into my ear, kissing me softly.
Be strong Mary an inner voice told me It will get easy, they'll not flitch out of you easily. It will them take long and you have to be strong.
Mamma?
I am with you my darling.
I will need your strength Mamma
You have the most wonderful man on your side, so what do you want more than that?
You Mamma .
Mary I am always with you.
I know.
So be strong now ..
And the next contraction hit me.
I cant be that strong Mamma.
Its not that bad yet at all.
It will get worse?
Girl I laid nearly 17 hours in labour before they made the c-sec .
I can't Mamma.
You can and it looks like it will not take you that long.
I really hope so
"Don't press yet Mary, not yet" Jarod said to me. The doctor arrived this minute and Jarod ran to him, telling him the facts, the time between the contractions - about 10 minutes - and everything else he would need to know.
"So how are we doing Mary?" He asked me.
I rested on my bed, don't ask me how I get there, I think Jarod and the doc carried me up the stairs.
"It hurts likes hell for sure doc."
"I am sure it does. Let me have a look how far we are." he said and helped me out of the wide boxers.
"Wanna stay Jarod?" I asked him with a grin and he sat down on the bed next to me.
The doctor inspected my vagina and how far we were now. Well I remembered what he told me clearly.
"Well we are about 3 ½ inch now, but we'll need a little more to get a head through it." He looked at me with a grin. "During the next contractions you shouldn't press, breath like I told you"
I did and I really tried not to press, even if its was very hard not to do so. It felt incredible to know than within a couple of minutes a small body will suck in the first breaths of fresh earth air and you were god's to give life to this little body.
Jarod sat next to me.
"Mary we've never discussed any names . I mean maybe . we should now. its just if ."
"We should Jarod that's true . so any ideas ?" "I like a couple of names a lot Mary, that's not the fact. I want to know what you like!"
Another contraction ripped my body and I cried out softly.
"Boys or girls? Do you know it?"
"No we don't know it Jarod . unfortunately not."
"What about Jessica?"
I shock my head. I wanted names which are unique, not too unique but not all day in use.
"I like Theodora a lot" I told him, letting his hand rest on my belly.
"Theodora sounds nice to me." he smiled " but please stop squeezing my hand that hard"
"Sorry" I looked at him, trying to smile a bit "but we need more than one name, remember?"
"I remember everything now darling . I also like Georgina and Virginia"
"Jarod you cant name a kid after a British Queen which was too stupid to get laid." I giggled when he cooled my sweaty forehead with wet towel.
He laughed with me about my last statement. "I remembered you loved Tudor History - so why don't call her Elizabeth?"
"No good luck with this name lover boy - I want her to get boyfriends and remember the stories I told you about Queen Elizabeth I.? Well what about Charlene?"
"You have an incredible taste in name honey."
"I love it when you call me pet names sweetie, I missed it."
"Love you . but honey we also need boy names . I love Julian but I cant think of any other nice names right now. What about you?"
He wants me to relax in the situation, between the contractions. Sweet
And thinking of the next contraction it came - harder than before and the pain was unbelievable. I squeezed his hand hard, I know that I and I was sorry for it but I couldn't stand it.
"Sorry Jarod" I said when it was over. "I like the name Oliver a lot, and what about Henry .."
"Parker don't say Cary now - you cant name your kid after one of the best Hollywood actors . the man"
"I like the name Jarod . Cary stands for a strong man with wonderful eyes."
"I thought mine are the best" he joked around.
"Yours are incredible Jarod, be sure about that . but there are other males with unbelievable eyes in the world too."
"Look into my eyes and tell me that again"
So I did and had to laugh all the time. I couldn't think that labour was so funny before. Has somebody had such a labour before? I couldn't think of something more amazing than that.
"You are unbelievable Jarod." He said and let my head rest on his shoulder. "I love you"
"I love you too sweetie and soon we'll be able to held them in our arms, soon I swear."
"But it hurts such a lot."
"I know Mary, I know .. but we will get through it and today at night we'll sleep and will be awake every hour because one of them is crying."
"Hopefully not honey, I want to sleep . I haven't had the possibility to sleep comfortable the last 3 months." I giggled.
******
We laughed a lot during the next couple of hours. I haven't had the possibility to look at a watch but I just noticed that the sun was going down and I was still in labour and the pain became more and more unbelievable. I started to scream and Jarod told me that my contractions came now every 2 minutes. So it shouldn't take me too long anymore.
He headed downstairs to look for the doctor whom I have sent out of the room to drink some coffee and smoke his long wanted cigarette. I hadn't smoked since . since . well I can't even remember the taste of smoke in my mouth.
I started to scream now at each contraction which hit me, ripped over my former delicate body.
*******
"It will be soon over Mary" The doc told me with a huge smile on his face when he looked between my legs.
"Want to see Jarod? She started to press a little, even if I told her not to do but that's normal .. Jarod come over and see the dark hair. on the baby's head of course."
I looked firstly a little stunned about the dark hair comment till he added baby's head .. the baby's head. The miracle will happen soon, I could feel the pain getting more and more and he told me now to press and I did. I breathed with Jarod together and we both pressed. Jarod was now sitting behind me, letting my tired body rest against his, holding his hands. He was giving me the energy I needed to stay alive during this pain, and it should be the same two more times. Shit that hurts
Be strong A voice in my head told me and I will be strong.
"So press hard now Mary" So did I but pain only got heavier and heavier and nothing changed, except the pain of course.
"What do you see?" Jarod asked the doc, while he was massaging my shoulders.
"I see the head and I think I can see one ear . so Mary . next contraction push as much as you can honey."
I just nodded and I did it, press and I think I nearly died in the moment I hurt something scream. It wasn't that painful but the last push, when I think the shoulder escaped my belly hurt like a bitch. But now . now the baby was there.
"Here it is .." the doctor smiled and cut the cord. The baby screamed with all its power.
"What is it?" I asked tired, my eyes half closed before the next contraction hit me.
"We have a little girl here with wonderful dark hair and incredible ice blue eyes."
"Who could be different .. she's her mother" Jarod whispered into my ear and his hands were resting on my swollen belly, pressing a little against it to help me like the doc told him.
The doctor laid the baby in a thick soft blue towel next to him on the queen size bed when I started to scream and press again.
"It will be over soon" he told me and I couldn't wait that this would come true.
The little girl in the cobalt towel, smiled at me and her eyes were more than incredible blue. I lost myself in looking into her eyes, it was amazing.
"Mary ... Mary . press again" the man behind told me.
"Hui .. yes sure"
So I did and within a couple of minutes and pushed our second baby was born.
"No we have a boy Mary" he smiled at us "Congratulations".
Jarod hugged me from behind, that's what I really needed now. My boy was there, the boy I was dreaming of, the little boy who wanted to play with his sisters. All the dreams of the last months seemed to come true. God gave me the luck to hear voices and they told me the truth. Mamma look down on us and see what happened . we will be a real family within an hour.
And it happened like that. A couple of pushes later and less pain the second girl saw the light on earth the first time. She wasn't screaming or something like that. Jarod climbed out of behind me and helped the doctor cleaning the kids.
I couldn't believe it. They were born, all three and they were healthy, like it sound. I also couldn't believe it when Jarod come back to the room with two bundles in blue and yellow back to the room, both crying loudly.
I could only cry when Jarod sat down next to me and let me have a look at them. The bundle in the blue one was our first born daughter.
"So say hello to Mamma Teddy!" he said and handed her to me. She was so small and caused me such a lot of pain. I couldn't believe it that it was over.
"Hello my darling" I said when I got the first look into her wonderful incredible blue eyes.
"She looks like you Parker . I love you such a lot I can't describe." He said and leaned over to kiss me.
"I love you too Jarod."
In exactly this moment the doctor arrived with the last bundle and with Debbie and Julian. Both kids had tears in their eyes. Julian ran to the bed, and with a little helped he climbed up to me, sitting on the other side and looking at the baby in my arms.
"You should start feeding them Mary" The doc told me and handed Jarod the mint bundle. "I will go and wash my hands. I will be back soon."
Slowly I opened my gown and let Teddy, like her name was now, find the nipple to nurse her and it didn't take long, within a second she had found my breast and start to suck hard. She was little but this pressure was sweet.
Julian had one hand on my hip to be able to see the face of the baby a bit better.
"So Julian this is Theodora, and the one in the white towel on Daddy's arm is Oliver ."
I thought that Theodora might be fallen asleep because she stopped sucking and her eyes were softly closed now her little mouth smiling at me.
" . and this here" Jarod tipped the towel a little away "this is Georgina Catherine" he said with a smile on his lips.
He knew that I would never want a kid to be named after my mother, not to have Catherine as her first name, but this combination seemed lovely.
Debbie sat next to Julian, holding his little hands a bit away from touching the baby to hard. She smiled at me and softly brushed Teddy's hair.
"Want to hold her Debbie" with tears in her eyes she nodded and I gave her the little baby and started to nurse Oliver on my other breast. He was a cutie. His hair was a little lighter than Teddy's and his eyes like Jarod's. I couldn't believe it and noticed that Jarod grinned at me.
Now the miracle had finished, we were a full family and had the best babysitter and friend we could think of - Debbie.
During the next minutes the doctor came back with Father Padraigh and both smiled when they noticed us seven sitting at the bed, like a real family.
"You look amazing Mary" he said when Julian ran to him and he put him into his embrace.
"Thanks Father."
*****
This should be the most wonderful day in my life, shouldn't it? I had everything I ever wanted to have and when I say everything I mean really everything. I have my family around me, all the people I love and my beloved Debbie - what do I want more?
___ TBC ___
