Kero: You know you didn't update for a while sakura!



Sakura: *sighs * get off my back Kero! You know I had finals!!!



Kero: *roles eyes * ya whatever you say!



Sakura: Just for that there will be no pudding for you!!!



Kero: SAKURA-SAMA!!!!



Sakura: Don't you sama me!!! I said Iie and that's final!!!



Kero: What If I agree to not tell them….you know…



Sakura: Then you could eat your pudding!



Kero: Then I wont



Sakura: *Hands Kero pudding* I thought you'd see it my way



Kero: *holds up poster that says Sakura doesn't own CCS or the songs! And that she only owned Raven Lauren exc. *





{This chapter is a bit…..fluffy….but sad at the same time!!!! Kinda confusing…..but please R+R!!! I promise it's a good chapter!!!! Just give it time!!!!!!!!}



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Chapter 4:

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Pain…Sorrow…and Tomoyo

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(Syaoran)



I picked up the phone and dialed Toya-san's number, listening to it ring.

"Moshi Moshi" Came a voice I knew ohh to well.

"Konnichiwa Toya….its *sniff sniff * Syaoran…" I said trying to hold back the tears.

"Ganki? Why so sad?"

"We found Sakura……"

"REALY THAT'S GREAT!!!"

"Iie….its not….." I trailed off.

"NANI?! Why is she dead?!!!!!" He said sounding panicked.

"Iie Iie its just that…"

~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~Flashback~*~*~*~*~~**~~*~*~*~*~

"Gomen ne……minna-san" she said through her tears.

I walked over to her and pulled her into my embrace. "Ohhh….Sakura, I missed you so much!"

She looked up and me and then pushed away. "Why?" she said softly. "Why did you come looking for me?!……don't you understand!!!!?"

"Understand what Sakura-chan?" Tomoyo asked.

"that-that I cant ever go back!!!" she yelled sobbing.

"And why is that Sakura?" Eriol asked

"B-Because I cant stand to see Tomoyo get hurt anymore…I cant stand to see Syaoran hurt inside because I hurt inside…..and I cant stand to be hurt by anyone anymore!!"

"But Sakura….." I started.

"IIE!!!!!! SAKURA IS GONE!!! SHE DIED ALONG TIME AGO……WHEN HER LIFE WENT TO PEACES SHE DIED!!!!"

She used the change card and changed back into Star and ran away sobbing.

"Sakura" Tomoyo said softly.

"It seem that by coming back all we have done is cause her more pain…." Eriol said.

"Iie Eriol……she's just confused right now…..I'm not going to leave her alone…..again….."

~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~End Flashback~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I started to sob as I told Toya the whole story.

"Don't worry Syaoran……she doesn't hate you……she's just…." I cut him off

"Iie….you should have seen the way she looked at me and what her friends said!!! All ive caused her is pain and you know it!!" I yelled sobbing into the receiver of the phone.

'Once doesn't mean anything to me……

come show me the meaning of complete

Where did our love go wrong, once we were so strong…..'

"…………"

"Gomen ne…I shouldn't have gone off at you like that…its just that…."

'how can I go on….'

"you love her a lot don't you?"

"Hai….i do……"

'chorus [when you told me you loved me did you know it would take me the rest of my life

to get over the feeling I know when our dream didn't turn out right

when you let me believe that you weren't complete without me by your side…

how could Ive known that you wold go

that you would run

baby I thought you were the one….]'

"Hey…don't worry about it Ganki!! Its not your fault……she still loves you….she's just confused right now that all!"

"Un…..that's what I thought at first to…"

'Why…cant I just leave it all behind

I felt passion so bright that I was blinded

Then something made me weak

Talking in my sleep'

"Would you STOP SAYING THAT BAKA!!! YOU MAKE HER HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT!!!"

"Un….whatever"

'Baby im in so deep and you know I believe….

[repeat chorus]

your lips

your face

something that time just cant erase

my heart could break all over again'

"KAMI-SAMA!!!! SOMETIMES YOUR IMPOSSIBLE!!!! STOP WITH YOUR PITTY PART AND GET OUT THERE AND GET HER BACK!!!!"

'[repeat chorus]'

I picked up what was left of my pride and answered. "Un I suppose your right…..I cant give up when she's so close to me can I?"

"Iie….you cant!!!!! Now get out there and get her back!!!!……Ja….oh and if you ever tell anyone I was this nice to you I will have to kill you…you do know that right?"

"Un! Ja….oh and thanks for the support!!!"

"Iie problem….just remember what I said….." with that being said he hung up the phone and I did the same and walked into my bedroom and fell onto my bed.

Stretching I picked up my alarm clock. It said 12:43pm.

^Well seeing as how I cant sleep and I need to think anyway….I'm going to go for a walk….^ I thought.

Writing down a note for Tomoyo and Eriol I slipped my shoes on and walked out the door to the park down the street. When I arrived there I found a tree and decided to sit under it and think.

^what if she really doesn't love me…what will I do then…..^

^Iie Iie positive think positive!!!^ I thought as I hit my forehead with my hand.

I was startled when someone sat down beside me and pulled out my sword.

"whoa whoa……I'm not going to hurt you….um who are you any way?" I heard a rather familiar voice say.

"Syaoran….who are you?"

"S-S-Star…."

I gasped and looked at her…shure enough it was her star…or rather Sakura.

"Oh…hi.." I said sadly.

"…………"

"Hey…look I'm sorry about today…I mean I can tell you don't want me around so I'll just leave ok. And I promise I wont ever bother you again…since that seems to be what makes you happy…and if you happy…………..I'm happy also!' I said trying to hold in my tears 'so I guess ill see you later……." I said getting up and walking away.

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(Star/Sakura)

^Oh Kami what have I done?! I never meant to hurt him! I just wanted him to be safe!!!! That's all^ I watched his retreating back wishing I could call out to him and bring him back to me….but I knew if I did that than my mission would be in vein.

(SK/::Yes is do enjoy messing with songs lyrics!! ^^ oh and when is says Sakura: the song is in Sakura's head and when it says Syaoran: its in Syaoran's head…..don't ask me where they learned this song….they just did ok?! Ohh and also don't ask me how they sing it in unison with each other either…..that I do not know…and probably never will……)

Syaoran: never knew I could feel like this…like ive never seen the sky before

I want to find it inside your kiss….and still everyday I love you more than this…

I listen to my heart wish I could do what it says….telling me to give you everything!!

It seems that these seasons wont chance my winter to spring….but I love you until the end of time……..come what may….come what may…I will still love you until my dying day……

Sakura: Used to be my world seemed like such a perfect place…. Used to be it moved with such a perfect grace….

Together: Used to be when I was with you…..my life didn't seem like such a waste….

Sakura: It all revolved around you….and me…..

Together: There was no mountain to high or river to wide…..give me a sign and ill be there by your side….The storm clouds may gather but the storms will subside……

Syaoran: But I still love you

Sakura: I still love you

Together: Until the end of time……Come what may….come what may….I will love you forever…..no matter what you can say……until my dying day…..oh come what may…..come what may……..I will still love you

Sakura: I will still love you……used to be my world was such a prefect place…..

Together: Come what may….come what may……I will still love you until my dying day!!

(SK/:: Is it just me or is anyone else getting sick….aak to much love in one errrr…um room? Gota end it!!!)

Slowly I walked away back to the house to talk to Samantha, what had she said to him anyway? When I got there I opened the door and crept quietly to our room (SK/::Hers and Samantha's…they share one) Opening the door to the room I was met by a rather unhappy guardian beast.

"SAKURA…..er ummm….STAR!!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!!! YOU HAD ME WORRIED SICK!!!!"

"Don't worry about it Kero…..*sigh * I'm fine….i just went for a walk that's all…."

He gave a defeated look and then usurered me into my bead.

"Good night Star…..see you in the morning" he said as he turned the light off.

(SK/:: Samantha is a deep sleeper….a VERY deep sleeper!!)

"Ya in the morning…' I said quietly to myself 'Nigh Kero"

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*Dream~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*

Syaoran and Tomoyo were crouched down by someone sobbing.

"I wonder…who that could be……" I asked to no one impartictular.

"Its something horrible……something that can only bring pain."

I looked up to see Yue.

"Yue…..what do you mean?"

"I hope you never find out mistress…..just remember that I…."

~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*End dream~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*

I woke up to Samantha and Kero shouting at me to wake up.

"Hoeee…Im up im up!!" I said stumbling out of my bed. I walked over to the bathroom shut the door and took my shower. Getting out of the bathroom I looked through the closet for something to wear and decided on a slightly see-through pink shirt that said fly on the front and then of course I added my customary black leather skirt and jewelry. I picked up a pair of black high heals and a pink bandana to wear on my head.

Tying the bandana I put on my makeup and headed out of the room to get breakfast. I walked down the stars slowly…until Samantha came up and pulled me behind her saying that we were going to be late if we didn't hurry.

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(At school)

"Morning Missy, Lauren, Raven!!" I said sitting down at my desk.

"Morning Star!!" They greeted back.

"So what are we doing after school today?" I asked.

"Oh were…' Raven started until the bell rang 'Tell you at lunch" She whispered as Miss Lanter walked into the class.

"Ok class…." Miss Lanter started, I could already tell class was going to be boring so I decided to sleep through it today.

"MISS KARNOR!!! DO YOU ENJOY SATURDAY SCHOOL?!" She yelled at my sleeping form.

"HOEEEEEEEE!!!" I yelled falling out of my desk…first mistake, I was in a short and I do mean short leather skirt! Bad idea!!!

"Umm no mam!!!" I said getting up. Second mistake, getting off the floor….probably would have been safer down there.

"WELL MISS KARNOR…I WILL BE SEEING YOU FOR 3 SATURDAYS IN A ROW NOW!!!"

*RINGGGGGGGGG * The bell rang signaling that class was over.

"YOU ARE DISMISSED!!!" She yelled.

"Ye-yes mam!!!" I said scrambling out of the room.

I walked to lunch and sat down beside Raven.

"Hey star nice show last period…..i could get used to seeing something as good as that!" Zane said as he came and sat down beside me.

"YOU BASTARD!!!!! SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH OR HAVENT YOU LEARNED?!" I yelled.

"I wouldn't mess with her if I were you!" my friends retorted.

This didn't seem to be much of a deterrent apparently….because he put his hand on my leg and ran it up to my thigh.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?!"

"What does it look like?' he said smirking 'You know you want me anyway so just give it up already!"

Ok now that pissed me off. "I THINK THE WORDS HELL NO COME TO MIND!!!! NOW GET YOUR HANDS OFF OF ME OR YOU WILL REGRET IT VERY VERY SOON!!!!" I snapped. By now we were the center of attention of the entire lunch room.

"and what will you do? Hit me in front of all these people???" he said running his hand up my arm.

"EXACTALLY!!!!" I said as I punched him square in the face and he fell to the ground unconscious.

With that I got up and left the lunch room running to the bathroom.

My vision was blurred as I ran to the bathroom ^How could he?! Now ill feel horrible forever!!! I cant get that feeling to go away^ I thought as I slumped down into a ball against the wall balling.

"What's wrong?" I heard a very familiar voice ask. Looking up I saw nun other than Tomoyo standing over me. I got to my feet and fell into her arms.

"Oh Tomoyo!!! I feel so awful!!! I-I…." I sobbed into her shoulder as she comforted me.

"Shhhhhh…..Don't cry Star….it will be ok!' I looked into her eyes and knew she was telling me the truth 'Hey why don't we leave early and head back to my house?" She suggested.

"Ya…ok…..but it will just be us right?"

"Of course!" she said smiling happily. I must admit it was great to have her back.

"Now come on…..we've got to hurry or we will be caught by a teacher." She said pulling me behind her.

I dried my tears on my sleeve and smiled at her " I wouldn't worry about that" I said pulling out the erase card.

"Ive missed you Sakura-chan!" She said hugging me.

"Ya ive missed you to!!!…now stand right there ok?" I looked around to make shure no one was around us.

"Hoshi no chikara o himeshi kagi yo! Shin no sugata no ware o mae ni shimese. Keiyaku no moto Sakura ga mejiru………Release!{O Key which hides the power of the stars, reveal your true form to me…... I, Sakura, command you under contract……………………. Release!}' 'ERASE…..ERASE OUR PHYSICAL FORMS!!!"

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Cliffy!!!!! He he he he…….well ive gota keep you interested don't I? Sorry about all the fluffy stuffs in there….the next chapter will be better!!!! Heres some questions to ask yourself……Will Sakura/star and Tomoyo get to be good friends again or will tomoyo bring something up that will upset sakura/star? Who was the dead person in the dream? Is the Zane guy Star/Sakura punched still alive…..we can only hope not heh!! And if he is how long will he be……? ^^ And what about everyone else? Well got ya thinkin didn't I? Hope you liked this chapter!!! Made it extra long to!!! PLEASE R+R!!!! THE MORE REVIEWS I GET THE FASTER THE NEXT CHAPTER GETS PUT UP!!!!!

~*~Sakura Kinomoto~*~