I can't describe how I feel inside,
There are too many emotions, chemically combined.
Fear, hatred, sadness, loneliness,
How did I ever get into such a mess?
An unexplainable phenomina occured,
Something....unheard.
'Why?' I ask, 'Do these things always happen to me?'
A question that will never be answered, a mystery.
And to add to my misery, tragedy struck,
My mother was killed, oh what horrible luck.
I was sent away, to many different places.
I destroyed many things, saw fear on many faces.
The past still scars me, sometimes I cannot bear,
The pain it brings, haunting, is death a price too fair?
I am weak, that for a fact,
Others tell me by the way I act.
But not physically, only mentally, deep within,
Far beneath my skin.
My heart, it longs for love, something one must earn,
Love is not a game, this you will learn.
My heart has been broken, only once, not twice,
But it still carries the scar, a horrible price.
I know I will find my meaning in life one day,
And hope that it doesn't waste me away.
Maybe it will bring happiness and peace of mind,
Perhaps then can I describe how I feel inside.
~Invader Julie
6-5-02
There are too many emotions, chemically combined.
Fear, hatred, sadness, loneliness,
How did I ever get into such a mess?
An unexplainable phenomina occured,
Something....unheard.
'Why?' I ask, 'Do these things always happen to me?'
A question that will never be answered, a mystery.
And to add to my misery, tragedy struck,
My mother was killed, oh what horrible luck.
I was sent away, to many different places.
I destroyed many things, saw fear on many faces.
The past still scars me, sometimes I cannot bear,
The pain it brings, haunting, is death a price too fair?
I am weak, that for a fact,
Others tell me by the way I act.
But not physically, only mentally, deep within,
Far beneath my skin.
My heart, it longs for love, something one must earn,
Love is not a game, this you will learn.
My heart has been broken, only once, not twice,
But it still carries the scar, a horrible price.
I know I will find my meaning in life one day,
And hope that it doesn't waste me away.
Maybe it will bring happiness and peace of mind,
Perhaps then can I describe how I feel inside.
~Invader Julie
6-5-02
