A/N; so last night I was lying in bed at about 11:30 right? And I got hit with a huge inspiration. So I stayed up for a half an hour writing in the near-dark, and finished. Only one problem, the inspiration was for a part further along in the story. So I have to wrap things up here before I can put that in. So, wait for it. I'm petty proud of it, although, it could be bad- we never know. So, here's this chapter, I want to try and finish it all up in this chapter (not the whole story, just one plot line), but I don't want to rush it, so we'll see.

Okay, so I'm sorry if it's a little rushed. But I can't wait.

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chapter 4 – second chances and endings

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She hadn't been able to concentrate in school all day. She knew why too. That was what troubled her most. She had finally opened her eyes to see what was wrong. Why she had been so emotional. She was never that emotional. Even when her and Dean broke up, it took her days before she even accepted it, was willing to talk about it. She had cried then, for a while. She couldn't move on though. She loved him, she just hadn't been ready for him to know. Why was that all in the past tense now?

Dean. He was away. He wouldn't be back for another day. He was coming back tomorrow around lunch. He was going to pick her up at the bus stop. What would she say? His car. It was ruined, and Jess, who he hated, was the one responsible. It had been an accident, Dean wouldn't see it that way. His anger could consume him. He would take action without thinking about what damage he could do first.

Breaking up. How would she do it? Tell him she didn't love him. She wasn't sure that she could tell him. It had been over a year, and he hadn't done anything wrong. Was the loss of a spark a reason to break it off? But could she stay with someone who she had no feelings for anymore? Staying with him and lying to him about a love that no longer existed would only break his heart more. And it wasn't like the love, or the fire, or the spark was coming back.

She had to concentrate on something else. The fact that Jess and Luke would be here any minute and she hadn't written more then a line on her history paper that was due the next day was very, very bad. She pulled herself together long enough to get half done before there was a knock on the door.

When the knock on the door sounded Rory froze. She was scared to see him.

Jess. She remembered the how she had acted the last time they saw each other. At the bus stop she was acting as if her boyfriend had just gotten off death row.

But Jess wasn't her boyfriend. Up until he left she had never even considered him more then a friend.

We all know the saying 'out of sight, out of mind' ? Well, in this case that definitely did not apply.



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As Rory sat on her bed thinking about all of this Lorelai had (eventually) made her way to the door. She opened it to reveal Luke- who had ditched his normal plaid/flannel for a simple long sleeved T-shirt. He was holding a bag full of food. And Jess was standing behind him wearing a blue long-sleeved shirt, with a green vest over it.

"Rory's in her room." Lorelai told Jess and he headed off in the direction of her room

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She hadn't noticed him enter. Which was strange, because she wasn't doing anything. So naturally, when he spoke, he startled her.

"Hey?" he said, almost inquiring what she was doing at the same time

"Oh. Jess. Hey." She smiled warmly, "I was, uh, reading, and thinking."

"Hmm…so nothing new huh?"

"No, not really."

"What book?" he said walking over to her bed. He picked it up, reading the cover and smiling at the fact that she was almost done, and that she listened to him that closely. "'Please Kill Me'? You actually remembered me telling you about that book?"

"Yeah. Well, because of the book. Not You."

His face dropped a little.

"Not that I don't think of you. Because I do. I mean," he looked at her strangely as she tried to complete a thought, "I mean, I don't think about you a lot, a lot. Just sometimes. And not in the way you're thinking, just…I give up. You confuse me." She stated

"Yeah, well, you confuse me too." He stated and they walked out into the hall.

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Dinner had gone well. Rory had spent the entire school day going over what she was going to say to Dean. Her boyfriend. Her first boyfriend. Her soon-to-be ex-boyfriend.

God. How would she break up with him? How mad would he be? She saw him outside the bus. She got off and gave him hug. 'This is gonna be hard' she thought.

She took him to the gazebo in the middle of the park. 'Get him away from people' she thought. He was going to be furious.

Explaining everything with Jess, and the accident was easy. Breaking up with him was hard. Her mom had been right he had known about her feelings for Jess. Before she had. Amazing how perceptive people could be when they tried.

He had taken it hard. Even though he had known it was coming he was very upset. He still loved her. How could she not love him when he felt so strongly about her. It was amazing. He had cried. It was very out of character for him, but he couldn't help it. He was too upset. He left her there, in the park. Crying. He just walked away. Throwing one of Taylor's garbage cans, that he had insisted upon putting up in the park, across a nature path.

She couldn't just stay there. It hurt too much. She got up. Wiping the continuous stream of tears away from her eyes. It was no help though. They were just going to keep coming no matter where she went. She headed towards the bridge. For comfort. All by herself.

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ah! It wasn't supposed to be that short. I didn't want to go into elaborate detail though, with the break-up. And the dinner was no real big-deal. Sorry if it seemed too short. I decided to post 2 chapters right now, because the new episode is on in like 5 minutes, and I really wanted this to be posted before the new episode came on.