Takes place: After "Lockdown"

Season: 8

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the "ER" characters, they are all property of Warner Bros. , Michael Crichton and affialaites.

Chapter: 2





"Oh Abby" John whispered hugging her tighter.

"I'm so sorry, this wasn't the right time for any of this.."

"What's the matter" John thought to himself.kissing her now may have been all wrong.but why was she in tears, there was something wrong and he was going to find out what.

Abby suddenly pulled away from their embrace, he could see she was trying not to cry, that wall of hers was buliding up again, the one John knew oh too well. Abby lived for being strong, she never cried, she never broke down, never faltered, or at least that's what she wanted people to think. But inside, she was weak and fragile from the years of pain she had on her shoulders. Her abortion, her divorce, her addiction, especially her addiction. John was starting to uncover all of this since he'd met her. Since the first time he'd met her at that AA meeting..his thoughts drifted back.. There had always been something about her that he saw, that he didn't think anyone else could see. It's like he knew all about her, her pain and her suffering. But he also knew a different Abby, the Abby that laughed and joked around with him, the Abby whose smile could change his world. He didn't get to see that Abby too often but he knew it was there in her, and that's what was so incredibly baffling to him.

"I'm sorry John" she brought him back to reality, and he could see in her eyes she was saying inside "I'm strong, I will not cry no matter how hard things get."

"No Abby, you don't need to apologize, what kind of man am I, to think that I could just kiss you here, now, it's my."

But he suddenly couldn't speak any longer, he felt Abby's lips forced onto his for a lingering moment, a quick kiss but that said so much. He couldn't speak, she had took him by such surprise. When he suddenly regained composure, Abby was smiling through tears that were streaming down her face...



***Tell me if you want me to still continue or not, it will get lots more Carbyness I promise!!! ***