Takes place: After "Lockdown"
Season: 8
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the "ER" characters, they all belong to Warner Bros, Michael Crichton and other affiliates.
Chapter: 5
"And that's my story" Abby said crying but with a bit of sarcasm in her voice.
"I didn't want to disappoint you, and I knew I would, I so knew I would, and that's why I poured it out, I wanted to drink so badly but then I wanted to smash that bottle on the floor to show that I wasn't going to give in."
Abby looked up, slightly relieved that she was done of her spiel, but then again she was a bit grateful that she had been able to come out with it to someone.
"Thank you Abby" John finally spoke in a weird tone of voice but like he was actually thankful that she had poured out her problems on him.
"Thank you?" she questioned.
"Thank you...for telling me these things so that I can help you through them, I'm glad it was me that you told.."
He stuttered.
"And I'm glad that I can be there for you now, as friends, I'm glad for that."
"As friends?" Abby just kept on questioning his strange phrases.
"Abby, I thought you said that you couldn't do this, which I though meant do us, I want to be there for you and do what's best for you, and if I have to be there for you only as a friend, then so be it."
He looked to Abby right then like a little boy whose puppy had just died.
"I didn't say that I just wanted to be friends!" Abby retorted.
"But you said that you couldn't do this, that things were too hard right now" he was slightly taken aback at her indecisiveness. "I just want you to be happy, so if you need a friend, here that's me, I'm here" he said.
"But what if that's not what's best for me? Her voice became louder.
"What if being so confused about my feelings that I can't see straight? What if that's what's right for me!"
She was talking much louder now. Carter hadn't meant to get her worked up and neither of them were mad but there was something else going on in her mind right now, or her heart, he couldn't tell, maybe he had said something wrong.
"What if my stomach turning to knots everytime I see you!?" "What if that's what's right for me! "
She stood up and began to pace around like she was about to make the biggest decision of her life. He just sat there watching her every move, kind of baffled at her unexpected, spontaneous behavior.
"What if everytime I'm with you I feel like someone else??!!!! What if you make me forget everything else around me? And what if that's whats good for me!!!!!"
He stood up and began to walk towards her.
"Abby" he tried to get a word in.
"No John!" she said frustratedly.
"What if I can't get you out of my head!?" "What if I need you more then I need anything else on this earth???!!!!"
She began to cry for about the millionth time that night, except this was a different cry for some reason.
Her voice trailed off, she paused but only for a moment to get closer to him.
"What if this is what's right for me?" she was almost in a whisper as she cupped his cheeks in her hands, looked him in the eyes for another moment before making one of the biggest decisions she would ever make. She felt her body grow closer to his and then her lips against his, her arms around his neck, her needing him and him needing her back..it was the only thing that was actually right and then, at that moment Abby knew she wouldn't have to say what if anymore..
Well there's my story! I hope you enjoyed it! Would it be too much trouble for me to ask you if you could leave me a review? And you can be 100 percent completely honest ( smile ) thanks for reading!!! ***
Season: 8
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the "ER" characters, they all belong to Warner Bros, Michael Crichton and other affiliates.
Chapter: 5
"And that's my story" Abby said crying but with a bit of sarcasm in her voice.
"I didn't want to disappoint you, and I knew I would, I so knew I would, and that's why I poured it out, I wanted to drink so badly but then I wanted to smash that bottle on the floor to show that I wasn't going to give in."
Abby looked up, slightly relieved that she was done of her spiel, but then again she was a bit grateful that she had been able to come out with it to someone.
"Thank you Abby" John finally spoke in a weird tone of voice but like he was actually thankful that she had poured out her problems on him.
"Thank you?" she questioned.
"Thank you...for telling me these things so that I can help you through them, I'm glad it was me that you told.."
He stuttered.
"And I'm glad that I can be there for you now, as friends, I'm glad for that."
"As friends?" Abby just kept on questioning his strange phrases.
"Abby, I thought you said that you couldn't do this, which I though meant do us, I want to be there for you and do what's best for you, and if I have to be there for you only as a friend, then so be it."
He looked to Abby right then like a little boy whose puppy had just died.
"I didn't say that I just wanted to be friends!" Abby retorted.
"But you said that you couldn't do this, that things were too hard right now" he was slightly taken aback at her indecisiveness. "I just want you to be happy, so if you need a friend, here that's me, I'm here" he said.
"But what if that's not what's best for me? Her voice became louder.
"What if being so confused about my feelings that I can't see straight? What if that's what's right for me!"
She was talking much louder now. Carter hadn't meant to get her worked up and neither of them were mad but there was something else going on in her mind right now, or her heart, he couldn't tell, maybe he had said something wrong.
"What if my stomach turning to knots everytime I see you!?" "What if that's what's right for me! "
She stood up and began to pace around like she was about to make the biggest decision of her life. He just sat there watching her every move, kind of baffled at her unexpected, spontaneous behavior.
"What if everytime I'm with you I feel like someone else??!!!! What if you make me forget everything else around me? And what if that's whats good for me!!!!!"
He stood up and began to walk towards her.
"Abby" he tried to get a word in.
"No John!" she said frustratedly.
"What if I can't get you out of my head!?" "What if I need you more then I need anything else on this earth???!!!!"
She began to cry for about the millionth time that night, except this was a different cry for some reason.
Her voice trailed off, she paused but only for a moment to get closer to him.
"What if this is what's right for me?" she was almost in a whisper as she cupped his cheeks in her hands, looked him in the eyes for another moment before making one of the biggest decisions she would ever make. She felt her body grow closer to his and then her lips against his, her arms around his neck, her needing him and him needing her back..it was the only thing that was actually right and then, at that moment Abby knew she wouldn't have to say what if anymore..
Well there's my story! I hope you enjoyed it! Would it be too much trouble for me to ask you if you could leave me a review? And you can be 100 percent completely honest ( smile ) thanks for reading!!! ***
