I wanted to say no, to say that nothing could never happen to Harm by my fault but I hear myself said yes.

I look deeply in Kyle's eyes to see any trace of judgement but he just nodded.

Kyle : well. May I know who is concerned ?

Mac : I'm sorry, I did not want to put him in danger. What have I done !

Kyle : you know it is not your fault. Don't blame yourself.

Mac : what will you do if you know who is he ?

Kyle : if I have the choice, I will put him under the police protection but actually, we do not get enough proofs to begin such operation. Moreover, Coster certainly knows that the first thing we'll do is that.

So well, if I were you colonel, I'd try to bring the person away from here just for a moment.

Mac : thank you Inspector.

****

I really liked this man. He seemed to understand me. He didn't want to embarrass me with personal questions and just accept what I said without judging.

He left my office and I accompanied him to the hall. I shook his hand and promised to call him if something new happened.

As I came back to my office, Harm followed me.

Harm : you're alright Mac ?

Mac : it could be better.

He closed the door behind him and sat waiting for me to tell him.

I was thinking about a way to reveal him the whole story and made him understand that because of me he had to leave the area for a moment.

I was listening to the sound of the rain falling down my window, praying for a gentle wind to keep Harm safe. Trying to be stronger but I'm not getting any longer. It's been too hard, I can't hold on anymore. I turn to him and as he saw the tears in my eyes he stood up and walked towards me.

He hold me in his arms as I was fighting against the tears.

He whispered softly in my ear

Harm : I'm here Sarah.

How could I resist when he called me Sarah…

Harm : tell me. What's wrong

Mac : he's back Harm.

Harm : Who's back ?

He felt me tensed in his arms but said nothing. He did not want to rush me.

Mac : Coster.

I could hardly pronounced his name. This time I felt the tension in Harm too.

He released me a little to look in my eyes.

Harm : oh god ! What happened ?

Then I told him the whole story without mentioning the diary.

Harm : ok. Don't worry. I'm here, I won't let you alone. I promise.

Mac : no, please. Don't do that.

Harm : Mac, I'm your friend.

Mac : I know that but… well I don't want you to be endangered because of me.

Harm : Shh.. Don't you think I will be able to kick his six ?

I know he tried to relax me but I was too afraid.

Harm : Don't reject me Mac please. I want to be there for you.

I looked into his eyes and nodded.

Harm : Ok then. I will talk to the admiral. I'm coming back.

He kissed softly my forehead and left me.

*****

Harm : Tiner, is the admiral in his office ?

Tiner : yes sir, I'll buzz him for you.

Tiner : sir, commander Rabb would like to talk to you.

Admiral : make him enter.

Harm entered in the office

*****

Admiral : what can I do for you Rabb ?

Harm : Well sir, it's about the colonel.

The admiral sighed. He already knew that it was about her.

Admiral : yes ?

Then Harm told him the story.

The admiral's face was suddenly crisped.

Admiral : why life is so cruel with her ? Well son, I want you to be with her every second passing. I want her to be as safe as possible ! Understood ?

Harm : yes sir ! That's why I was wondering if we can go away.

Adm : what do you mean by that ?

Harm : As a matter of fact, my father had a little house in the middle of nowhere and I think that maybe we could go there.

Adm : Yes… I think it's a good idea. I hope it won't be too long. So well, give me some news ok.

Harm : Yes sir.

Adm : Dismissed.

Harm : aye, aye.

As he was retracing his steps the admiral called him

Adm : harm,

Harm : yes ?

Adm : Take care of her.

Harm : yes sir.

****

He went out and joined Mac in her office.

He knocked and entered.

Mac : so flyboy ?

Harm : what do you think of taking some holidays ?

Mac : what do you mean ?

Harm explained her his conversation with the admiral. Ordinarily Mac would have refused. As she was a marine she could take her of herself alone but she just wanted Harm to be safe. She accepted his offer.

Harm : Ok so let's go marine !

They left the office, letting their cases to their colleagues.