Harm : Mac ? What's wrong ? May I come in ?

Mac : I'm sorry, don't worry. Just go and sleep Harm.

He opened the door and sat next to her on her bed.

Harm : come on Mac ? What's wrong ?

Mac : I…. I always have this nightmare Harm. I'm lost in the streets and even if I walk faster and faster, I'm always lost. Even if I know the place, I can't find my way.

Harm : don't worry Mac. It's just a nightmare.

Mac : I know. But this time… This time I know why I'm lost.

She stopped and breathed deeply. As he was waiting for her, she continued.

Mac : I know that it's because, you're not here.

She looked away from him and closed her eyes. She hated her for being so weak sometimes. But she needed him and couldn't deny it any longer.

Harm : I'm here Mac. I'll always be if you let me.

Mac : I don't want that something happens to you Harm.

Harm : nothing will happen to me Mac. I promise you.

Mac : don't do promise that you do not hold.

Harm : Have I ever done ?

Mac : no. But this time is different.

Harm : Why ?

She knew he had to know. She had to tell him that his life was in danger because of her.

Mac : Harm, I'm so sorry, will you one day forgive me for what I have done ?

Harm : Mac ?

Mac : I haven't told you the whole story Harm… She stopped and started again : He has stolen my diary Harm. He knows all my private thoughts and I have written about you.

Harm : what do you mean ?

His voice was still with no trace of anger.

Mac : I have written…

I knew I had no choice, I had to tell him, to protect him, he had the right to know what he was risking.

As I turn back to the window, he stood behind me.

It was the hardest thing I had ever have to do in my whole life. Of course I had passed through hard times but this time was different. I was to open my heart to the man I loved. I have always kept my real feelings hidden inside of me. I know that my heart would be broken forever but he deserved to know the truth.

Mac : Believe me Harm, if I have ever known that he would find it, I would have never written it on my diary.

I have written that I'm in love with you Harm, from the beginning. I have written that you're my reason for living, that without you, my life will not have sense. I know that you don't love me that way.

I have tried to convince myself that we were just friend but my heart did not want to listen my mind. I have tried to marry another man to forget you but I knew it couldn't work.

Don't ask me if this feeling is right or wrong, it doesn't have to make much sense, it just has to be this strong. Because when I'm in your arms I understand that I don't have a voice when my heart make the choices there's no plans.

I stopped talking and looked at him. He was staring at me.

Mac : now I can feel that you're afraid to say. But we can't let this moment pass us by. If you ever walk out this door, what would I left to live for ? I just want to know Harm. For the first time in my life I have completely opened my heart, please, even if you do not love me, be honest.

Harm : I'm sorry.

Wanna know what will happen ??? Is it really a Mac/Harm story ? *Evil grins*

(anyway thanks for the reviews)