Sarah McLaughlin Songfic Series-Part Two-Adia

By: Lady Katana

Disclaimer: Its on the first fic.

Whole Series Dedicated To: Rae-Chan

{Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
don't you know I tried so hard
to love you in my way
it's easy let it go...}

The rain pelted down heavy on top of the messy brown mass that was Heero Yuy's hair. He lifted his eyes into the cloudy canopy that covered the city. He walked up to the braided boy that stood infront of the burnt monument of what had been a church. Duo's tears mixed in with the rain, and he looked at the sorrowful remains of the once thriving catholic church that reminded him so much of the one Father Maxwell had died for. *And with.* Thought Duo, his sobs continuing. Heero's hair dripped, the water cold on his face.
"Duo." He said in his usual semi-cold monotone. He laid a hand on Duo's shoulder.
"What!?" Duo said in half rage, turning, eyes full of some anger, and sypathy for a far off martyr that had been Itoshigo. "What could you possibly want from me?" Heero shrugged.
"I was just going to point out that if you didn't get inside soon, you'd get pnemonia." Duo glared. And taking his frustrations out on Heero, ran off into the rain, not stopping until he was curled in the corner of the room he and Heero shared. He sobbed like a little child, lost from his mother. The world was a botomless pit of cold, unforgiving death-still air, and everything seemed to glare at him through the dim-lit room as if he were the seige of the planet. The gloomy half-light of the room caught his face, leaving dark shadows under his eyes, and his face seemed sketchier than ever.
"DAMMIT!" he screamed, flinging his arm across the night-stand and throwing a lamp into the floor, smiling with sick satisfaction as he laid his hand down on the top of a shard of glass and his hand began to bleed.

{Adia I'm empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong}

Heero just stared at the spot where Duo had stood, shellshocked and prehaps a little spellbound. A tear slipped down his cheek. He wiped it away quickly.
"Damn." he muttered, turning and walking slowly with no hurry. Many people rushed by with umbrellas or news paper, trying to keep dry at any cost. Heero just walked at a snail's pace, his hair and cloathes already completely soaked. He pushed a wet tangled strand out of his face and walked into the kitchen of the safehouse. Quatre smiled. This smile was quickly replaced by a frown as he saw Heero's saddened appearance. Heero only said two words to the blond.
"Where's Duo?" Quatre pointed to their bedroom, Heero walked in the direction that Quatre had pointed, speeding from his snail's pace to a somewhat normal speed walk. He pushed the door open, and saw Duo sitting in the corner.

{'cause there's no one left to finger
there's no one here to blame
there's no one left to talk to honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence
'cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?}

Duo watched his bleeding palm with the same sick fascination as when he had cut it. Heero walked over, and grabbed Duo's hand, bloodying his own. Heero withdrew his hand and looked at the thick crimson liquid that stained it.
"Duo...what the hell!?" his eyes quickly filled with an irrepressible rage. "What in *hell* do you think you're doing, Duo!?" Duo simply looked up at the figure standing before him, a deity in his own right. Duo's face stayed a sad depressed calm.
"Nothing you should be concerned about." Duo remarked quickly. He blew some bangs out of his face, wiped the blood off his hand onto his pants. He walked into the bathroom and pulled four small purple pills out of his pocket and took them with no water. He blinked a few times, and then shook his head from side to side, trying to free himself from the whirlpool that the room had become. He looked up into the mirror, tears streaming down the sides of his face, mixing with blood from his palms.
"I'm sorry...." he said and he fell out on the floor, landing hard. Ten minutes later Trowa found him there, bleeding from his head.

{Adia I thought we could make it
but I know I can't change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won't betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
and show you all the beauty you possess
if you'd only let yourself believe that}

Duo blinked, he felt warm...somone had moved him. No longer was he in the swirling bathroom of the safehouse. Now he was in a clean room in a rather uncomfortable bed...in the...the...HOSPITAL!? *What the hell? How'd I get here? When'd I fall out...damn...that stuff messes me up...* The ever-so-vigilant Quatre snapped up from his light nap.
"Oh, Duo! You're up! I brought you some tea!" the perky blond boy chirped, pouring Duo a warm cup of green tea and handing it to him.
"Uhm...thanks Q..." Duo took a sip of the tea and then looked over at Quatre again. "Quatre...ya mind filling me in on anything I...uh...missed? How long have I been out?" Quatre laughed lightly.
"Duo, you've been passed out for *three* *days*!" Duo's eyes got wide.
"YOUR KIDDING!" Quatre shook his head.
"No, I'm not." The two laughed on it for a bit. "But Duo...what did you *take*?" Duo smiled.
"Uhm...I'm not...quite uh....sure what it is..." Quatre blinked several times. Silence filled the room, chilling. It was quite an akward silence....then to cure it, a doctor entered, closing the door with a 'click' that seemed *WAY* too loud.
"Oh, Mr.Maxwell! Your up! Good!" the doctor sat down on a stool. "You have a concussion, and I think its wise that you go home and get a good bit of rest. Your friend here has already cleared up the insurance, and things, so you're free to go. Is that alright?" Duo perked up a bit.
"Wonderful." The doctor spoke again.
"My advice would be that your friend gathers your things because you will be a bit unstable for a while. I'm also going to write you a perscription for some pain killers." Duo nodded, and Quatre rose to get the duffle bag they had quickly thrown together.

{we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter, does it matter?
believe me Adia, we are still innocent}

Duo sat in bed two days later when Heero entered, just returning from a mission. He walked to the side of Duo's bed. Duo inhaled the smell of gunpowder, motor oil, dirt, and sweat. It was the unique perfume of Heero Yuy. He smiled mentally. Even after several showers the distinct smell of gunpoweder remained. He was like an angel that had fallen, or maybe...uh...only tripped? Either way, he was an angel in *Duo's* eyes, and many of Duo's missions had been totally *screwed* by this distraction, as it was the only thought that seemed to ever fill his head and his heart, as this was more than just some simple lust. The moon seemed to rise in Heero's eyes, and the world stood still with every step he took. Heero was all Duo *ever* thought about.
Heero sat down next to Duo.
"Your home." Duo nodded.
"Wanna say anything other than the obvious?" Duo winked. "Anyway, how did it go?" Heero sat down at the lap top, the green glow of the screen shadowing his face, making the ridgid curves seem softer in the darkness of the room. Duo rubbed his eyes.
"What time is it?" He stared at the clock with a sleepy avid intrest. "Three. Well...damn...I might as well get up."
About five or so, the dawn began with the drowzy purple and blue hues of night giving in to a violent blood red color, then fading to orange and finally day. The air was brisk, and Duo shivered as he watched the amazing artistic display.

{'cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still
it's easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?}

Duo braided his hair as the last rays of red left the sky, and the birds began to sing. He went inside, fishing for a hair tie. After about a ten minute search, he found one, and wrapped it around the end of his braid, and then changed cloathes. He sat down beside the computer desk. He bounced up and down on Heero's bed for a minute or two, and then spoke.
"Hee-chan?" he asked in a child like tone.
"Hn." Heero grunted in reply.
"Do you love me?" he said playfully. Heero's eyes got wide and he stared at Duo from over the top of the lap top for a few seconds. The question had caught him off gaurd.
"I..." Heero cleared his throat nervously. "I.........have to go work on Wing." he exited Duo blinked twice.
"Woah....I was only joking...."