Disclaimer: Look in the first chapter.
Rain fell down on the earth, causing the ground to turn muddy and the downpour wasn't helping a certain pilot at all.
Shinji limped from the remains of Unit 01, although the Eva was completely healed in the battle, Shinji wasn't healed at all, dried blood sealed his left eye shut, he was coughing up blood almost every six minutes, and the top and some spots of his white school shirt were now light pink thanks to the blood and rain.
He stumbled many a time, but always pushed himself back up, no matter how much the punctured lung protested, and no matter how much his broken ribs ached, he wouldn't stop.
He thought about many a thing but mainly he though about the three main people in his life, well the people who held the most importance to him anyway.
Misato, she tried so hard to become his second mother, but he only seen her as a friend. Yes, he could rely on her for support but he could never call her mother, as he thought about he never even told her how much he cared. He never told her how much he loved her.
"Damn it, only….one more….stupid…mistake…to add….to my list."
He kept walking at the same steady pace, his breathing was becoming more abnormal thanks to his lung but he went on.
Asuka, the flamboyant girl who took all the attention she could get her hands on, although it may have looked like he hated her, he actually admired her, she was everything he wanted to be, she was braver, stronger, and smarter. Shinji could only picture her winning but….they threw her in her Eva and she never even had a chance.
"Only if…I weren't…so pathetic..I..could..have..saved her."
Shinji was so deep in thought he didn't see the branch sticking out of the ground, he tripped and landed hard on his side, he pulled himself back up on the same branched that tripped him and continued walking.
Rei, the quite, introverted girl, that was much like Shinji except she didn't care what others thought of her. In her Eva she wasn't really an offensive type of person, you could say that she was the exact opposite of Asuka. Although Shinji, did along the way find out the truth about Rei, the only thing that really bothered him was that his farth~no, that man used his mother's DNA in such a fashion. Just because she has some of his mother's DNA didn't make them the same person, but what bothered him the most was that he was in full control every time Eva went berserk.
Every time, no matter what condition he was in, if he needed it, it would happen.
Then it hit him like a brick.
It wasn't the fact that he was in control; it was that he did the things he really wanted to do.
He ripped Angels apart caused he wanted to.
He ate the Angel cause he wanted to.
He destroyed the Eva series cause he wanted to.
He stabbed Rei…cause he wanted to.
He hated Angels to the point where he would kill one of the few people he could really say he loved simply because she was an Angel.
Shinji stopped mid-step, and fell to his knees.
He cried, he didn't care anymore, he wiped at the tears falling from his right eye, and simply let the blood from his left eye, make it way down his face.
"They all left me alone, all of them…I deserve to be dead not them…not them"
He sobbed, and coughed up more blood, he fell flat on the side of his face in the mud. He used the last of his energy to turn his body around so he could face the sky, although the only thing he could see was mostly dust and a few gray clouds, the rain kept coming down drop by drop, Shinji slowly closed his eye..
Drop by drop.
Shinji blinked once and started to close his eye once more.
Drop by Drop
A figure slowly approached Shinji.
Man I know somebody is going to be mad. See I had to change a few events, in order to get things to the way they are now, and it wouldn't of made sense to just write the same thing everybody else does about the End of Evangelion, so I just added my on view on it.
And if anybody wanted to know Shinji is my favorite character…o.O
