Disclaimer: Still in the first chapter.
Shinji awoke in a bed; upon closer examination he discovered he had bandages around his hands, eye, and chest. As he sat up in the bed all the memories came back, with lighting speed. He murdered Rei with his own hands. He laid back down putting his face in the pillow as he cried.
Fate always played jokes on him but this was the worse by far, he was waiting, no wanting to die, but once again nothing was ever in his favor. The he had an idea; nothing could stop him from killing himself.
He sat up, threw the covers of him and set off to find anything to end his pain. He was out of breath by the time he made it to the door of the room; Shinji took a while to readjust himself, and opened the door.
The whole house was dark except for the room he just left which was brighten by candlelight. He carefully made his way around, being careful not to trip. After a while he made it to what seemed to be the kitchen. To his delight he found the knifes, in the draw second from the left.
"I'm glad you are awake, it seemed like you would never wake up!!"
To say the least Shinji was scared shitless, he dropped the knife and turned around, he met eye to eye with someone that seemed awfully familiar.
"Shinji…if you were hungry you could have waited for me."
She put the bags on the floor and walked over to Shinji, who back stepped until his back hit the cabinets, she kept walking towards him, but stopped within a few feet of him.
"I'm sorry I forgot to introduce myself, I'm Mana, from you class. I wont feel offended if you forgot me…just tell me what's wrong."
"Y…You did this", Shinji said pointing at the bandages around his body, "W…Why..did you do..this?"
"You were hurt, and I just happened to know first aid, you act like you didn't want to live.."
She used her hand to push the dark red hair behind her shoulder so she could clearly see Shinji, her sky blue eyes seemed to question his very soul.
"I didn't want to live…"
She smiled and simply walked towards Shinji, and gave him a hug, being careful not to hurt him. Shinji noticed the strawberry scent radiating from her, but quickly dismissed, because he shouldn't be thinking that way.
"Everyone deserves to live, and you saved the world,…but I don't know about the people went."
"M…Mana, how do you k..know that, everyone turned to LCL."
She instantly let go of him and turned around.
"Um, the fight between Unit 01 could be seen on the television and I could see it from where I lived."
"Oh."
She signed; if Shinji weren't so gullible she would be in some real trouble.
"You should be getting rest you are in no condition to be walking around."
"Mana, why do you care…so much?"
She turned back to face him, she looked him directly in the eye as she spoke, and to his amazement Shinji didn't even flitch.
"I care because you saved me, you saved the world!! You don't even act like you care."
Shinji cast his eyes downward looking at his socks, and the dirty floor.
"The only thing I did was make the third impact happen, I should be dead like Asuka, and Rei."
"I'm sorry..I didn't know."
"Nobody ever knows, I'm the person with the blood on my hands, I'm the one who enjoy killing,", Shinji raised his hands to his face," Do you hear me Mana, I enjoyed ripping apart everything I could, I even killed..her. Please Mana, I need some time alone…"
"Just remember, I'm always here, if you need somebody to talk to…"
She turned and walked out the door leaving Shinji to himself.
He walked outside, the sky was blood red, the ground was still muddy from the rain, as he looked to the horizon, he seen the see of LCL. As he walked he came upon the bodies of the Eva series, all crucified, on red crosses,
"How could that have happened?"
He collected a pill of sticks and used his bandaged hands to dig graves, and make makeshift tombstones, it may have took over five hours, and he may have been very tired but he made graves for everybody he knew, he stood up to view his handy work, only to find something missing.
He reached in his pocket and pulled out Misato's necklace, he walked up to her grave and hanged the necklace on the cross.
"That's all I could do, for all of you…"
He kept wandering around, he crawled up a hill to be able to look over the land, but to his horror he only seen Rei looking skyward with an unblinking stare, the lance still imbedded in her chest.
"Shinji!! Dinner is ready!!"
"Okay, I'm coming.."
Before he left he took one last look at Rei.
"I'm worse than my father, but instead of using her, I killed her..."
Shinji walked back to the Mana's house, upon reaching the door, he started thinking did he really want to go in, he could run off somewhere and just lie somewhere till he died, but on second though, he really didn't want to disappoint somebody else.
He opened the door and walked straight into Mana who was waiting on him, she lost her balance and they both fell on the floor, Mana with her back on the floor, and Shinji on top of her, they both looked into each other blue eyes, Shinji was about to push himself up when he noticed where his hand was. He imminently removed his hand and jump to his feet within seconds.
"Oh my gosh Mana!! I swear I'm sorry, I' really sorry!!"
Mana sat up blushing.
"Shinji, it was a mistake, its okay"
Shinji, who was blushing since he noticed where his hand was, help up the blushing Mana and they both walked to the table in the center of the room.
'What a coincidence..'
