It was summer, nothing much had happened in Smallville. It was the same old stuff happening everyday. The only difference was, Chloe was away visiting family and Whitney was still away in the forces. It's been a month since Whitney left and things weren't getting any better between him and I, whenever he would call, I would tell him how much everyone missed him, which in my opinion got old after the tenth time and when it was his turn to say something, he never had much to say, other than the "forces", which got me feeling I was dating master yoda. Oh yeah, and how much he missed me, and that didn't seem like it was real. I can't explain it, it's just didn't sound like he really meant it. For someone who was my boyfriend, it just didn't feel right, or was I just thinking, it didn't? And yes, I said "was", we broke up, actually I did the breaking up. Sucks, I wasn't able to do it to his face, but over a phone, he seemed very upset and angry. He wondered why and I told him because I wasn't in love with him and I didn't think I could ever be. Than he asked me the one question I wasn't ready for: "It's because of Clark". Clark Kent, it was because of him, I knew it, but I never was able to come out and admit it to myself out loud. Even when I thought it, I told myself to shut up, and reminded myself over and over he's your friend. But after a while, I couldn't keep it to myself. Whenever I was around him, I would notice myself watching what I was doing or saying. I was scared he would notice my feeling towards him was more than friends, that he would find out I liked him, that I was in love with him! I don't know why I was scared, would it be a bad thing if he found out? I mean if we are friends, shouldn't we be honest about our feelings for each other. I can't keep putting a fake smile and let myself be driven insane, because I can't admit to Clark, the most understanding guy in the world, how I feel about him and that I want to be with him! As crazy as this sounds, the whole time I was with Whitney, I never thought about love, or even being in love with him or even making love with him. I guess that's why it never worked out, I was blinded with what I thought was right, but so-so wrong. But with Clark, all those feelings just come into me, into my veins and just saturate all my being. I would have dreams of him, dream that where pass the X-ratings, was that even possible? Ugh, now I'm sounding like a dog in heat! Tomorrow, I'm going to tell him, I'm gonna yell it on the top of my lungs, for the world to hear. That I Lana Lang am in love with Clark Kent!
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