"Everyone here, is wondering what it's like to be with
Somebody else
Everyone here's to blame, everyone here
Gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides
Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're the same
And we're all grown now, but we don't know how
To get it back to good"
-Matchbox Twenty
The next night
Spike sighed watching the fireplace. He could hear them above him. He and Buffy had spoken earlier and she had told him about Angel's promise to her about staying away from Dru. He had to give his sire one thing; he had wasted no time in breaking that promise. He hoped that the she wouldn't come home yet, he liked having the slayer around even if she was in love with Angel. It was just nice to have someone around who knew what he was going through.
"Evening William," Angel said jovially as he walked into the room.
"Don't call me that," Spike growled.
"Goodbye Spike, goodbye my Angel," Dru said before leaving to go hunt.
"I'm curious Angel," Spike said. "Do you ever think about anyone other than yourself?"
"Oh great," Angel muttered sitting across from Spike. "A Spike guilt trip. I can't help it if Dru wants me more than you."
"I actually wasn't talking about Dru."
"No?"
"I was talking about the slayer. She trusts you mate, and you're betraying that trust."
"What she doesn't know won't hurt her."
"She's going to find out and when she does she's going to leave, probably forever."
"Why do you care?"
"I don't. I just don't want you to hurt her like you hurt Dru." Angel looked blank so Spike continued. "Darla."
"Darla was my sire."
"You turned me so Dru wouldn't be lonely. What are you going to do: give me to the slayer?"
Angel slammed Spike against the wall. "No one touches her but me." Spike shoved him away.
"I was making a point, not that I would mind." Angel snarled and punched him. The younger vampire kicked Angel. Angel did a roundhouse causing Spike to fall. He again slammed Spike against the wall. That's when Buffy walked in.
"I really don't want to know," was all she said.
"Hello slayer," Spike said pushing Angel away.
"I knew vampires did some weird stuff but this, for the two of you, is beyond weird," Buffy said.
"Angel and I?" Spike asked looking at his sire. "No."
"Not in a long time," Angel corrected.
"God I don't want to hear this," Buffy muttered as she sat down on the sofa.
"Where did those bags come from?" Angel asked.
"I did some shopping," she said. "I was tired of the same four outfits. By the way-" She handed him a card. "Here's your VISA."
Angel rolled his eyes taking the card. "I'm going to go feed." He looked at Spike an unspoken threat in his eyes. Spike just looked back at him levelly.
"Okay boys, back off," Buffy said.
"For you lover," Angel said bending over to kiss her. He walked out. Buffy pulled out a notebook and began writing.
"What are you doing pet?" he asked putting a CD in his CD player which he had put in the living room.
"Writing a letter to Willow," she told him. He laid down on the couch as the CD started, it was the Sex Pistols. "What is it with you Englishmen and your taste in music?"
"This is a good band," Spike protested. She rolled her eyes and returned her attention to the notebook
Dear Willow,
Please forgive me. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just let my guard down for one second and BAM I Angel makes me a vampire. I have my soul although I don't know how that happened. Tell Giles, it'll give him something to research.
Take care of yourself. See if you can get Kendra to get stationed in Sunnydale.
Watch out for Giles and my mother. Tell Giles that this isn't his fault and that he was the best watcher that a slayer could ever have. Tell my mom that I love her and miss her.
I know you have Oz to be there for you and I'm glad. If anyone deserves love it's you.
Right now I'm sitting in the living room of Angel's old house with Spike listening to the Sex Pistols. It's strange but Spike isn't that bad. We talk sometimes and he's really witty and he can be charming. Actually, both Angel and Spike know about my soul, neither seem to care.
Angel and I are together but to be honest I don't know how long that's going to last. He's been with Drusilla when he thought that I was asleep. I started to leave him but he found me and told me that it wouldn't happen again. I don't know if I believe him.
Well Angel should be home soon so I'm going to get going. Tell the gang that I love all of them. I hear some one so bye.
Your friend, Buffy
Dru walked in. Buffy shut the notebook and put it away. Spike stood when Dru came into the room. Buffy sighed lying back on the sofa. "Hello my Spike," Dru purred. She kissed him but Spike pulled away. She looked down obviously upset. "My Spikey doesn't want to play anymore."
"Not while you're playing with him Dru," Spike told her so quietly that only Dru could hear him. Dru glared at him and left.
"What did you say to her?" Buffy asked sitting back up.
Spike looked at her for a few seconds. Telling her would hurt Angel, it would make him pay but it would also make her leave. Spike didn't know if the girl could survive on her own. "Nothing luv," he said jovially. "You know Dru she always gets upset over nothing." Buffy nodded not seeming convinced.
"Spike I want to know if Angel lied to me," Buffy said after a few moments of silence.
"About what pet?" he asked
"Dru," Buffy said.
The one word hung in the air between them; it took Spike several moments to respond. "Slayer-" he said his voice soft. Then Angel walked in.
The next night
Spike sighed watching the fireplace. He could hear them above him. He and Buffy had spoken earlier and she had told him about Angel's promise to her about staying away from Dru. He had to give his sire one thing; he had wasted no time in breaking that promise. He hoped that the she wouldn't come home yet, he liked having the slayer around even if she was in love with Angel. It was just nice to have someone around who knew what he was going through.
"Evening William," Angel said jovially as he walked into the room.
"Don't call me that," Spike growled.
"Goodbye Spike, goodbye my Angel," Dru said before leaving to go hunt.
"I'm curious Angel," Spike said. "Do you ever think about anyone other than yourself?"
"Oh great," Angel muttered sitting across from Spike. "A Spike guilt trip. I can't help it if Dru wants me more than you."
"I actually wasn't talking about Dru."
"No?"
"I was talking about the slayer. She trusts you mate, and you're betraying that trust."
"What she doesn't know won't hurt her."
"She's going to find out and when she does she's going to leave, probably forever."
"Why do you care?"
"I don't. I just don't want you to hurt her like you hurt Dru." Angel looked blank so Spike continued. "Darla."
"Darla was my sire."
"You turned me so Dru wouldn't be lonely. What are you going to do: give me to the slayer?"
Angel slammed Spike against the wall. "No one touches her but me." Spike shoved him away.
"I was making a point, not that I would mind." Angel snarled and punched him. The younger vampire kicked Angel. Angel did a roundhouse causing Spike to fall. He again slammed Spike against the wall. That's when Buffy walked in.
"I really don't want to know," was all she said.
"Hello slayer," Spike said pushing Angel away.
"I knew vampires did some weird stuff but this, for the two of you, is beyond weird," Buffy said.
"Angel and I?" Spike asked looking at his sire. "No."
"Not in a long time," Angel corrected.
"God I don't want to hear this," Buffy muttered as she sat down on the sofa.
"Where did those bags come from?" Angel asked.
"I did some shopping," she said. "I was tired of the same four outfits. By the way-" She handed him a card. "Here's your VISA."
Angel rolled his eyes taking the card. "I'm going to go feed." He looked at Spike an unspoken threat in his eyes. Spike just looked back at him levelly.
"Okay boys, back off," Buffy said.
"For you lover," Angel said bending over to kiss her. He walked out. Buffy pulled out a notebook and began writing.
"What are you doing pet?" he asked putting a CD in his CD player which he had put in the living room.
"Writing a letter to Willow," she told him. He laid down on the couch as the CD started, it was the Sex Pistols. "What is it with you Englishmen and your taste in music?"
"This is a good band," Spike protested. She rolled her eyes and returned her attention to the notebook
Dear Willow,
Please forgive me. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just let my guard down for one second and BAM I Angel makes me a vampire. I have my soul although I don't know how that happened. Tell Giles, it'll give him something to research.
Take care of yourself. See if you can get Kendra to get stationed in Sunnydale.
Watch out for Giles and my mother. Tell Giles that this isn't his fault and that he was the best watcher that a slayer could ever have. Tell my mom that I love her and miss her.
I know you have Oz to be there for you and I'm glad. If anyone deserves love it's you.
Right now I'm sitting in the living room of Angel's old house with Spike listening to the Sex Pistols. It's strange but Spike isn't that bad. We talk sometimes and he's really witty and he can be charming. Actually, both Angel and Spike know about my soul, neither seem to care.
Angel and I are together but to be honest I don't know how long that's going to last. He's been with Drusilla when he thought that I was asleep. I started to leave him but he found me and told me that it wouldn't happen again. I don't know if I believe him.
Well Angel should be home soon so I'm going to get going. Tell the gang that I love all of them. I hear some one so bye.
Your friend, Buffy
Dru walked in. Buffy shut the notebook and put it away. Spike stood when Dru came into the room. Buffy sighed lying back on the sofa. "Hello my Spike," Dru purred. She kissed him but Spike pulled away. She looked down obviously upset. "My Spikey doesn't want to play anymore."
"Not while you're playing with him Dru," Spike told her so quietly that only Dru could hear him. Dru glared at him and left.
"What did you say to her?" Buffy asked sitting back up.
Spike looked at her for a few seconds. Telling her would hurt Angel, it would make him pay but it would also make her leave. Spike didn't know if the girl could survive on her own. "Nothing luv," he said jovially. "You know Dru she always gets upset over nothing." Buffy nodded not seeming convinced.
"Spike I want to know if Angel lied to me," Buffy said after a few moments of silence.
"About what pet?" he asked
"Dru," Buffy said.
The one word hung in the air between them; it took Spike several moments to respond. "Slayer-" he said his voice soft. Then Angel walked in.
