She bowed again for the crowed and walked backstage where Riley was waiting
for her. She still hadn't had the time to break up with him. She planned on
doing it tonight, knowing it would break his heart. But there was no other
way. She had to do it and she hated breaking up with him. He was so sweet
and so caring and he loved her so much. Unfortunately for him she couldn't
respond to his feelings.
"Buffy honey you were great!" Riley hugged her and kissed her on her cheek.
"Yeah I was." , she said absently.
"What's the matter? Is something wrong?"
"No I'm just very tired, so could we please go home now?"
"What about Willow and the rest? We promised to have a drink with them afterwards your performance."
"I know but they'll understand. Can we go now?"
"Ok. I'll go and tell them that we're leaving."
Buffy sighed deeply. 'This is gonna be hard', she thought.
*****
"Hey Riley where's Buffy?' Willow asked him.
"Oh she's very tired so she's wants to go home. I hope you don't mind."
"No it's ok I'll tell the rest that you've left. We understand." 'Buffy isn't tired she just wanted to break up with him at a private place', she thought. 'Poor Riley, he has no idea what will be waiting for him when he gets home.'
"Ok see you tomorrow!"
"Yeah bye!" Riley walked away to where Buffy was waiting for him.
*****
Riley opened the door and let Buffy in. Buffy took of her jacked and Riley got it from her. She walked into the livingroom and paced around, waiting for Riley to come in and thinking of a way to break the news to him that she was still in love with her ex. The ex he never knew that existed. Hell he didn't even know that vampires had existed until a few years ago. "Riley I'm leaving you. I'm still in love with my ex." No not a good way to start.
Riley walked in and saw her pacing nervously to wrapped up in her own thoughts to notice him. "Buffy? What's wrong?"
She jumped a little. She didn't saw him coming in. 'Oh boy, here goes.'
"Uh Riley I need to tell you something. I think you should better sit down." "Why? What's the matter?" He looked carefully at her. "Oh my god you are going to stop with your career aren't you?"
"Riley-"
"Don't do it!! You are just so popular right now and what about the money you are earning right now. It would just-"
"Riley stop it!" She yelled, making him stop talking immediately. "I'm not going to quit singing, it's something else. About you and me."
"What? What about you and me? I thought you weren't ready for marriage yet? Are you now?" , he asked hopefully.
"No it's not that. I'm still not ready for marriage."
"Then what is wrong?"
Buffy slowly walked over to him and sat beside him on the couch laying her had on his knee. "Riley I've been thinking...About you and me. I..It just doesn't feel right anymore."
"Why? I thought we were doing great...Is there someone else?" He looked at her and saw her flinch slightly. "There is someone isn't it?"
She at him. "Yes..there is someone-"
"Who? Do I know him??"
"No, you don't know him. His name is Angel, he.he is my ex."
"What?!! Your ex??!" , Riley spat out. "I didn't even know you had an ex! Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because it was to hard, to painful and it still is. But I do know that I still love him, I'll always love him and I want him back. I'm sorry that you are the one that gets hurt in the process, I do care for you but-"
"But it's not enough, you care for me, but you don't love me. Not like you love him."
Buffy just nodded, unable to look at him and see the hurt look in his eyes.
"Why? Why now? Couldn't you just come to the conclusion that you loved him before you met me? God Buffy I thought you were the one. The one I wanted to grow old with. I love you. And now I find out that the girl I want to be with doesn't want to be with me, but with her ex. Pretty ironic, don't you think?"
"Riley-"
"Stop Riley-ing me!!" He spatted angrily.
It was silent for a couple of minutes. But then Riley thought of something.
"That Angel guy...he is the Angel in your song isn't he?"
Buffy looked up at him. "Yeah. He is"
"So you dated him 9 years ago?"
She nodded.
"But that would mean that you dated him in high school. When you were only 16."
Again she nodded.
"How do you know if your love is still the same? I mean you were just a kid when you met him."
"Riley, I wasn't stupid back then. I may have been only 16, but..I was very mature for my age and I already had gone through a lot. When I saw Angel for the first time it was love at first sight. For the both of us. We knew that we belonged together. But fate,... destiny and people were against us and tried to keep us from being together all the time. They finally succeeded almost 3 years later when it was almost at the end of my senior year. Angel then broke up with me saying he wanted me to have a..a better life with out him, with out no pain and angst. For 2 years I was alone mourning of him and when I met you..I really thought I was over him..but I only found out that I needed him even more than before. I pretended to myself to be happy and I believed I was for awhile but I am not..I'm sorry Riley. I'm sorry that it's you who gets hurt in the process. Find a girl who can truly loves you. I believe you will Riley because you are everything a girl wanted...Just not for me..I'm sorry Riley."
She got up and bent over to give him a kiss on the cheek. "Be happy Riley." She walked away and got her coat. "You can keep the apartment. Tomorrow when you're at work I will get my things. Bye." , and she walked out of the door.
Riley just sat there staring into space..
"Buffy honey you were great!" Riley hugged her and kissed her on her cheek.
"Yeah I was." , she said absently.
"What's the matter? Is something wrong?"
"No I'm just very tired, so could we please go home now?"
"What about Willow and the rest? We promised to have a drink with them afterwards your performance."
"I know but they'll understand. Can we go now?"
"Ok. I'll go and tell them that we're leaving."
Buffy sighed deeply. 'This is gonna be hard', she thought.
*****
"Hey Riley where's Buffy?' Willow asked him.
"Oh she's very tired so she's wants to go home. I hope you don't mind."
"No it's ok I'll tell the rest that you've left. We understand." 'Buffy isn't tired she just wanted to break up with him at a private place', she thought. 'Poor Riley, he has no idea what will be waiting for him when he gets home.'
"Ok see you tomorrow!"
"Yeah bye!" Riley walked away to where Buffy was waiting for him.
*****
Riley opened the door and let Buffy in. Buffy took of her jacked and Riley got it from her. She walked into the livingroom and paced around, waiting for Riley to come in and thinking of a way to break the news to him that she was still in love with her ex. The ex he never knew that existed. Hell he didn't even know that vampires had existed until a few years ago. "Riley I'm leaving you. I'm still in love with my ex." No not a good way to start.
Riley walked in and saw her pacing nervously to wrapped up in her own thoughts to notice him. "Buffy? What's wrong?"
She jumped a little. She didn't saw him coming in. 'Oh boy, here goes.'
"Uh Riley I need to tell you something. I think you should better sit down." "Why? What's the matter?" He looked carefully at her. "Oh my god you are going to stop with your career aren't you?"
"Riley-"
"Don't do it!! You are just so popular right now and what about the money you are earning right now. It would just-"
"Riley stop it!" She yelled, making him stop talking immediately. "I'm not going to quit singing, it's something else. About you and me."
"What? What about you and me? I thought you weren't ready for marriage yet? Are you now?" , he asked hopefully.
"No it's not that. I'm still not ready for marriage."
"Then what is wrong?"
Buffy slowly walked over to him and sat beside him on the couch laying her had on his knee. "Riley I've been thinking...About you and me. I..It just doesn't feel right anymore."
"Why? I thought we were doing great...Is there someone else?" He looked at her and saw her flinch slightly. "There is someone isn't it?"
She at him. "Yes..there is someone-"
"Who? Do I know him??"
"No, you don't know him. His name is Angel, he.he is my ex."
"What?!! Your ex??!" , Riley spat out. "I didn't even know you had an ex! Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because it was to hard, to painful and it still is. But I do know that I still love him, I'll always love him and I want him back. I'm sorry that you are the one that gets hurt in the process, I do care for you but-"
"But it's not enough, you care for me, but you don't love me. Not like you love him."
Buffy just nodded, unable to look at him and see the hurt look in his eyes.
"Why? Why now? Couldn't you just come to the conclusion that you loved him before you met me? God Buffy I thought you were the one. The one I wanted to grow old with. I love you. And now I find out that the girl I want to be with doesn't want to be with me, but with her ex. Pretty ironic, don't you think?"
"Riley-"
"Stop Riley-ing me!!" He spatted angrily.
It was silent for a couple of minutes. But then Riley thought of something.
"That Angel guy...he is the Angel in your song isn't he?"
Buffy looked up at him. "Yeah. He is"
"So you dated him 9 years ago?"
She nodded.
"But that would mean that you dated him in high school. When you were only 16."
Again she nodded.
"How do you know if your love is still the same? I mean you were just a kid when you met him."
"Riley, I wasn't stupid back then. I may have been only 16, but..I was very mature for my age and I already had gone through a lot. When I saw Angel for the first time it was love at first sight. For the both of us. We knew that we belonged together. But fate,... destiny and people were against us and tried to keep us from being together all the time. They finally succeeded almost 3 years later when it was almost at the end of my senior year. Angel then broke up with me saying he wanted me to have a..a better life with out him, with out no pain and angst. For 2 years I was alone mourning of him and when I met you..I really thought I was over him..but I only found out that I needed him even more than before. I pretended to myself to be happy and I believed I was for awhile but I am not..I'm sorry Riley. I'm sorry that it's you who gets hurt in the process. Find a girl who can truly loves you. I believe you will Riley because you are everything a girl wanted...Just not for me..I'm sorry Riley."
She got up and bent over to give him a kiss on the cheek. "Be happy Riley." She walked away and got her coat. "You can keep the apartment. Tomorrow when you're at work I will get my things. Bye." , and she walked out of the door.
Riley just sat there staring into space..
