Chapter 2 - It's All My Fault!
Disclaimer - I forgot to do this last time but do any of you really think that I own DBZ? If you do, you must have serious mental problems
Oh yeah, thanks Jennie for reviewing my fic, because I really didn't expect any reviews. But, thanks! * Runs to Jennie and gives her a hug *
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Gohan flew until he reached the place that haunted him the most. The desert where he had eventually killed Cell and where his Tousan had died.
Gohan landed on the hot, sandy ground, shaking the thought out of his head. He was wondering why no grass had started to grow back, as the big wide plain hadn't always been a desert. He wiped away his tears and gazed at what lay before him.
He didn't know exactly why he always came back to the terrible place. Just looking around him reminded him of what had happened two weeks ago.
Instead of the hot, musty smell of the desert, he smelt blood. The desert winds that carried sand along with them sounded like Cell's maniacal laughing, and everywhere he looked Cell would appear in front of him, taunting and teasing.
Cell pointed at Gohan and laughing he said, "So you finally were able to defeat me bozu! You were stupid, however! You should have listened to your father, but no you just wanted to make me suffer. Well, Son Gohan, you have caused suffering, but not to me. You have caused it to your dear friends, your Kaasan and especially your Tousan!"
Gohan's tears started to roll down his face again. He clenched his fists and shouted, "You're lying Cell! Tousan said that it wasn't my fault and that he was proud of me for overcoming you!"
Cell shook his head and smirked, "Oh Son Gohan, how can you say that I am lying when you believe that it is your fault that your Tousan died. It is your fault still, if you had of killed me earlier your Tousan would still be alive!"
Gohan closed his eyes and shouted even louder, "Shut up! How would you even know what I am feeling right now?!"
"Because it shows so easily by your face. I always watch you, when you are eating, studying, sleeping even, and all those times you have been crying. The only time you don't cry is when you are in your Kaasan's presence. She is mad at you and hates you. She only hides it because she cannot get rid of you!"
Gohan took a step forward, his eyes still closed and cried, "Take that back! Kaasan loves me and always will no matter what!"
Cell crossed his arms and said quietly but with a tone that would scare even the bravest of warriors, "Your Tousan also hates you. I see him all the time, and he and I are the best of friends. He is always training, and when he gets the chance he said that he would kill you himself. Every time I say your name he becomes irate and shoots a ki blast at me. So you see, you are the one that has been defeated!"
Gohan couldn't take it any longer. He lunged forward at Cell with his fist and screamed. The image of Cell disappeared and Gohan crashed into the ground because of the speed and force that he had put into the attack. He coughed as dust billowed around him.
Piccolo had been watching from the sky after he had sensed Gohan fleeing from his Kaasan. To him, it had looked like Gohan was shouting and then had attacked the air only to come crashing into the ground.
He has gone crazy. Who could he possibly of been shouting at if no one was standing there? He did say Cell
Piccolo's trail of thoughts ended as he saw Gohan sitting on the ground crying. Piccolo slowly descended towards the ground. As he landed, Gohan looked up at him with tears streaming down his face.
Piccolo narrowed his eyes and said, "What's wrong Gohan? First, you leave your Kaasan in such a hurry and then I see you shouting and then attacking nothing!"
Gohan sniffed and replied, "I keep on seeing Cell everywhere. He mocks and teases me! He keeps on saying that everyone hates me, especially Tousan. I can't make him go away, all I can do is to try and ignore him."
"You're having illusions of Cell? But why, you killed him," Piccolo said in a concerned tone.
"I don't know! I want to make him go away, but I can't!" Gohan sobbed.
Piccolo thought for a moment and asked, "Are you feeling any negative feelings at the moment?
Gohan nodded his head, "Hai. I feel guilt for the death of Tousan, because it was my fault."
Piccolo crossed his arms and replied, "It is not your fault Gohan. Things could have been worse if you had killed Cell earlier."
Gohan stood up abruptly and whispered harshly, "What could have possibly been worse than killing my Tousan! At least Kaasan wouldn't have had to suffer, and neither would anyone else. Kaasan lost her husband, Kuririn would still have his best friend, Vegeta would still have a strong desire to fight and most of all, I would still have my Tousan. Nobody and nothing can change what I have done."
Piccolo was frustrated now and shouted, "Will you stop blaming yourself?! Your Tousan said himself that it was not your fault, isn't that enough proof?!"
Gohan tensed and then shouted, "CAN'T YOU SEE THAT THE ONLY REASON HE SAID THAT WAS TO HIDE THE TRUTH?! I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE FOR ALL THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSED EVERYONE! IT'S ALL MY FAULT!"
Gohan started to scream as his ki increased dramatically. Piccolo had to look away and shield himself as a Gohan transformed into Super Saiya-jin. Gohan continued to scream as he had lost all self restraint and control, and began to transform to the form beyond Super Saiya-jin. His golden hair turned upright and his muscles bulged. His ki finally erupted in a bright flash that temporarily blinded Piccolo.
Before Gohan could think about what he was doing, he lunged forward and kicked Piccolo, causing him to crash into a canyon nearby. Then he flew off at an amazing speed, leaving Piccolo unconscious.
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Well that's all for Chapter 2. Please review, as I'd like to see if I need to improve on anything.
