Chapter 4 - Loneliness
Disclamier - I don't own DBZ, no duh!
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The meaner-looking boy spat at the ground near Gohan's hand and said, "You should know that baka! I am you, and so is he!" He pointed to the boy wearing glasses.
The other boy smiled at Gohan and said kindly, "What he means is that he is the Saiya-jin inside of you, and I am the human. That's why you can't fly!"
"What do you mean?"
The Saiya-jin shouted, "We are you, don't you get it?! Without us, you have no personality or skills, you don't even exist!"
"But why are you here? What do you want with me?" Gohan asked. He wasn't feeling very comfortable talking to two boys that claimed that they were him.
The human sat next to Gohan and started to explain, "We have seen how you have been so depressed lately. We think that the only solution is for you to decide if you want to be a Chikyuusei-jin or a Saiya-jin, and we want to help you decide that!"
Gohan was feeling very uncomfortable now. Why should he choose one over the other? It didn't make any sense! Plus, how could he be talking to his own personalities?
"Except that I'm going to win!" the Saiya-jin boasted, pointing to himself.
The human jumped up and argued back, "No you're not! Gohan hates fighting, why would he want to be like you?"
"BECAUSE! Why would he want to be a weak, pathetic human that can't even defend himself?"
"Whom are you calling weak! Kuririn's pretty strong and he's a human!"
"I could kill him in a second!"
Gohan sweat dropped. You'd never think that they are me
"Well, you can't kill him so too bad! It's up to Gohan." the human poked his tongue out at the Saiya-jin and turned towards Gohan.
"Err I don't know."
The Saiya-jin looked down at the ground in deep thought. He then pointed to the human and said in a suprisingly calm voice, "Well, he is always scared and doesn't react when he should. Remember all the times that you have let everyone down because you have been too scared Gohan? Think of all those times! Radditz, Nappa, the Ginyu Force, I could go on forever!"
Gohan looked down at the ground, his eyes quivering with shame. It was true, many times his friends had become hurt or even died because of him.
"See?! Even now you know that it was your fault! That was also the reason why you turned Super Saiya-jin, because you were enraged at yourself for always letting everyone down, and being so dependent. If you chose to stay a Saiya-jin, you would always be brave, and wouldn't that be better for your Kaasan?"
Gohan continued to stare at the ground. What the Saiya-jin was saying was very true indeed.
The human then stepped forward and gazed down at Gohan. He noticed that Gohan wasn't looking at him, but he continued anyway, "Even though those are all good points, your Saiya-jin side is also a letdown. When he is in control, he overreacts! He doesn't think before he acts, and that is always a terrible habit to have. The reason why your Tousan died was because your Saiya-jin side took control and acted foolishly. He simply toyed around with Cell, when he could have killed him much earlier. Also, you know that many have told you that you have a hidden power. This power is unleashed only when you are angered, and it results in a dramatic increase of ki and cunning. Of course, that is when the Saiya-jin side has full control over you. Even though that can be a good thing when fighting enemies, it doesn't last forever, and you usually end up not knowing what you had just done and are disorientated. That gives your enemy time to attack."
That's just as bad as my human side, in fact, even worse. At least all of those other times we were eventually able to revive those that had died. But Tousan is gone forever, and will probably never come back.
Gohan was becoming angry again. He clenched his fists and struck the ground repeatedly, all the while shouting, "IT'S ALL MY FAULT! IT'S ALL MY FAULT!"
The Saiya-jin walked up to Gohan and swatted his face with his tail. He smirked and questioned, "So have you come to a conclusion? You better choose now, because we will not give you this opportunity again!"
Gohan looked up into the eyes of his Saiya-jin half, his mouth drawn back in a snarl and shouted, "WHAT'S THE POINT OF CHOOSING?! EITHER WAY I, AM A COMPETE FAILURE!!!!!!!!"
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Gohan sat up in surprise. He was sweating and panting heavily, and he felt as if he had used up all of his ki.
It was all just a dream? But it seemed so real! Still, it has shown me that I am a complete failure. I will do no good to anyone here on Chikuu-sei! Gohan realized what he must do. He gathered up his ki and flew away from the rain forest.
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Gohan was going to visit his Kaasan just one more time before he would leave. He saw his house in the distance and landed in the forest nearby. He then noticed that he had landed outside the cave of one of his old friends, Haiya-Dragon.
Gohan walked into the cave, expecting Haiya-Dragon to come rushing out to greet him. But not a sound could be heard. Even the birds outside were hushed. Gohan shivered as he didn't like the eerie silence. He walked further into the cave until he saw Haiya-Dragon sleeping on his side. Gohan tiptoed towards the dragon, wondering if he would wake up. But he didn't. He was so close to Haiya-Dragon now that he was wondering why the little dragon hadn't smelt his presence.
"Haiya-Dragon!" Gohan whispered.
Haiya-Dragon did not budge. Gohan looked at his friend intently and noticed that he wasn't moving at all, not even breathing. He stepped back in shock, but then remembered all those times when Haiya-Dragon had tricked him into thinking that he was dead. Then he would jump up and knock Gohan over playfully.
Gohan grinned and said softly, "No pranks Haiya-Dragon! I know that you're pretending!"
Still the dragon did not move. Gohan's grin turned into a concerned frown as he tried to shake Haiya-Dragon. The instant he touched the dragon's scaly back, his hand was burnt. Gohan yelped and pulled back his hand. It wasn't heat that had burned the half Saiya-jin half Chikyuusei-jin hybrid, but the freezing cold of Haiya-Dragon's hide. Gohan knew that dragons were cold-blooded and that they usually felt cold. But never as cold as Haiya-Dragon was now.
He then realized that the only time when dragons became so cold, was when they were dead. Gohan fell to his knees, staring at Haiya-Dragon's lifeless body in disbelief. He couldn't believe it, one of his oldest and closest friends was now dead. Tears welled up in his eyes as he tried to hold them back, but failed.
"HAIYA-DRAGON!" he cried. He was sobbing uncontrollably, his grief overcoming him.
I should have come to visit you before the Cell Games, but I didn't! The last time I actually did visit you was a day before the Jinzouningens appeared That was so long ago! You weren't even very old for a dragon, in fact, you were just a baby! You must have died of loneliness. Oh, Haiya-Dragon!
"Gohan?" a voice asked from outside the cave.
"Go away!" Gohan wailed.
The person who owned the voice slowly walked into the cave. He saw Gohan on his knees, crying. He then saw that in front of Gohan was a little, purple dragon that wasn't moving. He gasped, That was the little dragon that Gohan befriended so many years ago! But now he's dead!
Gohan stood up off of the ground, still sobbing. He turned around and glared at the person who had dared to disturb him. Couldn't the stupid yaro see that Gohan wanted to be alone? Gohan's eyes then widened in surprise as he saw another one of his old friends, Kuririn. "Kuririn-san?"
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*Sniff* I really did cry when I read this chapter. It's just so sad! Well, that's what I think happened because the last time we ever see Haiya-Dragon was during the Garlic Jr Saga. Please review!
