Thoughts

Chapter 5 - Disappearance

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Kuririn walked cautiously over to Gohan, as he knew that Gohan was indeed upset and could have been angry. Gohan looked down at Haiya-Dragon through the corners of his eyes. Tears appeared yet again and he fell to the ground, weeping. Kuririn placed his hand on Gohan's back, trying to be of reassurance. He had heard that Gohan had ran away from home and that he had injured Piccolo quite badly, but why did this have to happen also?

Kuririn tried to give a fake smile, but it didn't work very well. Softly he said, "I'm sorry Gohan. He probably was just old."

Gohan looked up at Kuririn and cried, "He wasn't old! He was actually very young, dragons are about the size of a small house when they are considered old! He died of loneliness, I just know it! I didn't visit him any time after the Jinzouningens arrived!" By then, Gohan was so overcome with heartache that he couldn't even talk. It wasn't just Haiya-Dragon. Nearly everyone Gohan had ever known had had something terrible happen to them. He was now even more determined to leave.

Kuririn then said, in a still gentle tone, "Come and visit your Kaasan Gohan. She misses you terribly, and has a surprise for you."

I don't care about any surprises! I just want to say good bye to Kaasan and leave! Even though Gohan wasn't in the mood for any surprises, he nodded and left to go home for the last time.

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Gohan walked through the doorway to his home with Kuririn following closely behind. He was a little taken back that his Kaasan hadn't come running to him and hugged him so hard that he couldn't breathe. Kuririn then led Gohan to his Kaasan's bedroom. What happened? Oh please Kami, let Kaasan be all right!

What Gohan saw was not what he had expected. Everyone that he knew was standing around his Kaasan's bed. Strangely Juuhachigou was also there, why she was Gohan did not know.

Then he saw his Kaasan, sitting up in her bed and holding something. When she noticed Gohan, she didn't get out of bed to go running to him like he thought but she did say, "Gohan-chan! Thank Kami, you're all right!"

Gohan looked curiously at the bundle in his Kaasan's arms and asked, "What's that?"

His Kaasan smiled happily at what she was holding and motioned for Gohan to come closer. Gohan walked towards the bed, a feeling of curiosity and fear spreading through him. He didn't know why he was afraid, but he knew that he was very curious to know what the bundle was. "Gohan-chan, this is Goten. He's your new Ototochan!"

Gohan blinked his eyes in surprise and leaned over to see his little brother. Goten looked up at him and smiled, giggling happily. Gohan gasped and stepped back a few steps. He looks just like Tousan! Particularly his hair! But why, why must everyone and everything remind me of Tousan? I already know it's my fault, they don't have to keep on reminding me! He continued to back away, eventually bumping into Juuhachigou. She growled in annoyance, but he ignored it. All he could see was his Kaasan looking at him and holding Goten in her arms. Goten, the little infant who looked so much like Son Goku, stared at Gohan curiously. He backed away one more step and announced, "Sayonara Okaasan!"

His Kaasan was started and trembled. "Go han" Gohan looked at his Kaasan for the last time, and fled. He rushed through the front door and as he heard his Kaasan screaming, "Gohan!", he intensified his ki.

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Gohan knew that he had to get it over and done with now, otherwise he would never get the chance. He flew until he had reached his destination, Yunzabito Heights. He had never been there before and had only heard about it from Bulma-san and some books he had read. It was said to be the end of the Earth, even though that wasn't true, and was also very cold and barren. It was a perfect place for Gohan to end his life, so that he would no longer have to face such torment and struggle. And he wouldn't be such a disappointment to everyone he knew.

He hovered above the forlorn cliffs, looking for something that he could use. He eventually found a sword lying on the ground, and examined it carefully. It had a handle strangely made out of marble with carvings of Porunga and the seven Dragonballs surrounding him. Gohan came to a conclusion that this was once the old Kami-sama's sword, when he had still been very young and had not yet split himself into two halves. Gohan found it very peculiar that such an old sword was completely rust-free, and was as shiny and sharp as a brand new sword.

Gohan mentally slapped himself as he realized that he was stalling. He picked up the blade and aimed it at his heart, but hesitated as he sensed many ki's flying towards him. He lowered the sword but kept a hold of it, trying to sense who the ki's belonged to.

Before he could identify them, Vegeta, Piccolo and Kuririn landed, surrounding Gohan so he couldn't escape. Piccolo noticed the sword and recognized it straight away. He then realized that Gohan had almost killed himself with it, and trembled. Kuririn noticed it soon after and also started to tremble. Vegeta simply stared at Gohan with his emotionless eyes, trying to figure out a way to destroy the sword.

Even though he knew they were trying to help him, Gohan glared at the others and said angrily, but with an even tone, "Leave me now! Don't you see that I don't want to live any more?!"

Kuririn shuddered as he didn't like it when Gohan used that tone. He put out his hands in a 'stop' gesture, and pleaded, "Please put the sword down Gohan. We can talk about this!"

"There's nothing to talk about!" Why wouldn't they just leave him in peace?!

Vegeta spat at the ground and said in almost exactly the same tone as Gohan, "Of course there's something to talk about yaro, otherwise you wouldn't be trying to kill yourself!"

Gohan focused his attention on Vegeta and said, "Don't talk to me like that!"

Vegeta uncrossed his arms and shouted, "You shouldn't talk to me like that! You are of a much lower rank than me gaki!"

Piccolo growled and said as calmly as he could, "Don't push it Vegeta. You know what will happen if you infuriate Gohan."

Just then, Dende and Mr. Popo landed on the ground behind Gohan on Mr. Popo's magic carpet.

Gohan looked over his shoulder and cursed, "Kuso!" Things were becoming very difficult. If he stabbed himself, Dende would just heal him.

Dende then cried out, "Don't do it Gohan! There's no point in committing suicide!"

Gohan was really becoming annoyed. Nobody could see that without him, Chiykuu-sei would be a much better place. Everybody always seemed to suffer because of him, so why not just end it now?!

Gohan screamed as his sable eyes turned into a cold, aqua color and his hair turned golden. He then shouted so loud that he caused the ground to shake, "HOW CAN I FORGET ABOUT WHAT I HAVE DONE?! EVERYONE ALWAYS SUFFERS BECAUSE OF ME!"

Everybody cringed at the pitch of Gohan's voice. He then disappeared right before their eyes.

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I really like doing cliffhangers now! Hehe. Now, I know I usually update really fast, but that was because I had been typing this while Fanfiction.net was down. So the next update might be a little of a wait, but don't despair! I will update as soon as I can!