Thoughts

Chapter 10 - Happiness

Disclaimer - I don't own DBZ, though it would be nice

Hi everyone! I'm so sorry that I took so long to update, but I wasn't really inspired to write. I'm OK now though, and was finally able to finish this chapter off! Hope you like it, and please review!

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"Hmm?" Goku looked over his shoulder, as if someone had tapped him.

Kaio-Sama turned around and asked, "What is it Goku?"

Goku, who was still staring over his shoulder, said quietly, "I can sense Gohan's ki. He's with Lord Enma."

Kaio-Sama's eyebrows knitted and he said, "But that would mean that Gohan is"

"Dead." Goku finished. He turned back to face Kaio Sama, his face very sombre, and placed his fingers on his forehead.

Kaio-Sama put out his hands and said, "Wait!"

But Goku had already vanished.

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Goku felt his surroundings change as he was suddenly in front of Lord Enma's broad desk. Lord Enma was leaning over and talking to Gohan, who had his fists clenched.

Goku gasped as he saw what he had not wanted to see. A golden halo was floating above Gohan's head.

Lord Enma looked up as he heard Goku gasp and said, "Konnichwa Son Goku!"

Gohan tensed, and slowly turned around. When he saw his Tousan, his eyes widened and he said softly, "Otousan"

Goku ran over to Gohan, and placing his hands on Gohan's shoulders asked, "What happened? Is there a new enemy?"

Gohan's eyes narrowed and he replied, "Iie, Otousan. I killed myself."

Goku was startled and loosened his grip. He stepped back from Gohan and stammered, "Na Nani?! Gohan, why would you do such a thing?"

Gohan's face remained emotionless, and he answered softly, "Because it's my fault that you died Otousan. Lord Enma just informed me that Kaio-Sama and his pets also were killed. Is that true?"

Goku's eyebrows lowered and he nodded grimly, "I had to take Cell to his planet, because I couldn't think of any other possible place."

Gohan looked at the ground and whispered so softly that Goku hardly heard him, "So it's even worse than I thought it was. I killed more than two people."

Lord Enma cleared his throat, as Goku and Gohan had seemed to have forgotten that he was there, "Maybe you should both talk about this outside."

Gohan nodded before Goku could reply, and walked quickly outside. Goku followed slowly, still in shock over what Gohan had done.

As soon as Gohan stopped a few metres away, Goku said, "Gohan, it wasn't your fault. If it weren't for you, we would all be dead right now."

Gohan turned to face his Tousan and saw compassion in his eyes. He began to feel his guilt slipping away, but then he remembered that his Tousan was dead. He looked down at the ground and said sternly, "I could have prevented Cell from blowing up though. I could have killed him straight away like you said, but instead I was a fool."

Goku made no reply. Gohan looked up into his Tousan's eyes to see why he hadn't responded. Unexpectedly, Gohan was slapped by his Tousan, who looked very angry.

"You were not a fool, Gohan, for killing Cell. You were a fool for killing yourself! Just imagine all the pain your Kaasan must be going through at the moment!"

Gohan was in frightened. His Tousan had only struck him once before unintentionally, and that was because he was going to storm off to save Piccolo-san. Piccolo Gohan's fear was wiped from his face and he shouted back, "You don't understand Otousan! I destroyed the Northern Capital, and killed many innocent people without feeling any regret! I almost killed Vegeta and Piccolo-san! And worst of all, I kicked Okaasan! How could I have done that to her?! She was afraid of me, Otousan! She told me to stay away!"

Goku looked at his son, who had tears forming in his eyes. Goku then said, with a soft tone, "Why Gohan? Why did you do those horrible things?"

"I DON'T KNOW!" Tears were rolling down Gohan's cheeks. He sat on the ground, pulled his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them, and cried.

Goku bent down next to Gohan and said, "Gohan, please listen to me. It wasn't your fault."

Gohan looked up at his Tousan, tears' glistening.

"If you are feeling anger at yourself because you think that I'm mad at you, I'm not. I am very proud of you for killing Cell, Gohan, and I will never blame you for what happened. It's Cell's fault, not yours."

Gohan sniffed, and flung himself into his Tousan's arms. Goku was caught by surprise, but then hugged his son back. The father and son embraced each other, as Gohan cried into his Tousan's shoulder.

"But all those other bad things Otousan, how will anyone ever be able to forgive me?" Gohan cried.

Goku then said, "Don't worry Gohan, they'll forgive you. It isn't your fault that you did all of those horrendous, you were just acting out of anger towards Cell."

Gohan pulled away from his Tousan and nodded, his tears starting to disappear.

"We can wish back all of those who died with the Dragonballs, and you can be wished back also since now Shenlong can grant two wishes. Shall we tell the others?" Goku asked, a smile creeping up on his face.

Gohan's last tear fell from his cheek to the ground. He smiled happily and nodded, "Hai!"

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Oh! *Tears of happiness appear* That is so sweet! Oh yeah, um sorry, err, please review!