SUMMARY: A Jen/Dawson fic. Not set in any particular time but Pacey & Joey
are together & Dawson is fine with it.
DISCLAIMER: The usual.
PART ONE
"Ugh, I look so hippy." Jen Lindley moaned, looking at herself in the department store's mirror.
Joey Potter laughed as she pushed her long dark hair out of her eyes.
"If you're hippy, then I'm Ronald McDonald!" Joey exclaimed.
"You have child bearing hips, Jen." Pacey Witter added with a smirk.
"Gee thanks, Witter!" Jen drawled sarcastically, punching him on the arm. "I feel much better now!"
Pacey mocked hurt and fell to the ground.
"Get up!" Joey said as she dragged him back up.
The three friends laughed as they walked out into the mall to meet Dawson Leery. Jen saw him before the others and called out to him.
"Hey blondie!" she yelled.
Dawson waved and walked over to them.
"Hey!" he greeted, shaking Pacey's hand and giving Joey a kiss on her cheek.
He gave Jen a pat on the back and Jen sighed. As they walked on, Jen followed slightly behind. She didn't understand how she could feel like a third wheel by being with two males and a female. But that's how she always felt when she hung out with Joey, Pacey and Dawson.
Jen wondered what it was about Joey that enabled her to attract all the boys while Jen was constantly left out in the cold. Jen watched as Pacey grabbed Joey's hand, and Dawson kept doting on her. Jen sighed again. Couldn't Dawson see how much in love with him Jen was? Did he just not want her?
Joey suddenly turned around and said to Jen. "Hey, why are you trailing behind us?"
Jen tried to laugh. "I don't have as long legs as you guys do!"
They all laughed until a tall man stopped them in their path.
"Hi." he started, handing a card to Joey. "I'm from the Ford International Modelling Agency."
Joey raised her eyebrows but said nothing.
"We're holding a modelling contest to find the brand new face of Ford." he continued. "I saw you walking down the mall and thought to myself, that is her!"
Joey blushed and Dawson and Pacey had big grins spread across their faces.
"Me?" Joey asked in surprise. "What about Jen?"
The man looked at Jen then back at Joey. "You're what we have in mind. Tall, slim, long dark hair, fair complexion. The vision of perfectness! Your name?"
"Joey." Joey answered.
"Please think about this carefully and give me a call."
The man walked away while Dawson and Pacey gave Joey hugs. Jen looked away trying not to look upset.
"Wow! Joey the next Cindy Crawford!" Pacey grinned.
Dawson kissed Joey on the cheek again. "I knew it wasn't just me who thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world."
Pacey nudged Dawson aside. "Hey that's my girl!"
Dawson laughed. "I know but I own part of her heart."
Joey blushed and Jen frowned. Why did everyone fawn over her? What was it?
"Are we going now?" Jen asked, almost too sharply.
Pacey, Dawson and Joey looked at Jen as if they only just realised she was with them.
"Sure......" Pacey said and they all walked on. ***************** Jen stood sideways in front of her bedroom mirror and lifted her t-shirt up. She frowned then sucked her stomach in. She frowned again and tried to suck her stomach in further.
"How did I get so fat?" Jen asked herself.
Suddenly Grams called her from downstairs for dinner. Jen sighed and walked downstairs. Her stomach grumbled as she sat down. Grams placed a plate of chicken and noodles in front of Jen and then sat down across from Jen with her own plate.
"How was your day, Jennifer?" Grams asked politely.
"Fine." Jen mumbled as she scooped some of the noodles up into her mouth.
"Please don't speak with your mouth open, Jennifer." Grams admonished.
Jen screwed her face up and kept eating while Grams just sighed. Grams tried to engage Jen in conversation but Jen simply answered in mono- syllables until she'd finished her meal.
"Thanks, that was delicious Grams." Jen said as she ran up the stairs to her room.
After closing the door firmly behind her, Jen continued through to her little ensuite bathroom. She turned the shower on full blast then bent down in front of the toilet.
Jen took a couple of deep breaths then stuck her index finger deep into her throat. She gagged and finally brought up the contents of her dinner. After feeling satisfied, she flushed the toilet and turned the shower off. She then went back into her bedroom to look at herself in the mirror.
"Soon I'll be as slim and pretty as Joey and then Dawson will love me." Jen said, proud of herself. ***************** Jen whistled as she placed a small container of salad on her tray then left the queue to find her friends. She spotted Joey, Pacey, Andie & Jack sitting together so she headed over to join them. As she got closer she heard them talking about Joey's modelling career. Jen frowned.
".......and then he told Joey to call him!" Pacey was saying excitedly. "So what do you think she should do?"
Jen put her tray down beside Jack and sat.
"I think she should go for it!" Andie exclaimed.
Jack smiled at Jen when she sat down. "Hey Jen!"
Joey smiled. "I don't know. Modelling isn't really my thing. I think Jen should do it."
Pacey grinned. "But Jen has child bearing hips! He said he wanted someone slim and tall."
Everyone laughed & Jen pretended to smile but inside she felt sick.
"Don't be rude, Pace." Joey said as she kicked him under the table.
Pacey kicked Joey back which started a footsie war between the two of them. Jen rolled her eyes and picked at her salad.
Jack watched Jen for a few seconds then said. "Are you okay Jen?"
Jen forced a smile. "Yeah I'm fine."
Suddenly Jen looked up & spotted Dawson enter the cafeteria. He was talking to Nikki and waving his arms around. Nikki laughed then put her hand on Dawson's arm. Dawson grinned down at her.
'Does he flirt with everyone except me?' Jen thought to herself.
Before Dawson arrived at their table, Jen stood up and left the cafeteria. She headed straight for the ladies and closed the door behind her. Again she placed her finger down her throat and brought up the small amount of salad she'd eaten.
"God, I'm fat." Jen said as she examined herself in the mirror.
She changed into her Gym gear and left the Ladies. She headed down to the track and started running around the oval. *************** "Aren't you having dinner?" Grams asked as Jen ran out the door.
"I'll have something at Dawson's." Jen called over her shoulder as she left the house.
She caught the bus to the local Gym. When Jen got there, she jumped onto the treadmill and started running. She was so focused on what she was doing that she didn't notice as Jack came up to her an hour later.
"Jen, fancy seeing you here!" Jack grinned.
Jen looked up at Jack. "Hi." she panted as she kept running.
"How long have you been on this thing? Your face is bright red."
"Not long." Jen panted. "I'll get off in a minute."
"Don't strain yourself." Jack answered and as he headed over to the weights machine he added, "You know, you're looking really thin lately."
Jen nodded to Jack and kept running. She was desperate to shed as much fat as she could.
Finally she was so exhausted she had to stop. She switched the treadmill off and stepped onto the floor. Immediately she felt woozy and had to grab the machine for support.
"Are you okay, miss?" a gym instructor asked her.
Jen nodded as she gasped for air. "I'm fine."
As the gym instructor walked away, Jen felt a wave of dizziness come over her and she sat down with her head between her legs. Jack immediately ran over to her.
"Jen, Jen, are you okay?"
Jen nodded as she lifted her head up. Her face was deathly pale and she had dark circles under her eyes.
Jack still had the worried look on his face. "Jen you look terrible. Have a drink of water."
Jen frowned at Jack as she stood up. She already knew she looked terrible. Did he need to rub it in. She abruptly pulled her arm from him.
"I'm fine, Jack." she insisted.
She walked over to the drink fountain and drank in large gulps. When she stopped, the water sat uncomfortably in her empty stomach. She fled the gym with Jack watching her, concerned.
As soon as she made it to the ladies Jen bent down in front of the toilet. She didn't even need to stick her finger down her throat anymore to bring everything up.
Jen looked down at herself. She felt revolting.
"Why can't I lose weight?" she moaned to herself.
She staggered to her feet and left the ladies. She jogged all the way home. *************** Jen woke up early the next morning. She wanted to go for a quick jog down to the docks before starting school. She attempted to lift herself off her bed but her legs and arms felt like they had lead weights on the end of them.
Jen dragged herself out of bed and dressed in an pair of grey sweats. She tiredly climbed down the stairs to the front door.
"Jennifer." she heard Grams call from the kitchen. "You'll come and eat breakfast before you leave this house."
Jen groaned as she turned around and headed to the kitchen. Just the smell of the hot pancakes and syrup was making her feel sick. She forced herself to eat 2 pancakes then just made it to the toilet before she threw it all up.
As she left the house, Dawson called to her from where he was watering his garden. Jen raised her arm in a half-hearted wave as she started jogging towards the docks.
It was becoming increasingly harder for her to keep her arms up. A buzzing noise started in her head and Jen shook it to make the noise go away.
She reached the docks and looked around her. It was completely empty. Jen leaned against one of the poles. She was completely exhausted and didn't think she could move a muscle.
She noticed her shoe laces untied so she began to bend down to tie them up. Dizziness suddenly overcame Jen and she tried to get her bearings by standing up again. She blindly reached for the pole before falling unconscious. Her body missed the deck and fell straight into the water.
She lay floating face down in the creek.
PART ONE
"Ugh, I look so hippy." Jen Lindley moaned, looking at herself in the department store's mirror.
Joey Potter laughed as she pushed her long dark hair out of her eyes.
"If you're hippy, then I'm Ronald McDonald!" Joey exclaimed.
"You have child bearing hips, Jen." Pacey Witter added with a smirk.
"Gee thanks, Witter!" Jen drawled sarcastically, punching him on the arm. "I feel much better now!"
Pacey mocked hurt and fell to the ground.
"Get up!" Joey said as she dragged him back up.
The three friends laughed as they walked out into the mall to meet Dawson Leery. Jen saw him before the others and called out to him.
"Hey blondie!" she yelled.
Dawson waved and walked over to them.
"Hey!" he greeted, shaking Pacey's hand and giving Joey a kiss on her cheek.
He gave Jen a pat on the back and Jen sighed. As they walked on, Jen followed slightly behind. She didn't understand how she could feel like a third wheel by being with two males and a female. But that's how she always felt when she hung out with Joey, Pacey and Dawson.
Jen wondered what it was about Joey that enabled her to attract all the boys while Jen was constantly left out in the cold. Jen watched as Pacey grabbed Joey's hand, and Dawson kept doting on her. Jen sighed again. Couldn't Dawson see how much in love with him Jen was? Did he just not want her?
Joey suddenly turned around and said to Jen. "Hey, why are you trailing behind us?"
Jen tried to laugh. "I don't have as long legs as you guys do!"
They all laughed until a tall man stopped them in their path.
"Hi." he started, handing a card to Joey. "I'm from the Ford International Modelling Agency."
Joey raised her eyebrows but said nothing.
"We're holding a modelling contest to find the brand new face of Ford." he continued. "I saw you walking down the mall and thought to myself, that is her!"
Joey blushed and Dawson and Pacey had big grins spread across their faces.
"Me?" Joey asked in surprise. "What about Jen?"
The man looked at Jen then back at Joey. "You're what we have in mind. Tall, slim, long dark hair, fair complexion. The vision of perfectness! Your name?"
"Joey." Joey answered.
"Please think about this carefully and give me a call."
The man walked away while Dawson and Pacey gave Joey hugs. Jen looked away trying not to look upset.
"Wow! Joey the next Cindy Crawford!" Pacey grinned.
Dawson kissed Joey on the cheek again. "I knew it wasn't just me who thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world."
Pacey nudged Dawson aside. "Hey that's my girl!"
Dawson laughed. "I know but I own part of her heart."
Joey blushed and Jen frowned. Why did everyone fawn over her? What was it?
"Are we going now?" Jen asked, almost too sharply.
Pacey, Dawson and Joey looked at Jen as if they only just realised she was with them.
"Sure......" Pacey said and they all walked on. ***************** Jen stood sideways in front of her bedroom mirror and lifted her t-shirt up. She frowned then sucked her stomach in. She frowned again and tried to suck her stomach in further.
"How did I get so fat?" Jen asked herself.
Suddenly Grams called her from downstairs for dinner. Jen sighed and walked downstairs. Her stomach grumbled as she sat down. Grams placed a plate of chicken and noodles in front of Jen and then sat down across from Jen with her own plate.
"How was your day, Jennifer?" Grams asked politely.
"Fine." Jen mumbled as she scooped some of the noodles up into her mouth.
"Please don't speak with your mouth open, Jennifer." Grams admonished.
Jen screwed her face up and kept eating while Grams just sighed. Grams tried to engage Jen in conversation but Jen simply answered in mono- syllables until she'd finished her meal.
"Thanks, that was delicious Grams." Jen said as she ran up the stairs to her room.
After closing the door firmly behind her, Jen continued through to her little ensuite bathroom. She turned the shower on full blast then bent down in front of the toilet.
Jen took a couple of deep breaths then stuck her index finger deep into her throat. She gagged and finally brought up the contents of her dinner. After feeling satisfied, she flushed the toilet and turned the shower off. She then went back into her bedroom to look at herself in the mirror.
"Soon I'll be as slim and pretty as Joey and then Dawson will love me." Jen said, proud of herself. ***************** Jen whistled as she placed a small container of salad on her tray then left the queue to find her friends. She spotted Joey, Pacey, Andie & Jack sitting together so she headed over to join them. As she got closer she heard them talking about Joey's modelling career. Jen frowned.
".......and then he told Joey to call him!" Pacey was saying excitedly. "So what do you think she should do?"
Jen put her tray down beside Jack and sat.
"I think she should go for it!" Andie exclaimed.
Jack smiled at Jen when she sat down. "Hey Jen!"
Joey smiled. "I don't know. Modelling isn't really my thing. I think Jen should do it."
Pacey grinned. "But Jen has child bearing hips! He said he wanted someone slim and tall."
Everyone laughed & Jen pretended to smile but inside she felt sick.
"Don't be rude, Pace." Joey said as she kicked him under the table.
Pacey kicked Joey back which started a footsie war between the two of them. Jen rolled her eyes and picked at her salad.
Jack watched Jen for a few seconds then said. "Are you okay Jen?"
Jen forced a smile. "Yeah I'm fine."
Suddenly Jen looked up & spotted Dawson enter the cafeteria. He was talking to Nikki and waving his arms around. Nikki laughed then put her hand on Dawson's arm. Dawson grinned down at her.
'Does he flirt with everyone except me?' Jen thought to herself.
Before Dawson arrived at their table, Jen stood up and left the cafeteria. She headed straight for the ladies and closed the door behind her. Again she placed her finger down her throat and brought up the small amount of salad she'd eaten.
"God, I'm fat." Jen said as she examined herself in the mirror.
She changed into her Gym gear and left the Ladies. She headed down to the track and started running around the oval. *************** "Aren't you having dinner?" Grams asked as Jen ran out the door.
"I'll have something at Dawson's." Jen called over her shoulder as she left the house.
She caught the bus to the local Gym. When Jen got there, she jumped onto the treadmill and started running. She was so focused on what she was doing that she didn't notice as Jack came up to her an hour later.
"Jen, fancy seeing you here!" Jack grinned.
Jen looked up at Jack. "Hi." she panted as she kept running.
"How long have you been on this thing? Your face is bright red."
"Not long." Jen panted. "I'll get off in a minute."
"Don't strain yourself." Jack answered and as he headed over to the weights machine he added, "You know, you're looking really thin lately."
Jen nodded to Jack and kept running. She was desperate to shed as much fat as she could.
Finally she was so exhausted she had to stop. She switched the treadmill off and stepped onto the floor. Immediately she felt woozy and had to grab the machine for support.
"Are you okay, miss?" a gym instructor asked her.
Jen nodded as she gasped for air. "I'm fine."
As the gym instructor walked away, Jen felt a wave of dizziness come over her and she sat down with her head between her legs. Jack immediately ran over to her.
"Jen, Jen, are you okay?"
Jen nodded as she lifted her head up. Her face was deathly pale and she had dark circles under her eyes.
Jack still had the worried look on his face. "Jen you look terrible. Have a drink of water."
Jen frowned at Jack as she stood up. She already knew she looked terrible. Did he need to rub it in. She abruptly pulled her arm from him.
"I'm fine, Jack." she insisted.
She walked over to the drink fountain and drank in large gulps. When she stopped, the water sat uncomfortably in her empty stomach. She fled the gym with Jack watching her, concerned.
As soon as she made it to the ladies Jen bent down in front of the toilet. She didn't even need to stick her finger down her throat anymore to bring everything up.
Jen looked down at herself. She felt revolting.
"Why can't I lose weight?" she moaned to herself.
She staggered to her feet and left the ladies. She jogged all the way home. *************** Jen woke up early the next morning. She wanted to go for a quick jog down to the docks before starting school. She attempted to lift herself off her bed but her legs and arms felt like they had lead weights on the end of them.
Jen dragged herself out of bed and dressed in an pair of grey sweats. She tiredly climbed down the stairs to the front door.
"Jennifer." she heard Grams call from the kitchen. "You'll come and eat breakfast before you leave this house."
Jen groaned as she turned around and headed to the kitchen. Just the smell of the hot pancakes and syrup was making her feel sick. She forced herself to eat 2 pancakes then just made it to the toilet before she threw it all up.
As she left the house, Dawson called to her from where he was watering his garden. Jen raised her arm in a half-hearted wave as she started jogging towards the docks.
It was becoming increasingly harder for her to keep her arms up. A buzzing noise started in her head and Jen shook it to make the noise go away.
She reached the docks and looked around her. It was completely empty. Jen leaned against one of the poles. She was completely exhausted and didn't think she could move a muscle.
She noticed her shoe laces untied so she began to bend down to tie them up. Dizziness suddenly overcame Jen and she tried to get her bearings by standing up again. She blindly reached for the pole before falling unconscious. Her body missed the deck and fell straight into the water.
She lay floating face down in the creek.
