Oh the slashy-ness… This will include Remus/Sirius and OC/Sirius. Well, it will mention and give a few details of the second relationship. I normally hate original characters but in this case it was necessary, unless y'all wanted him to be paired with either Lily or Snape. I didn't. This is only the first chapter, so enjoy the ride. Oh yes, if you like this then you may like my other Sirius/Remus. It's a sequel of sorts to this one. It's set after PoA and GoF. Unbeta-ed therefore don't get too cranky about spelling and grammar. I'll upload a revised one later.



Part One

Sirius lay in the grass one Saturday afternoon. He sighed and stared as fluffy white clouds puffed over the blue expanse. He had nothing better to do, other than homework that is. Problem was that the only homework that was left that he hadn't done was a paper for Transfiguration that was due next month. He had had enough of that teacher anyway.

His Hogsmeade privileges had been revoked after the Snape incident. Not that he would have gone anyway. His relationship with the other marauders had become quite strained. While Remus and James had forgiven him, they had also made it quite clear that the trust that had once been there was now gone. That hurt him a lot. He knew that their feelings were justified but it still stung.

Only Two things had not suffered in the time that had elapsed since and they were his schoolwork and grades. He had quit the Quidditch team because he had felt that it was only fair. Sirius had felt that the punishment that he had received was not hard enough, so he removed the thing that meant most to him away.

'No, the thing that means most to me is my friends and I threw that away on a foolish joke. I just wanted Snape to be scared… I didn't think of the consequences. I am such a fool,' thought Sirius. Peter was the only one that would even talk to him anymore.



He missed Quidditch, though. He did not get to fly nearly as much since he wasn't on the team. He did not think that is was fair to James to have to play with a Beater he couldn't trust or the other Gryffindors to lose points because of the lack of trust. He also did not want James to suffer from his presence any more than he had to as it was. He had noticed that when he was around conversations became stinted and the looks were uneasy.

'I hate that the most. I want their trust back, but I don't know how.' Dumbledore had called him in to his classroom the day before. Apparently, he was worried about the young animagi. The professor claimed to not have seen Sirius smile in weeks and that combined with the better grades and Sirius' new haircut, yet another of his self punishments, he was worried. Sirius had tried to shrug it off but the act was clearly seen right though.

His inner monologue turned from the disparity of his current circumstances to the paper that he didn't need to write but would. He made a mental note to ask his teachers for extra credit assignments so that he would have something to do. He stood slowly and made his way to the library; there were some books he still needed to work on the paper. He rolled his eyes when he saw a certain Gryffindor seventh year striding toward him.

Meanwhile in Hogsmeade, Remus, Peter and James were sitting around and eating chocolate frogs. In all actuality, Peter was eating the sweets while James and Remus sat looking miserable.

Remus sighed and looked over at Peter who had brown smudges all over his face. "Don't eat them all, Peter. Those have to last you for the week and you already spent all your money."

The chubby boy nodded and smiled showing bits of chocolate in between his teeth. "You're right. I wanted to bring Sirius some anyway. Sad that he can't come on the weekends any more."

He then turned bright red. "Sorry," he mumbled. "I know that you are quite mad at him. And rightly so… He has just looked so lost lately."

Remus realized that outside of class he hadn't seen Remus for more than an hour total since that unpleasant incident. The majority of that hour had been right after he had left the hospital wing when Sirius had been apologizing. 'I was cruel to him, even more than the situation warranted.'

Since then, he had only caught glimpses as the boy came around a corner or left a room. He avoided the others at all costs. Sirius would be in bed with the curtains closed when they came in and already be showered, dressed and gone before they had even begun to wake up. The familiar rakish grin had not graced his friend's countenance for weeks. He seemed to be even paler and no longer seemed larger than life. He seemed small, lost and lonely.

'He looks the way that I feel,' realized Remus. He needed the other boy's lighthearted attitude. He sighed and tried to pay attention to what the others were talking about.

"… Lily says that every time that she's been in the library he has been in there. And that she overheard Dumbledore talking to some of the other professors. He's worried about Siri. He's turned in all his homework and it's been perfect. He quit the Quidditch team too." James notified his other friends.

Remus jumped slightly. He hadn't been at the last match as it had been the same day as the full moon. He didn't like to be around people more than he had too on those days. "He quit the team? Why would he do that?"

James stared at the ground. "I think that it had something to do with me. I overheard him telling the captain that one of the players had reason to not trust him and he didn't want the team or the players to suffer because of him. He said that it was only fair and that he was completely at fault. We had to move one of the reserve players up."

James then stood and looked at the other two. "I think that I'm going to head on back. Hogsmeade isn't as much fun as it used to be." They nodded and stood. Peter ran off to throw away his trash and then the three made their way back to Hogwarts.