On Wings Of Love

By: Lady Venom

E-mail:diabla_devil@hotmail.com

A/N: Hello, I am formerly known as diabla but I have decided to bring in the new year with a new name. I have also officially decided to re-write this story, because to tell you the truth it really really needed it. On another note, I have decided to finish this story all the through for your entertainment. I'm so so sorry for the delay and to all my reviewers I would like to thank you so much and I know that a lot of you have given up on me but I hope that this will be a lot better if any new people decide to read this. Thank you Rory for your e-mail, I really appreciate it, I'm writing this for you. . .enjoy. I'm really really really sorry for the delay and I'm truly sorry for making this so angsty. But I assure you, read until chapter one and trust me, it will relieve you. Also tell me which one you like best the first draft or this one. Your comments mean a lot to me.

Yours Truly,

Lady Venom

Disclaimer: Escaflowne is not mine, though I have always wished it was. . .only wished. I make no money off this and I never will. Only the characters I personally created are MINE (all hopes and dreams shatter endlessly to the ground) Anywho enjoy.

Warnings: This is an ANGST fic aso that means there will be people suffering endlessly. I haven't decided on the ending yet so yeah. Rated for language, violence and maybe sexual contact in later chapters...Enjoy V/H, Mallerna/Dryden, Merle/? and also please if I make any spelling mistakes on any of the characters let me know and I'll fix it right away. It means you love me! Also watch for spelling and gramatical errors. Prologue from Hitmoi's Point Of View.

~*Key~*

thoughts

*~*~*~Flashback

* * * * same time, different place. and/or different person

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*Prologue*

Darkness, Death, Suffering, Solitude. That is all I have seen, a true vision. Horror is all I had felt that day. That horrible day my family was taken away from me. Why? Hn. That is the question I ask myself everyday. Maybe God has something against me and has given up on me. Maybe I don't wonder about a lot of things anymore. Especially HIM. My brother is now dead. So are my parents. What's the use in living?. There is no one here but me and the spirits of my family right beside me.

Hn. Looking at them, their paled faces, the bloodstains on their bodies, and the burn marks on my parents, yet they still continue to smile. No matter how many times I scream for them to go away they open their arms and smile. Not to worry, it will all be over soon, then there will be no more suffering for me in this God forsaken world. To some people this seems like an easy way out, to me it not an esacpe, more of a not having any motive for me to live any more. Go me.

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"Hitomi. . .Call an ambulance now!!," My mother cried out me desperately. "Your brother is unconcious!," While I ran as fast as I could to the phone, mother held my brother's limp body in her arms cradling him and singing softly. As I spoke to the operator, neverending tears were streaming down my face. I remeber my voice trembling everytime I was required to speak, especially what happened.

"My brother was playing around with his friends,he was walking backwards when he fell down the stairs, I heard a loud thud and came rushing over, his nose is broken, and I think he's unconcious. . . ." That is all I remember saying, then I fainted.

When I woke up, my father was with me holding my hand, I remember that day just as well as I remember Gaea. His face was deathly pale, his body trembling. Beside me was my mother, crying her heart out, sobbing, I got up and hugged her very tight. I remember asking her where my brother was.

She just looked at me and with a stiffled cry "Your brother was not unconcious, he was dead, broken neck, and. . .Oh God," At that moment I felt my heart stop and then I was screaming at the top of my lungs. After that everything went back once again. . . .

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I could not remember his funeral, his body lying there and the expression on his young face is all that comes to mind. I don't want to remember it either. My mother was heart broken and cried on my father's shoulder. I remember saying to myself that it was surreal, it was probably a dream and I would wake up and find his smiling face on my bed at the usual time. Three years later, I still hope to wake up from this horrible dream. Wow three yers, already, I still can't believe it. Not even as I open the kitchen drawer and pull out my knife. Not even as I run outside in the never ending ebony that I call night is real. Even when my parents died, it was all surreal, so surreal that I didn't even shed a tear for them. God must really hate me he wasn't even there for me when they died. Too inconveinient. Yup, just too damn inconveinient.

I remember right after my brother's death, even without my pendant, I kept having strange visions. I figured that it was paranoia, or the fact of being transported to another planet, dying once and falling in love with a draconian Van Fanel must have triggered my newly diagnosed insanity. That or I'm hallucinating. Heh. Anyways my visions always included my house burning and my parents burning along with it. It would always be the same I would watch helplessly as my parent's bodies would burn, their silent screams of suffering, and the what would appear glistening tears in their eyes, dripping onto the inferno that was my home. I never understood what it meant, but about one week later, I would soon find out.

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After I had returned from Gaea, Yukari started acting so weird. At first she told me she was glad I was safe and back home, but then when Amano (A/N: did I spell his name right?) started "communicating" with me as she put it,thus making her very jealous. She soon started to avoid me an all together hate my guts. Great, something else to brood about, isn't my life so chippy and happy? Great.

"Hey Hitomi, would you like to run with me today?," Amano asked me, while Yukari was hanging of his arm.

"No she wouldn't, would you Hitomi?," She told me with a glare full of hatred. I nodded my head vigorsly no.

"Ok, but it's nice to see you again," He said with one of his smiles. This time it didn't affect me a bit. I still loved Van with all my heart and soul.

"Ok, bye," Was my answer. As soon as they were out of sight, I sighed. I hated to see my best friend looking at me like that, it hurt me a lot. I then sighed once again, and looking up at the sky, I walked home.

I had never seen Yukari so spiteful and with hatred. It made me cry sometimes, it really hurt me. As I was approaching familiar territory, I smelt something was burning. I ran as fast as I could, hoping it wasn't my house, and praying to the God I had little hope in not to be my house. I was wrong. My house was burning. I dropped my things and ran inside the burning inferno.

I jumped over flames and concentrated on finding my parents and trying my very hardest to breathe. I shouldn't have done that, I will always remember them in my memory. They were stuck in the basement. I banged on the door as hard as I could, but when I tried to open it I got burned. I still have those burn marks today only you can faintly see them. I heard my mother screaming and my father commanding me to get out. He then started banging on the door. After a few kicks and punches, the door broke down. And then I saw it. My mother buring in front of my eyes, holding onto my father for dear life screaming. Both of them burning. I tried to reach out for them, but I couln't reach. I yelled at them to hold on a bit longer and tried to find a quick escpe route. No where, except a window which was quite a distance. My father was hugging my mother at this point and burning. I still wonder today how I could have survived that, without my clothes catching once on fire. God must really enjoy torturing me. What fun. First it was Dilandau and his obsession with burning and fires, and now it was the God of Death, maniacally torturing me and enjoying every minute of it. I sould thank him sometime.

I started to panic, what was I suppose to do? I looked everywhere, my parents were already unconcious, they had been burning for at least ten minutes or so. I started sobbing, right away assuming theur deaths but then I felt a force push me towards the winow. Of course it shattered, the amount of force that was used to push me was incredible. As soon as I was outside I blacked out. I was never really healthy. . .can you tell?

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When I woke up, a nurse was checking my forehead and sighing constantly. This irriatated me a lot because she wold looking at me with sympathetic eyes. I then demanded her to tell me how my parents were. I was so hysterical they had to give me a sedative. When I calmed down they told me. That same nurse looked at me with eyes full of soorow telling me my parents died of third degree burns and from asphixiation. So much for the sedative because it quickly disappeared as those words escaped her lips. I tried to scream but my voice hurt so much, and when I tired to get out of bed, all the wounds I had reopened and I blacked out.

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The night sky. I absolutely love the night sky. It is all I have left to admire and love. Yukari went to America with Amano, she was soon acting herself once she found out about my parents, which made me a bit happy, she then apologized for being stupid and I being me forgave her. As soon as she left, I never heard from her again. To think I had to ask around to find out she left, she didn't tell me. That hurt a lot more then all the things she did before. She probably felt sorry for poor lil' Kanzaki, with no parents or family. Great, just what I need, more sympathy.

Van. . .I miss you so much. I miss you and my family. . .everyone. But you mostofall. That day I left tore my soul into shreds, my heart along with it. Ah, those stars, shining so brightly before vanishing when dawn's rays hit them. I wish I could vanish. Not to worry though, it'll all be over soon. Why am I still here? God I have asked myself that everyday since my family died. WHY am I still alive? I had the guts to watch my family die before my eyes and do nothing. Oh Van, why did I try to forget you?
School is no longer important, actually to be honest, nothing is anymore, al least for me it isn't. School is just another thing on my stupid lists of things to make me feel worse. Especially with all those people piting me. Van, how I miss you. The stars don't shine the way they used to, at least not for me they don't. Damn, I wish I could be up there, where time is limitless and I can just get away from everything. That's right, I'm justgoing to leave, noone needs me here anyways, my purpose in life is over I'm worthless. I'm sorry Van, for trying to forget your existance. I have always know that it has been and will always be impossible. My love for you is too great.

Oh Van, I wish this was all a dream, I wish that I was still in Gaea, with you, flying, flying away, with no real destination in mind. Reality check Kanzaki, you could never fly with Van again. I wish I could see you before I leave this God Forsaked world. To tell you how much I love you and miss you. My time is here Van, this is good bye. I will always love you, just remember that. Goodbye Merle take care of him for me

GoodBye Van Fanel, I hope you live a happy and prosperous life.

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Chapter One

Van woke up from his nightmare drenched in sweat, panting heavily. His face was deathly pale and his heart was racing really qucikly. The Draconian king turned on the lights and put some garments on slowly, trying to calm down. Trembling and thinking to himself he decided to get a breath of fresh air. He gripped onto the railing and tried to think of his dream. The young king decided against it, it was too horrible to be recalled once again. He just hoped it wasn't true. That he hadn't dreamed his one and only love was about to kill herself. He looked up to the Phantom Moon and saw her face as he did amny times before. Only this face looked back at him with dull lifeless emerald eyes, and a never ending sorrow.

*Goodbye Van Fanel. . .Goodbye* was all he heard in his head as he lay wide awake staring at the ceiling panting.

Three years. For three endless years he had not seen Hitomi, the only young woman he was capable of loving. He ahd changed in three years, to a handsome looking gentleman, a young man who possessed a lot of riches but one, his love. A crisp breeze passed by him, sending shivers down his spine and giving him goosebumps.

He thought to himself, trembling once again, trying his very hardest to hold a tear back that was attempting to fall down fis face.

I hope you're okay, Hitomi, please. .be okay He pleaded silently to all the Gods he knew. Another chilly breeze past by him, his raven dark hair blowing away from his face.

Without another thought or word, Van let out his wings, what he considered his curse out and prepared to fly. Feathers were falling all over the place, their pearly colour shimmering brightly against the moon's dim light. He flew towards the Phantom Moon, clutching the glowing pendant tightly in his hand. His only treasure, his onlygift, andhis only memeory of the one he loved the most.

I will be with you Hitomi He thought to himself flying even faster. After a while all of time seemed to slow down for a second as the young Draconian was enveloped by a bright white light, slowly levitating him up into the Phantom Moon.

"Hold On Hitomi," He whispered to himself softly, before disapparing off Gaea completely.

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Merle could not sleep. Not matter how many times she tossed and turned to get comfortable, a sense of dread filled her mind, a felling that someone wasn't there, she couldn't sense Van. She sighed and looked out the window. The cat like girl held back a yelp of surprise, not believing the sight that lay in front of her. A binding white light, just lioke the one Hitomi was enveloped by before she left.

She smiled. Seeing the whit light after three years gave heran understanding of what Van was going to do. Merle had smartened over the years, forgeting about the crush and helping Van as one of the King's faithful advisors. Merle blew some pink strands of hair that were starting to bug her and decided that what Van was doing was right, after all everyone deserved to be happy, especiall him. Sure enough, Van had become a great ruler, giving hope to all of Fanelia when there was none, and he kept thieves and beggars off streets. Everyone was happy, but the smart kitty could see that something was missing.

Although the cat-like young woman could not admit it but she missed her too. It was Hitomi, the one girl who saved all of Gaea at its' darkest hour. She missed her, especially all those races they would have, of course, Merle would always win but that was because she raced on all fours, which would irritatethe young girl. She smiled at the almost forgotten mememories, how fast time has flown by.

Hitomi was the one who inspired Van and gave him courage , despite both of their stubborn tempers.

"Come back soon Lord Van," She whispered silently then climbed back into her bed purrig herself to sleep.

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"Farewell Van," Hitomi yelled at the night sky, holding the knife tightly.

The young woman was outside, kneeling on the sharp, sihouetted grass. She was gazing at the stars a final time, tears welled up in her emerald eyes, and cried ears of relief. She would no longer have to suffer again.

"Oh Van I miss you," She sobbed then pierced the knife into her stomache. Blood flowed out of her and onto the little garden. Pain swept over her but she did not scream, nor flinch. To her it was relief, a relief that felt good to her beyond words of compassion and of sympathy.

I will be joining you my family, and together we will be up there, in the stars. She thought to herself contently. She shoved the knife further, her breaths becoming gasps, faster and faster. Blood poured out of her like water, the metallic taste of the thick red liquid in her mouth. Hitomi coughed it out but more blood appeared. The young woman was about to close her eyes for a final time when there in the distance was a bright light. It illumintated the sky, dominating the dim city lights.

Hitomi then saw something flying towards her at a rapid speed. Closer and closer it approached while the dying teenager struggled to keep her eyes open. A young man with angel wings ran towards her. The silhouetted figure slowly beacome clear. He was a young man, with raven black hair and what appeared to be chestnut eyes.

She thought to herself and stared in awe of the young man that approached her.

Van stopped in is tracks and stared at the young woman in front of him. Emerald eyes stared at him back, for a moment they just gazed into each others' souls, recognizing each other at that moment. Hitomi tried to gasp, and let out the breath that she was holding but the she realized that she couldn't breathe. Van immediately knelt down beside her and slowly pulled her trembling hand away from the wound. Hitomi then started making coughing noises, and the blood continued to slide down one side of her lip.

Van thought to himself. She coughed once more and the blood subsided. She could breathe. In quick pants she watched van put his warm hands on the knife and slowly pulled. Hitomi tried her very hardest to fight the urge to scream in agony, so she grabbed Van's sleeve and gasped. She felt the knife slowly being pulled out of her anf finally she couldn't stand it anymore. She screamed. She cried. She flinched. And trembled. The poor girl was too overcome by the searing pain from the removal of the knife that she lost conciousness. All she could hear was Van's gentle shakes and comfoting voice before she was gone.

"Hitomi, don't die on me," Van screamed over and over to the limp body. He quickly checked for a pulse. At last he found one but it was quickly fading and slowing down. The young king then too off his shirt and ripped it into a long strip and wrapped it around Hitomi's abdomen. Van then gently lifted the unconcious girl and held her in his arms.
He then grabbed the pendant and at that moment they were enveloped in that pure white light, floating up slowly into the sky, then vanishing into thin air once again. Van hoped that he would make it in time to save the one he loved.

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Again Hitomi found herself in darkness. She did not scream, or run, all she did was sit there, trembling. Emerald eyes, deviod of emotion, devoid of everything. Lifeless, cold and dead. But there in the distance she saw two shapes, pale white and glowing. They aproached her, their moaning echoing all through the mysterious place. Hitomi, placed her hands on her ears and began screaming. They were so close she could feel their break on the back of her neck. The tormented girl couldn't take it any more. She stood up slowly, turned around and looked into the eyes of the things that were torturing her. Her eyes were wide in horror as she immediately recoginzed them. The burn marks and the broken neck.

"Mother?," She asked the floating woman in front of her.

"Hitomi, you do not belong to us any more," She said coldly.

"Yes I do, I'm your daughter," She answered, taken back at the tone her mother gave her.

"No Hitomi, you do not, you are living, and we are the dead, you are unworthy,so go back because if you do not, life here will be worse than it was in the living realm," Her mother said slowly. THe glowing body then turned around and started fading into nothingness.

"Yeah trust me sis, it would be no fun," Her brother said eerily then began to fade as well.

'Mother?, where are you going? I'm worthy of you, I'm worthy. . .Mother!," She yelled, tears streaming down her face.

"I don't want to be alone anymore, no more please no more suffering, Mother, no more!!,"

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Van was trying his hardest to keep flying towards the palace and keep Hitomi under control. He had heard her whimpers and screams and did all in his power to keep her calm. He was getting really tired and at the speed he was flying at, wasn't realy helping. Van started shivering but when he felt Hitomi groan he managed to get it under control.

Finally, they reached the palace., and Van landed in his room. Well it was more of a crash. He was exahausted, luckily he managed to turn around do his back collided with the wall instead of Hitomi. Now he was exhausted and in pain. He pushed the pain and sleepiness away, and ran to the hall screaming.He wiped his hands on his pants, they were drenched with blood. Hitomi's blood.

"Someone please help me!," He cried loudly. A few moments later all the lights in that hallway turned on and everyone rushed to the kings' room.

"Get healers Now!," He demanded and all the servants in the main hall rushed towards the Healers' Ward.

"Hurry, she needs to be attended to Now!!," He screamed, all the trembling and pain hit im all at once. The young king fell to the ground beside the bleeding Hitomi with a thud and didn't move.

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A/N: So whaddya think of it, was it better than the first? please r/r