Eternnal Life . . . . is it a blessing or a curse? My gift or my bane? If I didn't have it I would have never been able to meet him, or see my great granchildren? But with it I have had to out live them all.
A mother should never have to out live her children. The children are supose to burry their parents, not the other way around.
Before I met Parn I thought of my endless life as a blessing. I would outlive kingdoms, and civilations, I thought, I would live to see the world change. How naive I was. I learned about mortality and love at the same time.
Even when I first met and loved him I took it for granted that we'd be together forever, but I could not be so foolish for long. I saw him age, and relization hit me. One day he would die, and then I would be alone. Ignorence is bliss.
I don't know when he first started loving me, he was so unsure of himself. He saw our diferenses like I didn't. He belived I couldn't love him because I was an elf, he couldn't have been more wrong.
It took us a long time to admit we loved eachother, too long. All that time we feared the other didn't feel the same, that we could have been hapily in eachother's arms. But what is done is done, and I can't change it.
I stayed with Parn untill the moment of his death. By his side I sat as his soul left his body. He was always so brave, even on his own death bed. There I should have been the one who conferted him, but I wasn't. He was the one that helped me, with his smile and his soft voice. He died with that smile on his face, so peaceful at first it was hard for me to belive he was dead and not just sleeping.
My daughter learned about the bonds of eternal life at a young age, when her father died. She was only half-elven and would eventualy die, but she would live longer than a human.
For two hundread years she lived as I had at first, free and happy, but then she met her love. Seeing them together reminded me of Parn and myself. It made me glad to see my daughter so happy, but it also made me sad to know one day he would die, and she would not.
I was wrong, when her husband died she choose to folow him. And using his sword took her life just to be with him. That was one of the sadest days in my long life. Thankfully, her children understood why she did it Maybe that's why I didn't folow Parn, I was afraid my child wouldn't understand? Or maybe I saw it as cowerdice? But now I believe it was because Parn didn't want me to. I knew he wanted me to continue to live, so I choose to.
I then watched my grand children with much shorter lives then their mother would have had, just bearley longer than a normal humans life. I was there when they married, when they had their children, and I was there when they too were buried. There I decided that I can't watch anyone eles I love die.
So I ask for your forgiveness, my dear children. For I could not bear to watch you die as well. I am going on a journey from which for me there will be no return. I shall trace the steps that I took with Parn so long ago. And I will see the desendents of all our old friends. Then when I come to the tree under which lies Parn's grave, I shall follow him. And we shall be once agein together, this time forever.
So please forgive me, and do not mourn for me, for I shall finnaly be happy agein.
Your Great Grandmother,
Deedlit