Chap 13
The boys got back late, after it was dark, and most people were already upstairs in their dormitories, examining the purchases they'd made at Hogsmeade. When the boys entered their common room, they were surpirsed to find that the girls were already there. They didn't even look up from where they were sitting. Lily asked, with a hint of chilliness in her voice, "I thought you guys were having a meeting in your dorm."
The boys exchanged nervous looks. "Well.we just went to go get some food from the kitchens, that's all, I swear!" Sirius lied, trying to hide the Zonko bag behind his back. Ali walked over to him.
"Don't swear about things that aren't true, Sirius Black," she hissed, prying at the bag in his hand. "We know you were in Hogsmeade!"
Sierra now came over. "Why didn't you guys tell us? I mean.you haven't been with us all week, and we feel kind of leftout," she said honestly. Remus put an arm around her. "We know we haven't been around. But we've been really busy -you know that. And we're sorry you guys feel un- included."
Sierra looked skeptically, but he gave her a puppy pouting face and she grinned.
"Ok, ok, we forgive you." Lily still didn't come over. She was writing something down in her journal and she wasn't looking up.
"Ali," Sirius said.
Ali turned around and didn't face him, crossing her arms across her chest. Sirius followed her so she couldn't not face him.
"Ali," he repeated, with a hint of pleading in his voice. "Please, I'm sorry. We're sorry. We just needed some guy time, can't you understand?" Ali sighed and looked at him. He just stood there looking incredibly adorable. She threw her hands up in the air.
"God! Why d'you have to be so darn cute?" she yelped. "Yeah, yeah, you're forgiven. But next time, just tell us you need a little away-from- girl time, ok?"
"Yeah, sure," Sirius said, grinning. James walked over to Lily. "D'you forgive me?" he asked gently. Lily closed her book and stared at him sadly and with difficulty she said in a whisper "No." Then she got up and ran up to her dormitory.
James was looking bewildered. "What? All I did was go to Hogsmeade and not tell her. That's all. It's not a reason to be mad at me for."
Ali sighed and whispered something to Sierra, who showed comprehension.
"Oh," Sierra whispered.
Ali turned to the guys. "Um, we're going up to bed. Night." Then they swiveled around and walked up the path Lily walked.
"Did I miss something here?" Remus asked.
(A/N: dear, dear, I seem to have forgotten Peter again. oh, whoops, my bad.)
"I missed what you missed," Sirius said, scratching his head.
"Why are girls so complicated?" James muttered.
"They speak a different language," Sirius said knowledgeably. "It's called Womaneese."
"And you'd know this.how?" James joked weakly.
"You'd be surprised," Sirius said mockingly.
"I bet I would be. I'm goin' up, guys," James said disperitatly.
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"I knew they'd forget us. I knew it. I told you, remember?" Lily said, burying her face in her pillow.
Ali and Sierra exchanged glances. "Lil, they were just busy this week, that's all. You heard 'em. They just wanted guy time. It's a reasonable explanation."
Lily sighed. "It's reasonable, but is it the truth?"
"Lily Evans, what other truth would be there?" Sierra demanded.
"Ok, ok.I suppose you're right. Thanks girls," Lily said, lifting her up and hugging her friends.
"Hooray, hooray, now can we tone it down a little, I'm trying to sleep here," Ashlee Parriss grumbled.
"Yeah, hello, some of us may benefit from a little beauty sleep," Bree Gasoploes said sleepily.
"Sorry," Lily whispered back.
"Ok, well, I'm gone!" Sierra said, flashing a huge smile.
"See you." And she left the room.
"Night, Lils," Ali said kindly, yawning and flopping onto her bed.
"Night, Ali."
**20 minutes later.**
Lily finished brushing her teeth, changing into pajamas and slippers, and cleaning up. She was about to lie in bed when the thought struck her that she wasn't all that sleepy. She grinned to herself and ducked under her bed, pulling out her guitar, which she always brought everywhere with her. She walked silently down to the vacant common room and unpacked her instrument. She pulled out her diary and wrote a few things down, closed it and set it in the case, and drummed a few chords on the guitar. She sang quietly to her music, not realizing that someone else was watching her.
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James tilted his head under his Invisibility Cloak in wonder as Lily hummed in her beautiful voice a few lyrics she'd invented. She sang softly:
"This is the place where I sit,
This is the part where I love you too much.
This is as hard as it gets,
Cuz I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough.
I'm here if you want me,
I'm yours you can hold me,
Empty and vacant and tumblin' and breakin'.
Cuz you don't see me,
And you don't need me,
And you don't love me,
The way I wish you would.
The way I know you could."
Here she paused, pouring over her journal, deciding what to write next.
"I think of.no that won't work.uhhh.I dream a world.hmm.of understanding.hey! 'I dream a world of you understanding.' There we go." Lily was muttering to herself and scribbling down stuff. After a few minutes, she set the book down and she sang again.
"I dream a world,
Of you understanding.
Yet I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream up fire when you're touchin' my hand,
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights.
Umm.
I'm speechless and faded;
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothin' but good friends? Cuz.and then to the chorus." Lily instructed herself. "That'll work."
James was inching closer to the guitar case, he wanted to read what was in that journal! One more move and -BOOM! The guitar case went crashing to the floor, leaving Lily to stare at open empty air in surprise.
"What the -"
She narrowed her eyes and stuck her hand forward and it bumped into something very solid.
"James Potter!" she snapped, pulling of the cloak. James stood there, frozen, with a very cute look on his face. 'Aww, he's so cute when he gets caught doing something', Lily sympathized. She smiled.
"And what, may I ask, were you doing?"
"Er.I was.well, I was trying to.uhhh."
"Trying to read my diary."
"Well -"
"Uh-huh."
"Ok, ok, so I was!" James admitted. He squeezed in next to her. "The song was really good," he complimented truthfully.
"Thanks," Lily said. "I was writing it a while ago.before we were together -" they both smiled at that "and I never finished it. So I thought I should." Then she added pointedly "I work on it whenever I'm mad at you." James shifted guiltily in his seat.
"I'm sorry, Lil," he said softly. Lily hugged him. "Yeah, I know you are. And, I suppose, I forgive you. But I'm still a little mad," she said. "I know this whole thing's not that big of a deal, but I can't help the way I feel. Don't worry, I'll get over it."
"Well, at least you're honest," James said casually, hugging her back.
Lily strummed a few more chords and sang to him, " And I wanna believe you:
When you tell me that it'll be ok.
Yeah, I try to believe you.but I don't.
When you say that it's gonna be
It always turns out to be a diff'rent way
Yeah I try to believe you.not today,
Today, today, today, today.
Tomorrow's it may change."
James still looked down. "James, lighten up. I just said it cuz the song matches the situation," Lily explained, thinking 'Aww, how sweet, he thinks he's in trouble!'
James smiled weakly. Lily pushed her guitar into its case, locked it up and pulled James over to a couch
"Sit," she ordered him, and he did so.
"Why?" he asked, comforting himself on the velvet sofa.
"I need a pillow," she said simply. She settled herself on his lap, rested her head on his chest, feeling it rise and fall gently, and they both fell asleep.
(A/N: Ok, I have to credit the singers and stuff. The first song, "You Don't See Me," was by Josie and the Pussycats. Second song, "Tomorrow," is by Avril Levinge.)
The boys got back late, after it was dark, and most people were already upstairs in their dormitories, examining the purchases they'd made at Hogsmeade. When the boys entered their common room, they were surpirsed to find that the girls were already there. They didn't even look up from where they were sitting. Lily asked, with a hint of chilliness in her voice, "I thought you guys were having a meeting in your dorm."
The boys exchanged nervous looks. "Well.we just went to go get some food from the kitchens, that's all, I swear!" Sirius lied, trying to hide the Zonko bag behind his back. Ali walked over to him.
"Don't swear about things that aren't true, Sirius Black," she hissed, prying at the bag in his hand. "We know you were in Hogsmeade!"
Sierra now came over. "Why didn't you guys tell us? I mean.you haven't been with us all week, and we feel kind of leftout," she said honestly. Remus put an arm around her. "We know we haven't been around. But we've been really busy -you know that. And we're sorry you guys feel un- included."
Sierra looked skeptically, but he gave her a puppy pouting face and she grinned.
"Ok, ok, we forgive you." Lily still didn't come over. She was writing something down in her journal and she wasn't looking up.
"Ali," Sirius said.
Ali turned around and didn't face him, crossing her arms across her chest. Sirius followed her so she couldn't not face him.
"Ali," he repeated, with a hint of pleading in his voice. "Please, I'm sorry. We're sorry. We just needed some guy time, can't you understand?" Ali sighed and looked at him. He just stood there looking incredibly adorable. She threw her hands up in the air.
"God! Why d'you have to be so darn cute?" she yelped. "Yeah, yeah, you're forgiven. But next time, just tell us you need a little away-from- girl time, ok?"
"Yeah, sure," Sirius said, grinning. James walked over to Lily. "D'you forgive me?" he asked gently. Lily closed her book and stared at him sadly and with difficulty she said in a whisper "No." Then she got up and ran up to her dormitory.
James was looking bewildered. "What? All I did was go to Hogsmeade and not tell her. That's all. It's not a reason to be mad at me for."
Ali sighed and whispered something to Sierra, who showed comprehension.
"Oh," Sierra whispered.
Ali turned to the guys. "Um, we're going up to bed. Night." Then they swiveled around and walked up the path Lily walked.
"Did I miss something here?" Remus asked.
(A/N: dear, dear, I seem to have forgotten Peter again. oh, whoops, my bad.)
"I missed what you missed," Sirius said, scratching his head.
"Why are girls so complicated?" James muttered.
"They speak a different language," Sirius said knowledgeably. "It's called Womaneese."
"And you'd know this.how?" James joked weakly.
"You'd be surprised," Sirius said mockingly.
"I bet I would be. I'm goin' up, guys," James said disperitatly.
*^*^*^
"I knew they'd forget us. I knew it. I told you, remember?" Lily said, burying her face in her pillow.
Ali and Sierra exchanged glances. "Lil, they were just busy this week, that's all. You heard 'em. They just wanted guy time. It's a reasonable explanation."
Lily sighed. "It's reasonable, but is it the truth?"
"Lily Evans, what other truth would be there?" Sierra demanded.
"Ok, ok.I suppose you're right. Thanks girls," Lily said, lifting her up and hugging her friends.
"Hooray, hooray, now can we tone it down a little, I'm trying to sleep here," Ashlee Parriss grumbled.
"Yeah, hello, some of us may benefit from a little beauty sleep," Bree Gasoploes said sleepily.
"Sorry," Lily whispered back.
"Ok, well, I'm gone!" Sierra said, flashing a huge smile.
"See you." And she left the room.
"Night, Lils," Ali said kindly, yawning and flopping onto her bed.
"Night, Ali."
**20 minutes later.**
Lily finished brushing her teeth, changing into pajamas and slippers, and cleaning up. She was about to lie in bed when the thought struck her that she wasn't all that sleepy. She grinned to herself and ducked under her bed, pulling out her guitar, which she always brought everywhere with her. She walked silently down to the vacant common room and unpacked her instrument. She pulled out her diary and wrote a few things down, closed it and set it in the case, and drummed a few chords on the guitar. She sang quietly to her music, not realizing that someone else was watching her.
&^&^&^
James tilted his head under his Invisibility Cloak in wonder as Lily hummed in her beautiful voice a few lyrics she'd invented. She sang softly:
"This is the place where I sit,
This is the part where I love you too much.
This is as hard as it gets,
Cuz I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough.
I'm here if you want me,
I'm yours you can hold me,
Empty and vacant and tumblin' and breakin'.
Cuz you don't see me,
And you don't need me,
And you don't love me,
The way I wish you would.
The way I know you could."
Here she paused, pouring over her journal, deciding what to write next.
"I think of.no that won't work.uhhh.I dream a world.hmm.of understanding.hey! 'I dream a world of you understanding.' There we go." Lily was muttering to herself and scribbling down stuff. After a few minutes, she set the book down and she sang again.
"I dream a world,
Of you understanding.
Yet I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream up fire when you're touchin' my hand,
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights.
Umm.
I'm speechless and faded;
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothin' but good friends? Cuz.and then to the chorus." Lily instructed herself. "That'll work."
James was inching closer to the guitar case, he wanted to read what was in that journal! One more move and -BOOM! The guitar case went crashing to the floor, leaving Lily to stare at open empty air in surprise.
"What the -"
She narrowed her eyes and stuck her hand forward and it bumped into something very solid.
"James Potter!" she snapped, pulling of the cloak. James stood there, frozen, with a very cute look on his face. 'Aww, he's so cute when he gets caught doing something', Lily sympathized. She smiled.
"And what, may I ask, were you doing?"
"Er.I was.well, I was trying to.uhhh."
"Trying to read my diary."
"Well -"
"Uh-huh."
"Ok, ok, so I was!" James admitted. He squeezed in next to her. "The song was really good," he complimented truthfully.
"Thanks," Lily said. "I was writing it a while ago.before we were together -" they both smiled at that "and I never finished it. So I thought I should." Then she added pointedly "I work on it whenever I'm mad at you." James shifted guiltily in his seat.
"I'm sorry, Lil," he said softly. Lily hugged him. "Yeah, I know you are. And, I suppose, I forgive you. But I'm still a little mad," she said. "I know this whole thing's not that big of a deal, but I can't help the way I feel. Don't worry, I'll get over it."
"Well, at least you're honest," James said casually, hugging her back.
Lily strummed a few more chords and sang to him, " And I wanna believe you:
When you tell me that it'll be ok.
Yeah, I try to believe you.but I don't.
When you say that it's gonna be
It always turns out to be a diff'rent way
Yeah I try to believe you.not today,
Today, today, today, today.
Tomorrow's it may change."
James still looked down. "James, lighten up. I just said it cuz the song matches the situation," Lily explained, thinking 'Aww, how sweet, he thinks he's in trouble!'
James smiled weakly. Lily pushed her guitar into its case, locked it up and pulled James over to a couch
"Sit," she ordered him, and he did so.
"Why?" he asked, comforting himself on the velvet sofa.
"I need a pillow," she said simply. She settled herself on his lap, rested her head on his chest, feeling it rise and fall gently, and they both fell asleep.
(A/N: Ok, I have to credit the singers and stuff. The first song, "You Don't See Me," was by Josie and the Pussycats. Second song, "Tomorrow," is by Avril Levinge.)
