I'm Always There

A/N: Nothing belongs to me. Everything belongs to JK Rowling. Hope you like it, and my other stories. Most of them are going to be….you guessed it Harry Potter. LOL. Ok I'm not sure if this is slash or not. It maybe to some people others I would just think that Remus and Sirius are just very good friends. So I'll say that this is slash but not. Confusing not?

I can't believe he's gone. How can he do this to us? To me? Weren't we his friends? Why kill only two and leave me to suffer? Why not go ahead and kill me too? I can't believe him. I trusted him. Trusted him with my secret. That was just the past though. But still all these questions come to mind.

The present holds nothing except me suffering. Holes are in the walls where I took out my anger. My hands hurt because of it. So what?! I hit the walls because of him. There's bloodstains on the carpet and out side on the walk were I fell but I didn't care. Every time I think of him my knees go weak and I actually fall!

The moon. The moon means nothing more to me. I'm not afraid of it any more. I'm afraid more of him then anything else. His face and his voice still ring in my ears. Always saying something like "Come on. Let's go. Please? I got more fireworks. Lets go make some trouble." Or when he got his motorbike working. First thing he said to me was "Come on. Let's go on my motorbike. You'll be safe with me." I don't sleep anymore because of his face. Then I think what we had and what he had done. I feel numb and empty. No one notices that I get paler, and thinner. Just because of what I am. But that's not it. It's because of him. My friend. I couldn't find a job but then here I get an owl from Albus Dumbledore. Wanting me to work at Hogwarts. It's the most I can do for what he did to help me.

There I meet him, Harry Potter. I help him with his dementor problem. I don't notice anything that's going on until Halloween. That's when the questions come back to me. 'How did he get in? What does he want? Why Harry?' Nothing more happens after that until I get the map.

The map. I was wondering if I would ever see it again. Yet Harry got it. How he got it I have no idea. But I was lucky on how I got it. Severus Snape never knew what it was. But of course I did. And of course I know how to work it. After a while that's when I see him. That rat….He's alive! I can't believe it. Then….then that means that they changed without telling me! Well…who could blame him? Sirius thought I was on the Dark Side. I still can't believe him. He didn't trust me. But I'll let it pass.

Sirius didn't help kill James and Lily! I can't believe it. It was Peter. That stupid rat that we had for a friend! We could have killed him that night but Harry, so much like his father, wouldn't let us. To loyal I guess. But we should have anyway. Sirius is still wanted and That Rat is on the loose. Doing who knows what! Going back to Voldemort I bet. I say his name. I'm not afraid of him!

That summer came quickly. And with that, visits from him. I told him about my dreams. He listened then said one thing that made my knees go weak. But not from anger. He just said "Remus, I'm always there with you. No matter where you are. I'm always there and never forget me no matter what happens."

I smiled then realized that he's back. Two of the Marauders I back together. Forever. Remus Lupin and Sirius Black together again. Forever.

We even made up an oath that we both signed with blood saying this:

From signing this we promise we will not lie and keep something from each other as long as we live. We will be together forever. We will not let anything come between us. We will be friends forever.

Sirius Black Remus Lupin

A/N: So what did you think? I know another angst but I like some stories like that. Not all but some. Tell me what you think.