Chapter 5

~Jadeite's Diary~

I'll never forget today.I became one of Endymion's Generals and I think I met my true love. From the moment I laid my eyes on her I knew she was the one. I don't understand why the others were warning me about her "reputation." She wasn't acting cold hearted to me at all. She did seem a bit sad. But when they mentioned that I was thinking she would be a bitter bitch but she wasn't like that at all. What I didn't understand was why did she run away? I kept replaying the night over and over in my mind to see if I did anything wrong but I didn't.well I don't think I did. I remember after I told her that I thought she was amazing she ran away. Was she afraid of something? She's such a mystery to me.but I'm not giving up,

~Raye's Diary~

January 28, Silver Millennium

What happened? Why did I just run away from Jadeite like that? He must really think I'm weird now. I felt something with him ever since the first time our eyes met. I usually have good judgment about people and I have a really good feeling about him. Why am I so infatuated with him? After our introductions I walked on to the balcony for fresh air and to get away from the ball. Then guess who comes along to join me.Jadeite. We were talking and the way he made me feel soo much at ease felt so good. It takes me a long time to trust and open up to people but he's so easy to talk to and be comfortable around. I feel like I could trust him already. He talks to me as if I'm just a regular person.not the Princess of Mars.or the princess that despises men. I love his eyes.they say you can see into a person's soul through their eyes. What I saw through his eyes is so.the description is too good for words to express. When I look back at what I just wrote I feel stupid.why am I acting like this? I feel like my heart and my mind are having an argument. My mind is saying he's just another distrustful sleazy man. My heart is saying I know he's not like other men.he's different. He's sweet kind and caring. My mind is saying that's how Kaidou was at FIRST then look what happened. I feel like my heart is being stabbed when I remember what Kaidou did to me. That bastard was the reason why I didn't want to fall in love again. I didn't want a man to hurt me again the way he did. I didn't have a diary when the "incident with Kaidou" happened, so I'll just write it down here.

Kaidou was my father's assistant and successor. When I first met him it was love at first sight. We wanted to keep our relationship a secret because we didn't really think that father would approve of what we were doing because my parents always wanted me to marry some nobleman or of royalty, they believed it would help the Mars Kingdom if I did. I didn't want to have an arranged marriage that way.Kaidou understood that and he understood me or at least I thought he did. Back then I thought we were soul mates, but I was very much mistaken later on. I was very young and naïve.I still I can't believe how I was back then. I remember Serenity, Amy, Mina and Lita thought it was a bad idea, and that I should end my affair with them. Like a lovesick girl I didn't listen.I wish I did. I loved him so much that I was even going to give him something that meant a lot to me.my virginity.

On the day we were suppose to.I walked into his chambers.he was in the bed with another woman kissing her all over.

the woman said "Kaidou.I've heard rumors that you were having an affair with the Mars Princess."

Kaidou said, "I don't love her, I love you. I'm just using her so I can get her money and when I do we'll both run away together. I already have access to the Mars' King's treasures.now I just need to get hers. I'm doing it for us.she means nothing to me."

That was such a long time ago but yet I remember it so clearly. I couldn't believe what I was about to do that night.with HIM! I never felt so much pain in my life. I told father about his plan and father banished him, of course I kept out the details about my relationship with Kaidou. As for Jadeite.I don't know if I can fall in love again.

AN: In the Original Manga (comic) this kinda did happen to Raye...A man named Kaidou actually did break her heart...he was engaged to another chic and raye thought they were meant to be and all...she didn't go as far as to givin her virginity to him though...she juss kissed him in da rain