Title - I Still Believe
Rating - PG13
Parts - 2/???
Author - Heh.. guess who? Meh!..
Email - Michiruka@hotmail.com

Disclaimer - I don't own Sailor Moon, tho if they wanna hand over the rights of Haruka and Michiru
I'd be more than happy to take them!! *chuckles* Nor do I own the song, I Still Believe which was written by..
by Mariah Carey, I don't own anything else that I talk about either... seeing as it just shows up when
I write from the top of my head...

Author's Note: Okie.. you asked, I answer.. Mwuhahaha.. this is from Rei's POV.. uhm yeah.. angst.. Whoosh, the
joy... and.. HA! All you people whom were WRONG! XD You all had good guesses.. and while I was thinking of putting
her with Minako or Setsuna, it doesn't happen cause Setsuna and Minako were made for each other.. and who am I to
break them apart? LOL Uhm.. S.S.Shadow.. I'm Michiruka.. its a combo between Michiru and Haruka's name.. so.. its not
a person.. really.. its just me and no, I'm not putting maiself in the story.. -.-' Anyway.. ON WIFF MAI FIC!

'...' = thoughts
"..." = talking
~...~ = song

Member.. this is yuri.. no like, no read... Like? Review... ^^

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I saw Usagi walking through the park with that.. that.. person. I couldn't believe this. Usagi left me for...her. I was hurt when I saw them together. I felt a hand touch
my arm gently and I turned to Ami standing there with a smile on her face. I smiled back, leaning against her gently. Ami and I had gotten together about three months
ago. She had shown up at my doorstep, her face wet with tears and her eyes red from crying. I remember it like it was yesterday.

-Flashback-

I heard a soft knocking on my bedroom door and thinking it was Yuuichirou, I replied, "Go away...I'm busy."
The knocking persisted, so I got up and went to the door. While opening it I said, "Yuuichirou, this better be important."
When I saw it was Ami, my heart skipped a beat. I shook off the feeling when I
noticed that she had been crying. I invited her in and shut the door behind me. She sat on my bed and I could tell she was trying not to cry again. I felt so bad for her.
"What's wrong?" I asked, gently sitting down next to her.
"M-Makoto... s-she is leaving to go A-Australia for college. S-She.. left me..."
Ami broke down crying again and I took her into my arms. I rocked back and forth with her, trying to calm her down. She was sobbing uncontrolably and I couldn't
stand to see the site of her crying. She mumbled things that I couldn't quite make out. I wondered if Usagi was this hurt when I did that to her. I mentally slapped
myself for thinking about Usagi in a time like this. I stroked Ami's hair gently and hoped that she would eventually calm down. When she finally managed to control
her crying, she looked up at me. I noticed the pain in her eyes and I wanted so bad to take it away. 'What the.. Rei, knock it off.' I looked away, glancing out my window.
I heard her whisper an apology to me and I shook my head, assuring her that it was alright.
"Why me? Why did you come to me?" I asked, turning back to her.
Just as I turned back, her lips captured mine in a mindblowing kiss. Not really knowing how to re-act, I gave into the kiss. I wanted more than anything to get rid of
my pain, as well as hers. When she pulled back, I sat in my spot, my eyes still closed. I went to say something, anything but she placed a finger on my mouth and
told me not to say a word untill I heard her out. I nodded, opening my eyes slightly, looking at her.
"W-Well.. I came to you because.. I've liked you for a bit now. And well, will you go out with me?"
My eyes widened a bit, but my lips curled back into a smile. I nodded for a reply and kissed her forehead softly.

-End Flashback-

Ami and I started walking toward the exit of the park and I realized we were going to pass by Usagi and.. My mood changed slightly as we came closer to her. Of
course I knew Ami would stop and talk to Usagi, they were still best friends after all. My mind had been so distracted all night that I never noticed the looks I was
recieving from Ami. When we came to about 3 feet from Usagi, Ami said a bit loudly, "Lovely evening, isn't Usagi?"
Usagi turned and smiled when she saw Ami. She looked into my eyes and my breath got caught in my throat.
"It's just so beautiful out here, isn't hun?" Usagi asked.
I knew she was talking to the young girl standing next to her, but I had an urge to reply. I glanced at the ground, slowly moving my hand to hold Ami's. Usagi and Ami
carried out a conversation as me and.. her stood there listening. For some reason, I felt Usagi's new koi wanted me dead. I never understood that, until later anyway.
Ami tugged on my arm lightly and I glanced down at her.
"Hm?" I asked, oblivious to what was asked of me.
"I asked if you were ready to go. Usagi and I are done talking now."
'Oh.. Can't we stay here a bit longer?' "Yeah, sure.."
Ami and Usagi said their goodbyes and I mumbled out a goodbye to them both as Ami and I wallked pass them. When we were out of ear's reach, Ami stopped and
turned me to face her. I knew she was hurt by my actions back there, you could tell because of her eyes.
"What is wrong with you tonight?"
"I don't know. Can we just go home now...?"
Ami sighed and nodded. I knew that was the wrong thing to say.

~You look into my eyes~
~And I get emotional inside~
~I know it's crazy~
~But you can still touch my heart~
~And after all this time~
~You'd think that I~
~I wouldn't feel the same~
~But time melts into nothing~
~And nothings changed~

"What are you trying to say Ami?" I asked, hoping that she wasn't about to say what I thought she was going to say.
"I'm saying that this was a mistake Rei. I.. I was on the rebound. I still love Makoto and.. I think I'm going to go find her. Be with her."
My world crashed down once more. It was like that night, so long ago, when Usagi, my princess, my koneko had uttered those words to me. I didn't understand this.
Was I meant to be alone or something? I turned from Ami, ran as far as possible as I could from her. Away from her house. She knew I still loved Usagi, that was the
whole reason. It wasn't because she loved Makoto. How could I have been so stupid? I should have known that it would have never worked out. I finally collasped
on the sidewalk infront of a house. I sat there sobbing, my face buried in my hands. I never heard the foot steps approaching me, so I jumped when I felt a hand touch
my shoulder. I glanced up to see Usagi standing there before me, her arm wrapped around her koi's waist. I felt the anger rise in me at the site. 'Damn them for being so
friggin' happy.'
"Rei, what's wrong?" Usagi asked.
She knelt down to look me in the eyes and I just started crying again. I managed to choke out that Ami had broken up with me but after that, the words just became
slured and inaudible. I felt her hug me gently and heard her whisper into my ear, "Stop by my place later, we'll talk about it." She got up and walked off with her as I
sat there, devastated, hurt, and alone. I gathered my emotions, trying to control the sobbing as I headed off in the direction of Usagi's house. When I arrived, she was
sitting on her porch waiting for me. I wanted to smile, but I couldn't. We went inside and up to her room. I sat on a chair in her room as she sat on the bed.
"So, what happened?"
"She told me.. that she still loved Makoto and that.. she was just on.. the rebound."
"Ouch, I'm sorry Rei. That's the worst way to break up with someone."
I nodded and replied, "She's.. going to Australia to look for Makoto."
She patted the side of her bed, motioning for me to sit down next to her. I got up from the chair and walked over. I looked her in the eyes and forced myself from bending
down and kissing her. The way her look stirred up my emotions, the way her smile still made my heart melt. I couldn't bare it anymore. I turned away and apologized.
I started toward the door as I heard her ask me why I was leaving. The thing that made me freeze in my spot wasn't the touch of her hand on my shoulder but rather,
the words she uttered to me.
"I still love you Rei. Why are you doing this to me?"
I couldn't reply. I didn't know why. I never understood my actions that night and I don't think I ever will. I shrugged her hand off my shoulder and walked out the door.
I heard her choke back a sob, so I walked faster. I heard her bedroom door shut as I walked out the front door. 'You are so stupid Rei. Your one chance to get her back and
you threw it away...' Maybe I like the pain. I shook my head and walked down the street, my arms folded together in front of my chest in a sad attempt to warm myself
up a bit. After I was about a block away, I turned and face the direction of her house. Had I made the right choice? I shook my head and silently cursed myself. Of course
I did. I didn't want to break up what Usagi had. I could never give her the love and attention she needs. 'Of course you can Rei. You're such a moron...' I sighed and turned
back, walking toward the temple. It seemed like forever to get there, knowing it only took about ten minutes. I ascended the stairs slowly, trying not to break down and
cry again. Why was I putting myself through this torture? I'll never understand myself. I collasped onto my bed, curling up on my side. This was going to be a very long
night. I still thought we, Usagi and I, could work things out. Be together again, but I knew that it was nearly impossible. I sighed and let the tears over take me.
"Usagi... I still believe..." I whispered softly.

~I still believe~
~Someday you and me~
~Will find ourselves in love again~
~I had a dream~
~Someday you and me~
~Will find ourselves in love again~

Its been about a month. Ami left a few days after she told me she aws heading to Australia. She called Usagi soon after she found Makoto to let us all know she was safe.
I guess I should have been happy, but I wasn't. I was still in so much pain. I couldn't understand why I bothered to go outside anymore. All it ever did was bring back
painful memories. It was a slow torture that would end up killing me in the end. I sighed as I swept the temple steps, both crows on a shoulder. I smiled slightly, knowing
someone around here actually cared about my feelings. After about an hour of sweeping, I got bored and decided to take a walk. 'You're going to end up there again...' I sighed.
'Shut up you stupid little annoying voice!' I shook my head. I was begining to think I was going insane from the pain I felt. I walked into my room and changed into some
more comfortable clothes. I walked outside and down the temple steps. Where to go? I wandered around, window shopping and such. 'This use to be so much fun with Usagi..'
I shook my head slightly. 'I'm doing it again. Damn thoughts...' I walked to the arcade and sat down at a table. I ordered a large vanilla milkshake and waited for it to be brought
to me. I kindly smiled and payed the waitress when she brought me my drink. I slowly started sipping it when I heard the bell jingle. I glanced up and saw Minako talking a mile
a minute to poor Setsuna. I smiled as they walked up to the counter and ordered something to drink as well. Minako spotted me and dragged Setsuna over to sit with me. 'I knew
they'd end up together.' They sat down across from me and Setsuna smiled at me slightly.
"Hey Rei. Guess what? Oh wait.. okay, so its obvious..." Minako rambled.
I chuckled softly and replied, "I hope you two are happy together. I mean, everyone was begining to wonder when you'd get together."
"Ah, well.." Setsuna smiled softly.
"So, Rei. How are you? We haven't really seen you around lately," Minako asked.
"Yeah.. I haven't been up to going outside lately. Sorry. I'm feeling a tad better though. Thanks for asking. How about you two?"
"We're great! Oh, did you hear? Usagi and her koi broke up," Minako said quietly.
I stiffened slightly and asked, "How is Usagi?"
"She's hurting really badly. She refuses to eat or come out of her room unless she absolutely needs to. It's horrible Rei. Maybe you should go talk to her..."
"I.. I can't. She won't let me in. She hates me," I replied softly.
"She still loves you Rei," Setsuna said to me.
I looked up at them and a rush of lonliness passed through my heart. I apologized to them and got up to leave. As I passed by, Setsuna grabbed my arm lightly and told me softly
to go see her. I gently pulled my arm away and walked out of the arcade. I couldn't go there. I might do something I'd regret later on. 'This is ridiculus! Just go see her. She needs
you...' I growled under my breath. 'No!' And with that comment, I began to argue with myself all the way back to the temple. Then I figured I should probably see someone about
that little problem. I sighed and sat down on the bottom stair of the temple steps. 'She still loves you Rei...' Setsuna's words echoed through my mind. So maybe there was still
hope for us. Maybe I could go there, comfort her and be with her. Atleast its better than nothing. It's been so long since I've touched her hand. The distance is killing me slowly.
I didn't think I'd be able to take it much longer.

~Each day of my life~
~I'm filled with all the joy I could find~
~You know that I~
~I'm not the desperate type~
~If theres one spark of hope~
~Left in my grasp~
~I'll be holding it with both hands~
~It's worth the risk of burning~
~To have a second chance~

I walked up to Usagi's front door. I knocked softly, waiting for someone to answer. Ikuko answered the door and looked like a wreck. She was probably worried about her
daughter. 'Of course she is stupid.' I smiled at her and asked to see Usagi. Ikuko let me in and I thanked her, then walked up to Usagi's room. I knocked but didn't recieve a
response. I knocked again, almost worried. Still no answer. I walked in to find her sleeping. I silently thanked Kami and walked in, shutting the door behind me quietly.
I gently shook her, trying to wake her up. I heard Luna pad across the floor and rub up against my leg. She jumped up onto the bed and said softly, "She won't tell me what's
wrong Rei. Try and get something out of her. We need her in good health. I feel an evil presence approaching Earth."
'Oh great.' "Could you leave us alone Luna. Please?"
"Alright, but please. Help her."
Luna jump onto the window sill and out onto the tree. When I knew she was gone, I went back to trying to wake up Usagi. This was never an easy task. After shaking her for
a good five minutes, I heard her mumble softly and roll over.
"Usagi... talk to me."
"Huh? What?.. Rei, what are you doing here?"
"I heard about what happened. Talk to me Usagi. Please? This isn't good for you."
"I don't want to talk about it. Go away."
I sighed. "Usagi, please."
She sat up and looked at me. "Please what? You think you can just come in here and expect me to just talk to you? You hurt me Rei! And so did she. I can't take this anymore."
I sat next to her. "Usagi, I'm sorry. Please, just talk to me."
She crossed her legs, laying her arms slightly crossed on her lap. "About what Rei? We broke up. She left me for.. for someone else. What else is there to say?"
I moved next to her, wrapping my arms around her shoulders, hugging her gently. "Anything. Just don't keep it in. It's not good."
She stiffened slightly, but leaned into my embrace. "It just hurts. It hurts.. so bad."
I heard her voice crack, so I hugged her tighter. "I know it does. I know."
She began to sniffle. "S-She.. how could.. why did.."
I pushed her head gently into my shoulder, stroking her hair softly and she started to cry. "Thats right. Let it out. I'll stay as long as I need to. As long as you want me too."
She sobbed uncontrolably now, trying to say things that didn't quite make sense. "M-My heart.. torn.. hurts.. pain.. make it stop."
I kissed the top of her head and began to rub her back. "Shh.. it's okay. Everything will be fine."
I felt her shake her head. "N-No it won't.. I lost.. you both.. I can't.. no more..."
I lifted her head so she could face me. "Listen to me. She's stupid for leaving you. I'm stupid for leaving you. You deserve all the love in the world."
I watched as the tear rolled down her cheeks. "N-No.. I don't.. How can you.. why did you.. Why won't you tell me?"
I glanced down, feeling that familar pang in my heart. "How many times do I have to tell you odango. I don't know."
She looked at me, pleading with her eyes. "Yes you do. Why won't you tell me?"
I choked back the lump forming in my throat. "Odango please.. Listen to me. I don't know."
Again with the pleading look, again with the pang in my heart. "Rei.. I love you.."
I couldn't take it anymore. I leaned in and kissed her, feircely. I couldn't take being apart. Of course, she responded. When we pulled apart is when my senses came back.
She was vulnerable, I was being stupid making a move like right now. I backed up and stood up off the bed. She turned to me.
"Not again Rei. Please, not again."
"I.. I can't do this. You're vulnerable. You need time to heal."
"How can I if I can't have anything new to get rid of the painful past?! Why do you keep playing with my emotions?!"
I'm sorry," I whispered.
Tears built up in her eyes. I saw the hurt flare up in them.
"Get out.."
"Usagi.. please."
"GET OUT!"
"Odango, you need time. Space. Why can't you understand that?"
"I said Get. Out. Now."
Her voice was laced with hatred, hurt. I sighed an whispered an apology as I walked out. I shut the door and heard something shatter against it soon after. I winced at the
sound. I walked downstairs, seeing Ikuko standing at the bottom, hoping for some answers. I shook my head slightly, gliding past her and out the door. I heard her start to
sob and I felt bad for being the one to start this all. 'Again, you screw up any and all hope for you two...'

~NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO I need you baby~
~I still believe that we can be together~
~If we believe that true love never has to end~
~Then we must know that we will love again~

I walked around, wondering how she was. I couldn't take the stress anymore. I needed to make sure she was alright. Noting that I was wearing dark colors, I decided to be
a bit bold. I walked back toward Usagi's house. I made my way to the back and silently tried to climb up the tree. After many falls and slips, I made it up. I noticed her
window was open, so I stayed quiet in hopes to hear something. Anything. I heard her whipser a name that made me stiffen. Maybe I was wrong about having another
chance. Maybe I never had a second chance since the time I left her. I felt the tears stinging my eyes as she whispered the name over and over again. The name that would
forever be imprinted in my mind. I started to cry as I soon realized her heart was never mine. Why did I even bother to stay here any longer? Maybe I should just leave.
And then, she said those words. That sentence that finally killed me. The sentence that would forever change my views on life. On her. On everything. I begged for it to not
be true, but somehow I knew that it was. I started to sob, silently. 'I love you Usagi. I'm sorry...'

~I still believe~
~Someday you and me~
~Will find ourselves in love again~
~I had a dream~
~Someday you and me~
~Will find ourselves in love again~

"Naru-chan.. Please.. I still love you. Come back Naru-chan. Come back to me..."

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Like? Don't like? Surprised as hell to find out it was Naru? ^^; Thats me for ya, full of surprises. So.. does anyone want more? If I get... 35 reviews... then maybe
I'll consider it. ^^ I don't really know how I could top this.. *thinks* I wonder... Uh... yeah anyway.. Hmm maybe I could evolve this.. go to the Ami/Makoto part
or the Minako/Setsuna part... maybe add in ChibiUsa and Hotaru and Ruka and Michi... Ooh.. Maybe I could make this a seris! ^^; Okie.. Its 12:32 and I have exams
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