Chapter One
Just Another Day

... I couldn't suppress my tears any longer. Each day it would get worst and worst while I tried to deal with it. But it never went away. They wouldn't go away. People. They made my life more troubled than it already was and I knew they would never go away...

... I hide myself in the bathroom knowing that another one of the popular girls was going to beat me like they did everyday since I came to the U.S. It was as if me coming here took more freedom away than giving me freedom. I didn't know what to do. Luckily the bell rang making the girls vanish, leaving me to weep in the stalls...

... Another day at school was the typical puncturing of my heart and soul. People made fun of me, people mocked me, people hurt me. Just another day, I kept telling myself, Just another day...

... At lunch I sat in the one and only Cherry Blossom tree in the state of Colorado like every day watching the heavens above me. I wondered how my friends back home were. Sometimes I wished I had never left but I knew if I didn't I probably wouldn't be alive. I would probably be stupid and commit suicide or something for all of what had happened in my hometown...

... But today was another day, another one of pain and sorrow, another one of humiliating stares, but this was my life now. I needed no one, no one needed me. I just had to convince myself that...

... As the school day grew to a close I walked out of the gates to my home of music. I caught onto the violin when I was five and I've stuck with it through everything. I could play my feelings right onto the strings like it was taking my pain and giving me happiness. Along with dancing, I could take my stress away and I think that is yet another way I kept alive these past five years. My only love of things brought me closure and somewhat happiness. I was glad that my mother got me into this...

... I slid into the shower to wash away the pain I was feeling from school. The competition was coming up in two weeks time and I needed to be relax to win this thing for the school. Even though I hated to admit it but it felt like I owed something to this school like it did me a favor and I gracefully accepted it with one consequence. I had to pay it back. But what was it that the school gave me? Pain? Sorrow? Tears? I wasn't sure. All I knew was that I missed my friends and I wanted them...

... I slid out of the shower and into my clothes. Beside my bed stand was a picture of my family and friends. Each night I would give a prayer for them to be safe and to be happy. I would cry myself to sleep most of the time thinking of the dreadful day back in Japan. I never ceased to erase that from my memory and I wasn't sure why. I erased everything else. So many things I have erased I barely even knew my name when I came here. But like I said, just another day in another life. Another day in another life...

.... The same as always I cried myself to sleep wishing for my life to end or at least be happy even though I knew that wouldn't happen any time soon unless I let that happen. I didn't want anyone else to be hurt, I didn't want to be hurt. It pained me once again that night to think of that day, that day my life came crumbling down....

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It was too vaguely to remember the scene the auburn haired girl was in while she swam in her own tears on the swings back in Japan. She just found out some devastating news that would change her life for ever.

"Suki? Please speak to me..." Shaoran was begging her to answer him for once that night. Without looking at him she sneered a snide re-mark.

"I don't belong here. I never belonged here. Why didn't you tell me! I should have known! How could you do this to me!" She was screaming as she looked at him in disbelief as he shook his head in confusion.

"I never knew your memory would come back. Honestly Sakura..."

"It doesn't matter! You should have let me known! I don't even know who I am anymore..." Sliding her hands to cup her face, she slowly sobbed into her hands. The last thing in her life would she think something like this would happen to her. She had everything. Great friends, good grades, love, and now she had nothing. She didn't even have herself. She felt empty, empty as empty could get and no one was there to help her.

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Waking up in a sweat along with tears she slowly slid into her shoes for a walk. It happened every night since she had been in Colorado, she was practically use to it.

... That same dream of that day. Why? Why does it keep coming back?!... Her mind screamed as she ran to the nearest park in the cold winter. It was under thirty degrees as she ran hugging her jacket tight around her. Slowly she slide into the park and sat on the swings crying into her hands.

"Why? Lord... why me? Why does this happen to me! Please tell me!" She yelled into the night sky while tears streamed down her face. "I know this has some type of purpose but come on! No one should live like this! No one!"

"Are you okay?" Standing alert from the swings shoving her tears away she waited for the voice to appear. When it didn't she spoke calmly.

"Who are you?"

"I'm surprised you don't remember my voice but you have been gone for so long. I don't expect you to remember..."

"Who-Are-You-" She said every word clearly to let the unknown voice know she wasn't afraid. Deep inside she felt hatred, pain, sorrow. She didn't know what was going on.

"It seems that I should ask you the same question. It seems you have lost who you are too. I heard you screaming, I saw your tears, now I will ask nicely once again, are you okay?"

"Fine."brbr

"Grouchy aren't we. Maybe I should tell you who I am now."

"Don't bother. I don't want to know." She slowly turned towards the exit of the park as the voice continued to speak.

"Oh, but I think you might want to know who I am. It is very important that you listen well to what I have to say. Your pain will be gone once you know the truth, Suki."

"You just called me Suki..." She turned to face the young male as she remembered who he was.

...Him... It's him... Why?...

And then all became misty as blackness took over her body covering her in a cold sheet of worthlessness.

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