Disclaimer: Own Star Wars, I do not.
Summary: 3rd chapter in the GTY series, this is! Finally!!!! Hard to write, the other 2 were. Even harder to write, this one was. Also done, chapter 4 is! Hardest to write, that one was. Well, hope you like this one I do!
A/N: A shout-out, I have! Want to say a big, humongous THANK YOU to a friend, I do. Obi's Girl, love you, I do! Thank you very much!!! Very honored, I am!!! Know why this is, you do!
Goodbye To You ~ Obi-Wan to Anakin
Anakin,
You were my first and only Padawan.
You are still thought to be the Chosen One.
They told me to have faith in you
And in all the things that you could do.
My master saw something special in you.
He was so convinced of it too.
I tried to have the same patience as he.
I never imagined you could betray me.
In you, I know, I saw a lot of potential,
But I never saw anything particularly special.
I thought you weren't different from everyone else.
But now I find I should correct myself.
I should have seen the rage rising in you,
This rage that seems to control what you do.
I should have felt your uncontrollable anger
And found some way to make it simmer.
You're mad at me, I know you are,
But I had to stop it before it went too far.
I had to do what I so reluctantly did,
You dueled with me, and you ended up dead.
I didn't want to fight with you,
But you pushed me, and so I had to.
I didn't want for it to end the way it did.
I wish it had been me who had been killed instead.
She hates us now, both me and you,
You because of what you did, and me for what I had to do.
I guess she must have told you by already,
That I love her, and she used to love me.
I realize that I do not know
Why you turned from me, why you decided to go.
I realize also that this might not all be your fault.
Maybe I am the one to be blamed for it all.
Is it because I love your wife?
Did I do something to ruin your life?
Or maybe you've just really hated me from the start.
I still think I did something to tear us apart.
I loved you as if you were a son,
More than just a Padawan,
Always a friend, almost a brother,
I never dreamed it would end this way, never ever…
I'm sorry, my friend, I'm really sorry,
I don't care if you won't ever forgive me,
I'm sorry I had to kill you,
You know and I know I really didn't want to.
I can't make you turn back to me,
But maybe someday someone else will, you'll see.
Goodbye to you, then, if this is how it must end,
I know that fate will find a way, and we'll see each other again.
~ Obi-Wan
-written 07262002-
