{heh Chapter 4 is up! thank you to everyone who reviewed. Im glad to see I get such positive feedback about such a touchy subject. Thanks again to My wonderful 'Bastian for his creative inspiration (my real life bastian ^_^) hes helped me with a lot of this along with big input on my other fic. Thanks as well to Bloodthirsty and Nina Inhertz for their inpiring words, To Venris, AmuseMe, Ecky67 Nightshade Goddess, Kobura Doragon, and Emeral Embers for their reviews! I love you all! *throws plushies!!!!!!!!!*}
{By the way this is a songfic chapter. The song is "Frozen". now I dont pick the songs because of artist. I pick them beause of meaning. ^_^ dont forget to read and review}



Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no...

Sebastian cradled Kain in his arms, tears staining his pale, ivory cheeks and the cheeks of his fallen love. He refused to release him. He held Kain tight. his arms wrapped protectively over his lord. He couldnt let go...not now...not ever...Too long his emotions had been bottled up, too long they had been swept aside to loom over his heart in the darkness. He waited too long to speak his mind...he waited too long to reveal his heart...now this was his punishment.

You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong...


With a soft sigh, he picked Kain up and wrapped him in his cloak. He looked at the pillar, then at Ariel. "Your 'Balance' is restored..." He couldnt stand to look at the specter. The conniving, scheming witch that she was. She would have done anything to ensure her release from the pillars. He was sure she'd had a hand in Kain's death. After all why wouldn't she help if it meant her release. She wanted more than anything to be free. And worst of all, she wouldnt think twice of helping Kain along...

Ariel opened her mouth as if to speak, but fell silent. Sebastian had made his point clear. She was much to blame. She knew Kain would have to die to release her and she deliberatly helped him. when he arrived at the pillars, she was there. He told her he was going to restore balance. She remembered he had hesitated...she lured him, telling him of the great release, and happiness he would have. She told him to do it for himself, not for the land. She remebered he finally did...impaling hiself on his sword. He died in his unlife the same way he did in his life....alone. She had smiled, and actually laughed...She mocked the man that sacrificed himself for her. She felt a great burden suddenly on her heart as she looked at Sebastian. Her eyes suddenly went wide.

Kains spirit had not gone to rest. Instead it stood by Sebastian, reaching out as if to touch him. It was clear he could not. She could see he longed...he ached. Much like she did. Only this time she was free. She was on the outside looking in. She had lied to him, she told him there would be release, and happiness. She knew she had tricked him, but she didnt know he would be bound here. She had been freed, but now...another guardian had taken her place...damned to the pillars.

Ariel noticed that when Sebastian rose, carrying the body of the ruler of Nosgoth, Kains spirit tried to follow. He could not leave the pillars. He was now bound to them as she once was. Now she was the one who had inflicted suffering upon the guardian of Balance. Kain kept trying to follow and failed. He tried several more times desperately, calling and crying to Sebastian silently before, slowly, he moved back to the pillar of Balance and let out a soft cry. It echoed througout the valleys and over moutains. Ariel felt it wrench her heart. It was a heart breaking cry. Mournful and lonely. It chilled her, it made her heart feel frozen. She had never felt so guilty. Sebastian was the only one who didn't hear the cry...
There's nothing left to try...
There's no place left to hide...
There's no greater power...
Than the power of good-bye...


Kain still watched Sebastians departing figure sadly. He was empty and alone. Truly alone. His eyes no longer bright amber. instead they were pale and clouded. He had tried so hard to speak to Sebastian, but he found he could not.His voice was not there and his hands couldnt reach... He was now a spirit. Like ...Ariel, who had told him he would be free. He looked up at Ariel.
"Liar.."

She turned away, unable to face him. She was expecting her spirit to find rest. Yet she did not. She was shocked. She was supposed to be at rest. Something still kept her bound here. She looked down.

Kain...

Until he was released, she would be here. After all she did help kill him. She was being punished for her crime.

Kain was curled up, his head down. Another cry issued from his lips,

"Sebastian don't leave me..."

And again, it echoed through the land. The sky became dark and the thunder began to crash. The wind began to howl, shaking the trees violently. The rain began to pelt down hard, its drops rebounding off of the base of the pillars. He let the rain fall and with a loud echoing cry the lightning began to flash around him. He was in agony...more now than he'd ever been. He'd never see the others....never see Sebastian. Forever bound to these wretched pillars. His death was supposed to end the suffering...He wanted to rest, but there was no respite for him, he wanted to die, but now he was beyond death. Beyond death and beyond life...The rain came down much harder as he cried. it seemed the weather was mimicking the emotional turmoil inside of his own soul.

There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye
Learn to say good-bye
I yearn to say good-bye...

Sebastian walked ,head down, still carrying Kain wrapped in his cloak. And also still carrying the heart of Darkness in his travel sack. There was no point in using it if kains soul had already dissappeared. He had no time to seek shelter when the rains came and he closed his eyes, He waited for it to destroy him, kill him yet again so maybe...maybe he could apologize to the one in his arms.He turned up his face, awaiting the agony of the burn...Nothing happened. The rain merely ran off of his face, bathing him in its cool shower. He remembered once how he had told his brothers how much he missed the rain. He remembered how kain laughed, saying that it was strange a vampire could want to get wet. Sebastian cradled the body close as he remembered that laugh. I was mocking but it still had life and strength in it. Sebastian tilted back his face, lettting the rain hit him. Maybe...maybe Kain was giving him his wish...
"But if Kain is giving me my wish then his spirit..." Sebastian stopped walking.

"His spirit is still at the Pillars!"
He turned back and began to run. maybe...just maybe Janos Audron would again be kind enough to save another soul...maybe he could save Kain...