When Selphie woke up, it was dark, and she knew she was in the infirmary by the lights flashing on the various monitors and machines. Then the memories flooded back. Dr.W (sorry. Hers is a name i just CANT remember...) came over to her seeing she was awake. "Selphie. You hit your head pretty hard... Feeling ok?"
She thought for a moment.
" Yes. I'm ... Fine"
Dr.W took her pulse and checked her reflexes.
" Yes, Yes. Everything is in order. Although... you seem to have suffered from a bit of shock...."
Selphie looked down.
"Oh... It's just something i heard.."
Saying it to herself hurt too much.
Dr.W sighed.
" well if you're not going to tell me i won't beg you. However i'm guessing that it concerns that Dincht boy who's gone away?"
Selphie shook her head but tears welled up in her blue eyes.
" If you say so. Headmaster Cid says that you can help around at Garden for awhile. You are basically okay but you landed hand and broke your wrist so the open world is a bit too dangerous for you. It should be healed in around a month."
Selphie nodded, noticing her bandaged wrist for the first time, and the doctor left her to sleep.
The next evening, after being cleared of any other injuries, Selphie was allowed to go. Everything seemed a lot more interesting and colorful now that she was outside the infirmary. Selphie felt a bit hungry and decided to head off to the cafeteria for a Hotdog or something. A few people openly stared at her arm and giggled loudly. She expected that practically everyone knew now about her fainting and the reason why. Selphie just scowled. She was eternally relieved to see some old friends sitting at a table. They weren't staring obviously at her arm, or making fun of her. They were just happy to see her. and goodness knows she was equally if not more happy to see them.
Selphie smiled for the first time since she had found out that Zell had gone, and ran over to them. There was Rinoa, the General Caraway's daugher, Leader of a resistance group in timber. She hadn't changed much since the last time that Selphie had seen her. And then Quistis Trepe, an instructor, who was only a year older than her. Quistis' appearance was often strict and collected, but by now Selphie definitely knew better. Selphie was given huuuge hugs by the both of them and they asked how she was.
Selphie sat down. "I don't know how i am. There's nothing I can do about it anyway. I can't make him come back... I bet... I bet he's having a blast with all the fighting."
Selphie had seen before how things were in the Desert during wars and they weren't pretty.
She tried desperately to make herself believe her own words, but she couldn't. She knew that Zell was probably lying in a trench, cold, tired,hungry, grimy and scared for his own life. Selphie couldn't help it. A tear slipped slowly from her eye and left a salty trail down her cheeks before it was followed by another.... and another..... she was glad that Rinoa, Quistis and herself were the only people in the caferteria. Rinoa moved her chair near Selphie's and gave her another hug. There was a beep and after a few seconds they heard Quistis lightly slap herself on the forehead.
"i'm honestly sorry, but i've just been paged to report to the classroom. Something's up."
She gave Selphie a hug and waved quickly to Rinoa before dashing off.
Rinoa stared after her. "D'you wanna go for a walk Selph?"
She nodded.
It was beautiful in the Quad and a nice teacher had let Rinoa and Selphie in despite the curfew. {The teacher probably even knows....}
They walked down to the lowest level of the quad and sat down.
"It's not fair Selphie.. i know...We're all sad that Zell is gone."
Rinoa patted Selphie's arm sympathetically.
"But You know." she continued in a cheerier tone.
"Irvine will be back in two days. Think how great that'll be. I bet you'll love that!" she said.
Selphie stared at her in complete and utter disbelief and confusion.
"You don't understand... you really don't understand....."
She bowed her head trying not to cry again.
"c'mon Selph... we all miss him...-" Rinoa was interrupted by Selphie.
"AND I LOVE HIM!!!" she yelled, tears running down her cheeks. Her words echoed off the walls several times until all you could hear was Selphie's hopeless sobbing.
Rinoa was silent and thoughtful. Eventually when Selphie had calmed down she spoke in a timid and teary voice.
"You... should.... have told us Selph. He loves you too. He always has... Ever since you guys met on the SeeD exams..."
Selphie was shocked. "But... Amber?"
Rinoa laughed weakly and sniffed. "He never liked her... She just thought he did.."
Selphie stared at a water fountain....
{It all makes sense now....}
"Why didn't he tell me?" she sobbed.
Rinoa paused before answering carefully.
"he.... He heard Irvine talking to you on the train... about...something..."
"Oh no..."
"Exactly... Oh look at the time. We need to go back to our dorms. We're gonna have a big day tommorrow......"
***
Selphie sat on her bed, staring out the open window. A cool breeze blew back her light brown hair. Selphie closed her eyes, lifted her arms into the air and let the wind take her over. It whistled around the room before going back though the window. Selphie took a deep breath of the clean air. She opened her eyes and stared into the starlit sky.
"If you can hear me Zell... I love you... I promise....."
She sighed and got into bed, pulling the covers around her tightly.
She kept the windows open.
"Bring...me..back...a...message....."
She fell asleep.
The next morning was fresh and slightly chilly. whatever sunlight the clouds could let through, poured in through the window and onto Selphies face. She decided to wear something different than the dress.
"Dresh jussabit junile.." she muttered, holding her hairbrush with her teeth as the tied up her hair into a ponytail.
She picked out a dark and shortish denim skirt with a feminine but-not-too-strict white shirt. It had two pockets on the chest, silver buttons and short sleeves. It looked quite nice untucked really..... She stood up and twirled in the mirror after pulling on a pair of dressy black highheels.
"How could i forget i owned these?" she wondered aloud. She was struck suddenly to search for another stack of unknown clothes. After about 20 minuets Selphie was amazed by the selection. She had also unhearthed a short forest green shirt, like her blouse, that would go %100 with her denim skirt and a black skirt she had found. She also found a couple of nice dresses (white and short with a halter neck, Blue, long, strapless, a slit up the leg, black, short, thin straps.), a nicepair of pants (gold, stretch satin), a white boob tube and black knee hi boots.
"wow..."
Selphie had decided to wear the green shirt over the black dress and the black boots {Hell. all the other girls dress like this....}and had tied her hair into a knot behind her head. She was equipped with her bag, with Festival Commitee Papers and a pencil case. She walked into the library and walked past the front desk. "Hi Jason."
The boy, Jason, at the desk stared for a few moments before recognising her.
" Oh... Hi Selphie..." he said a little flustered.
Selphie picked a desk near the window in the study section and pulled out her small, neat notebook with a picture of a Nunchaku on it and began to write notes on the festivals.
"Tickets... 20 gil.....no.. 15.... umm... black..... silver ink? yes..."
she talked to her self as she wrote down several ideas and decisions.
"Balloons.... Refreshments....music...... lights.... bubble machine?"
There was a girly voice behind her.
"Excuse me Mam..... Have you seen Z-Zell Dincht?
I have a book for him on Kaioken fighting techniques"
The girl sounded really shy.
Selphie spun the chair around (it was one of those kewl office ones).
"Huh? Amber?"
"SELPHIE?? argh. Have you seen Zell or not? I want to give him this book!"
Amber lost her polite tone immediately.
Amber really annoyed Selphie sometimes because she thought that she was Zell's girlfriend when Zell actually just liked her, and that made her better than his friends.
"He's fighting in the desert Amber. I hope that book isn't too expensive... because I bought it for him for his last birthday. Y'know. A few weeks ago?" Selphie told her.
Amber paused for a second.
"well.... i also bought this a book on the rare Kamesennin Martial arts!" she boasted.
"I hope you like fighting cause Rinoa and Quistis bought him that."
Amber looked a bit sad and Selphie felt sorry for her.
"well.um...never mind... i'll just be going...."
Amber walked away quickly.
"well.. It's a pity.. I bet she's really nice too......" said Selphie, going back to work on designing the posters.
At lunch, Selphie sat alone at a table, staring into space and eating a salad.
{..............zell......................................zell..................................zell..........................}
She threw the container and plastic fork into a bin and rested her chin on her hand.
"When are you coming home?"
TBC....
I dont know how many people actually will bother readin this and only one person has reviewed as i write this chapter (Thank you heartovalion!) so i'll ask for four reviews. Is that fair? I'll count it if you review twice, in other words i'll write for one person if i need to. luv - Leitha .
By the way i have a split family so often i'll only b able to post on the weekends because i only got the net at my dads! plz don't lose faith in me... :)
She thought for a moment.
" Yes. I'm ... Fine"
Dr.W took her pulse and checked her reflexes.
" Yes, Yes. Everything is in order. Although... you seem to have suffered from a bit of shock...."
Selphie looked down.
"Oh... It's just something i heard.."
Saying it to herself hurt too much.
Dr.W sighed.
" well if you're not going to tell me i won't beg you. However i'm guessing that it concerns that Dincht boy who's gone away?"
Selphie shook her head but tears welled up in her blue eyes.
" If you say so. Headmaster Cid says that you can help around at Garden for awhile. You are basically okay but you landed hand and broke your wrist so the open world is a bit too dangerous for you. It should be healed in around a month."
Selphie nodded, noticing her bandaged wrist for the first time, and the doctor left her to sleep.
The next evening, after being cleared of any other injuries, Selphie was allowed to go. Everything seemed a lot more interesting and colorful now that she was outside the infirmary. Selphie felt a bit hungry and decided to head off to the cafeteria for a Hotdog or something. A few people openly stared at her arm and giggled loudly. She expected that practically everyone knew now about her fainting and the reason why. Selphie just scowled. She was eternally relieved to see some old friends sitting at a table. They weren't staring obviously at her arm, or making fun of her. They were just happy to see her. and goodness knows she was equally if not more happy to see them.
Selphie smiled for the first time since she had found out that Zell had gone, and ran over to them. There was Rinoa, the General Caraway's daugher, Leader of a resistance group in timber. She hadn't changed much since the last time that Selphie had seen her. And then Quistis Trepe, an instructor, who was only a year older than her. Quistis' appearance was often strict and collected, but by now Selphie definitely knew better. Selphie was given huuuge hugs by the both of them and they asked how she was.
Selphie sat down. "I don't know how i am. There's nothing I can do about it anyway. I can't make him come back... I bet... I bet he's having a blast with all the fighting."
Selphie had seen before how things were in the Desert during wars and they weren't pretty.
She tried desperately to make herself believe her own words, but she couldn't. She knew that Zell was probably lying in a trench, cold, tired,hungry, grimy and scared for his own life. Selphie couldn't help it. A tear slipped slowly from her eye and left a salty trail down her cheeks before it was followed by another.... and another..... she was glad that Rinoa, Quistis and herself were the only people in the caferteria. Rinoa moved her chair near Selphie's and gave her another hug. There was a beep and after a few seconds they heard Quistis lightly slap herself on the forehead.
"i'm honestly sorry, but i've just been paged to report to the classroom. Something's up."
She gave Selphie a hug and waved quickly to Rinoa before dashing off.
Rinoa stared after her. "D'you wanna go for a walk Selph?"
She nodded.
It was beautiful in the Quad and a nice teacher had let Rinoa and Selphie in despite the curfew. {The teacher probably even knows....}
They walked down to the lowest level of the quad and sat down.
"It's not fair Selphie.. i know...We're all sad that Zell is gone."
Rinoa patted Selphie's arm sympathetically.
"But You know." she continued in a cheerier tone.
"Irvine will be back in two days. Think how great that'll be. I bet you'll love that!" she said.
Selphie stared at her in complete and utter disbelief and confusion.
"You don't understand... you really don't understand....."
She bowed her head trying not to cry again.
"c'mon Selph... we all miss him...-" Rinoa was interrupted by Selphie.
"AND I LOVE HIM!!!" she yelled, tears running down her cheeks. Her words echoed off the walls several times until all you could hear was Selphie's hopeless sobbing.
Rinoa was silent and thoughtful. Eventually when Selphie had calmed down she spoke in a timid and teary voice.
"You... should.... have told us Selph. He loves you too. He always has... Ever since you guys met on the SeeD exams..."
Selphie was shocked. "But... Amber?"
Rinoa laughed weakly and sniffed. "He never liked her... She just thought he did.."
Selphie stared at a water fountain....
{It all makes sense now....}
"Why didn't he tell me?" she sobbed.
Rinoa paused before answering carefully.
"he.... He heard Irvine talking to you on the train... about...something..."
"Oh no..."
"Exactly... Oh look at the time. We need to go back to our dorms. We're gonna have a big day tommorrow......"
***
Selphie sat on her bed, staring out the open window. A cool breeze blew back her light brown hair. Selphie closed her eyes, lifted her arms into the air and let the wind take her over. It whistled around the room before going back though the window. Selphie took a deep breath of the clean air. She opened her eyes and stared into the starlit sky.
"If you can hear me Zell... I love you... I promise....."
She sighed and got into bed, pulling the covers around her tightly.
She kept the windows open.
"Bring...me..back...a...message....."
She fell asleep.
The next morning was fresh and slightly chilly. whatever sunlight the clouds could let through, poured in through the window and onto Selphies face. She decided to wear something different than the dress.
"Dresh jussabit junile.." she muttered, holding her hairbrush with her teeth as the tied up her hair into a ponytail.
She picked out a dark and shortish denim skirt with a feminine but-not-too-strict white shirt. It had two pockets on the chest, silver buttons and short sleeves. It looked quite nice untucked really..... She stood up and twirled in the mirror after pulling on a pair of dressy black highheels.
"How could i forget i owned these?" she wondered aloud. She was struck suddenly to search for another stack of unknown clothes. After about 20 minuets Selphie was amazed by the selection. She had also unhearthed a short forest green shirt, like her blouse, that would go %100 with her denim skirt and a black skirt she had found. She also found a couple of nice dresses (white and short with a halter neck, Blue, long, strapless, a slit up the leg, black, short, thin straps.), a nicepair of pants (gold, stretch satin), a white boob tube and black knee hi boots.
"wow..."
Selphie had decided to wear the green shirt over the black dress and the black boots {Hell. all the other girls dress like this....}and had tied her hair into a knot behind her head. She was equipped with her bag, with Festival Commitee Papers and a pencil case. She walked into the library and walked past the front desk. "Hi Jason."
The boy, Jason, at the desk stared for a few moments before recognising her.
" Oh... Hi Selphie..." he said a little flustered.
Selphie picked a desk near the window in the study section and pulled out her small, neat notebook with a picture of a Nunchaku on it and began to write notes on the festivals.
"Tickets... 20 gil.....no.. 15.... umm... black..... silver ink? yes..."
she talked to her self as she wrote down several ideas and decisions.
"Balloons.... Refreshments....music...... lights.... bubble machine?"
There was a girly voice behind her.
"Excuse me Mam..... Have you seen Z-Zell Dincht?
I have a book for him on Kaioken fighting techniques"
The girl sounded really shy.
Selphie spun the chair around (it was one of those kewl office ones).
"Huh? Amber?"
"SELPHIE?? argh. Have you seen Zell or not? I want to give him this book!"
Amber lost her polite tone immediately.
Amber really annoyed Selphie sometimes because she thought that she was Zell's girlfriend when Zell actually just liked her, and that made her better than his friends.
"He's fighting in the desert Amber. I hope that book isn't too expensive... because I bought it for him for his last birthday. Y'know. A few weeks ago?" Selphie told her.
Amber paused for a second.
"well.... i also bought this a book on the rare Kamesennin Martial arts!" she boasted.
"I hope you like fighting cause Rinoa and Quistis bought him that."
Amber looked a bit sad and Selphie felt sorry for her.
"well.um...never mind... i'll just be going...."
Amber walked away quickly.
"well.. It's a pity.. I bet she's really nice too......" said Selphie, going back to work on designing the posters.
At lunch, Selphie sat alone at a table, staring into space and eating a salad.
{..............zell......................................zell..................................zell..........................}
She threw the container and plastic fork into a bin and rested her chin on her hand.
"When are you coming home?"
TBC....
I dont know how many people actually will bother readin this and only one person has reviewed as i write this chapter (Thank you heartovalion!) so i'll ask for four reviews. Is that fair? I'll count it if you review twice, in other words i'll write for one person if i need to. luv - Leitha .
By the way i have a split family so often i'll only b able to post on the weekends because i only got the net at my dads! plz don't lose faith in me... :)
