(i've had to rewrite chapters 6,7 and 8 cause my pc deleted them! sorry for the wait... i was at my mums. song featured: Scared by Ashanti. I don't own ashanti or any of her fab songs ok?! although i modified a few words to fit the song... please don't kill me!)

Selphie sat bolt upright in her bed. It had been three weeks since Zell had died, and been revived again.
"Why do I keep Nightmaring?" she asked herself, drenched in a cold sweat.

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Selphie sat in the caferteria absent mindedly picking at a salad.... The festival dance was on that night and no one had invited her.
{ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell.....
ask me to the festival Zell.....
ask me to the festival Zell.....
ask me to the festival Zell.....
ask me to the festival Zell.....
ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell.....
ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell.....
ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell....
.ask me to the festival Zell.....}

"Selphie.. will you go to the festival with me?" Asked a male voice.

"YES!" Selphie screamed, before wheeling around.
A familiar cowboy hat flashed infront of her eyes....
{Oh no....}
"Thats great! I didn't know you wanted to go sooooo badly with me...."
Selphie almost died when Irvine kissed her on the cheek.
{EEEWWWWW.Oh shit...}
Selphie saw something like Zell's Jacket dissapear out of the caferteria.
Rinoa and Quistis smiled sympathetically.
Irvine gave one of smiles which made him look gay, and sauntered off.
Selphie put her face in her hands.......
Quistis gently tapped her on the shoulder.....
"one problem with sitting there sulking... Uh.. Amber!"
Selphie leapt up in horror and bolted off to the library.

She grabbed a book on Birds and hid behind a shelf, where Zell and Amber where engaged in a conversation where Amber was doing most of the talking. But not before She caught a glimpse of suspicious blue eyes.

"So... Uh... AMber... Wanna.... go to the festival... or... something?" Zell asked, trying to be casual.
"YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYES! Oh Zell! I never knew you liked me too!!!!!!!!"

"But...But..."

"I"LL SEEEE YOU THERE! I HAVE TO GET READY!!!!!!!"Amber shrieked, making Zell blush red. She ran full bolt into Selphie, sending her books and papers flying.. She ignored Selphie.
"HEY! Tch..."
Selphie knelt down and began to pick up the papers.
Someone knelt beside her and began picking up papers too.
"It's ok you don't need to... ZELL?"
Selphie felt terrible for not recognising him.. Zell looked as bad as Selphie felt. He was ghostly pale, and thin in a bad way.. His hair was dull and wispy and his eyes.........
Zell ignored her and leaned over to pick up the Bird Book, and selphie got a glimpse of the heavily stiched and plastered wound.
They stood up and Zell dumped the stuff in her arms.
They stood there awkwardly for a moment.
" Im...sorry...." she whispered quietly.
She caught a glimpse of pain in his eyes as he turned aroundand walked off....

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Despite the world, Selphie felt cheerful as she dumped multitudes of makeup onto her bed.
She slipped into the shower for half and hour, give or take ten minuets.
"Much Better." She said, after drying and styling her hair into an elegant knot behind her head.
She applied mascara and some pale blue eyeshadow, and some lipgloss.

{Finally time for my dress......}
Selphie eyed herself critically in the mirror. Her dress was made from dark blue velvet. It had a low and complimenting neckline , and long, flowing sleeved sleeves. It came to just above her knees, and the left egde trailed down to the tops of her black knee length boots. Finally she sprinkled some body shimmer around her cleavage, and on her cheek bones.

"Tee Hee......."
She looked at her clock happily.
"Yikes!!!!! My solo is in ... 15 minuets!!!!"
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Selphie dashed backstage. Luckily there were two people to go so she had sometime to prepare herself.. When finally she stepped onto the stage she quickly eyed the crowd. There was Quisty and Nida, watching her eagerly... There was Squall and Rinoa smiling encouragingly and she saw Irvine, winking stupidly at her and Zell... Standing there with Amber... He looked away from Selphie when she caught his gaze.

She stepped up to the mike, adjusted it to her height and nodded to the dj.

"It was late at night when i realised that I missed you,
Thinking what did I just do,
Feeling was strong come on,
and I knew I wanted you,
Something inside held me back,
Boy you got me scared of you...."

Everyone was staring, impressed by this hidden talent. Selphie cast a meaningful look in Zell's direction before continuing.

"You got me afraid to let my love go,
Is it my heart that I should follow?
Got me afraid to let myself go,
Boy you got me scared of you......

You got me afraid to let my love go,
Is it my heart that I should follow?
Got me afraid to let myself go,
Boy you got me scared of you......"

She could barely read the look on Zell's face as surprise and she was finding it hard to control her own emotions. She didn't see Irvine trace her glance back to Zell, and stalk away in rage.

"If I let go I know,
My heart will remain strong,
Cause you the type that might just give right,
and make me strong.
I couldn't just be a girl you're just "seeing" once a month,
Cause if it goes down,
Better believe im gone,
Gonna be your only one,
Got me afraid to let my heart go..."

Tears welled up in Selphie's eyes. She could see she was making Zell feel bad and that wasn't what she had intended.......

"Y-y ou got me afraid to let my love go,
Is it my heart that I should follow?
Got me afraid to let myself go,
Boy you got me scared of you......

You got me afraid to let my love go,
Is it my heart that I should follow?
Got me afraid to let myself go,
Boy you got me scared of you......"

The tears began to slip from her eyes one by one.

"You got me afraid to let my love go,
Is it my heart that I should follow?
Got me afraid to let myself go,
Boy you got me scared of you......

Should I let it go, should I let it go?
no no no no no no....

Should I let it go, should I let it go?
no no no no no no....

Should I let it go.... should I let it go......."

She clicked the mike into the stand and dashed off stage, her hand held to her face.... She didn't even hear the scattered applause from people who weren't shocked by her emotions during the song.

Selphie ran down the endless corridors, tears blinding her as they poured down her face. She couldn't be bothered wiping them away. She knew she was heading roughly in the direction of her dorms. She ran around a corner and found herself In Zell's arms.

Selphie was only too happy for Zell to have his arms wrapped around her snugly while she cried her eyes out. Zell could feel the extreme pain he'd been feeling ever since that night in the training center, just melt away into eternity.....

"I-I'm so...so sorry....... I don't know what happened..... I don't know...." Selphie cried, clinging to Zell's black shirt like there was no tomorrow.
He sighed and stroked her hair which had fallen down from the knot.
"It's ok Selphie.... I know... I know how it feels to be scared.... Come on.. I'll walk you back to your room...."

When they finally got to Selphie's room Zell opened the door so Selphie could go in. But instead they just stood in the doorway.

"I can't lie to you.. I don't know what to do..." Selphie told her friend a bit shyly.
Zell touched her cheek gently.
"you know what I want.... now do what you want.. Let it all go and trust yourself... Trust me..."
Selphie thought for a moment and then before she knew it she was caught up in the most amazing kiss she'd ever experience.

Then a light turned on.....