Her last word

Ch. 2 the letters

By Padfootsgal

Disclamer: I don't own bishoujo senshi sailormoon, Naoko Takeuchi does, but I own Naoko Takeuchi!! MUHAHAHAHAHAH!…and pigs fly.*sigh*

A/n I'm back with a longer chapter. I don't mean to be mean to Mamoru, he just has to be an asshole in this story. He really isn't like that in my opinion. Gomen 'bout this chapter taking a bit to get out also, but I couldn't get depressed enough to sit down and write. THEN, fanfic went down. THEN my computer went crazy and we had to re-upload it and I didn't have word anymore!!!!!!! So here it is  **********************************************************************************************

 Dear Minako, Makoto, Ami, Rei, Haruka, Michru, Hotaru, Setstuna, ChibiUsa, (if you are there), and the Starlights,

   You are probably wondering why I did this, and I have a perfectly good reason for it, but that later. I am extremely sorry for doing this, I must be shirking my duty as a sailor senshi, but you will find a new leader. Rei, perhaps, or Ami, or maybe Setsuna. You can decide. I am glad to have met you all and lived through all the experiences that we've lived through. I am sure, eventually Sailormoon will be reborn in another body. But not in Tsukino Usagi's body. I couldn't live as being Sailormoon, and eventually neo queen Serenity. It overruled my life, I had to follow sailormoons destiny more than what Usagi wanted to do. And now, I am sorry minna, but I had to do this. Please, even though mamoru beating me is a big factor in this decision, the fact that he was ruining my peace, don't hold him responsible for this. Many things factored into this, some which are personal and some like mamoru and not being able to be Usagi. Please, also Chibiusa, I am sorry if by doing this I have made you not be born. Many would consider it murder, but I just couldn't have you. Mamoru was too horrible to me to even think about having you. Gomen nasai, Chibiusa-chan. I love you. and minna, rember I love all of you but couldn't bear to live in the pain I lived in, and if it continued onto you, it would be unbearable.

 Love always,

 Tsukino Usagi or Sailormoon

    Ami finished reading out loud the letter in a quavering voice, wiping away tears as she finished. The senshi the letter was addressed to, minus the starlights, were sitting in a circle at the outers apartment. Minako, usually the cheerful one, was sober and quiet, seeming to sink into her body. Rei looked like the fire in her had gone out. Makoto was hugging a pillow to her body, seemingly paralyzed in sadness. Michru was holding little Hotaru in her lap, trying unsuccessfully to stop both of their tears. Haruka sat alittle apart from everyone, as if trying to separate her emotions. Setstuna sat stiffly, sadness radiating off her despite the firm mask she put on. Usagis suicide had hit all of them hard, because they were all closer to her than they thought.

Usagis mother had found her dead when she came home from dropping Shingo off at a baseball game. She called the police, and soon all of Usagis friends knew. They called an emergency senshi meeting at 2 a.m. and read the letter titled to them.

   "we have to tell them, her parents," Ami suddenly said after the space of silence.

   "what?" asked Setstuna.

   "that's she sailormoon, you know," Ami replied, "they should know."

   "of course," was the reply. Setstuna and Ami seemed to be the only ones who could talk.

   "what about Chibiusa?" was Hotarus first comment, said worriedly.

   "I've sent her to the past, or the present as of now, she should be here soon."  Everyone then started to look around, hoping, praying that Chibiusa would appear and tell them she was alive, that Usagi hadn't killed herself, that everything was perfect. What they got was a knock on the door. Rei walked, trance-like, to the door and answered. Everyone heard a startled gasp, and rapid rushed speaking. Rushing in, Rei announced, "The starlights and princess Kakyuu are here" Setstuna rushed up to them, saying, "I am extremely glad you could come. I sent for them once I found out, so they could be here." She explained to everyone.

   As the Kinmoku senshi filed in, Ami noticed that Seiya seemed extremely upset. She filed it away in her head for inspection later. Now they needed to talk to the newcomers. They were ushered to a seat, and then the princess started to speak.

   "so what setstuna told us was true, what usagi did?" she asked skirting around the word suicide.

   "Hai" Haruka said her first word since everyone had arrived at the apartment, her voice tear-filled.

   "where is Mamoru?" Seiya asked impatiently, "shouldn't he be here?" he looked like he was about to say something else, but Kakyuu put her hand lightly on his arm, restraining him. He calmed visibly under his princesses touch.

   "this is senshi business," Setstuna replied coolly "he is not a sailor senshi. This letter was only addressed to us." Ami handed Seiya the letter, who read it with the others looking over his shoulder to read it. Then another knock came at the door. Rei answered it again. "Chibiusa-chan!" everyone heard her exclaim. The y both came in, Rei looking glad chibiusa was there, chibiusa looking tired.

   "Chibiusa!" hotaru exclaimed, hurrying over to the weak girl, "whats wrong?" 

   "setstuna came for me, but had to leave soon after. In the future everything is a mess. No one knows what is going on, and momma is fading away, whats wrong?" chibiusa looked worried as she announced this. Everyone looked around, wondering who was going to explain this to chibiusa. Setsuna, stepped forward, saying softly "usagi took her life." Then Seiya came over and handed chibiusa the letter. She read it quietly to herself, tears streaming down her face.

   "I love you too Usagi-chan, I love you." she softly said. Then she gave a gasp and sat down heavily on the couch. "ill fade away! No, ill fade away!" as she said this, she started to flicker.

   "NO!" Hotaru screamed. "not you too." Everyone watched in horror as chibiusa flickered away to nothing. "She's gone." Hotaru whispered "my only friend is gone"

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   Everyone silently left the apartment, extremely sobered by what they had seen happen. Ami remembered Usagis other letter. She hurried over to Seiya and handed him a letter. "this was the other letter Usagi wrote, its addressed to you." she softly told him. He took the letter, and hurried home.

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   'Why won't they leave me ALONE' Seiya thought as he was put in the constant attentions of Taiki, Yaten, and Kakyuu. He voiced this question to Taiki, who said simply, "we're worried about you, Seiya" Seiya glared. When he FINALLY got a space of time alone, he huddled down and took out the letter addressed to him.

       Dear Seiya,

   I have now realized something. Mamoru has never loved me back with the love I gave him, the love and the devotion that comes from the heart, not knowledge. Knowledge that he had to marry me to rule crystal Tokyo. See, that was to be our future. So I believe that he has always just loved from that knowledge. Seiya, I am sorry I did not realize that the pure love, from the heart, that was what you had given me. Now it is too late, and all I can do is stop the fall, falling into an unreal life. Seiya, I hope this does not hurt you more. In fact, I hope I have not hurt you too much, not loving you. Aishieru.

    Usagi      

   Seiya held the letter and cried for the first time since he had left earth.

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 a/n this sounds piggy but please review and give opinions! 1 more chapter to go now.