Her Last Word

Ch3. The Realization

By Padfootsgal

Diclaimer: I own a bunch of nothing, except the plot.

A/n YAY! Gomen bout the long wait, my muse ran away *shows muse which looks like a small, angry monkey, now taped to her wrist* but I got it back and can finally write! This chaper is not a very happy one, but its alittle…satisfying. And sappy a bit too. I liked it ^^

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   It was the day after Seiya read Usagis letter. He thought about that letter. Did she mean it?  Mamoru didn't love her from the heart? But yet, knowing this, she still loved him? His head whirled with those questions. He sighed, deciding to figure it all out later, and to just try his hardest to comfort everyone else.

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     Three days later was Usagis funeral. It was fairly small, consisting of the senshi, her family, and close friends. Mamoru was too busy to come. 'No surprise there.'  Was Seiyas reaction when he heard that Mamoru was not going to be at the furneral. Seiya had a feeling he was going to be with that woman he saw Mamoru with at the grocery store. He had been furious when he saw Mamoru with that woman, figuring that Mamoru had been probably cheating on Usagi. But then Princess Kakyuu laid a hand on his shoulder, a gesture she did often to calm him down. "He isn't worth your wrath. He will never be completely loved, that is enough punishment for him, Seiya. Don't start worthless fights." So Seiya ignored him and told no one what he saw.

     The whole ceremony was quiet and sober. When Usagis casket was lowered into the ground, Seiya barley stifled a sob. His princess looked at him compassionately, and gave his hand a squeeze. Almost everone there was crying, and those who weren't were near it. No one stayed for long after the ceremony. They all left to their private places to mourn Usagi by themselves. Seiya stayed, and stared at the grave, and ran the words of her letter, her last words to him, over in his head again and again. He suddenly turned and started walking briskly, not sure of where he was going, just glad to be walking aound.

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     Seiya sat down on a bench, breathing in the cool night air deeply. He walked all around the town, and ended up at the park. The funeral, and Usagis letter got him thinking. Was he a reason she killed herself? Could he have come to earth again, and prevented this? He sat so long thinking that he fell asleep on the bench. In his dream- well he thought it was a dream, a beautiful woman with white hair pulled into odangos stood in front of him.

     "Usagi? But aren't you-" Seiya began, but the woman cut him off smoothly.

     "I am not Usagi, I am, in fact her mother from her past life as a princess, I am Queen Selenity. I am here to tell you of your pure love. Both you and Usagi had a pure love for each other, deep in your hearts. And both of you came to realize this. This pure love that is shared by two people is rarer than you would believe." 

     "Then… why did she take her life?" Seiya questioned Queen Selenity. What could she reply to that, the question that even Usagis letter did not satisfy completely, what was constantly on his mind?

     "I believe that she realized deep down, subconsciously, that this love couldn't occur if She was Sailormoon and you were Sailor Star Fighter. She used other problems and stresses in her life as her reasons and then killed herself." Seiya stared at the Queen in shock, realizing the truth of what she said.

     "So, should-should I kill myself too?" he asked.

     "Iie," the Queen said with a faint smile, "You should live out your life happily, and perhaps you will meet her again some other time."  'Demo-does my life have meaning with out her? She has always been constantly on my mind, how can I live without her?' Seiya wondered in his head. But he said nothing to Queen Selenity. He sat, contemplating what he could do. Of course, he had lived without Usagi for all that time after the fight with Galaxia, but he had thought she was in good hands with Mamoru. Obviously he had been wrong, and look what happened. 

     "Live with what has happened. Use your love towards Usagi as energy towards life. Never give that love up, and you may see her someday." She whispered this to Seiya, gave him a gentle kiss on the check and walked away.

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     Seiya then woke, and found he was smiling, for the first time since he had got too earth. A faint smile, yes, but one just the same. Obviously Queen Selenitys words helped, even if she was just a dream. He looked up into the sky, and noticed it was it was a full moon. Fort he first time, he spotted the bunny on the moon. [1] He then realized, looking at the bunny on the moon Usagi would always be with him, in spirit at least. He would try his hardest to life his life out without her, as he was sure she would want him too. Seiya swore to himself, when he died, he would be with Usagi, somehow. "Aishieru, Usagi," he murmured, still staring at the moon, "Aishieru"

     A woman standing behind the bushes smiled and quickly turned and walked away from the boy, her long white dress and hair flowing behind her. Fate had tried to fight her, but pure love had a ferocity that got what truly should happen, and this was no exception. Her sister would be angry, but that was a disadvantage to being pure love, sister to fate. Anyway, this couple was perfect for each other, too perfect for this chance. She headed home, glad her work was done. This love would last eien ni (forever) yes, all through time it would last.

      "Aishieru, Seiya"

      "Aishieru, Usagi"

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*sniff sniff* awww kawaii! Now that im done REVIEW! I'd also like to thank all those nice people who reviewed! Not one flame! Its so nice! ^_____^ Oh and kel, your account name is Keladrey, I checked.

[1] Usagi means the rabbit on the moon in Japanese, like the man on the moon? Well in Japan there is a rabbit on the moon, which I think really suits Usagi as a name, cause she likes bunnies and is sailormoon!