Life
After High School. Is It Scary? You Bet.
By Risty Maskell and Silver15
Disclaimer: What do we want? LOTR! When do we want it? NOW!
Summary: Hell, I thought you would have figured it out by now.
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(Emma's POV)
The Memorial Service went quite well. A lot of kids cried when Jaime said her speech. That was only to be expected. It was very emotional. Afterwards, even though there were a lot of other kids still waiting to speak, Billee and Damon came over to where Boromir and I were standing. Legolas and Benny were following them as usual.
"Em, are you all right?" was the first thing Billee asked. "You look pale"
"I'm fine," I said, with a small smile. "The baby's kicking. He's been kicking all night actually, so I didn't get a lot of sleep"
"What's up with you?" Boromir asked Billee, putting a supporting arm around my shoulders. "You look really upset"
"I…I'm probably going to feel really guilty about this later" Billee muttered, looking down at the ground. "But I don't want to stay for the rest of this. I want to go home" Legolas put Colan down on the floor and wrapped his arms around Billee.
"It's okay," he whispered. "I know it's hard"
"I can't cope" Billee admitted, his voice breaking. "This all brings back memories. Mark shouldn't be dead…nor should Marcus. I want to go home"
Colan, frightened by his brother's distressed state, started to cry. Damon picked him up and stroked his hair gently.
"I think that you two should take him home" he said, looking at Billee and Legolas. "He's upset and tired, and you don't look much better. Me and Benny will explain everything to Jaime"
"Maybe you should go too Emma" Benny suggested. "You look tired out and you don't want to overdo it"
"But Jaime…"
"You have been here for Jaime's speech" Benny said gently. "And anyway, Jaime had Frodo, it's not like she's alone"
"He's right Em" Boromir took my hand. "I know that Jaime is your best friend and everything, but right now the most important thing is your health. If you overdo things, there's a chance that things could still go badly. I don't want to lose you"
"That's right" Legolas said with a sigh. "You have to think about yourself and your child. Little Kane. Don't feel guilty, guilt won't get you anywhere"
"I'll tell Jaime that you four have gone back then," Damon said with a nod. "I'm sure that she will understand. I'll see you later"
He handed Colan back to Billee and the two of them disappeared into the crowd. Legolas looked around.
"I think I see Gandalf's hat," he said quickly. "I'll be back in a minute"
He darted off and returned two minutes later with Gandalf. We briefly explained why we needed to go back and Gandalf used his transporter magic. We all appeared back in Jaime's kitchen. Try as I might I couldn't help feeling guilty about leaving Jaime, but I knew that the others were right. If I lost this baby, even if by some miracle I managed to survive, I would never have another chance. I had to be careful.
Billee gave Colan some juice and a biscuit, since the little kid likes those. Then he and Legolas took Colan into the living room and put him down on a chair, for his nap. He fell asleep immediately, tired out by everything that had happened. Legolas and Billee sat opposite him, talking quietly between themselves. I didn't want to disturb them, so I took Boromir's hand and we went upstairs. Being pregnant was making me more tired than usual so we lay down together and talked quietly about our baby. Boromir rested one hand on my stomach so that he could feel the baby kick. He was so pleased that we were going to have a child together.
When I felt myself dropping off, I reached up to give him a kiss.
"Boromir" I whispered. "When Jaime comes back…I don't think she'll be upset with us, but if she is don't let her shout at me or Billee. It wasn't our fault"
"It's okay," he whispered gently, stroking my hair. In his arms, I felt protected and loved. And like that, I fell asleep.
