I, YOURS...YOU, MINE
Author: MeB XanWill4Ever
Email: lenoxfiles@hotmail.com
Spoiler: Takes place Buffy Season 1, Sequal to I, Robot, You, Jane
Pairing - Xander/Willow
Summary: Willow seems withdrawn after breaking up with a demon robot, and Buffy and Xander become deeply concerned. They become convinced that Willow is trying to avoid them, but Willow hides a terrible secret. A secret that could break the bonds of the friendships she holds precious to her heart.
Disclaimer: All characters of Buffy tVS are the property of Joss.
Rating - PG-13
Author's Note- The storyline in between *** storyline *** is from the episodes. It is not mine. I borrowed it for the story. (The Pack/I, Robot, You, Jane) These express thoughts. xwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxw
I, YOURS...YOU, MINE
Part 1
There they sat at the fountain in the "courtyard" of Sunnydale High. They looked like a miserable threesome, wrapped up in the woes of life and tragedy. In truth, Buffy and Xander had joined Willow with every intention of cheering her up. They each loved Willow and they couldn't bear to see her so despairing.
*** "Malcolm...Moloch..." Willow said with a slight tremor she was trying to keep out of her voice. She shrugged. "Whatever he's called. The one boy that's really liked me and he's a demon robot. What does that say about me?"
Buffy shrugged imperceptibly. "It doesn't say anything about you."
Willow stared at the ground. "But I thought-I mean, I was really falling..." she trailed off. She thought to herself, Oh, who am I kidding?! Who would fall for me? What a joke? She clenched her teethe together in an attempt to hold herself together.
"Hey," Buffy said, forcing a smile, "did you forget? The one boy I've had the hots for since I moved here? Turned out to be a vampire."
Xander nodded his head, grinning like a mad man. "Right, and the teacher I had a crush on? Giant preying mantis."
Willow nodded absently. "That's true."
Xander shrugged. "That's life on the Hellmouth."
"Let's face it." Buffy looked at Willow. "None of us are ever gonna' have a happy relationship,"
Xander shrugged. "We're doomed!"
Willow smiled wryly. "Yeah!"
Then they shared a short laugh, and abruptly fell into a deep silence. ***
Willow frowned. Why are they down in the dumps? Isn't it my turn? Or is it because I'm good, old reliable Willow who can't be in the dumps by herself 'cause she can't even find a boy who really likes her! She glanced cautiously at Xander. Then she looked over at Buffy. She wanted to cry. They had no idea what they did to her and yet it should be as plain as day.
"Hey, I know..." Buffy smiled as she came up with a plan. "Let's go to the Bronze tonight and party our blues away."
"Isn't it a school night?" Willow asked softly.
Xander shrugged and grinned. "Never stopped us before." He put his arm around Willow. "What do you say, Will? You, me, the Slayer! At the Bronze. A little dancing...a little drinking..."
She looked at him.
"Pop soda, of course," Xander said, raising a hand. "Root Beer. We'll chase your blues away."
Willow looked from Buffy to Xander. She didn't actually feel like going out tonight, but they were trying to cheer her up. Maybe it would be nice. She nodded. "Okay...I have to go home first so...I'll meet you guys there. Uh, okay?"
"Sure, Will." Xander gave her a squeeze.
Buffy gave Willow a reassuring smile. "We'll see you there."
They went their separate ways. At least Willow thought they had until she stopped to turn around. She saw Buffy and Xander walking together. They were walking side by side, talking and laughing. Xander, she supposed, was probably saying something witty to which Buffy would laugh and tell him how funny he was.
Willow let out a long weary sigh. Then she headed into the school, heading for her locker. She opened her locker and absently went through the books she was carrying to trade them for books she wanted to take home with her. It was automatic for her, she wasn't giving it a thought because her thoughts were not on her surroundings. They weren't on her homework. They weren't on the Bronze, or vampire slaying.
Her thoughts were of Xander and Buffy...Buffy and Xander.
She went to close her locker when something fell out onto the floor. She looked down and she saw a computer floppy disc lying at her feet. Curious, she picked it up and looked at it, turning it over in her hands. On the little white sticker on the front of the disc were the words... [Tell No One]
Puzzled, she slipped it into one of her books...and forgot about it for awhile.
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"Willow!" Buffy bounced on her feet and waved at her friend as she entered the Bronze.
Willow saw Buffy at their favorite table as she made her approach. Buffy frowned with concern when she saw how sad her best friend looked. Willow was moving as if she had no motivation. Her face was almost a blank. The pain in her eyes was not something a person could easily ignore, even if they didn't know Willow as Buffy did.
"Willow, are you okay?" Buffy asked as her friend took a seat at the table.
Willow nodded. "I'm fine." She looked around.
Buffy noticed. "Oh...Xander's not here yet."
"Oh. Uh, he didn't come here with you?" Willow avoided eye contact.
"No. He didn't." Buffy looked at Willow, regarding her as she realized what her friend must be thinking. "Willow...Look. It's not worth being so depressed over."
This time Willow did look at Buffy. "What's not worth being depressed over? Who-who said I was depressed anyway? What? Are you and-and Xander the only ones who can have long faces but I get to be excluded?" She frowned. "I don't get to be upset 'cause I have to break up with my boy friend who-who was a demon? He was nice to me, Buffy...before I knew he was a demon! He was nice to me...Like Xander was nice to me."
"Xander? Willow..."
"You think I'm upset over Malcolm...over Moloch!" She looked at her defiantly. "Well, uh, I'm not!! It's...It's Xander! But Xander likes you, not me."
Buffy put up her hands. "Will, we went over this. Don't you see? You thought he was after me before, but then we found out he was possessed by a hyena. It wasn't him."
"He said some things..."
"It wasn't Xander!" Buffy re-emphasized.
Willow got real quiet as she looked away from Buffy. She looked at her hands folded on the table in front of her and frowned. When she did speak, her voice almost cracked with emotion. "Words are a funny thing, Buffy. When a person says something, they can't take it back. What has been said is said...And-and I believe that if it can be said then it must be true." She took a deep breath. "Maybe the hyena in him said those things...but what if somewhere deep inside him, Xander was thinking those things."
Buffy looked aghast at her friend. She grabbed her hand and squeezed it reassuringly. "Willow, no! Xander doesn't think of you like that!"
Willow looked at Buffy and hesitated. This time her voice did crack with emotion. "I know what he said to me. I-I just wonder what he said to you."
*** "Do you know how long I've waited for you to stop pretending that we aren't attracted?" *** Buffy remembered Xander's words clearly. *** "Until Willow stops kidding herself that I could settle with anyone but you?" ***
Buffy tried to clear her thoughts and tell Willow something, but she was at a loss for words.
Willow's eyes closed. "I-I knew it." A tear rolled down her cheek.
"Willow, you don't know, you--"
"I'm going home, Buffy. I'm tired. I'm just...so tired."
"Will, let me walk you home."
Willow shook her head. "No. I may not be a slayer. I-I may only be a 'guy-friend, pasty-faced' Willow, but I am still Willow and-and I can walk home alone."
Buffy didn't know what to do. She wished Xander would arrive before Willow made it out the door, but that didn't happen. What did happen, however, was that on her way out, Willow passed by Angel who smiled and greeted her. When Willow kept going without a word, Angel turned to watch her with concern. Just as she disappeared through the doors, Buffy approached him.
"What's wrong with Willow?" Angel asked.
"She's mad at me because she thinks I'm after Xander!" she said in exasperation.
Angel looked at her. "Are you?"
Buffy squinted her eyes at him. "Am I what?!"
"After Xander."
She looked at him in disbelief. "How could you ask me that?! No, I'm not after Xander." She tossed her hands up to stop him from asking any more questions. "Angel, could you please follow Willow home? Make sure she gets there safe?"
Angel nodded his head. "Sure. I'll see her safely home."
Angel left the Bronze and in no time, he had caught up with Willow. He caught up enough to keep his presence from being known. He stayed in the shadows and watched.
Willow looked so sad it almost broke his heart. He didn't know her as well as Buffy did, but anyone who was important to Buffy was just as important to him. The girl's heart was obviously broken and Angel knew from experience that a person could get physically hurt in many different ways, and the body would still heal with a little time. But a broken heart was not so easily healed. That took a lifetime...and some times more than one.
Willow walked on alone...and Angel followed. Across the street, Angel noticed that they were not walking alone after all. There were four others in the shadows and they were keeping step with Willow. He watched Willow and was certain that she was unaware of her followers...of her stalkers. Angel focused on them. They were human...but there was something about them. There was some kind of a powerful presence of evil.
They all made it to Willow's house without a hitch. Willow went inside, unaware of those who waited out in the night. Angel decided to stick around and he was glad he did. The four stalkers were aware of him as well, and whether it was because he was there or some other reason, they didn't come any closer to the Rosenberg residence on 6305 Westminster Place. In fact, after awhile, they left altogether.
But Angel stayed yet awhile longer.
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Willow entered into her home and she found her father heading through the hall with a suitcase in his hand.
"Hi, sweetheart," Ira Rosenberg said in greeting. "How was your day?"
Willow frowned at the suitcase in his hand. "You-you're going away again? But you just got home!"
"I'm sorry, Willow. But I also have to make a living, as does your mom." He hesitated. "Listen. There are groceries in the refrigerator, and if that doesn't meet your cravings, then we left money on your computer desk. We'll be back on Monday."
"But..."
"But what, Willow?"
She looked at him. "Dad, I-I was kidnapped by a demon robot! He-he was going to kill me, but not until after he thanked me for-for freeing him from some-some dusty old book that smelled like stinky mildew! And-and then he got into the computer, and-and Giles said he could have destroyed the world, b-but he and Ms Calendar did a spell and they cast him out of the computers! Plus, Buffy-she's the Slayer, Dad!- she and Xander came to save me from the CRD a-and Buffy fried the demon and-and Xander punched out one of the minions." She paused to catch her breath. "Oh, you know what a minion is, don't you?"
Her father just looked at her in silence for a moment. Then, he shook his head and laughed. "You know, Willow...some lucky boy is going to find you and you are going to make him very happy. You're smart, and you're also very imaginative." He kissed her on the forehead. "Well, I can't miss my flight. We'll call you tomorrow."
And then he was gone.
Willow stood there in stunned silence. The house was big enough for a family, but alone, it was just too big.
"What is wrong with me?" she asked out loud, even though there was no one around to answer her. She walked in a daze toward her bedroom and turned a light on. She looked at the mirror above her dresser and studied her reflection.
*** "Xander, what's wrong with you?" ***
Willow closed her eyes as the first tears began to fall.
*** "I guess you've noticed that I've been different around you lately."
"Yes." ***
She tried to stop the thoughts, the memories, but they were so fresh in her mind.
*** "I think, um...I think it's because my feelings for you have been changing..." ***
"No..." Willow said softly as the tears began to flow freely now.
*** "...and, well, we've been friends for such a long time that I feel like I need to tell you something." ***
Willow fell to her knees and buried her face in her hands.
*** "I've, um..." There was a sigh. "I've decided to drop geometry, so I won't be needing your math help any more which means..." ***
"Please, stop..." Willow cried as she lay on the floor trying to block out the memory.
*** "...I won't have to look at your pasty face again." ***
Then there was that laugh. What had made it even worst was that the four new friends of Xander had joined in on that laugh. It was the most horrible sound Willow had ever heard. And it was the most painful thing she had ever been faced with.
The damage was done.
Xander was lost to her.
Willow hugged her knees to herself and cried herself to sleep.
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TO BE CONTINUED
Author: MeB XanWill4Ever
Email: lenoxfiles@hotmail.com
Spoiler: Takes place Buffy Season 1, Sequal to I, Robot, You, Jane
Pairing - Xander/Willow
Summary: Willow seems withdrawn after breaking up with a demon robot, and Buffy and Xander become deeply concerned. They become convinced that Willow is trying to avoid them, but Willow hides a terrible secret. A secret that could break the bonds of the friendships she holds precious to her heart.
Disclaimer: All characters of Buffy tVS are the property of Joss.
Rating - PG-13
Author's Note- The storyline in between *** storyline *** is from the episodes. It is not mine. I borrowed it for the story. (The Pack/I, Robot, You, Jane) These express thoughts. xwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxwxw
I, YOURS...YOU, MINE
Part 1
There they sat at the fountain in the "courtyard" of Sunnydale High. They looked like a miserable threesome, wrapped up in the woes of life and tragedy. In truth, Buffy and Xander had joined Willow with every intention of cheering her up. They each loved Willow and they couldn't bear to see her so despairing.
*** "Malcolm...Moloch..." Willow said with a slight tremor she was trying to keep out of her voice. She shrugged. "Whatever he's called. The one boy that's really liked me and he's a demon robot. What does that say about me?"
Buffy shrugged imperceptibly. "It doesn't say anything about you."
Willow stared at the ground. "But I thought-I mean, I was really falling..." she trailed off. She thought to herself, Oh, who am I kidding?! Who would fall for me? What a joke? She clenched her teethe together in an attempt to hold herself together.
"Hey," Buffy said, forcing a smile, "did you forget? The one boy I've had the hots for since I moved here? Turned out to be a vampire."
Xander nodded his head, grinning like a mad man. "Right, and the teacher I had a crush on? Giant preying mantis."
Willow nodded absently. "That's true."
Xander shrugged. "That's life on the Hellmouth."
"Let's face it." Buffy looked at Willow. "None of us are ever gonna' have a happy relationship,"
Xander shrugged. "We're doomed!"
Willow smiled wryly. "Yeah!"
Then they shared a short laugh, and abruptly fell into a deep silence. ***
Willow frowned. Why are they down in the dumps? Isn't it my turn? Or is it because I'm good, old reliable Willow who can't be in the dumps by herself 'cause she can't even find a boy who really likes her! She glanced cautiously at Xander. Then she looked over at Buffy. She wanted to cry. They had no idea what they did to her and yet it should be as plain as day.
"Hey, I know..." Buffy smiled as she came up with a plan. "Let's go to the Bronze tonight and party our blues away."
"Isn't it a school night?" Willow asked softly.
Xander shrugged and grinned. "Never stopped us before." He put his arm around Willow. "What do you say, Will? You, me, the Slayer! At the Bronze. A little dancing...a little drinking..."
She looked at him.
"Pop soda, of course," Xander said, raising a hand. "Root Beer. We'll chase your blues away."
Willow looked from Buffy to Xander. She didn't actually feel like going out tonight, but they were trying to cheer her up. Maybe it would be nice. She nodded. "Okay...I have to go home first so...I'll meet you guys there. Uh, okay?"
"Sure, Will." Xander gave her a squeeze.
Buffy gave Willow a reassuring smile. "We'll see you there."
They went their separate ways. At least Willow thought they had until she stopped to turn around. She saw Buffy and Xander walking together. They were walking side by side, talking and laughing. Xander, she supposed, was probably saying something witty to which Buffy would laugh and tell him how funny he was.
Willow let out a long weary sigh. Then she headed into the school, heading for her locker. She opened her locker and absently went through the books she was carrying to trade them for books she wanted to take home with her. It was automatic for her, she wasn't giving it a thought because her thoughts were not on her surroundings. They weren't on her homework. They weren't on the Bronze, or vampire slaying.
Her thoughts were of Xander and Buffy...Buffy and Xander.
She went to close her locker when something fell out onto the floor. She looked down and she saw a computer floppy disc lying at her feet. Curious, she picked it up and looked at it, turning it over in her hands. On the little white sticker on the front of the disc were the words... [Tell No One]
Puzzled, she slipped it into one of her books...and forgot about it for awhile.
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"Willow!" Buffy bounced on her feet and waved at her friend as she entered the Bronze.
Willow saw Buffy at their favorite table as she made her approach. Buffy frowned with concern when she saw how sad her best friend looked. Willow was moving as if she had no motivation. Her face was almost a blank. The pain in her eyes was not something a person could easily ignore, even if they didn't know Willow as Buffy did.
"Willow, are you okay?" Buffy asked as her friend took a seat at the table.
Willow nodded. "I'm fine." She looked around.
Buffy noticed. "Oh...Xander's not here yet."
"Oh. Uh, he didn't come here with you?" Willow avoided eye contact.
"No. He didn't." Buffy looked at Willow, regarding her as she realized what her friend must be thinking. "Willow...Look. It's not worth being so depressed over."
This time Willow did look at Buffy. "What's not worth being depressed over? Who-who said I was depressed anyway? What? Are you and-and Xander the only ones who can have long faces but I get to be excluded?" She frowned. "I don't get to be upset 'cause I have to break up with my boy friend who-who was a demon? He was nice to me, Buffy...before I knew he was a demon! He was nice to me...Like Xander was nice to me."
"Xander? Willow..."
"You think I'm upset over Malcolm...over Moloch!" She looked at her defiantly. "Well, uh, I'm not!! It's...It's Xander! But Xander likes you, not me."
Buffy put up her hands. "Will, we went over this. Don't you see? You thought he was after me before, but then we found out he was possessed by a hyena. It wasn't him."
"He said some things..."
"It wasn't Xander!" Buffy re-emphasized.
Willow got real quiet as she looked away from Buffy. She looked at her hands folded on the table in front of her and frowned. When she did speak, her voice almost cracked with emotion. "Words are a funny thing, Buffy. When a person says something, they can't take it back. What has been said is said...And-and I believe that if it can be said then it must be true." She took a deep breath. "Maybe the hyena in him said those things...but what if somewhere deep inside him, Xander was thinking those things."
Buffy looked aghast at her friend. She grabbed her hand and squeezed it reassuringly. "Willow, no! Xander doesn't think of you like that!"
Willow looked at Buffy and hesitated. This time her voice did crack with emotion. "I know what he said to me. I-I just wonder what he said to you."
*** "Do you know how long I've waited for you to stop pretending that we aren't attracted?" *** Buffy remembered Xander's words clearly. *** "Until Willow stops kidding herself that I could settle with anyone but you?" ***
Buffy tried to clear her thoughts and tell Willow something, but she was at a loss for words.
Willow's eyes closed. "I-I knew it." A tear rolled down her cheek.
"Willow, you don't know, you--"
"I'm going home, Buffy. I'm tired. I'm just...so tired."
"Will, let me walk you home."
Willow shook her head. "No. I may not be a slayer. I-I may only be a 'guy-friend, pasty-faced' Willow, but I am still Willow and-and I can walk home alone."
Buffy didn't know what to do. She wished Xander would arrive before Willow made it out the door, but that didn't happen. What did happen, however, was that on her way out, Willow passed by Angel who smiled and greeted her. When Willow kept going without a word, Angel turned to watch her with concern. Just as she disappeared through the doors, Buffy approached him.
"What's wrong with Willow?" Angel asked.
"She's mad at me because she thinks I'm after Xander!" she said in exasperation.
Angel looked at her. "Are you?"
Buffy squinted her eyes at him. "Am I what?!"
"After Xander."
She looked at him in disbelief. "How could you ask me that?! No, I'm not after Xander." She tossed her hands up to stop him from asking any more questions. "Angel, could you please follow Willow home? Make sure she gets there safe?"
Angel nodded his head. "Sure. I'll see her safely home."
Angel left the Bronze and in no time, he had caught up with Willow. He caught up enough to keep his presence from being known. He stayed in the shadows and watched.
Willow looked so sad it almost broke his heart. He didn't know her as well as Buffy did, but anyone who was important to Buffy was just as important to him. The girl's heart was obviously broken and Angel knew from experience that a person could get physically hurt in many different ways, and the body would still heal with a little time. But a broken heart was not so easily healed. That took a lifetime...and some times more than one.
Willow walked on alone...and Angel followed. Across the street, Angel noticed that they were not walking alone after all. There were four others in the shadows and they were keeping step with Willow. He watched Willow and was certain that she was unaware of her followers...of her stalkers. Angel focused on them. They were human...but there was something about them. There was some kind of a powerful presence of evil.
They all made it to Willow's house without a hitch. Willow went inside, unaware of those who waited out in the night. Angel decided to stick around and he was glad he did. The four stalkers were aware of him as well, and whether it was because he was there or some other reason, they didn't come any closer to the Rosenberg residence on 6305 Westminster Place. In fact, after awhile, they left altogether.
But Angel stayed yet awhile longer.
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Willow entered into her home and she found her father heading through the hall with a suitcase in his hand.
"Hi, sweetheart," Ira Rosenberg said in greeting. "How was your day?"
Willow frowned at the suitcase in his hand. "You-you're going away again? But you just got home!"
"I'm sorry, Willow. But I also have to make a living, as does your mom." He hesitated. "Listen. There are groceries in the refrigerator, and if that doesn't meet your cravings, then we left money on your computer desk. We'll be back on Monday."
"But..."
"But what, Willow?"
She looked at him. "Dad, I-I was kidnapped by a demon robot! He-he was going to kill me, but not until after he thanked me for-for freeing him from some-some dusty old book that smelled like stinky mildew! And-and then he got into the computer, and-and Giles said he could have destroyed the world, b-but he and Ms Calendar did a spell and they cast him out of the computers! Plus, Buffy-she's the Slayer, Dad!- she and Xander came to save me from the CRD a-and Buffy fried the demon and-and Xander punched out one of the minions." She paused to catch her breath. "Oh, you know what a minion is, don't you?"
Her father just looked at her in silence for a moment. Then, he shook his head and laughed. "You know, Willow...some lucky boy is going to find you and you are going to make him very happy. You're smart, and you're also very imaginative." He kissed her on the forehead. "Well, I can't miss my flight. We'll call you tomorrow."
And then he was gone.
Willow stood there in stunned silence. The house was big enough for a family, but alone, it was just too big.
"What is wrong with me?" she asked out loud, even though there was no one around to answer her. She walked in a daze toward her bedroom and turned a light on. She looked at the mirror above her dresser and studied her reflection.
*** "Xander, what's wrong with you?" ***
Willow closed her eyes as the first tears began to fall.
*** "I guess you've noticed that I've been different around you lately."
"Yes." ***
She tried to stop the thoughts, the memories, but they were so fresh in her mind.
*** "I think, um...I think it's because my feelings for you have been changing..." ***
"No..." Willow said softly as the tears began to flow freely now.
*** "...and, well, we've been friends for such a long time that I feel like I need to tell you something." ***
Willow fell to her knees and buried her face in her hands.
*** "I've, um..." There was a sigh. "I've decided to drop geometry, so I won't be needing your math help any more which means..." ***
"Please, stop..." Willow cried as she lay on the floor trying to block out the memory.
*** "...I won't have to look at your pasty face again." ***
Then there was that laugh. What had made it even worst was that the four new friends of Xander had joined in on that laugh. It was the most horrible sound Willow had ever heard. And it was the most painful thing she had ever been faced with.
The damage was done.
Xander was lost to her.
Willow hugged her knees to herself and cried herself to sleep.
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TO BE CONTINUED
