A/n Hello… You're all gonna hate me for this, yep…

Chapter Five

Death's Door



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Kirin's POV

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How could this happen?

Why did this happen?

Am I truly that bad a person to deserve…?

I can't go on like this, I just can't go on, all I have to do is let my grief through and it would all be over, every pain of my life would be gone. No one could ever hurt me again!

But what of Sellen? What would he do, we depend on each other, the forgotten two… No, the forgotten three.

The forgotten three, now that that little brat's come along. What would be worse, to die or to see Sellen forget me too and just love Legolas? If this doesn't kill me, that would.

I can't tell what's going on around me, all I can sense are the tears rolling down my cheeks. Silver tears.

The last thing I remember is Sellen pulling Gyre off of me, and then I went like this. There's no pain or anything here; an empty, nameless void, with no light or darkness or cold, unfeeling Gyre or Father…

Oh, it would be so easy, just to die, just to leave this world of lies and deceit, and go to the halls of Mandos… But could I leave Sellen? Even if it did mean watching him forget me and loving Legolas?

If we hadn't been at that little brat's bedside watching Mother clutch at him, we would have never been sent out by Father, Gyre wouldn't have shoved me, Sellen wouldn't have stood up to him, I wouldn't have been threatened, Gyre wouldn't have come to see me and… so it was all his fault, he was the one that changed everything.



Just let my grief come, just let me die, please, I don't want to go on… No more…



 

Sorry, that was baaaad! He's sort of unconscious but awake if you get my meaning, in a trance, so he doesn't know what's happening to Sellen. It's really short because there's no speaking or anything, his next POV will be longer, promise….



And thank you all for saying I'm a good writer, wish I could lie like that, but you've given me a teensy wee bit more confidence, this much



Luv, peace and Sour skittles,



Elendor

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