Chapter 10
Kathryn examined the photograph of her with her father. It had been seven
years since the accident. In the photograph she was only seven. Now she was
sixteen and yet it had never left her. A day hadn't gone by when she didn't
think about it. But for this moment in time, she wasn't angrily remembering
the situation like she usually did. No, for this moment in time she was
sad. She felt betrayed. A tear left her eye. She didn't let many of them
come out in daylight!. At that moment, Sebastian walked in. He saw the
photograph, but not the falling tears. "Look, it's Mr Perfect!.ohhh! I see
that flawless skin and perfect jaw line now!.I see why you fancy him!" he
teased. Kathryn however, did not find this funny!. She grabbed his clothes
and screamed in his face "I DID NOT AND NEVER WILL FANCY HIM!!.IT WAS HIM
NOT ME!!!". Then she let go of him. She burst into tears. He angrily
shouted back, "YOU LET HIM!!!". "I DIDN'T HAVE MUCH CHOICE!!!!" she
screamed back. She continued tearfully but calmer "You have no f**king idea
what it was like Sebastian!.not all of us can have your perfect idyllic
childhood!". Sebastian stopped and looked at her. "Gees!.calm down!.there's
no need to get so hysterical!.You know it was just a joke!.your so easy to
wind up!.Of course, I know it had nothing to do with you!". She burst into
tears. She screamed "YOUR SICK!!!!.Your sick!!.Your sick, sick jokes are
the last thing I need now!!!!". She started whacking him but he controlled
her to apologize. "I'm sorry!!!" he said. He tries to accompany this by
putting a comforting arm around her. But she freaked and started whacking
him again. "Stop!!!.Stop!!" he screamed as he tried to stop her. Soon she
gave up and fell into his arms crying. When the main brunt of the cry was
over he started wiping her eyes gentlely. She sat there smiling through the
tears, admiring that same hero she knew. It wasn't just the secret that
drove them apart and made them defensive to each other-it was also
maturity. Ever since Kathryn had convinced Sebastian to become promiscuous
and then later malicious like her, their relationship had changed for the
worse. Sentimental was no longer allowed to characterize his behavior. Yet,
all along they still knew those little children were in there. The sweet,
scared and defenseless little girl who clung to Sebastian. And the heroic,
sensitive and caring young boy who comforted that girl. Now they were
finding those personalities again. Or were they?. "I know what will cheer
you up!" Sebastian said. He removed a hand from her back and begun to place
it down her top. Before long the other hand was stroking her hair, while
his lips begun caressing her neck. She reacted violently and was lividly
angry with him. She flung him off the bed and then grabbed him and begin
kicking, shoving and hitting him out the door. "YOUR SO INSENSITIVE!!!.WHY
WOULD I WANT THAT WHEN I'M THINKING OF HIM!!..YOUR JUST LIKE HIM!!!..YOUR
SICK!!!..YOUR SICK!!!..YOU INSENSTIVE SICKO!!!!...GET OUT!!!.GET
OUT!!!..GET OUT!!!..I DON'T WANT YOU HERE!!!.I NEED TO BE ALONE!!!". He
restrained her and tried to get her to listen to him. He sounded almost
tearful, "Listen!!.Listen!!.I'm sorry!!.I want to help.I really do!!!.I
just!.I just!". He paused and then got the reluctant words out, "I just.I
just don't know how to help you!...How am I meant to help you if you won't
let me mention.!". And she did indeed cut him up, "DON'T SAY IT!!.I TOLD
YOU NEVER TO MENTION IT AGAIN!!". "Exactly!!.How are we meant to deal with
this if you won't talk about it?" he said. "WE!.I'm sorry, I was not aware
it happened to you!!!" she exclaimed sarcastically. "NO!.BUT IT'S MANAGED
TO SCREW UP BOTH MINE AND MY MOTHER'S LIFE!!.PLUS THE OTHER HUNDREDS OF
LIVES YOU'VE RUINED!!!.this isn't just your problem Kathryn!.IT'S A PROBLEM
FOR ANYONE WHO COMES IN A THOUSAND YARD RADIUS OF YOU!!" he shouted. Then
he calmed and finished "Furthermore, it's my problem because for some
strange reason, I seem to care about!" he said. Then he stormed out. She
ran after him. "I know I'm sorry!!.You think it's hard for you!.You try
being me!!.waking up and being this same person, everyday!!" she tearfully
said. Then she burst into tears and her speech become more tearful,
"Finding out that it isn't a dream!!!.every morning I wake up and it isn't
over!!!". She cried more and more and it hit his heart like an arrow. This
time they were real. This was real emotion. No one was around so they let
it go. He cried and she cried. They just sat there crying into each other's
arms for hours.
