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This wouldn't have been possible without my muse D-chan. If you STILL haven't read her story Damned, Cursed, and Loved I suggest you do. Thanks for giving me ten reviews so quickly. Oh one final note. Mamoru bashing ahead.

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Give a Reason

Chapter Five: Hiiro


Hiiro remained motionless not in the least disturbed by the naked female. His blue eyes were hard as diamonds as he stared into her eyes his gun never dropping. "Omae o Korosu."

Usagi stared at Hiiro for a long moment before she fully realized what happened. "PERVERT!!!" she screamed over and over again.

Duo opened his eyes with a scowl, "Bunny, could you cut it out I'm-" he stopped talking as he saw her. "Wow... not a bad figure for having a kid, Bunny."

"Stop looking, Maxwell," Wufei barked.

Quatre awoke to the screams and glanced over at Trowa to see the other boy awakening. "What's wrong, Goddess?" He asked. His eyes slowly fell on her and he turned beet red. "Gomen, Usagi-san!" He cried lowering his eyes to the ground.

Trowa groaned slightly and turned to see why Quatre was blushing so red. His emerald eyes widened at he sight and he too blushed and lowered his head, "Gomen, Usagi-hime."

Wufei glared at Hiiro who still hadn't lowered his gun. "Drop the gun, Yui." He demanded as he tossed Usagi the clothes.

Usagi stopped her screams and hurriedly thanked Wufei before dashing into his room to put them on. Hiiro lowered his gun and noticed Duo was still staring at the room Usagi had entered. "Wow," Duo breathed again.

Wufei scowled at him, "Shut up, Maxwell."

Duo seemed to regain his senses and he grinned up at Wufei. "Wu-man kissed a girl!" He began to tease.

Wufei instantly found himself underneath Hiiro's inspection. "Why is everyone here?" Hiiro demanded in his emotionless monotone.

Duo grinned, "I can answer that question! Ririna called me and Trowa asking us to check on Quatre and when we met Bunny we knew we couldn't leave. I have no idea what Wu-man is here for though. That reminds me. Wu-man did I hear you flirting with Bunny or was that just my dream?"

Wufei glared at Duo. "Shut up, Maxwell." He turned his attention to Hiiro when Usagi came out of the room dressed in the outfit.

"These pants are too baggy and the shirt almost doesn't cover anything. It's better then before though." She glared at Hiiro, "Ecchi, you're worse then Duo."

"Hey!" Duo objected with a pout. "I'm not a pervert! Wufei's the pervert! He was the one kissing you when you're wearing nothing but a towel!"

"But at least he didn't look at me when said towel dropped. You and that other pervert over there DID."

Quatre winced, "Usagi-san, I'd like you to meet another friend of mine. This is Hiiro."

Usagi glared at him some more before turning to Quatre. "I'm going to bed, Quatre-san."

Trowa nodded slightly, "Would you like me to accompany you, Usagi-hime?"

Wufei frowned, "I'll go as well."

"Oh no you don't Wu-man! You've had enough time alone with Bunny. I'll go with you Trowa."

"Duo," Hiiro growled in annoyance. He wanted to find out more about the girl and why his fellow pilots were acting like idiots around her, even Wufei wasn't immune. Hiiro knew the quickest way to get that information would be from the loud-mouthed happy go lucky Duo.

Duo pouted, "You're mean, Hiiro. I'll see you in the morning, Bunny. Sleep well."

Usagi smiled at him over her shoulder before following Trowa with Wufei trailing behind. "Don't think badly of Hiiro over that, Usagi-hime," Trowa informed her softly.

"Why not? He's a pervert-"

"He isn't really. He thought you were from OZ or an assasin. He's the perfect soldier trained to kill no matter what. Your towel falling didn't even phase him."

Wufei listened to the conversation for a moment but his thoughts were on his own foolish acts with Usagi. He knew he shouldn't have kissed her but her showing up at that exact moment was too convenient. He watched her for a long moment his dark eyes clouded with his thoughts. "I'll buy you some better clothes tomorrow, Usagi."

Usagi turned and grinned, "Arigato, Wufei-chan," She squealed hugging him. She backed away and flashed a dazzling smile at both Wufei and Trowa before she went to her room.

Wufei noticed Trowa silently watching him. "Nani?"

"Do you love her too, now?"

Wufei scowled, Why would I love a baka onna?"

Trowa nodded slightly. "If you don't love her then you should stay away from her. I don't know what you think you were doing kissing her like that-"

"Shut up, Barton. I'm in complete control of myself. I won't make THAT mistake again," he announced before walking away. 'Why did I kiss that girl?' He glanced quickly over his shoulder at her door and glared at it. 'Baka onna. I won't let her get to me like that. She's nothing but a mere woman.'

Usagi curled up beneath her covers her heart still pounding. Before the pervert's arrival Wufei had kissed her and the thought made no sense to her. She was currently trying to decide WHY he had kissed her but any logical explanation wasn't coming to mind. 'There has to be a reason. From when I sparred with earlier it seemed he did't like me but if that's the case why the kiss? He was so gentle...' She felt her cheeks turning red and flushing buried her head in her pillow. "Gomen, Mamoru, Minna-chan. I know I probably disappoint you letting them fall for me like this. I don't know what to do. I wish just ONE of you were alive..." She bowed her head and once again began to sob.

Quatre frowned at Hiiro. "You should apologize to Usagi-san, Hiiro."

"Who is she?" Hiiro asked ignoring the blonde's suggestion.

Quatre sighed, "It's a very long story, Hiiro. It should wait until the morning and I suggest that you apologize to Usagi-san soon." His usually friendly blue eyes were sparkling with anger at Hiiro.

Duo nodded his agreement, "Yeah, you scared poor bunny. Though you did give us all a chance to see..."

Quatre scowled at Duo. "Duo," he growled in warning.

Duo chuckled, "Just kidding, Q-man!" He turned his attention to Hiiro indigo eyes turning serious. "I agree with him though you should aplogize to her."

Usagi's sobs slowly lessened and she raised her tear-stained face. "Why? Why does it hurt so much? Why did you all leave me? I never wanted this life!" Her tears turned from sadness to fury, "I NEVER wanted this! How dare you just leave me! I gave up EVERYTHING!" She let her scream fade and let her eyes rest on the wall. "Everything... a normal life filled with normal things. I became Sailor Moon for you Luna. I risked my life to save the world. I even died to save it. I gave up my family, my friends, my entire soul for you all and you left me alone." She closed her eyes feeling fresh tears stinging them.

Hiiro calmly stared down the other four pilots. "Why is that girl living with you, Quatre?" Quatre glanced at Trowa and with a sigh the brown-haired boy once again told Usagi's story.

Usagi realized she was in a dream as bubbles filled with memories of her past life floated by. "What a weird dream..."

"Koneko-chan."

Usagi turned starlted, "Haruka!" She promptly ran and hugged the taller woman. "But how? I thought you were dead."

"I am, Koneko. You're dreaming."

Usagi's face fell. "So this isn't real? You're not really in front of me?"

"Yes and no. You seemed to have tapped into this dimension while asleep. It's probably the Ginzuishou. Anyways, I'm sorry for how Chibiusa treated you."

"You saw that?"

"We see everything."

Usagi promptly blushed. "Is.. is Mamoru there?"

Haruka stared at the young queen for a moment. "I don't think you should see him, Koneko."

"Why not?"

Haruka only shook her head. "It's just not a good idea right now. So which one do you love?"

"Nani?"

Haruka smiled, "You think we didn't see all four of them falling in love with you?" Usagi flushed and lowered her head as Haruka continued. "Not to mention that kiss Wufei gave you." She grinned at Usagi who was turning deep red.

"Then you also saw..."

Haruka's eyes narrowed. "Hai, we saw you try to take your life. How could you be so foolish?"

Usagi sighed, "Demo, you don't know how it is to be alone."

Haruka shook her head, "I'm going to let the others talk to you. We only have until you wake up and there's no guarantee that you can access this dimension again."

"What about Mamoru?"

"Gomen, Koneko-chan."

"Matte, Haruka!"

"That won't do any good, Odango atama."

Usagi whirled, "Rei-chan!" she hugged the woman that was the same age as her. "You're young again?"

"Not really, Usagi. Your mind sees us as you most vividly remembered us."

"That mean you're really an old hag?"

Rei glared at the white-haired girl. "No! Wait a sec... why are you Cosmos?"

Usagi sighed and glanced down at herself to once again see the fuku of Sailor Cosmos. "I don't know. I was hoping one of you would be able to tell me."

Trowa finished his tale his eyes locked on Hiiro. "That's the entire story, Hiiro."

"So she's another Princess?"

Quatre cleared his throat, "Actually I think Ririna-sama is a descendant of hers."

"Why would you think THAT?" Duo asked with a frown.

Quatre smiled softly, "Well that Chibiusa woman said that the Crystal Tokyo place eventually became the Cinq kingdom and the current ruler is Ririna-sama so it would make sense."

Trowa silently observed Hiiro attempting to see if the perfect soldier believed them. Wufei crossed his arms over his chest his hair still lying free from the ponytail. "Does anyone know why she thinks Milardo wants to kill her?"

Quatre frowned in concern, "No... she didn't even tell me she thought that," he answered in a small hurt voice.

Trowa frowned faintly, "Why would Milardo want to kill her? She doesn't really pose a threat to anyone. How did she treat Ririna-sama, Quatre?"

"Like an equal..."

Duo scowled, "Well I don't care if it's Milardo or anyone else. No one is going to hurt Bunny again without going through me first."

Wufei scoffed, "She doesn't need your help, Maxwell. She's more then capable of taking care of herself."

Duo grinned, "I KNEW that's where you got that bruise! Bunny got ya didn't she?" Wufei merely ignored Duo.

Trowa's eyes were half-closed as he thought. They opened instantly and he turned partially to Quatre, "Quatre, doesn't it seem suspicous to you that Milardo contacted you earlier?"

Quatre nodded slightly, "Do you think he's really after Usagi-san?"

"For what reason I don't know, but him calling you verifies it," Trowa replied his eyes locked once more on the hallway leading to Usagi's temporary room.

Duo frowned, "Well I'm not going to let him near Bunny. Quatre, why don't you just tell him he can't come?"

Hiiro frowned and decided to rejoin the conversation. "Just uninviting him won't work. If Zechs is after that girl then he'll find a way."

Ami hugged Usagi closely. "Usagi-chan, you have to forget about the past."

Usagi shook her head, "I can't! I love you all so much! I can't ever stop."

"You have to Usagi-chan," Minako added softly. "You have a new life now. The Ginzuishou is giving you a new chance at life in a new world with five hot guys in the same house with you."

Usagi giggled, "You don't change at all, V-babe. What do you mean 5?"

"That new one," Makoto announced. "He looks like my old sempai..."

"That PERVERT?" Usagi demanded with a scowl.

Rei rolled her eyes, "You heard what Trowa said. If anyone is a pervert is has to be Duo."

Usagi giggled, "Be nice to Duo. He's funny."

"So you like him better then Quatre, Trowa, and Wufei?" Makoto asked. "If so can I have all three?"

Minako pulled Usagi closer to her. "So how did it feel to kiss Wufei?"

Usagi blushed and lowered her eyes, "Do I HAVE to answer that?"

"YES!" Rei and Makoto demanded together.

Usagi closed her eyes slightly remembering. "To be honest it was nice. I didn't expect him to be so gentle. Demo why are you guys asking all of this? I'm destined to be with Mamoru." The four other girls looked at each other uncertainly. None of them wanted to tell Usagi about Mamoru.

"Usagi-chan, about Mamoru..."

Usagi felt her blood run cold. "What about him?" she demanded traces of hysteria in her tone.

"He's not here, Koneko-chan," Haruka calmly informed her as she strode towards the group.

Usagi's eyes flashed. She was tired of them hiding the truth. "TELL ME WHY NOT!"

Rei looked up, "Simple, he didn't go to heaven, Usagi-chan."

Usagi shook her head in denial, "Iie, that can't be true! Why would he end up there? TELL ME!"

Minako sighed her red bow almost drooping. "Because, Usagi-chan. Just leave it at that. You don't need to be hurt with the truth."

Usagi lowered her head, "Why won't you tell me? Do you think me that weak and fragile?"

"Koneko, listen. You've been through enough. You don't need to know this right now. Just settle down with one of those other boys. All four love you if they admit it or not."

Usagi glared at them. "Mamoru is my HUSBAND! I won't betray him!"

Makoto walked towards the furious girl. "You're waking yourself up. We can't tell you now. Later we'll tell you."

"I want to know now!"

Minako sighed, "Usagi-chan, Mamoru wasn't what you thought."

"What do you mean?"

Michiru who had remained silent decided to speak. "Look closely at Chibiusa. Her looks are from you but her temperment and attitude are his. Mamoru used you, Usagi."

Usagi took a step backwards. "Iie..."

Hotaru stepped out from the shadows, "Gomen nasi, Usagi but it's true. He stayed with you only because he knew he would become King of Crystal Tokyo."

Usagi shook her head in denial. "iie... Iie... IIE!" she screamed.

The world flickered and she woke up trembling. "It CAN'T be true..." Memories of Mamoru flashed through her mind and she whimpered. "Iie..." It was just a dream. He loved me. We were happy. It can't be true!"

Quatre's head jerked up, "Usagi-san?"

Duo frowned and rushed to her room. "Bunny?" He called as he knocked on the door.

Usagi turned her eyes settling on the door. "Go away! Leave me alone!"

Duo stared at the door in worry. Usagi had never yelled at him like that before. "Bunny, are you alright?"

Usagi shook her head. "No, I'll never be alright again," she whispered as she hugged the bunny pillow.

Duo was practically shoved to the side as Trowa and Quatre appeared. "Usagi-hime, what's wrong? We heard you scream."

Usagi ignored him as she slowly rocked back and forth on the bed. Memories of the life she had with Mamoru flashed through her eyes again. "Did he really love me at all?" Flashes of past fights that had seemed insignificant came back to her and she struggled to remember all the times Mamoru had told her he loved her. She started to cry in soft kittensh moans when she realized she could count the times on one hand. "Iie... it's true. I've been living a lie."

The locked door exploded and Duo entered. "Bunny! What happened?"

Usagi didn't answer just letting her eyes stare at everything and nothing. No more tears graced her cheeks nor did her eyes even show a trace of wetness. Her eyes held a dead expression and she stared blankly at a point in the wall.

"What did you do to her, Maxwell?" Wufei demanded in annoyance.

"I didn't do anything! She was like this when I came in! Bunny, talk to us!"

Usagi remained still her eyes unseeing. Quatre rushed in and stopped at the sight of his Goddess. "Usagi-san?"

"It won't work, Quatre. She's not responding to any of us."

Trowa and Hiiro entered the room and finally Usagi's lips moved. Duo leaned closer to hear what she said and his lips twitched. "I have to correct myself. She's responding to Hiiro and calling him a pervert."

Hiiro let his face remain motionless as he studied the girl. "She's in shock," he informed them calmly.

Quatre frowned, "I told you that you should have apologized, Hiiro."

Hiiro let his eyes flicker to the girl's. She stared up at him her eyes as icy as his as if she never wanted to experience emotion again. He pulled back a flicker of fear inside of him. It wasn't what he saw in the girl that frightened him but when he realized their eyes now looked the same. Both unfeeling and emotionless.

Duo sat beside Usagi and waved a hand in front of her eyes, "Come on, Bunny come back. We need you to answer some questions about Milardo for us." Duo snapped his fingers, "I know how to get a response!" He grinned at Usagi. "Why don't you tell us about your Mamo-chan?"

The reaction Duo got was definatly not what he was hoping for. Usagi once again made the soft kittenish sounds of distress. "A lie... all a lie," she stated softly before returning to whimpering.

Duo winced under the glares of Quatre, Trowa, and Wufei. "I didn't MEAN to make her do that! Honest! Bunny, what happened? Did you have a bad dream?" He was only answered by louder kittenish wails.

Wufei and Trowa glared at Duo. "Come on, Maxwell you're doing more harm then good," Wufei muttered grabbing one arm while Trowa grabbed the other. Together they pulled the braided one out of the room.

Quatre took Duo's place beside Usagi his eyes full of concern. "Hiiro, maybe I should call the doctor or something. I can't leave her like this."

Hiiro frowned mentally. If Quatre did go call the doctor he'd be left alone with the girl. "I'll do it."

"No, Hiiro. I want you to take care of her for me. I'll be back soon," Quatre announced before practically racing out of the room.

Hiiro stared at the girl wondering if she was even concious of anything around her. "Daijobu ka?" He mentally smacked himself. What should he care if she was okay or not? He sighed slightly. If he was going to ask that question he figured he might as well apologize. "Gomen, for earlier."

Usagi's head turned slightly her eyes flickering. "You look like him..."

"Like who?"

"Mamoru..."

'Her husband,' Hiiro's mind mentally supplied. Her eyes once again seemed to glaze over and she stared emotionlessly at the wall. 'Now what? Should I attempt to talk to her or just ignore her?' He turned to face her, "Usagi?"

Usagi once again turned her attention back to him a small slight smile on her lips. "That's the first time you've said my name. I don't want to talk to them. I found out something that ruins everything my life stood for. I don't want to talk to anyone I just want to..." She trailed off and turned her eyes back to the wall. "Arigato, Hiiro. I know you're only here because of Quatre but I appreicate it neverless. I wish our first meeting had gone better."

Hiiro let his eyes drift to the wall as well. "Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why do they all love you? Even Wufei isn't immune."

Usagi shrugged slightly, "I don't know. I'm not worthy of love from anyone. My entire life was a lie. I was married to someone who was with me only for the-" She stopped and glanced at him. "I shouldn't have told you that."

"Why not?"

"Because I haven't said it out loud. As soon as I do it will make it true. I don't want to even think of it."

"How did you find out this horrible thing Mamoru did?"

"My Senshi told me in a dream."

Hiiro fell silent. This girl disturbed him. Her eyes would occasionaly be the cold emotionless ones like his own and then they'd flash when she spoke and they'd look similair to Duo's. The lines about her not being worthy scared him to because he remembered saying the exact same things. For once the perfect soldier was feeling an emotion; fear.

Usagi glanced over at him and a faint smile appeared in her eyes. "You're scared of me. Why?"

"I'm not scared of you."

Usagi shook her head, "You are scared I can see it in your eyes."

Hiiro glared at her but she didn't move. "Why would I be scared of you?"

"I don't know... maybe I remind you of someone?" She closed her eyes. "I feel as if you're the only one that can understand... even if you are a pervert." Hiiro merely glared at her as she continued. "It's your eyes I think. What's your life been like, Hiiro-san? Because according to those eyes you've had just of a rough life as I've had."

Hiiro's glare faltered. 'How can she know about a rough life? She's fought monsters before but she never had to kill another human.'

"You probably don't think I've had a rough life I'm sure. After all being a Princess and then a Queen sounds like a charmed life, ne? It isn't I assure you. In the Moon Kingdom I was engaged to Endymion against my wishes. There was nothing I could say about it the Earth and Moon needed to be joined and I was the only one capable of it. Then in the next life the one where I was Usagi Tsukino I lived fourteen glorious years of a normal life." She sighed. "Then Luna found me, I become a warrior and my life was never mine again."

Hiiro remained silent as his mind calmly filed all of the information away. 'She had more of a normal life then I had, but I have no regrets.'

"And now... and now I find out that he never loved me. I was only a means to get to the throne. I wish you had shot me."

Hiiro stared at her for a moment. "You want to die?"

Usagi nodded, "I'm tired of living. Why should I risk more heartbreak?"

"So you're just giving up." It was a statement not a question.

Usagi closed her eyes. "Hai, I have nothing left to live for anymore."

Hiiro frowned, "You're being selfish."

Usagi's eyes snapped open. "Nani?"

"You know how the others feel about you and you'd just roll over and die?"

Usagi frowned, "The others...."

"Yes, the ones that all fell in love with you though I still can't figure out why. So which one do you love?"

"Which one do I love? I don't know... I don't even know if I love any of them. The only person I had ever been with was Mamoru and those four are the first I've ever kissed in almost a millenia." Her eyes darted to Hiiro. "Are you stil afraid of me?"

Hiiro remained silent watching her. Something in her eyes had all of his senses alert. He shook his head slightly.

Usagi smiled, "I'm glad. I don't want anyone afraid of me." She leaned closer to him and was relieved when he stared at her emotionless. "Why did I tell you any of that? It is just because I feel you're a kindred spirit or something more?"

Hiiro's eyes narrowed slightly as Usagi leaned forward. 'What is she-' his thoughts stopped completly as she pressed her lips to his and pulled away.

"You taste different from him too. So it's not because you look like him," she mused aloud.

Hiiro stared at her for a long moment as she pulled away from him. From the soft kiss he had registered she tasted of chocolate and cherries. He unconciously licked his lips and his eyes settled on Usagi's lips. Reacting without thought his hands captured her shoulders and pulled her to him as he kissed her.

Usagi was shocked. Unlike the others Hiiro's kiss wasn't gentle and sweet but more of an insatible hunger for her. She felt herself slowly respond as he nibbled on her lips and persuaded her to open her mouth for him. She whimpered slightly but his mouth swallowed the sounds. "Hiiro," she managed to whisper. As a warning or an invitation for more she wasn't quite sure.

Usagi stared straight into Hiiro's eyes as he kissed her. She couldn't even begin to guess what his emotions were so she simply allowed herself to enjoy the heart-shattering kiss. She pressed closer to him wanting more and yet not knowing for certain what she wanted except she wanted to be as close as possible to him.

Quatre came back slightly exhausted. He had talked over the phone with the doctor and been told that the symptoms he had described were non serious and that the girl was merely shocked. He entered the room and stared frozen at the kissing couple. "Usagi-san?"

Hiiro pulled away the emotionless mask returning to his face. "Don't confuse me with him, Usagi," he ordered before leaving.

Usagi shivered slightly and looked up to Quatre who was frowning at Hiiro's back. The blonde turned his attention back to usagi and smiled, "I'm glad you're better now."

Usagi smiled softly, "Hiiro talked to me a bit. Gomen, if I hurt you Quatre."

Quatre shook his head, "That's impossible, Usagi-san. Do you want to try to get some more sleep?"

Usagi shook her head. "Quatre?"

"Hai?"

"I..." she got up from the bed and gently kissed him. "Night, Quatre-chan," she whispered before burrowing into her covers and attempting to fall asleep again.

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Again after ten reviews I'll give you the next chapter. There will be two versions of it. The lime will be posted normally and the lemon seperately. No, I'm not going to tell you who the lemon is with either.