Hey Minna!!!!!! *sniff* *wails* Poor Usa-chan, what are you going to do!?! Will the g-boyz save her? Will she live? Remember, there is still time to vote!!!
disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon or Gundam wing. I do, however, own this story plot. Don't sue and don't steal!!!
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Through New Eyes
By: SS Silver
Chapter 4:
Accept
By: Silver Shadows
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Usagi held the sword in front of her and closed her eyes. She was about to stab herself when Wufei burst into the room. Fear entered his eyes as he saw Usagi preparing to stab herself. Running over to her, he wrestled the katana from her hands. When he finally got the katana back he shouted furiously, "ONNA!! What do you think you were doing!?!?" He was shaking Usagi by the shoulders.
Usagi stared into Wufei's eyes with her own lifeless, dull blue ones. In a hoarse voice she whispered, "Why...why did you stop me? Why do you care? I deserve to die!"
Wufei shook his head and harshly whispered, "Onna, don't you see? If you die, you will accomplish what that konoyaro wanted. He meant to kill you when he threw you off that cliff. He also meant to kill you when he did the unthinkable to you. He wanted to kill your spirit. If you keep acting like this he has already succeeded. The sacrifice your senshi made will be useless! All for nothing!"
Suddenly, something inside Usagi snapped. A fire began to flicker in her eyes. She wrenched herself from Wufei's grasp and hissed, "Don't even begin to talk about my senshi to me! You have no idea how I am feeling right now! You can't even begin to feel the betrayal I feel! You..."Usagi was shaking now and collapsed on the floor," you couldn't possibly know what it's like to lose them, lose all that you love."
Wufei sat down in front of Usagi and quietly said, "That's where you're wrong. I do know what it feels like to lose everything you love. You might not know but all of us have been through things you can't even think of especially Hiiro." Wufei then went on to tell Usagi about losing his wife, and the colony being blown up in front of his eyes. When he was finished, Usagi had tears in her eyes.
"I'm sorry," She whispered, her eyes downcast, "I was being selfish. You guys took me in and cared for me and I have done nothing to make your lives easier." She lifted her head and looked at Wufei," I'll try to make the best of what I have, I promise."
Wufei smiled a little, "That's all I ask." Then he got up and left the room, leaving Usagi there to think things over. Usagi sat there, in the center of the room, the earlier conversation echoing in her head. Slowly, she got up and walked to the balcony that overlooked Quatre's backyard.
She placed one hand on the cool, marble railing and stared at the scene in front of her. The wind rippled the lush, green grass as a brown rabbit carefully nibbled on the clovers dotting the yard. Two birds splashed playfully in the gigantic birdbath. A doe and her fawn grazed peacefully, and a single butterfly fluttered from flower to flower.
Closing her eyes, Usagi let the wind swirl around her and her hair streamed behind her like a river of gold. 'So this is it. This is my last chance to live. My last chance to find what I'm looking for . . . my last chance. Arigato minna. I finally understand. I finally accept. I'll never forget you guys, for as long as I live, you will live on in my heart, in my memory . . .' A single tear trickled down her face. It was a tear of remembrance, not remorse. She had finally let go of her past. She finally moved on. She finally accepted.
Usagi walked back into her room and closed the white French doors that led to the balcony. Looking at the clock, she decided that it was time for lunch. Walking out of her room, she tried to find her way around the mansion. Realizing that she had gotten lost, Usagi asked a servant, who had been dusting off a statue, for directions to the kitchen. After getting the directions, Usagi started towards the kitchen. 'I wonder if I can still cook. It would be nice to make something for the guys after everything they've done for me.' Over the past few years Makoto had been teaching her how to cook. Needless to say, Usagi had become quite good, but she had stopped cooking when the senshi died.
After she finally made her way to the kitchen, she stopped to ponder, 'I wonder what the guys like to eat. Oh well, I'll just make a little of everything.' Rolling up her sleeves, Usagi started to cook. Within a half and hour, delicious smells started to float out of the kitchen.
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Meanwhile, the g-boyz were in the hanger, fine tuning their gundams. "Ooof!" Duo jumped down from Deathscythe's cockpit and stretched his arms. "Man! It feels like I've been here forever. Remind me again why we do this every week?"
Quatre poked his head out of Sandrock's cockpit and said, "Duo, you know as well as I do that we must keep our gundams in working condition so that they can function properly in an emergency."
Duo flicked his hand lazily, "Yeah, yeah, whatever." pausing, he sniffed the air, "Hey, do you guys smell that? Lunch is ready!!!" he sniffed the air again, "Hmm… I smell potatoes, miso soup, spaghetti, rice, some type of Chinese food, chicken,… and I smell COOKIES!!!!!" Everyone saw Duo's eyes light up. He flung the wrench he was holding behind him and struck a pose. "On to the kitchen!!!!"
"OW! Kisama! MAXWELL!!!"
(Sweatdrop) "Uhh… hee hee, sorry Wu-man."
"MAXWELL!!!!!!"
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Usagi had just finished setting the table when the door burst open. Duo sauntered in with a huge smile plastered on his face while Wufei was sulking. The other g-boyz just calmly walked in.
"My, my, something smells good!" The braided boy remarked and then he spotted what he wanted and launched himself towards the plate of cookies. Right when he was about to wrap his fingers around the golden cookie his hand was red as Usagi slammed a wooden spoon down on it. (KONICHIWA MINNA-SAN! SilverRay here since ane-chan said I could write the rest of the chapter because she has difficulty accessing a computer. poor ane-chan. Hope everything is going good! October 19, 2001 11:35 am I don't have school today ^^)
"Duo!" Usagi scolded as the boy held his red hand. "That's dessert! No sooner! Now sit down." The golden haired girl picked up the plate and carried it to the far side of the table and away from a certain braided pilot. The boy scowled and sat down eyeing the cookies still. Everyone found a seat for themselves and sat down in it. Usagi sat down next to Trowa. "DIG IN!" Without waiting for anyone she immediately grabbed a bowl of mashed potatoes and heaped them onto her plate. She reached over for some spaghetti and tossed them without care onto her plate before reaching for the sushi. Most of the guys sweat dropped and Trowa 'coward' as much as he could away from the flying food.
Wufei allowed himself a small smile knowing that the golden haired girl was keeping her promise. He reached over and with the bowl Usagi placed conveniently by his plate he scooped some shark fin soup into it. (So expensive but so good)
Usagi sighed as she scrubbed at the pot. The only thing about cooking that she hated…cleaning up. She glanced over where Duo was munching on a cookie. He was supposed to be helping her wash the dishes. She sighed and set the pot on the counter to be dried. "Duo," she called somewhat. "Are you going to dry the dishes? The cookies aren't going anywhere." The golden haired girl picked up a knife to be washed.
"Well the dishes aren't either," the braided boy shoved the rest of the cookie into his mouth and strolled over to where the sink was. "Why don't you just stick them in the dishwasher." The boy picked up a dish rag and began to dry off the pot.
The girl stared darkly at the boy and sighed. "I don't know why. I'm just so use to washing everything by hand I guess." Usagi stared at the bubbly water and set down the knife in the basin for a moment. She scooped up the bubbles and blew at them sending them flying everywhere. A light laugh escaped her throat as some landed on Duo's head. She brushed them off and reached into the sink once more to start washing the dishes again. She drew her hand back at a sharp pain. "Itai," she held her hand to her mouth.
"What happened?" Duo asked concerned. Usagi waved the injured hand around for a moment, bobbing her head around at the same time. He took her hand away from her mouth and looked at it. A cut found its way onto the side of her index finger and it was bleeding lightly. It wasn't really that bad of a wound and would most likely stop bleeding within a few minutes. At least her finger was still attached. He pressed her finger to his lips for a moment. The golden haired girl jerked her finger back at the action. Duo looked to see a light blush on her face. "Ah sorry," he muttered.
"Dai…daijoubu," Usagi replied shakily. As soon as the word left her mouth she felt Duo pull her into his arms. The golden haired girl didn't believe that she had ever seen him so serious. "Duo?" she asked unsure. Usagi found her arms locked behind his neck. She couldn't help but notice that she seemed lost in his eyes. 'Iie,' she thought softly. 'This can't happen. It'll only be an endless cycle of loss.' The girl blindly felt his lips rest on her own. She felt so lost, so confused and after a moment he pulled back.
Duo stared at the blond haired girl for a moment unsure. "How…how's your finger?" he asked after a moment. The golden haired girl pulled arm back and stared at the injury in reference.
"It's…I'm I mean my finger it's okay," she stuttered out. The braided boy couldn't help but let a smile appear on his face. He leaned forward and their lips met once more. Usagi absentmindedly wrapped her arms behind his neck once more and his own snaked around her waist pulling her closer. Emotions ran rampart in her mind and she was confused. She didn't know, didn't understand what she was doing here in his arms. 'What do I think I'm doing here? He deserves better than me…I'm dirty…I'm too dirty for anyone.' Without notice Usagi pushed the braided boy away from her. She turned and ran as fast as she could away from the room leaving Duo staring where she went.
What the hell was I thinking?
Usagi found herself laying on her bed staring blankly at the moon that had risen. The moon's rays shined down across the room and its fingers walked around the room not stopped by the light of a lamp. Tears gently trailed down her face but she made no move to disband them. "Doushite?" she asked to no one not even expecting an answer. "Why me? WHAT DID I EVER DO!" the girl screamed. She stalked towards the balcony and flung the doors open violently. She looked up at the moon, the long white dress Quatre had found in a closet for her trailed behind her a little bit big. "Why did you leave me mother? Why…" she took a deep breath. "I know I promised Wufei that I would go on living but what did I do to deserve this? Why did you leave me alone like this? Why torture me more?"
A knock on the door went ignored as Usagi kneeled down onto the ground. She undid her long golden hair and let it sprawl out on the hardwood floor. Usagi's tears gently trailed down her face as she closed her eyes. She let the moon's ray fall on her and the breeze swirl around her. "Onegai…there has to be some light left." The girl brought her hands in front of her in a prayer. "Onegai megumi-sama, give me another chance to live. Give me some happiness in this life. Onegai…I'll give up anything for some hope."
The door to her room opened and Usagi stopped her prayer to look at the intruder. Hiiro stood in her doorway. "I heard you screaming. Daijoubu ka?"
The girl nodded and stood up from her spot on the floor. The wind blew sending her hair flying. "Daijoubu." Hiiro reached over and flicked the light switch on to let light into the room. He stared at her for a moment before turning to leave. "Hiiro," Usagi called causing the Japanese boy to stop. He turned his head to look at her. "Arigato," she nodded her head to him.
The boy nodded in return and closed the door behind him as he left.
"Ohayoo!' Usagi bounced into the kitchen. She plopped down in a chair next to Quatre. Duo noticed that she avoided looking at him. "Mmmmm! Breakfast looks good!" Usagi immediately snatched a fork up and picked up a fried egg off of a plate and shoved the whole thing into her mouth. "Delicious! Are we going anywhere today?" she asked as she plucked a waffle off of another plate.
Quatre stared at the meal he slaved over disappear before his eyes. "Um well Miss Usagi why don't we go to the mall to get you some clothes. Oh yes Usagi," the blond Arabian strolled into the kitchen and came back with an arm load of medicine bottles. "Don't forget to take your medicine." He set one before her. "This one first and then this one. The doctor said you shouldn't mix up the order. Next is this one then this one here…"
The braided boy watched as Usagi's face crumbled as she watched each one being set down before her. For some strange reason he felt something tugging at him telling him to go comfort her. Usagi reached out and open the first bottle of medication, the reminder that she was going to die soon. She poured a tablet into her hand and stared at it. What was the point in taking each tablet? To keep death away? But her time was supposed to pass. She felt someone staring at her from across the table. His eyes seemed to say, 'Baka onna, you made a promise.' She nodded and put the tablet into her mouth and swallowed it down with a cup of water. She reached over for the next bottle and opened it. She repeated the procedure for every tablet until she was done.
"Now Usagi," Quatre began filling a plate of food for her. "After you eat this we can go to the mall so we can shop for you."
The golden haired girl nodded and began eating.
Two hours later five boys and one girl stood in front of the SANC KINGDOM MALL
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What did you think minna-san? I hope you liked it! October 19, 2001 5:01 pm. ~SilverRay
