part one: http://de.geocities.com/mary_eve_parker/Diary_story_1.htm
Greatest Reward
Part 2
Was this what I have been dreaming of since we returned from the Island? Being together with the most handsome guy I had ever met. I was fascinated by his calmness, normally he would run and I would try to chase, only try because we both know that I wont bring him back, not since the island. But god he has a gorgeous ass, I had seen this part of his handsome body a way too often when he ran way.
Now we were sitting here, holding hands and in the middle of us a little girl. She was a miracle to me, more than Jarod was. Sometimes I thought that she might be able to read my thoughts or let me feel an understandmant.
Most of my life I have been alone, ,more than that - lonely. My mother died too young and my father, the person I thought he might be my father wasn't my father. But who cares about family. There are kids who aren't allowed to life with their family, so why shall I have one. Sometimes I was thinking about the fact that it would be easier to have no family instead of mine. Life would have been much easier. Why couldn't my life be easy?
Teddy was sitting there between us, holding out hands together and somehow Jarod was staring at this bundle of flesh. We were holding hands, the most intimate action for ages. We hadn't touched, not for real only in my best hidden dreams he had kissed me. How often did it happen that I closed my eyes and let my fingers wander of my own body imagining that it would be him, his hands and his eyes. How often was I lost in my fantasy? To often lately, since the return.
"Parker" Jarod said softly. "Do you want some coffee?" he asked. Thanks god that he broke the unbearable silence. Teddy our angel was just smiling. She was an angel, like the word means - blond curls, bright blue eyes and a wonderful nearly heavenly smile. And this night gown was like a holy dress. God where have I lived during my whole life, not on this planet. If yes, I would have recognised that I want to have kids and a family, something I could hold on and not my actual life, a life which wasn't lively. What have I lost during the last years? Who hasn't betrayed me ? Jarod. Jarod. Jarod.
"Yeah I want some" I said and we got off the floor, Teddy on my hand. She was like a doll but with her own will and this was a strong one.
~*~
A couple of minutes later we were sitting around the table, Teddy in my lap. I was making her a butter bread with marmalade, just like I loved it when I was a kid. She reminded me on my lost youth, all the years I tried to run away from myself, lost in several not working relationships with older men, just to trying to be loved and lot left behind. Nothing had helped me to cope with my not existing family. Everything sucked.
I was still on earth and I had the most beautiful kid I had ever seen in my lap eating a marmalade bread. By the way she was all over marmalade - from the nose down to my lap. But who cared, she had fun. Jarod made her some animal like pancakes and she loved it to see him imitating them. Teddy and me were laughing all the time about his "muh" and "mähs" - but he was cute and caring about her like I did. Don't ask me when this mother instinct developed, I cant remember it. Never knew that I had something like that at all. Never needed it till the moment to be honest.
So she was sitting there eating pancakes and trying to feed me with it, bit my bit. I liked them they were tasteful especially with tons of marmalade. And there was no pain from my ulcer till the moment, not a little at all. I just enjoyed myself a little.
Teddy was telling Jarod that she really liked me, in her soft chosen words who couldn't hurt somebody. She couldn't do that at all, not this child. She is like an angel and angels cant hurt somebody. And she has this puppy look on her face which reminded me to Jarod, this look was special and so cute. She was so cute. Mama - why cant she be mine?
"So what do you want to do with me today?" she asked us. My eyes jumped from her little head to Jarod to give him a look. I know that I would have to go back, it was only a matter of time.
"Kiddy could I have a short talk with Jarod?" I asked her softly, "and you could run upstairs and get the stuff you want to wear." She smiled at me, hopped from my lap and ran the stairs up to the bedrooms.
"Jarod ." I tried to ask him how he thinks that this might go on but he interrupted. "Parker just let it happen a couple of days. Lets try to live a normal life and nothing more, just an ordinary life. You and me, please." He looked at me in exactly the same puppy look like Teddy and I couldn't resist. I nodded but didn't smile. "But we cant go on like that." "No we cant, you cant Parker" I looked at him for a minute.
I was still just wearing his shirt and my slip under it, thanks god that this shirt was longer than I had expected it to be in the beginning. I was still staring at him, wondering what he intended to tell me this way. He wanted to live with me - me the icy queen of hearts, the one without a heart, just a little left and this belonged to Teddy now. The most amazing creature in my entire life.
"Why do you say that?" I asked him and honestly said tears got into my eyes. I was standing there, slowly moving to the window. I stood there watching the rain. The rain. His sign of independence and freedom.
Slowly I felt two arms around me. "It wasn't me who had brought you to this cottage and I didn't post this announce." He whispered into my ear "But I am happy that you are here." I couldn't believe him but I couldn't turn around to face him though. So I was standing there, his hands on my shoulders, softly freezing and shuddering - was the room getting so cold or what?
"I am glad to be here too" - who had said this? Me? Cant be, I would never be that .. I would be, if this hands will rest a couple of minutes longer on my shoulder I will be able to do everything - just ask for it.
The tension was dangerous. What to do next I asked myself but in the same moment Teddy came downstairs and fell over the last three steps. I couldn't stop myself from running to her. She was crying and her knee was a little bloody, not much for my taste but well I was shot not only ones, but for her it was really bloody. I took her up and we both sat down on the sofa next by the stair case. Jarod came to us. The little girl curled up in my lap. She was crying heavily and I nearly started to cry with her. But I didn't.
Jarod came back to the sofa with a big band-aid and some stuff to clean the wound. Softy he let the wet cloth get over it and she didn't cry or make a move, just watched him. "Now you have to kiss it" she said with a wet smile on her lips. You could still see the tears which were running down her lovely cheeks a minute ago. "Why?" Jarod asked her. "Because its healing faster" I answered with a smile too.
Slowly he let his hands rest on my tights and his lips were slowly pressing softly against her covered knee. "Thanks" she said and looked down on my tight. Oh hell yes I had cut myself during shaving the last time little above my knee because the phone was ringing and I hadn't expected it and now? Teddy looked down on the nearly healed cut and told Jarod to kiss it too. He looked at me to get an answer and slowly I nodded. I didn't look foresee to the shudder which ran up my spin the minute his lips were pressed against my tight.
If we forget this little accident of his lips against me we had a lot of fun this day. Teddy showed me how to play with a doll again - I had forgotten how cute kids are when they are playing and getting into different roles.
When it was time to go to bed, she asked me if I could go with her just for a little time. Jarod allowed me with a nod to go upstairs with her. She was so small but she seemed to know the whole world.
We showered together, yeah showered together - even if it sounded a little however you might think, we showered together. She asked me if I would when I stood her under the hot spray and so we did. She giggled all the time when I tried to get the gel on her because I was tickling her. Sure I wasn't but she was so cute when she giggled. Okay she was cute all the time. I had never thought that I would go under the shower with a kid even if it wasn't mine. But the thing with Teddy was more than different. She was like mine. She was so cute, I wished to have a kid like her now. To have kids at all.
When she was wearing her night gown again, she sat on the bed with a big book in her lap when I got out of the shower, just wearing a big blue towel. It smelled like Jarod I noticed. So I got on the bed with her, the one we had slept in the night before and I lightened the lamp on the nightstand.
"You know Teddy that you don't have to be afraid in the night. Nothing will ever happen to you." I told her while she cuddled up in my arms, sitting between my legs the book in front of us. "But .. "she wanted to say when she turned around, got up a little and hugged me tight. "I cant lose you" she said softly. Stunned?-Yes! Shocked?- A little. "Why should you lose me?" I asked her hugging her back. "I lost my mum once, I couldn't lose her a second time." "You will never lose me Teddy, never" I said, tears quelling up. Why should she lose me? Or didn't she want to lose me at all? She doesn't know me, not the real me.
I read her out the story of Cinderella, the classic one, not Disney - the one my mother could tell me out of her mind. She was so perfect. I could never be a good mother. I am not trained to be a woman, only a huntress.
When I read out the last words of the story I noticed that she was fallen asleep against my chest. I didn't want to move or do something to make her. She was sleeping so peacefully, without any angst. And than I noticed Jarod standing in the frame of the door watching us. I gave him a hint to come over and he came not saying a word. He took the book and laid it on the night stand and when he carried Teddy out of my arms he slowly brushed my breasts. The same shudder got through my body like before. Did he notice it? Hopefully not. I cant lose my respect. Respect what a stupid word in connection with Jarod. He loved me, I was sure and I really loved him but we couldn't be together. It wasn't allowed.
I let the fear control me when its going about Jarod, I let the walls get higher and higher not to let him in and every time he destroys them with just one attempt. But somehow and some way we couldn't see that we have to work together. Today and the day before I recognise that we think the same most of the time, act the same around Teddy.
I slipped out of under her and he laid her down, let her cuddle up in the thick sheets. "We have to talk Jarod." I whispered not to wake her. He nodded and we sat down in front of the fire he was enlightening again. I sat down, still just wearing the towel. "It was Sydney" Jarod say. "I am not sure but he is the only one who could do stuff like that to us. The only one who would profit from it." Jarod was right, it had to be Syd. He had also given me this address. "But why Jarod?" I asked him not willing to understand the whole situation. He was right, I felt it deep inside my heart. "Marry me Miranda" he said in a whisper. I could just look at him, a mix out of staring and not knowing what to say. Yeah I would like to - but on the other hand there was the Centre, the *family* of mine. All the angst was coming up now. I couldn't marry him not even if I really would want, like I really do.
More than just ones I had spend nights thinking about how it would be if we would have escaped together, and not only Jarod alone. If we both had fled, we both would live a life and not just making the next move in a stupid game of the Centre. "You know Jarod that I can." "You can Parker if you want to you can left all these bad things behind you and life with me and Teddy." "With Teddy?" This was going to me unfair and I had to grin inside of me because he had noticed how much I had fallen in love with this kid. "Yeah, only we three" "And where are her parents?" "We are her parents Parker." "No we cant." I disagreed. "But we are, hell we are." "No Jarod it cant be" I couldn't believe what I had heard. It couldn't be. I was never pregnant in my life, not till the moment. "But we are. She is our baby - your ovary and my sperm melt together in Rains laboratory and parted into this wonderful creature in another woman's body. The woman died after escaping from the Centre. Major Charles had found her. He had taken care of Teddy while I was running away from you." "It cant be true Jarod, it cant" I started to cry bitterly. "But it is believe me" he said, got a little more next to me and hugged me. I couldn't do anything else then hug him back. It was too sad to be true. I had missed the most important years of my child's life just because of the Centre. "But why haven't you told me before?" I asked. "I have Miranda, I really have tried to tell you but it wasn't that easy. You were chasing me all the time and she was still a baby. If the Centre would have found out that she was still alive, I am not sure what would have happened then." He was so right. He had done the only right thing - hidden her. Now that I know that she existed, I didn't want to see her in one of the sim labs too. She was too perfect to go into one of these cages. But what to do now?
"Are you sure that she is ours?" I asked him to be sure. "More than just sure. I have tested it thousand times to be sure." he smiled. "I cant believe it Jarod. I mean .." "I know that its not easy for you Miranda" he said softly, "but I will not let her be a toy like I was for the Centre, I will hide her and if you want I can hide you too. Too many things happened to you and me, so why shall she be the one who is anxious to be found too? I have the fear for a couple of people. Want to share it with me?"
I was still pressed against his chest, my arms around him. It was one of the times I was really comforted in my life. He had done it the second time in just a hand of days. I couldn't believe and on the other hand I realised that only he could do that to me, that only he had the faith to give me what I really needed - to love and being loved in return.
So suddenly so strange Life wakes you up Things change I've done my best I've served my call I thought I had it all
So suddenly so strong My prejudice Was gone [.]
I found my place I'm different now
These days
Now the greatest reward
Is the light in your eyes The sound of your voice And the touch of your hand You made me who I am [.]
So suddenly its clear to me Things changed Our future lies here and now we made it through somehow
"I will Jarod" I whispered softly. His hands were making small circles on my bag, holding me as tight as before. "I want to see her growing up, want to be a mother as long as I can and try to make all the things I have missed away. Being there when she needs me, . being there for you if you need me." I added softly. I couldn't hold my tears back. It was too wonderful. Sydney had lead me into my real future, the one which was made for me. The one I should be in and not the one, the Centre wanted me to see in. It was not my future anymore, it was *ours*.
[.] I know I can't survive Another night away from you You're the reason I go on And now I need to live the truth Right now, there's no better time From this fear I will break free And I'll live again with love And no they can't take that away from me And they will see .
'Cause I'd surrender everything To feel the chance to live again .
~~*~~ FIN ~~*~~
Feedback: like always *begging on my knees* if you liked it and if you want to give some critics - feel free to do it.
1.Note: its going to the BETA in a second now, but I had to share the ideas of it with you all. 2.Note: Its "The Greatest Reward" and "I surrender" by Céline Dion - whom else if I am allowed to ask have you expected? 3.Note: I kept it PG13, as hard as it was for me for all the younger ones here. I love the *hard* stuff like Tiff & Co. know, but well, don't judge me for the second *soft* one. It will not get too common be sure. (
Greatest Reward
Part 2
Was this what I have been dreaming of since we returned from the Island? Being together with the most handsome guy I had ever met. I was fascinated by his calmness, normally he would run and I would try to chase, only try because we both know that I wont bring him back, not since the island. But god he has a gorgeous ass, I had seen this part of his handsome body a way too often when he ran way.
Now we were sitting here, holding hands and in the middle of us a little girl. She was a miracle to me, more than Jarod was. Sometimes I thought that she might be able to read my thoughts or let me feel an understandmant.
Most of my life I have been alone, ,more than that - lonely. My mother died too young and my father, the person I thought he might be my father wasn't my father. But who cares about family. There are kids who aren't allowed to life with their family, so why shall I have one. Sometimes I was thinking about the fact that it would be easier to have no family instead of mine. Life would have been much easier. Why couldn't my life be easy?
Teddy was sitting there between us, holding out hands together and somehow Jarod was staring at this bundle of flesh. We were holding hands, the most intimate action for ages. We hadn't touched, not for real only in my best hidden dreams he had kissed me. How often did it happen that I closed my eyes and let my fingers wander of my own body imagining that it would be him, his hands and his eyes. How often was I lost in my fantasy? To often lately, since the return.
"Parker" Jarod said softly. "Do you want some coffee?" he asked. Thanks god that he broke the unbearable silence. Teddy our angel was just smiling. She was an angel, like the word means - blond curls, bright blue eyes and a wonderful nearly heavenly smile. And this night gown was like a holy dress. God where have I lived during my whole life, not on this planet. If yes, I would have recognised that I want to have kids and a family, something I could hold on and not my actual life, a life which wasn't lively. What have I lost during the last years? Who hasn't betrayed me ? Jarod. Jarod. Jarod.
"Yeah I want some" I said and we got off the floor, Teddy on my hand. She was like a doll but with her own will and this was a strong one.
~*~
A couple of minutes later we were sitting around the table, Teddy in my lap. I was making her a butter bread with marmalade, just like I loved it when I was a kid. She reminded me on my lost youth, all the years I tried to run away from myself, lost in several not working relationships with older men, just to trying to be loved and lot left behind. Nothing had helped me to cope with my not existing family. Everything sucked.
I was still on earth and I had the most beautiful kid I had ever seen in my lap eating a marmalade bread. By the way she was all over marmalade - from the nose down to my lap. But who cared, she had fun. Jarod made her some animal like pancakes and she loved it to see him imitating them. Teddy and me were laughing all the time about his "muh" and "mähs" - but he was cute and caring about her like I did. Don't ask me when this mother instinct developed, I cant remember it. Never knew that I had something like that at all. Never needed it till the moment to be honest.
So she was sitting there eating pancakes and trying to feed me with it, bit my bit. I liked them they were tasteful especially with tons of marmalade. And there was no pain from my ulcer till the moment, not a little at all. I just enjoyed myself a little.
Teddy was telling Jarod that she really liked me, in her soft chosen words who couldn't hurt somebody. She couldn't do that at all, not this child. She is like an angel and angels cant hurt somebody. And she has this puppy look on her face which reminded me to Jarod, this look was special and so cute. She was so cute. Mama - why cant she be mine?
"So what do you want to do with me today?" she asked us. My eyes jumped from her little head to Jarod to give him a look. I know that I would have to go back, it was only a matter of time.
"Kiddy could I have a short talk with Jarod?" I asked her softly, "and you could run upstairs and get the stuff you want to wear." She smiled at me, hopped from my lap and ran the stairs up to the bedrooms.
"Jarod ." I tried to ask him how he thinks that this might go on but he interrupted. "Parker just let it happen a couple of days. Lets try to live a normal life and nothing more, just an ordinary life. You and me, please." He looked at me in exactly the same puppy look like Teddy and I couldn't resist. I nodded but didn't smile. "But we cant go on like that." "No we cant, you cant Parker" I looked at him for a minute.
I was still just wearing his shirt and my slip under it, thanks god that this shirt was longer than I had expected it to be in the beginning. I was still staring at him, wondering what he intended to tell me this way. He wanted to live with me - me the icy queen of hearts, the one without a heart, just a little left and this belonged to Teddy now. The most amazing creature in my entire life.
"Why do you say that?" I asked him and honestly said tears got into my eyes. I was standing there, slowly moving to the window. I stood there watching the rain. The rain. His sign of independence and freedom.
Slowly I felt two arms around me. "It wasn't me who had brought you to this cottage and I didn't post this announce." He whispered into my ear "But I am happy that you are here." I couldn't believe him but I couldn't turn around to face him though. So I was standing there, his hands on my shoulders, softly freezing and shuddering - was the room getting so cold or what?
"I am glad to be here too" - who had said this? Me? Cant be, I would never be that .. I would be, if this hands will rest a couple of minutes longer on my shoulder I will be able to do everything - just ask for it.
The tension was dangerous. What to do next I asked myself but in the same moment Teddy came downstairs and fell over the last three steps. I couldn't stop myself from running to her. She was crying and her knee was a little bloody, not much for my taste but well I was shot not only ones, but for her it was really bloody. I took her up and we both sat down on the sofa next by the stair case. Jarod came to us. The little girl curled up in my lap. She was crying heavily and I nearly started to cry with her. But I didn't.
Jarod came back to the sofa with a big band-aid and some stuff to clean the wound. Softy he let the wet cloth get over it and she didn't cry or make a move, just watched him. "Now you have to kiss it" she said with a wet smile on her lips. You could still see the tears which were running down her lovely cheeks a minute ago. "Why?" Jarod asked her. "Because its healing faster" I answered with a smile too.
Slowly he let his hands rest on my tights and his lips were slowly pressing softly against her covered knee. "Thanks" she said and looked down on my tight. Oh hell yes I had cut myself during shaving the last time little above my knee because the phone was ringing and I hadn't expected it and now? Teddy looked down on the nearly healed cut and told Jarod to kiss it too. He looked at me to get an answer and slowly I nodded. I didn't look foresee to the shudder which ran up my spin the minute his lips were pressed against my tight.
If we forget this little accident of his lips against me we had a lot of fun this day. Teddy showed me how to play with a doll again - I had forgotten how cute kids are when they are playing and getting into different roles.
When it was time to go to bed, she asked me if I could go with her just for a little time. Jarod allowed me with a nod to go upstairs with her. She was so small but she seemed to know the whole world.
We showered together, yeah showered together - even if it sounded a little however you might think, we showered together. She asked me if I would when I stood her under the hot spray and so we did. She giggled all the time when I tried to get the gel on her because I was tickling her. Sure I wasn't but she was so cute when she giggled. Okay she was cute all the time. I had never thought that I would go under the shower with a kid even if it wasn't mine. But the thing with Teddy was more than different. She was like mine. She was so cute, I wished to have a kid like her now. To have kids at all.
When she was wearing her night gown again, she sat on the bed with a big book in her lap when I got out of the shower, just wearing a big blue towel. It smelled like Jarod I noticed. So I got on the bed with her, the one we had slept in the night before and I lightened the lamp on the nightstand.
"You know Teddy that you don't have to be afraid in the night. Nothing will ever happen to you." I told her while she cuddled up in my arms, sitting between my legs the book in front of us. "But .. "she wanted to say when she turned around, got up a little and hugged me tight. "I cant lose you" she said softly. Stunned?-Yes! Shocked?- A little. "Why should you lose me?" I asked her hugging her back. "I lost my mum once, I couldn't lose her a second time." "You will never lose me Teddy, never" I said, tears quelling up. Why should she lose me? Or didn't she want to lose me at all? She doesn't know me, not the real me.
I read her out the story of Cinderella, the classic one, not Disney - the one my mother could tell me out of her mind. She was so perfect. I could never be a good mother. I am not trained to be a woman, only a huntress.
When I read out the last words of the story I noticed that she was fallen asleep against my chest. I didn't want to move or do something to make her. She was sleeping so peacefully, without any angst. And than I noticed Jarod standing in the frame of the door watching us. I gave him a hint to come over and he came not saying a word. He took the book and laid it on the night stand and when he carried Teddy out of my arms he slowly brushed my breasts. The same shudder got through my body like before. Did he notice it? Hopefully not. I cant lose my respect. Respect what a stupid word in connection with Jarod. He loved me, I was sure and I really loved him but we couldn't be together. It wasn't allowed.
I let the fear control me when its going about Jarod, I let the walls get higher and higher not to let him in and every time he destroys them with just one attempt. But somehow and some way we couldn't see that we have to work together. Today and the day before I recognise that we think the same most of the time, act the same around Teddy.
I slipped out of under her and he laid her down, let her cuddle up in the thick sheets. "We have to talk Jarod." I whispered not to wake her. He nodded and we sat down in front of the fire he was enlightening again. I sat down, still just wearing the towel. "It was Sydney" Jarod say. "I am not sure but he is the only one who could do stuff like that to us. The only one who would profit from it." Jarod was right, it had to be Syd. He had also given me this address. "But why Jarod?" I asked him not willing to understand the whole situation. He was right, I felt it deep inside my heart. "Marry me Miranda" he said in a whisper. I could just look at him, a mix out of staring and not knowing what to say. Yeah I would like to - but on the other hand there was the Centre, the *family* of mine. All the angst was coming up now. I couldn't marry him not even if I really would want, like I really do.
More than just ones I had spend nights thinking about how it would be if we would have escaped together, and not only Jarod alone. If we both had fled, we both would live a life and not just making the next move in a stupid game of the Centre. "You know Jarod that I can." "You can Parker if you want to you can left all these bad things behind you and life with me and Teddy." "With Teddy?" This was going to me unfair and I had to grin inside of me because he had noticed how much I had fallen in love with this kid. "Yeah, only we three" "And where are her parents?" "We are her parents Parker." "No we cant." I disagreed. "But we are, hell we are." "No Jarod it cant be" I couldn't believe what I had heard. It couldn't be. I was never pregnant in my life, not till the moment. "But we are. She is our baby - your ovary and my sperm melt together in Rains laboratory and parted into this wonderful creature in another woman's body. The woman died after escaping from the Centre. Major Charles had found her. He had taken care of Teddy while I was running away from you." "It cant be true Jarod, it cant" I started to cry bitterly. "But it is believe me" he said, got a little more next to me and hugged me. I couldn't do anything else then hug him back. It was too sad to be true. I had missed the most important years of my child's life just because of the Centre. "But why haven't you told me before?" I asked. "I have Miranda, I really have tried to tell you but it wasn't that easy. You were chasing me all the time and she was still a baby. If the Centre would have found out that she was still alive, I am not sure what would have happened then." He was so right. He had done the only right thing - hidden her. Now that I know that she existed, I didn't want to see her in one of the sim labs too. She was too perfect to go into one of these cages. But what to do now?
"Are you sure that she is ours?" I asked him to be sure. "More than just sure. I have tested it thousand times to be sure." he smiled. "I cant believe it Jarod. I mean .." "I know that its not easy for you Miranda" he said softly, "but I will not let her be a toy like I was for the Centre, I will hide her and if you want I can hide you too. Too many things happened to you and me, so why shall she be the one who is anxious to be found too? I have the fear for a couple of people. Want to share it with me?"
I was still pressed against his chest, my arms around him. It was one of the times I was really comforted in my life. He had done it the second time in just a hand of days. I couldn't believe and on the other hand I realised that only he could do that to me, that only he had the faith to give me what I really needed - to love and being loved in return.
So suddenly so strange Life wakes you up Things change I've done my best I've served my call I thought I had it all
So suddenly so strong My prejudice Was gone [.]
I found my place I'm different now
These days
Now the greatest reward
Is the light in your eyes The sound of your voice And the touch of your hand You made me who I am [.]
So suddenly its clear to me Things changed Our future lies here and now we made it through somehow
"I will Jarod" I whispered softly. His hands were making small circles on my bag, holding me as tight as before. "I want to see her growing up, want to be a mother as long as I can and try to make all the things I have missed away. Being there when she needs me, . being there for you if you need me." I added softly. I couldn't hold my tears back. It was too wonderful. Sydney had lead me into my real future, the one which was made for me. The one I should be in and not the one, the Centre wanted me to see in. It was not my future anymore, it was *ours*.
[.] I know I can't survive Another night away from you You're the reason I go on And now I need to live the truth Right now, there's no better time From this fear I will break free And I'll live again with love And no they can't take that away from me And they will see .
'Cause I'd surrender everything To feel the chance to live again .
~~*~~ FIN ~~*~~
Feedback: like always *begging on my knees* if you liked it and if you want to give some critics - feel free to do it.
1.Note: its going to the BETA in a second now, but I had to share the ideas of it with you all. 2.Note: Its "The Greatest Reward" and "I surrender" by Céline Dion - whom else if I am allowed to ask have you expected? 3.Note: I kept it PG13, as hard as it was for me for all the younger ones here. I love the *hard* stuff like Tiff & Co. know, but well, don't judge me for the second *soft* one. It will not get too common be sure. (
