*** The song is "Black Balloon" by the Goo Goo Dolls. ***
// Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life //
She didn't do much those first few days. She hated that I was always there with her too. She hated that I wouldn't just leave her alone. She hated that I watched what she ate. I think for awhile she may have even hated me.
I didn't really care. The woman was mesmerizing and Rocky had brought her to her knees. He couldn't see that the beautiful, self-confident woman who had fallen for him was a great person who didn't need to change who she was to fit his own self-image.
But I've never really cared for The Rock. He's all show and so involved in his own glory. He doesn't pay attention to "the little people". Sure he may be the People's Champion, but that's only because he can see the dollar signs.
But that wasn't why I was there for Trish. To be honest I wasn't sure why I was there for Trish. She and I were friends, but she was closer to Lita. Of course, Lita had problems of her own. It wasn't like we were all that close. I had been interested in her before but she had gotten injured and our mutual attraction kind of faded.
// And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me //
"Damn you Jeff!" Trish screamed. "Let me be!"
"No!" I yelled back at her. "I will not let you starve yourself to death for some egotistical jerk who doesn't deserve you!"
"I wasn't starving myself," Trish said, pouting petulantly.
"Do we need to go talk to the doctor again Trish?" I asked her.
"Why are you doing this to me?" Trish asked. "Why won't you just let me be me?"
"Because you aren't being you," I said. "You're conforming to someone else's ideals sweetheart."
"Why is that so bad?" Trish asked.
"Because you were killing yourself to be with someone Trish," I said, looking into her pretty eyes. "And you shouldn't have to change yourself if that special someone really loves you."
// But on your knees //
"God I feel sick," Trish said, darting for the bathroom.
"No you don't," I said, grabbing her arm and pulling her close to me.
"Really Jeff," she said. She grabbed her stomach for emphasis. "I think it was that seafood."
"Good try," I said. "You don't need to lose any weight sweetie."
"Don't call me sweetie," Trish said, crossing her arms over her chest. "You'll make me think you actually care about me and my happiness."
"It's all I seem to care about anymore sweetheart," I said, hugging her to me.
// A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one //
It took awhile before anything between us got any easier. First, our primarily were over Trish's food intake and how I wasn't going to let up on that. After she finally got used to me being the guy that shoveled food down her throat she started hating the rumors that were going around about us.
I had made her start rooming with me. I wasn't going to take the chance that she might exchange anorexia for bulimia. At first, neither of us realized that rumors were circulating about our relationship. Everyone basically thought that Rocky had caught Trish cheating on him with me.
"I never cheated on him!" Trish exclaimed, tears in her eyes.
"I know," I said. "Maybe you should have."
"Jeff!" Trish said. "I love him. Can't you understand that?"
"Can't you understand that he treated you like dirt?" I asked her. My rage over her refusal to let go of her almost childlike admiration for Rock boiled over. "Can't you understand that there are thousands of guys out there who really care about you and would treat you like the queen that you are? Can't you see that I would treat you like you deserve to be treated?"
// I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon //
"What did you say?" she asked.
"You never really gave me a chance Trish," I continued. "I was ready to take that next step with you but you got injured. When you got back it was all about the belt."
"Jeff," Trish said softly.
"And I don't want to hear excuses," I said, doing this because I knew she needed to hear that there were people who found her desirable, just as she was. "I just wanted you to know that I think you're about the sexiest woman I've ever met and I would never criticize you if you were mine. I would just be grateful that you picked me."
"I didn't know," Trish said helplessly.
"I know," I said. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner."
// That was your womb //
After that I just pulled her into my arms and let her cry. She cried a lot for that first month or so. I couldn't really blame her. She had to completely change her life if she was going to be healthy ever again. And I had managed to throw her life into upheaval again.
It was no snap process. There was so much we had to do. She had counseling once a week at home. Well, in Cameron. I made her move in with me, threatening to tell Vince that Trish had an eating disorder if she didn't comply. The counselor told us Trish had to feel comfortable in her own skin again. She wouldn't get better any other way.
// Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there //
"How do I look?" Trish asked with uncertainty evident in her eyes. She and I were going to a club with Matt, Stacy, and Christian. We weren't really friends with Christian or Stacy but things had somehow changed and we found ourselves hanging out with them a lot.
"You look beautiful," I said, looking at her in a black mini-skirt and a tight silver halter-top. "You look perfect."
"Yeah?" Trish asked, looking back into the mirror.
"You almost sound like you believe it," I said, coming to stand behind her. "I'm glad."
"I don't know," Trish said, turning around to face me. "I mean, in my head I know I'm not really fat. But there's this nagging feeling."
"You're a gorgeous person Trish," I said to her, touching my forehead to her. "Inside and out. Any guy who wasn't a complete idiot would realized that."
"Are you saying Rocky is a complete idiot?" Trish asked.
"Pretty much," I shrugged.
// And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer //
"I have to go," Trish said as she grabbed her purse and a jacket.
"Why?" I asked, watching from my seat near the window as she crazily grabbed some things.
"I forgot I told Lita I would go shopping with her," Trish said, not looking into my eyes.
"Don't lie to me Trish," I said to her seriously. "You can tell me something I don't want to hear, but don't lie to me."
"I'm not Jeff," she said, smiling at me.
"Where are you going then?" I asked.
"It's none of your business," she said before leaving our room.
// You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew //
Later that night, Trish tried to sneak back into the room. She looked dejected and hurt, but also guilty. I watched her from my seat at the window. I had been there since she had left. I knew exactly what she had done, but it was hard to be mad at her.
"How was your night?" I asked.
She jumped as she turned to me. "Jeff? Why are you sitting in the dark?"
"I was worried about you," I answered.
"That's sweet Jeff," Trish said, sitting on the edge of the bed. "But I don't deserve that."
"Can you let me decide that?" I asked her. "What did he do?"
"What did who do?" Trish asked softly.
"Rocky," I said.
"How did you know?" Trish asked.
"I guessed," I shrugged.
"Well, he was everything you've ever said about him," Trish said.
// What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room //
"At least you've realized it sweetheart," I said.
"It still hurts," Trish said, hanging her head. "I mean, how different would things in my life be if I never let my self fall for him?"
"Why live in what if?" I asked her. "How about you just decide to change everything from here on out."
"It's so easy to say that," Trish said. "But in practice, it's hard."
"You're a strong woman Trish," I commented.
"Am I?" she asked.
// Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there //
"Have you seen Torrie and Billy lately?" Trish asked.
"Yeah," I said, putting my gear back into my gym bag.
"She looks so happy," Trish commented. "She never looked that happy while she was with Tajiri."
"They were in love before," I commented. "Billy has always been crazy for her."
"God, that must be great," Trish said dreamily. "To know that someone loves you and can take you back no matter what."
I looked at Trish sitting on the couch with a small smile on her face and I knew that was why I had taken it upon myself to help her. I loved her. She was so mesmerizing. It was probably impossible for me not to fall in love her.
"I'm sure you'll find out what it feels like," I said.
// And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer //
"Damn it!" Trish yelled.
"What?" I asked, coming into the living room of my house. We both knew she didn't need to live with me anymore. Ever since Rocky had rejected her again, eating hadn't been a problem.
I never asked her what had happened, but I knew it was big. "You okay?"
"Oh yeah," Trish said, looking up in embarrassment. "I thought I had set the VCR to record your match on RAW, but it seems like all I got was QVC."
"My match?" I asked, coming into the room and sitting down on the couch.
"Yeah," she said, blushing lightly.
"Why did you record my match?" Jeff asked.
"Because I knew a match between you and RVD would be awesome," Trish said. "I wanted it for always."
// And there's no time left for losin'
When you stand they fall //
"For always?" I asked her.
"Yeah," Trish said softly.
"You know, I want you to stay here for always," I said.
"Really?" she asked.
"I want you to be a part of my life forever," I said.
"A part of your life?" she asked, sounding somewhat disappointed.
"Yeah," I replied. "I'd probably die without you."
// Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there //
"I would've died if you hadn't been there," Trish said, standing up and walking toward the couch I was sitting on. "You saw what no one else could."
"I saw you," I answered.
"Did you?" she asked. "No one sees me like you do."
"How do you know that?" I asked her. My pulse quickened as she sat down next to me.
"Because you make me feel like I'm special," Trish said. She sat really close to me. "And I don't know if I can seduce you. But I would really like you to kiss me now."
// And I go on as you get colder //
My lips met hers. The kiss was gentle, like neither of us were exactly sure what we were doing. We pulled back at the same time.
"I love you Trish," I told her.
"Is there a but coming?" she asked.
"No," I said, cupping her cheek in my hand. "I just love you. Just as you are."
"Likewise," she said. "I love you like you are."
"Auspicious beginnings?" I asked.
"Very," she said before our lips met again.
// All because I'm
Comin' down the years turn over
And angels fall without you there //
Our relationship didn't exactly progress slowly. Actually, we already had the friends thing down. We were living together. Hell, we were pretty far into our relationship before it began.
But other things still took time. I didn't just propose to her or anything like that. We had fun and dated. We went to the movies and just held hands. We went to amusement parks and just enjoyed out time together.
// And I'll go and lead you home and
All because I'm
All because I'm //
It's weird how great things can come out of bad things. For me, the best thing came out of a horrible situation for Trish. Somehow, I managed to help her escape her feelings of low self-confidence. And in return, she fell in love with me. And I fell in love with her. Or deeper in love than I had already been in love with her.
// And I'll become
What you became to me //
// Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life //
She didn't do much those first few days. She hated that I was always there with her too. She hated that I wouldn't just leave her alone. She hated that I watched what she ate. I think for awhile she may have even hated me.
I didn't really care. The woman was mesmerizing and Rocky had brought her to her knees. He couldn't see that the beautiful, self-confident woman who had fallen for him was a great person who didn't need to change who she was to fit his own self-image.
But I've never really cared for The Rock. He's all show and so involved in his own glory. He doesn't pay attention to "the little people". Sure he may be the People's Champion, but that's only because he can see the dollar signs.
But that wasn't why I was there for Trish. To be honest I wasn't sure why I was there for Trish. She and I were friends, but she was closer to Lita. Of course, Lita had problems of her own. It wasn't like we were all that close. I had been interested in her before but she had gotten injured and our mutual attraction kind of faded.
// And you're not thinking about tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me //
"Damn you Jeff!" Trish screamed. "Let me be!"
"No!" I yelled back at her. "I will not let you starve yourself to death for some egotistical jerk who doesn't deserve you!"
"I wasn't starving myself," Trish said, pouting petulantly.
"Do we need to go talk to the doctor again Trish?" I asked her.
"Why are you doing this to me?" Trish asked. "Why won't you just let me be me?"
"Because you aren't being you," I said. "You're conforming to someone else's ideals sweetheart."
"Why is that so bad?" Trish asked.
"Because you were killing yourself to be with someone Trish," I said, looking into her pretty eyes. "And you shouldn't have to change yourself if that special someone really loves you."
// But on your knees //
"God I feel sick," Trish said, darting for the bathroom.
"No you don't," I said, grabbing her arm and pulling her close to me.
"Really Jeff," she said. She grabbed her stomach for emphasis. "I think it was that seafood."
"Good try," I said. "You don't need to lose any weight sweetie."
"Don't call me sweetie," Trish said, crossing her arms over her chest. "You'll make me think you actually care about me and my happiness."
"It's all I seem to care about anymore sweetheart," I said, hugging her to me.
// A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one //
It took awhile before anything between us got any easier. First, our primarily were over Trish's food intake and how I wasn't going to let up on that. After she finally got used to me being the guy that shoveled food down her throat she started hating the rumors that were going around about us.
I had made her start rooming with me. I wasn't going to take the chance that she might exchange anorexia for bulimia. At first, neither of us realized that rumors were circulating about our relationship. Everyone basically thought that Rocky had caught Trish cheating on him with me.
"I never cheated on him!" Trish exclaimed, tears in her eyes.
"I know," I said. "Maybe you should have."
"Jeff!" Trish said. "I love him. Can't you understand that?"
"Can't you understand that he treated you like dirt?" I asked her. My rage over her refusal to let go of her almost childlike admiration for Rock boiled over. "Can't you understand that there are thousands of guys out there who really care about you and would treat you like the queen that you are? Can't you see that I would treat you like you deserve to be treated?"
// I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon //
"What did you say?" she asked.
"You never really gave me a chance Trish," I continued. "I was ready to take that next step with you but you got injured. When you got back it was all about the belt."
"Jeff," Trish said softly.
"And I don't want to hear excuses," I said, doing this because I knew she needed to hear that there were people who found her desirable, just as she was. "I just wanted you to know that I think you're about the sexiest woman I've ever met and I would never criticize you if you were mine. I would just be grateful that you picked me."
"I didn't know," Trish said helplessly.
"I know," I said. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner."
// That was your womb //
After that I just pulled her into my arms and let her cry. She cried a lot for that first month or so. I couldn't really blame her. She had to completely change her life if she was going to be healthy ever again. And I had managed to throw her life into upheaval again.
It was no snap process. There was so much we had to do. She had counseling once a week at home. Well, in Cameron. I made her move in with me, threatening to tell Vince that Trish had an eating disorder if she didn't comply. The counselor told us Trish had to feel comfortable in her own skin again. She wouldn't get better any other way.
// Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there //
"How do I look?" Trish asked with uncertainty evident in her eyes. She and I were going to a club with Matt, Stacy, and Christian. We weren't really friends with Christian or Stacy but things had somehow changed and we found ourselves hanging out with them a lot.
"You look beautiful," I said, looking at her in a black mini-skirt and a tight silver halter-top. "You look perfect."
"Yeah?" Trish asked, looking back into the mirror.
"You almost sound like you believe it," I said, coming to stand behind her. "I'm glad."
"I don't know," Trish said, turning around to face me. "I mean, in my head I know I'm not really fat. But there's this nagging feeling."
"You're a gorgeous person Trish," I said to her, touching my forehead to her. "Inside and out. Any guy who wasn't a complete idiot would realized that."
"Are you saying Rocky is a complete idiot?" Trish asked.
"Pretty much," I shrugged.
// And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer //
"I have to go," Trish said as she grabbed her purse and a jacket.
"Why?" I asked, watching from my seat near the window as she crazily grabbed some things.
"I forgot I told Lita I would go shopping with her," Trish said, not looking into my eyes.
"Don't lie to me Trish," I said to her seriously. "You can tell me something I don't want to hear, but don't lie to me."
"I'm not Jeff," she said, smiling at me.
"Where are you going then?" I asked.
"It's none of your business," she said before leaving our room.
// You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew //
Later that night, Trish tried to sneak back into the room. She looked dejected and hurt, but also guilty. I watched her from my seat at the window. I had been there since she had left. I knew exactly what she had done, but it was hard to be mad at her.
"How was your night?" I asked.
She jumped as she turned to me. "Jeff? Why are you sitting in the dark?"
"I was worried about you," I answered.
"That's sweet Jeff," Trish said, sitting on the edge of the bed. "But I don't deserve that."
"Can you let me decide that?" I asked her. "What did he do?"
"What did who do?" Trish asked softly.
"Rocky," I said.
"How did you know?" Trish asked.
"I guessed," I shrugged.
"Well, he was everything you've ever said about him," Trish said.
// What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room //
"At least you've realized it sweetheart," I said.
"It still hurts," Trish said, hanging her head. "I mean, how different would things in my life be if I never let my self fall for him?"
"Why live in what if?" I asked her. "How about you just decide to change everything from here on out."
"It's so easy to say that," Trish said. "But in practice, it's hard."
"You're a strong woman Trish," I commented.
"Am I?" she asked.
// Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there //
"Have you seen Torrie and Billy lately?" Trish asked.
"Yeah," I said, putting my gear back into my gym bag.
"She looks so happy," Trish commented. "She never looked that happy while she was with Tajiri."
"They were in love before," I commented. "Billy has always been crazy for her."
"God, that must be great," Trish said dreamily. "To know that someone loves you and can take you back no matter what."
I looked at Trish sitting on the couch with a small smile on her face and I knew that was why I had taken it upon myself to help her. I loved her. She was so mesmerizing. It was probably impossible for me not to fall in love her.
"I'm sure you'll find out what it feels like," I said.
// And I go on as you get colder
Or are you someone's prayer //
"Damn it!" Trish yelled.
"What?" I asked, coming into the living room of my house. We both knew she didn't need to live with me anymore. Ever since Rocky had rejected her again, eating hadn't been a problem.
I never asked her what had happened, but I knew it was big. "You okay?"
"Oh yeah," Trish said, looking up in embarrassment. "I thought I had set the VCR to record your match on RAW, but it seems like all I got was QVC."
"My match?" I asked, coming into the room and sitting down on the couch.
"Yeah," she said, blushing lightly.
"Why did you record my match?" Jeff asked.
"Because I knew a match between you and RVD would be awesome," Trish said. "I wanted it for always."
// And there's no time left for losin'
When you stand they fall //
"For always?" I asked her.
"Yeah," Trish said softly.
"You know, I want you to stay here for always," I said.
"Really?" she asked.
"I want you to be a part of my life forever," I said.
"A part of your life?" she asked, sounding somewhat disappointed.
"Yeah," I replied. "I'd probably die without you."
// Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there //
"I would've died if you hadn't been there," Trish said, standing up and walking toward the couch I was sitting on. "You saw what no one else could."
"I saw you," I answered.
"Did you?" she asked. "No one sees me like you do."
"How do you know that?" I asked her. My pulse quickened as she sat down next to me.
"Because you make me feel like I'm special," Trish said. She sat really close to me. "And I don't know if I can seduce you. But I would really like you to kiss me now."
// And I go on as you get colder //
My lips met hers. The kiss was gentle, like neither of us were exactly sure what we were doing. We pulled back at the same time.
"I love you Trish," I told her.
"Is there a but coming?" she asked.
"No," I said, cupping her cheek in my hand. "I just love you. Just as you are."
"Likewise," she said. "I love you like you are."
"Auspicious beginnings?" I asked.
"Very," she said before our lips met again.
// All because I'm
Comin' down the years turn over
And angels fall without you there //
Our relationship didn't exactly progress slowly. Actually, we already had the friends thing down. We were living together. Hell, we were pretty far into our relationship before it began.
But other things still took time. I didn't just propose to her or anything like that. We had fun and dated. We went to the movies and just held hands. We went to amusement parks and just enjoyed out time together.
// And I'll go and lead you home and
All because I'm
All because I'm //
It's weird how great things can come out of bad things. For me, the best thing came out of a horrible situation for Trish. Somehow, I managed to help her escape her feelings of low self-confidence. And in return, she fell in love with me. And I fell in love with her. Or deeper in love than I had already been in love with her.
// And I'll become
What you became to me //
