Title: Just a Toy
Rating: PG. (Ehh... Suicide stuff...)
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Harry Potter characters listed here. They are property of J. K. Rowling. I also do not own the song that is in here. That is from the Barenaked Ladies, the best band in the world. Yes... Oh, the song is called "Just a Toy". Just thought I should mention that...
*~*
Look at my mouth, a thin painted line
Look at my limbs, bent up and bundled in twine
Forever, ever mine
Form of a tree, shape of a child
I wish I could cry, stuck in a permanent smile
Forever, ever mine
*~*
Running blindly down the halls, James could feel his eyes filling up with tears, could feel them running down his cheeks, but he ignored them. He had no idea where he was going to go. Just so long as it was away from... away from her.
Why had she done this to him? They had been close since they were neighbors, growing up next to each other in a well-to-do neighbor hood of London. They had attended school together forever, known each other's deepest secrets.
He remembered one day when she had been feeling blue. He had gone over to her house and played dolls with her. She had been so careful with the porcelain ones, their dresses ironed and new, but she had thrown the rag dolls about the room. He preferred the rag dolls over the others. He had taken one home, had it stuffed into his trunk.
*~*
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
*~*
His mind raced with images of growing up with her. Of attending Hogwarts with her. Going to their first ball together, the first time he had seen her in a dress. Their first kiss. But that was all gone now. Randomly choosing a hall, he dashed down it, his breath growing steadily quicker.
She had been his very best friend through everything. She was smart, witty, and brave. He knew that he could always count on her to be there through the worst, yet now he wasn't sure. Oh, she was there for the worst still, only the fact remained that she WAS the worst.
*~*
First there was me, nothing but time
Till he came along, you told me you'd always be mine
*~*
Whipping his eyes on his sleeve, James turned down another hallway. He thought that he could hear a voice calling from behind him, but he kept running, running a hand through his hair.
He and Sirius had known each other since birth. They had been born in the same hospital, only two days apart. They had done everything together. Quiddich, play sword fights, acting out plays with other children from school. Sirius also knew Lily from somewhere.
*~*
Forever, ever mine
Look at his face, somewhat like mine
But look at his nose, you can always be sure that he's lying
Forever, ever mine
*~*
Though Sirius always denied it, James was sure that there was something between Lily and him. They were always sitting up at night, talking about things by the fire in the common room. Lily claimed that they were talking about pranks and schoolwork, but James doubted it.
Lily and James were very close. They shared everything with each other and it hurt to be excluded from their nighttime conversations. He had always shrugged it off, letting it fall to the back of his mind. He wouldn't let it sink in that they might be talking about other things.
*~*
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
*~*
James had known that there was something wrong when Lily hadn't shown up at the meeting place at lunch. Every day since they had been going to Hogwarts they had met by the stairs leading up to the Gryffindor common room. He had been worried and run up to the dorms.
*~*
Who needs you
A boy-to-be who
Needs to be
*~*
The room had been empty, except for a couple in the corner. One of the figures had deep black hair, the other flaming red. Lily had seen him enter the room before Sirius had. She had pulled away, her eyes filled with fear, put Sirius leaned in and kissed her again. That had been when James had left, hearing his girl's voice behind him.
*~*
Better than him, worthy of you
Given the chance that he had, I know what I'd do
Forever, ever mine
I call him liar, you call him son
If I could move, I'd set him on fire and I'd run
Forever
*~*
Throwing himself into the room before him, James stumbled into the owlry, the smell of the birds filling his nose. Letting out a soft sob he slammed the door and leaned against in, slumping to the floor. He could hear the soft coo of an owl above him, could hear footsteps on cold hard stone on the other side of the door.
Taking off his glasses and whipping them on the inside of his robes, he heard the knock of the wooden door. As he got to his feet, he put his glasses back on. Reaching for the door handle he paused, taking a breath. Then he turned and walked to the large window that the owls left from.
"James!" Lily called, opening the door, her voice filled with sadness. He turned and looked at her, her face red from running after him. He turned his head back and peered down below him, felt a breeze pick up. He could hear Lily take a step foreword, her footsteps echoing in his mind.
"Tell Sirius he can go to hell. I'm not your toy anymore Lily," James said, bowing his head. She let out a soft squeak as he stepped off the ledge, down into the air. A sense of flying over took his mind and he spread his arms out. A moment later, everything went back.
*~*
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
*~*
Rating: PG. (Ehh... Suicide stuff...)
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Harry Potter characters listed here. They are property of J. K. Rowling. I also do not own the song that is in here. That is from the Barenaked Ladies, the best band in the world. Yes... Oh, the song is called "Just a Toy". Just thought I should mention that...
*~*
Look at my mouth, a thin painted line
Look at my limbs, bent up and bundled in twine
Forever, ever mine
Form of a tree, shape of a child
I wish I could cry, stuck in a permanent smile
Forever, ever mine
*~*
Running blindly down the halls, James could feel his eyes filling up with tears, could feel them running down his cheeks, but he ignored them. He had no idea where he was going to go. Just so long as it was away from... away from her.
Why had she done this to him? They had been close since they were neighbors, growing up next to each other in a well-to-do neighbor hood of London. They had attended school together forever, known each other's deepest secrets.
He remembered one day when she had been feeling blue. He had gone over to her house and played dolls with her. She had been so careful with the porcelain ones, their dresses ironed and new, but she had thrown the rag dolls about the room. He preferred the rag dolls over the others. He had taken one home, had it stuffed into his trunk.
*~*
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
*~*
His mind raced with images of growing up with her. Of attending Hogwarts with her. Going to their first ball together, the first time he had seen her in a dress. Their first kiss. But that was all gone now. Randomly choosing a hall, he dashed down it, his breath growing steadily quicker.
She had been his very best friend through everything. She was smart, witty, and brave. He knew that he could always count on her to be there through the worst, yet now he wasn't sure. Oh, she was there for the worst still, only the fact remained that she WAS the worst.
*~*
First there was me, nothing but time
Till he came along, you told me you'd always be mine
*~*
Whipping his eyes on his sleeve, James turned down another hallway. He thought that he could hear a voice calling from behind him, but he kept running, running a hand through his hair.
He and Sirius had known each other since birth. They had been born in the same hospital, only two days apart. They had done everything together. Quiddich, play sword fights, acting out plays with other children from school. Sirius also knew Lily from somewhere.
*~*
Forever, ever mine
Look at his face, somewhat like mine
But look at his nose, you can always be sure that he's lying
Forever, ever mine
*~*
Though Sirius always denied it, James was sure that there was something between Lily and him. They were always sitting up at night, talking about things by the fire in the common room. Lily claimed that they were talking about pranks and schoolwork, but James doubted it.
Lily and James were very close. They shared everything with each other and it hurt to be excluded from their nighttime conversations. He had always shrugged it off, letting it fall to the back of his mind. He wouldn't let it sink in that they might be talking about other things.
*~*
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
*~*
James had known that there was something wrong when Lily hadn't shown up at the meeting place at lunch. Every day since they had been going to Hogwarts they had met by the stairs leading up to the Gryffindor common room. He had been worried and run up to the dorms.
*~*
Who needs you
A boy-to-be who
Needs to be
*~*
The room had been empty, except for a couple in the corner. One of the figures had deep black hair, the other flaming red. Lily had seen him enter the room before Sirius had. She had pulled away, her eyes filled with fear, put Sirius leaned in and kissed her again. That had been when James had left, hearing his girl's voice behind him.
*~*
Better than him, worthy of you
Given the chance that he had, I know what I'd do
Forever, ever mine
I call him liar, you call him son
If I could move, I'd set him on fire and I'd run
Forever
*~*
Throwing himself into the room before him, James stumbled into the owlry, the smell of the birds filling his nose. Letting out a soft sob he slammed the door and leaned against in, slumping to the floor. He could hear the soft coo of an owl above him, could hear footsteps on cold hard stone on the other side of the door.
Taking off his glasses and whipping them on the inside of his robes, he heard the knock of the wooden door. As he got to his feet, he put his glasses back on. Reaching for the door handle he paused, taking a breath. Then he turned and walked to the large window that the owls left from.
"James!" Lily called, opening the door, her voice filled with sadness. He turned and looked at her, her face red from running after him. He turned his head back and peered down below him, felt a breeze pick up. He could hear Lily take a step foreword, her footsteps echoing in his mind.
"Tell Sirius he can go to hell. I'm not your toy anymore Lily," James said, bowing his head. She let out a soft squeak as he stepped off the ledge, down into the air. A sense of flying over took his mind and he spread his arms out. A moment later, everything went back.
*~*
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
I know you must have loved me sometime
But now I'm just a toy
*~*
