Authors Note
Hi there, so sorry that this has taken ages to get up and it may be a bit boring, but I need this to go before the next chapter so tough luck!!! also please exscuse the typos they just pop up out of no where. Thank you as always my beautiful, beautiful reviewers, you are my gods, of course you can always review this chapter too, you know!!! Hmm What else can I say, ummm oh yeah I havn't done a disclaimer. Naughty naughty me!!! It is all Jks so please don't sue me. Ok? Good now then I think I'll shut up now
and let you read the story. You probably don't want to but just do it anyway, just to be nice, yeah ok I'm shutting up now!!
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ALL BY MYSELF CHAPTER 5
Lily sat hugging her knees in her dorm. She was freezing cold because it was almost Christmas and Hogwarts does not have central heating. Helen was with her. Lily had got to know Helen quite well now and they were good friends. Alex was very bitter about it all and was doing her best to make both Lily's and Helens life hell but they had stuck together and weren't taking any notice of Alex's bitching. Lily sometimes had occasional bouts of depression but she didn't anymore! Lily and Helen were also friends with James, Sirius and Remus. There was going to be a Christmas dance in a day or two.
Sirius,to everyone's surprise was going with Helen. Lily however had not had any offers although she desperatly wanted to go with James.
James was in the common room playing chess with a reluctant Sirius. James was thinking, something he didn't often do and at
the moment he was thinking about lily. He knew he loved her but was now acting rather awkwardly around her. He really wanted to ask her to the dance, but he was afraid that she would say no. James was quite surprised because he never went for girls like Lily. Lily was quiet and small, the girls he usually dated were always popular and confident. Maybe that was why his relationships with them never worked out.
"James?" Sirius asked "you're off in never-never land again"
"Huh, oh sorry"
"what's up, you're never like this usually!"
"I was only wondering who to take to the dance"
"Lily!"
"Lily? Don't be stupid, I only see her as a friend" he said laughing it off
"Jamsie, you're staring at her 24-7"
"am not"
Sirius shrugged "James we're best friends, you know you can tell me if you like someone!"
*don't tell him, don't tell him*
"yeah you're right, I really like her"
Sirius looked pleased with himself. "I knew it. You fancy her."
"no, it's more than that. I've never felt this way about anyone before, I think I'm in love." Sirius grinned "so why don't you ask her, to the dance then" he said. James looked downcast for a minute then said, "she would never want to go with me. She doesn't like me that way" he sighed exasperated and kicked the table knocking the chess pieces on the floor, who started swearing at him.
"I don't know," Sirius commented, "I think she does"
"You're just saying that" James said gloomily. Sirius looked annoyed, "you could be missing a big chance here Prongs" he said.
"why don't you just give it a go"
"I will when the time is right" James replied simply. Sirius groaned in exasperation.
"you're so bloody stupid James, she really likes you!"
James muttered something darkly and left, deliberately treading on the chess pieces on the way out.
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it was the day of the dance and James, surprise surprise still hadn't asked Lily to go with him, so Lily was rather upset and James was In an incredibly bad mood!!!
Helen was standing in front of the mirror turning this way and that occasionally throwing questions at Lily such as "does my
butt look big in this", "do i look too fat in this dress" or "will Sirius like my hair like this," (scrunched up in a bun) "or like
this?" (flowing down her back).
Lily however had decided she was not going to go. If James wasn't going to ask her then it wasn't worth the trouble. She would just sit in her dorm being stubborn.
"come on Lils" Helen complained, "you have to come" Lily muttered something under her breath.
"what was that?" Helen said thickly
"i don't want to go" Lily said firmly. Helen rolled her eyes. "it's a dance. How can you not want to go, there's food, music, boys..." she trailed off. Lily glared at her.
"you really don't understand, do you?" she said quietly. Helen walked over to Lily's bed and put an arm round her, "what is the matter Lily, you've been acting really strangly latley" Lily mumbled something else, not quite meeting helen's eyes "please tell me," Helen whined, "I might be able to help."
"I very much doubt that" Lily laughed. Her red hair fell over her face in a silky sheet, her green eyes barely visible.
"Is it Alex?" Helen asked
"No, she hasn't spoken to me since....since that day" Lily replied.
"Ok then is it a boy" Helen asked excitedly.
Lily didn't answer. "It is isn't it" Helen exclaimed joyfully.
"shhh" Lily said looking slightly annoyed.
"who is it" Helen asked inquisitivly. Lily sighed, "are you telling me you don't know" Helen nodded "Ok" Lily took a deep breath,
"it's James."
"James?" Helen cried looking slightly disgusted. lily nodded, "he's sweet to me and if it wasn't for him then i might still be being
beaten up by you and Alex."
Helen frowned, "don't talk about that please" she said.
"sorry" Lily said
"so you don't just like him for his looks"
"no, of course not"
"well I wouldn't blame you if you did"
"no, i really like him, but he doesn't like me, we're as different as black and white. We're too different to be any thing more than friends, I mean he's goodlooking, popular and quidditch captain, and me, well i'm just little lily Evans, the class geek, it would never work out."
"well they say that oppisites attract" Helen stated.
"never mind all that, just don't tell him, please"
"Ok" Helen said aggravated "I suppose this is why you're not going to the dance?" Lily nodded sheepishly, "well James isn't going either"
"that doesn't make any difference, all that matters is that he isn't going with me"
"you're really stubborn" Helen said, "but I suppose I should be going now. I have to meet Sirius" and she swept out the door, "see you later" she said grinning, a plan already formed in her mind.
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A/N at last that part is finished, I'm so sorry it took so long. i am also sorry it was so boring the next part will be more interesting though, i promise please review, say whether you liked it or didn't
all flames are welcome just please REVIEW
Hi there, so sorry that this has taken ages to get up and it may be a bit boring, but I need this to go before the next chapter so tough luck!!! also please exscuse the typos they just pop up out of no where. Thank you as always my beautiful, beautiful reviewers, you are my gods, of course you can always review this chapter too, you know!!! Hmm What else can I say, ummm oh yeah I havn't done a disclaimer. Naughty naughty me!!! It is all Jks so please don't sue me. Ok? Good now then I think I'll shut up now
and let you read the story. You probably don't want to but just do it anyway, just to be nice, yeah ok I'm shutting up now!!
* * * *
ALL BY MYSELF CHAPTER 5
Lily sat hugging her knees in her dorm. She was freezing cold because it was almost Christmas and Hogwarts does not have central heating. Helen was with her. Lily had got to know Helen quite well now and they were good friends. Alex was very bitter about it all and was doing her best to make both Lily's and Helens life hell but they had stuck together and weren't taking any notice of Alex's bitching. Lily sometimes had occasional bouts of depression but she didn't anymore! Lily and Helen were also friends with James, Sirius and Remus. There was going to be a Christmas dance in a day or two.
Sirius,to everyone's surprise was going with Helen. Lily however had not had any offers although she desperatly wanted to go with James.
James was in the common room playing chess with a reluctant Sirius. James was thinking, something he didn't often do and at
the moment he was thinking about lily. He knew he loved her but was now acting rather awkwardly around her. He really wanted to ask her to the dance, but he was afraid that she would say no. James was quite surprised because he never went for girls like Lily. Lily was quiet and small, the girls he usually dated were always popular and confident. Maybe that was why his relationships with them never worked out.
"James?" Sirius asked "you're off in never-never land again"
"Huh, oh sorry"
"what's up, you're never like this usually!"
"I was only wondering who to take to the dance"
"Lily!"
"Lily? Don't be stupid, I only see her as a friend" he said laughing it off
"Jamsie, you're staring at her 24-7"
"am not"
Sirius shrugged "James we're best friends, you know you can tell me if you like someone!"
*don't tell him, don't tell him*
"yeah you're right, I really like her"
Sirius looked pleased with himself. "I knew it. You fancy her."
"no, it's more than that. I've never felt this way about anyone before, I think I'm in love." Sirius grinned "so why don't you ask her, to the dance then" he said. James looked downcast for a minute then said, "she would never want to go with me. She doesn't like me that way" he sighed exasperated and kicked the table knocking the chess pieces on the floor, who started swearing at him.
"I don't know," Sirius commented, "I think she does"
"You're just saying that" James said gloomily. Sirius looked annoyed, "you could be missing a big chance here Prongs" he said.
"why don't you just give it a go"
"I will when the time is right" James replied simply. Sirius groaned in exasperation.
"you're so bloody stupid James, she really likes you!"
James muttered something darkly and left, deliberately treading on the chess pieces on the way out.
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it was the day of the dance and James, surprise surprise still hadn't asked Lily to go with him, so Lily was rather upset and James was In an incredibly bad mood!!!
Helen was standing in front of the mirror turning this way and that occasionally throwing questions at Lily such as "does my
butt look big in this", "do i look too fat in this dress" or "will Sirius like my hair like this," (scrunched up in a bun) "or like
this?" (flowing down her back).
Lily however had decided she was not going to go. If James wasn't going to ask her then it wasn't worth the trouble. She would just sit in her dorm being stubborn.
"come on Lils" Helen complained, "you have to come" Lily muttered something under her breath.
"what was that?" Helen said thickly
"i don't want to go" Lily said firmly. Helen rolled her eyes. "it's a dance. How can you not want to go, there's food, music, boys..." she trailed off. Lily glared at her.
"you really don't understand, do you?" she said quietly. Helen walked over to Lily's bed and put an arm round her, "what is the matter Lily, you've been acting really strangly latley" Lily mumbled something else, not quite meeting helen's eyes "please tell me," Helen whined, "I might be able to help."
"I very much doubt that" Lily laughed. Her red hair fell over her face in a silky sheet, her green eyes barely visible.
"Is it Alex?" Helen asked
"No, she hasn't spoken to me since....since that day" Lily replied.
"Ok then is it a boy" Helen asked excitedly.
Lily didn't answer. "It is isn't it" Helen exclaimed joyfully.
"shhh" Lily said looking slightly annoyed.
"who is it" Helen asked inquisitivly. Lily sighed, "are you telling me you don't know" Helen nodded "Ok" Lily took a deep breath,
"it's James."
"James?" Helen cried looking slightly disgusted. lily nodded, "he's sweet to me and if it wasn't for him then i might still be being
beaten up by you and Alex."
Helen frowned, "don't talk about that please" she said.
"sorry" Lily said
"so you don't just like him for his looks"
"no, of course not"
"well I wouldn't blame you if you did"
"no, i really like him, but he doesn't like me, we're as different as black and white. We're too different to be any thing more than friends, I mean he's goodlooking, popular and quidditch captain, and me, well i'm just little lily Evans, the class geek, it would never work out."
"well they say that oppisites attract" Helen stated.
"never mind all that, just don't tell him, please"
"Ok" Helen said aggravated "I suppose this is why you're not going to the dance?" Lily nodded sheepishly, "well James isn't going either"
"that doesn't make any difference, all that matters is that he isn't going with me"
"you're really stubborn" Helen said, "but I suppose I should be going now. I have to meet Sirius" and she swept out the door, "see you later" she said grinning, a plan already formed in her mind.
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A/N at last that part is finished, I'm so sorry it took so long. i am also sorry it was so boring the next part will be more interesting though, i promise please review, say whether you liked it or didn't
all flames are welcome just please REVIEW
