~~~~~~~~~*All By Myself part 7*~~~~~~~~~~





A/N here it is part 7 hopefullly you liked the last part. please read this anyway if you didn't and if you do read please review. it means a lot to me whwn people review. i don't mind if you flame it or anything like that just please tell me what you think so i know what to change. Ok? good
now please enjoy this part.


ooh one more thing. If anyone is not sure of their ages then they're in FOURTH YEAR AND THEY ARE 14 ok goody now on with th story!!!!!





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It was midnight. The dance had finished and Helen and Sirius had both gone to their seperate dorms where they each awaited the arrival of Lily and James.

It was still midnight. Lily and James had not got back.

it was 12:15. they had not got back

It was 12:30. they had not got back.

It was 12:45. they had not got back..

Helen sat wondering where Lily was. She hoped nothing bad had happened to her.

Suddenly she heard sopmeone tip-toe into the sleeping room. "Lily," she whispered.

"er yeah ?"

"where have you been?" of course Helen knew perfectly well where Lily had been but Lily wasn't suposed to know that.

"by the lake, where you and sirius set me up"

"how did you know that"

"how stupid do you think i am?" Helen decided not to answer.

"well how did it go?"

"alright I suppose"

"Well did he kiss you?"

Lily decided to say nothing.

"he did didn't he!" Helen screamed excitedly

"shut up" Lily exclaimed "they'll hear you in slytherin"

"who cares, it'll be all over the school tomorrow any way"

"no it won't because you're not going to tell anyone"

"Lily, this is vital gossip! I need to tell someone"

"Helen please don't tell anyone. It was nothing. Tomorrow James will come up and tell me that he's sorry but it didn't mean anything."

"don't be silly" Helen said "if he kissed you then it has to mean something. He wouldn't do it for no reason"

"ummmm?" Lily had fallen asleep.


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Lily awoke the next morning before anyone else. She could feel a small nagging feeling in her stomach and could not for the life of her remeber what it was. And then it all became clear. Today was the day James would come up to her at breakfast and tell her he was very sorry but he had just been caught in the moment. It didn't mean a thing. Lily sighed reproacfully. There was still a glimmer of hope which told that James did still like her. He probably didn't though. After all he still had a girlfriend. Francesca Hart. She was extremely pretty. James would never choose herself over her.

Lily brushed her hair a little and went down to breakfast alone. There weren't many people there but that was to be expected seeing it was only five thirty in the morning. anyway the whole purpose of coming down early was so that she wouldn't have to speak to James!

Lily sat down and poured herself some pumpkin juice. Just then James walked in with the marauders. Lily couldn't meet his eye. She didn't know why (a/n hey that rhymed) but it was easy enough as he seemed to be avoiding her glance aswell. 'great' she thought. ''He's already trying to ditch me and we havn't even spoken yet."

Lily left the hall quickly. She couldn't bear to let James break it off with her so quickly.

And that was how it was for the next couple of days. Lily avoiding James because she thought he wanted to break up with her and James acting awkward whenever he was near Lily.
This was not helpful to a progressing relationship as you can probably imagine.

Helen was distraught by Lily's strange behaviour and could not see why she wouldn't talk to James. She confronted Lily about it.

"so miss "i kissed James Potter but that doesn't mean i want to go out with him" what is this all about"

Lily looked around nervously, "you know what? I don't think I've done my potions homework. I'll just be a minute-"

"oh no you don't. you did it the day it was set." Lily shifted uncomfortably, looking nervously at her shoes. "please talk to me Lil" Helen said softly, "I hate to see you like this." She paused for a moment then said, "he hasn't done anything to hurt you has he because I'll soon sort him out if he has-"

"hold on a minute" Lily said. "who said this was about James"

"Lily it's bloody obvious that it's about James and don't try and tell me that it isn't. I may be stupid, but not that stupid, you've been avoiding him ever since the dance..........." she trailed off. "please tell me what's wrong" she said more softly.

"Nothing, and that's just it. He hasn't done anything. That's what's wrong" and Lily burst into tears. If Helen had been expecting anything then it certainly wasn't this. She blinked twice and then sat down on the bed beside Lily.

"it's ok" she soothed, "although you can't blame him really" she said as an after thought. "After all, you've been running away from him whenever he got within ten feet of you"

Lily looked at helen startled. "don't be stupid" she said. "it's him who's running away from me. not the other way round. He's avoiding me." Helen looked at Lily strangly seeing it was more Lily than James who was doing the avoiding buisiness.

"well" Helen started carefully, "I don't think James is avoiding you but if that's what you want to believe then I don't suppose I can stop you...........I'm going now, I have to meet Sirius. See you later"

Lily was left alone in her room. She didn't believe helen. How could it be her avoiding him. Well who cares even if she was. James probably still hadn't even broken up with Francesca. He didn't want Lily and he never would. That was the way it was going to be and she would just have to accept it! Of course Lily was a very muddled individual and was hoplessly wrong about all of this but being the muddled individual that she was she failed to notice and continued to think that James didn't actually like her and was in fact avoiding her.



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James himself was at the depths of despair and wondering why Lily was avoiding him. He had come to the conclusion that he was an ugly twat and Lily was too good for him anyway. He should settle for the fact that all he was going to get out of lily was friendship and even that was hard to come by at the moment.

However James was also slightly puzzled. He hadn't actually done anything to Lily apart from being an ugly twat and he wasn't sure why she would think that anyway. Perhaps he was a worse kisser than he had anticipated, none of his previous girlfriends had complained though. That reminded him. The first step to winning Lily was to break it off with Francesca.

Francesca was in ravenclaw. She was tall and had a models figure. She had baby blue eyes and long blonde hair. but to James perhaps her best feature was her chest which was rather large at the very least. It would be hard breaking up with her, James thought but Lily was worth it. James scanned the building for her. Sirius had the marauders map so he would have to find her the long way.

"Francesca?" James called softly along the corridor. He looked into the charms classroom. Francesca was there alright but not alone. She was sitting on the lap of another ravenclaw kissing him passionatly.

James coughed. They both sprang apart as if an electric current had just passed through each of their bodies.

"Well" James said, "just how long has this been going on for" He looked at Francesca an eyebrow raised.

"look James, it isn't what it seems like" Francesca said hurriedly

"oh I'm so sure" James said sardonically

"I'm sorry" said the racenclaw pushing francesca off his lap "I had no idea that you two were going out" He glared at Francesca

"I suppose it was a good thing that I was only looking for you so that I could break up with you" James said in an off hand way. Deep down he was actually really upset that someone had cheated on him. After all why should they?

"I'm sorry" Francesca said "I didn't mean to, please take me back James"

"no!" he said looking disgusted "I was going to break up with you anyway. There's no way I'd go out with you again" and he turned and left the class room feeling even more confused than he had earlier.

As James made his way to the common room he bumped into Lily

"hey" he said, "how are you"

"oh er, I'm fine. well gotta dash bye" she ran off

"bye" James said more to himself than to anyone else. What was wrong with him. He should never have kissed her but then she had kissed him too. Why was life so confusing? He had never had any sort of trouble with girls before and now the one who was really special to him was ignoring him profusely. He sighed and entered the common room. Perhaps sirius and Remus could drive a little sanity into him.

Sirius and Helen were talking on a couch and Remus was studying for a test in charms. Peter was sitting alone at a table wishing someone would talk to him (A/N darned rat)

"hey Jamsie buddie, how you doin" Sirius yelled looking up from his conversation with helen.

"no need to shout, I'm sitting right next to you"

Sirius shrugged and then inteligently said, "you might have gone deaf in the last fifteen minutes, you never know, you went blind in the first fifteen minutes after you were born"

"I am not blind" James said touchily "I have a vision disorder. There's a big difference"

"yeah whatever" said Sirius "what's up anyway you look a bit miserable"

"yeah I broke up with Francesca" James said

"what? why did you break up with her"

"two reasons"

"which were?......"

"she was cheating on me and I still like Lily"

Sirius burst out laughing manically

"shut up. it's not funny"

"wait till until I tell everyone this" Sirius said still laughing. "james Potter has been cheated on"

James coughed, "I think you're missing the finer aspect" James said

"what?" Sirius said confused, "who she was cheating with?"

"no" James said slowly, "the fact that I still like Lily"

"oh that" said sirius, "well I already knew about that. That was obvious"

James sighed grumpily

"I'm your best friend," Sirius said, "of course I knew you still liked her."

"yeah" said helen, "but Lily thinks that you don't like her. She thinks that you're avoiding her"

"yeah well Lily's mentally unstable," Sirius muttered.

"NO SHE ISN'T" James yelled "DON'T INSULT LILY IN FRONT OF ME"

"whoa, calm down" Sirius said, "I was only joking.

James muttered something inaudible, "what else does she say?" he asked Helen

"er, well I think that she likes you a lot but doesn't want to committ herself yet. She seems to think that you don't actually like her and that you want to break up with her at every chance you have. That's why she's avoiding you, I think"

James let this sink in "so what can I do?" he asked Helen desperatly

"I'm not sure. I don't think there's a lot you can do. Let her sort out her feelings to begin with, then I don't know what." She paused "You could just walk up and snog her of course, but I don't think she'd appreciate that just at the moment."

James grunted. Girls were weird.



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