AN: Aww what's gonna happen between S+S now?? Well, I'm da author so let's see if I'm evil or nice in this chapter...tee hee ^_^
Disclaimer: Maybe if I had enuf money I would buy CLAMP and own the characters and everything, but so far, in my case, I dun have enuf money so I own nothing :P Pooey X.X
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Chapter 12: Really Loving You
1st CCS fic by Fizzalicious Cherri
Syaoran frowned, he was trying to find Sakura since he hadn't spoken to her at all since their confession. He looked around the outside of the school building, students were rushing about trying to get off the school campus and out onto the city streets.
School was over for the day, but Syaoran couldn't find Sakura amongst the crowd of people...until he caught site of her running down the sidewalk. She looked like she was in a hurry.
"Sakura!!" He called after her as he chased right at her heels. "Wait! Sakura!!" He could've swore that she heard him.
Finally he got close enough to gently grasp her arm.
"LET GO OF ME!!!!!" She screamed as she flung her arms wildly trying to get out of Syaoran's grasp.
Syaoran let go immediately, shocked by Sakura's reaction. "Sakura...what's wrong?"
Sakura glared at him with tears streaming down her cheeks. Syaoran reached to brush away a tear for her but she slapped his hand aside. "Oh don't try to act all...innocent like you care for me or something! I'm not that dumb!!" Sakura screamed in his face. "Stay away from me." She spat as she walked off.
Syaoran stood there, confused, shocked, and he didn't know what to do and what was wrong.
"And you won't get them from me Li Syaoran!!" He heard Sakura scream.
Then it hit him. She knows...about the cards... how...
XingMei!! Syaoran broke into a run towards his apartment.
XingMei sat on the couch staring intently at the t.v screen with a bowl of chips in her lap. She glanced at the clock, it was a matter of seconds before she would hear...
"CHI XINGMEI!!"
XingMei flinched as she placed the bowl of chips on the coffee table and grasped a pillow, feeling like it would protect her from what was coming.
The door flung open with a furious Syaoran standing there as he stormed in, shoes on. "What did you tell her?!"
"What do you mean?" XingMei said shakily.
"You told her something, I know you did XingMei." Syaoran yelled as he flung his bag aside.
XingMei had never seen Syaoran so mad...the fire in his eyes was visible alright. "I...I just..."
"You just what?! Made up some story to tell her! Why?!" Syaoran was standing right in front of her now, and he crouched lower to be face level with her. "Why?!" He repeated.
She backed away as far as she could in the couch. "I...I didn't know she'd get so upset..."
"Of course you did!! That's why you did it!!" Syaoran grabbed the pillow away from XingMei. "You...You...!!"
"Bitch?" XingMei finished for him as she got up and stood up to Syaoran with her chin up. "What?! I was jealous of her OK?! There, you happy?! I told her that you just want to be close with her so you can get the cards! Hey, isn't that a good idea though Xiaolang?"
Syaoran raised his hand and XingMei shut her eyes, ready for impact. He was so close to hitting her face, but somehow he couldn't bring himself to it as his hand dropped back to his side.
"I am so disappointed in you XingMei," Was all he could mutter as he stormed off into his room.
XingMei blinked and frowned as she picked up a pillow and threw it at the wall. "Baka Syaoran!!"
Sakura was under her blankets, trying to muffle her sobs so that her father and brother wouldn't hear and get worried. Kero hovered above her bed with a worried look on his small round face.
"Hey Sakura-chan...daijoubu?"
Sakura stuck her head out from under the pink sheets, her red puffy eyes were swollen. "I'm ok."
"No you're not," Kero frowned.
She went back under her blankets without another word. I hate all this pain....I hate it...why is my life like this? Why is it so not fair?! Well...duh...life isn't fair....but damn it! I was seriously in love this time...Syaoran....
She tried to block the image of the tall amber eyed boy from her mind, but his image kept appearing. His frown, his rare smiles...
Kero stared at the small bump in the bed and flew over to Sakura's cell phone which was lying on her desk. He pressed a few buttons and it started dailing.
"Moshi moshi, Tomoyo speaking!"
"Hey Tomoyo-chan?"
"Kero!!!"
Kero sweatdropped, "Hai, well, Sakura here doesn't look to good."
"Oh no...why?! She was just so happy a while ago..." Came Tomoyo's worried voice.
"Well...not right now, she's crying like crazy, well kind of," Kero explained.
"I'll be right over," Was Tomoyo's prompt reply as Kero heard a click on the other end.
Syaoran tossed a notebook against the wall, and then an eraser, a pencil, a pillow....and it went on and on until he couldn't find anything else to throw.
He buried his head into his arms and breathed in deeply. Baka Syaoran, I should have told Sakura about the cards and stuff...then she wouldn't have misunderstood...and...and I wouldn't take the cards from her...would I....
He laid down, his brow furrowed. Argh, what am I going to do now...?! ...No, if I want to do something I shouldn't be sitting around like this. I have to go see Sakura...yeah...but what am I going to do when I see her? I'll just have a problem saying stuff....
What am I going to do....the clan is going to be very disappointed if I return empty handed...and if I tell them I didn't even try to get the cards.... Syaoran frowned. I'll be in big trouble...probably banished from the clan...mother wouldn't care, she would think I'm a disgrace to the clan...
What am I to do....the clan, or Sakura. My choice...my fate...
"Sakura..." Tomoyo sat by her bedside patting her back gently. "It's ok..."
"No it's not!!" Sakura wailed.
Tomoyo frowned, "Well...I know Li-kun pretty well and I think it's not like him to hide something like that from you..."
"What do you mean?" Sakura blinked her tears away.
"Well...maybe he meant to tell you about it, like taking the cards and stuff...and I know he won't Sakura." Tomoyo said firmly. "I can almost bet that he really loves you and he'll do anything."
"...." Sakura didn't know how to reply.
Tomoyo just sat there. "At least...that's what the old Li Syaoran would do..."
Sakura got up and rubbed her eyes. "I don't want to cry anymore, it's not helping." She muttered as she got her light pink coat from her closet.
"Where are you going Sakura?" Tomoyo questioned.
"Out, for a walk," Sakura mumbled.
Tomoyo got up to follow but Sakura gave her a look that said she wanted to be alone. Tomoyo understood and glanced at Kero who shrugged.
I don't know...weither to believe XingMei, or Tomoyo. Sakura put her hood up, feeling the rain gently coming down at her. It was comforting, the rythmic sound it made as it bounced on the sidewalk.
But maybe, I don't need to believe either of them...just...myself.. Sakura stopped under a street lamp and leaned against the wet post. Maybe Syaoran and me weren't meant to be....
Sakura looked up at the clouded sky, letting the rain pour down her face. But if Syaoran isn't my fate...who is? I feel so...right with him...
Now I wish I had a normal life...without magic...no Sakura Cards...just...an ordinary girl...wouldn't my life be so much easier? My own boyfriend wouldn't be after my cards, and I wouldn't have so much pain... Sakura chuckled. Ah Kinomoto, stop dreaming...
"Sakura-chan, you should come in now...you're getting soaked even with that coat that isn't even water proof!" Tomoyo held a purple umbrella over her.
Sakura looked at her friend, and smiled, "Arigatou Tomoyo-chan."
Tomoyo smiled, "What are friends for? Now let's go back to your house, you don't want to catch a cold when the prom is next week."
Sakura nodded and let her friend lead her back home.
Sakura dreaded going to school the next morning, although the weather had cleared up, her thoughts hadn't. She didn't know what she should do if she bumped into Syaoran at school....espeically when her first block was in the same class as him.
"Sakura, feeling better?" Eriol asked.
Sakura nodded and faked a smile. Tomoyo glanced at Sakura and then at Eriol. "You don't look so genki Sakura."
"Well, somedays I'm tired of always smiling," Sakura replied and entered homeroom with a confused Tomoyo and Eriol following close behind.
Sakura glanced around the room and noticed that Syaoran wasn't in his usual seat. Strange.
"Hey...my little descendant isn't here," Eriol looked amused as he took his seat.
Tomoyo looked at Sakura to see her reaction, nothing. This is not suppose to happen! Sakura and Li-kun are suppose to be the kawaiiest couple on earth!! Tomoyo thought desperately.
It had been fourty minutes into class before Syaoran stormed into the room looking like a mess. His usual messy hair seemed ten times more messy and his jacket was half on.
Everyone just looked at him weird. "Gomen nasai, I'm late." He aplogized to the teacher.
She just nodded and Syaoran took his seat quickly, avoiding all the weird looks he was given.
"You're quite late," Eriol noted.
Syaoran just growled, "I didn't mean to be. I overslept."
"Wow," Eriol grinned. "Now when did you start over sleeping?"
"I was thinking all night, couldn't fall asleep into 5 am," Syaoran grunted.
Eriol raised an eyebrow. "And did you finish your thinking?"
"Almost...hey this is none of your business," Syaoran scowled and returned to looking at the text in the book.
XingMei felt lonely as she sat alone on a dry patch of grass outside the school building. She hated to admit, but she felt guilty.
I just...can't bare seeing my Xiaolang going with another girl....XingMei plucked a blade of grass from the dirt and wound it around her finger in deep thought. But I don't like seeing Xiaolang upset like this....it's all my fault isn't it?
XingMei felt so weird at the moment that the blade of grass melted into nothing. I want to see Xiaolang happy...but...I want him to be with me...I really really want him to be with me, to love me... XingMei held back her tears, she had enough of crying.
Through her eighteen years of life she had never cried as much as she did for the past week. But love can't be pushed....it just comes and goes....Xiaolang.... XingMei closed her eyes and sighed. I guess....you weren't meant to be mine, as hard as it is to admit, but...I'm realizing that true love is to see the one you love happy.
She got up and entered the school building in a hurry to find Syaoran. She went into the cafeteria and saw him sitting alone not wanting to be disturbed.
"Xiaolang," She mumbled softly as she got close enough.
"What do you want?!" He snapped.
XingMei winced but regained her composure. "I...I'm here to apologize."
Syaoran smirked, "Yeah yeah, after you cause all that trouble you come and say sorry. Now I'm suppose to accept it and think that you're a nice girl because you understand the pain I'm going through. Right? Huh, is that your plan now?!"
XingMei frowned, "Li Syaoran! Don't say that! I'm seriously here to apologize for what I did!"
"Then why did you do it in the first place?!" Syaoran yelled.
Everyone turned their heads towards them.
XingMei looked around and sighed, "Look, I don't want to cause a scene. But I want you to know that I'm sorry." She turned around to leave.
Syaoran stared at her. "Wait."
She stopped in her tracks.
"Why are you telling me this? Go tell Sakura." Syaoran muttered.
"Kinomoto, wait up."
Sakura stopped walking and looked over her shoulder. "XingMei." She mumbled. Not the first person she wanted to see.
XingMei caught up to her and sighed, "Ok, I'm sorry."
"Why are you sorry?" Sakura grunted.
XingMei placed her hands on her hips. "You know why."
Sakura raised an eyebrow and XingMei growled. "Ok maybe you don't, but I'm sorry for telling you all that stuff about Syaoran trying to get the cards."
"Why? Isn't that the truth."
"Well....yeah but..." XingMei couldn't believe she was saying this but she felt like she had too. "He really loves you." She grumbled and stared at Sakura's emerald eyes. "And you're lucky that you get him. If you decide to dump him I'm after him Kinomoto."
AN: I wonder if Sakura got the message....well....guess what?! The next chapter might be the last chapter. Yep, the last chapter. Or the second last. Either one of them, the fic is near its end. Well, thanks for reading ^_^ Hope you liked it.
