It has been a week, another week and no sign of Inuyasha. I was becoming really worried now. I had phoned his house but received no answer. I left messages on the machine but nothing. It was as though they had all disappeared. I sat up at night looking out the window hoping everything was all right. I hardly slept thinking something was always wrong. I couldn't bear to think something had happened to him.

I was lazily walking in town aimlessly looking at the people walking by. My eyes widened noticing long silver-white hair and I began pushing my way through the crowd and yelled his name.

"INUYASHA!" I watched him stop and turn around and I halted a metre behind him, my eyes saddened when I noticed it was Sessho-Maru.

"Kagome I'm flattered that you think I am my brother but really you should know better." He spoke jokingly to me.

"Where is he Sessho-Maru? It's been over a week and he hasn't come to school! Is he all right? Has something happened to him?" My voice quivered slightly and I watched a few people stare at us as they walked by listening to my hysterical speech.

"Wait, you mean you don't know? I thought he told you? The bloody cheat!" I was now completely confused.

"Told me what?"

"He's in hospital Kagome." My eyes widen hearing this. Sessho-Maru grabbed my hand and he walked me to a waiting cab. We got in and yet I was still dazed at what he said. Inuyasha in hospital? Was he ill? Some sort of life threatening disease maybe.

The next thing I knew was Sessho-Maru taking me into the hospital and up to were Inu-yasha was probably resting. We have left the lifts and I followed Sessho-Maru to a waiting room. That's where I found his parents and little sister.

"W-Where is he?" I spoke in a soft voice. All faces turned towards me and I fisted my hands speaking louder this time.

"Where IS he?" They all stare at me rather shocked and I walked out the door angrily. I am haltered in my walking by Sessho-Maru speaking.

"The last door on the right Kagome. Be warned…my brother…is not himself…" I turn around looking at him for a moment to actually see sadness flickering through his eyes. I nod my head and run towards the room Inuyasha was in.

I reached the door and quietly walked inside. The room was rather dark but a small bed light was on and there lay Inuyasha's prone form. I moved closer and gasped at the sight of him. He was wearing a pair of navy pants and his bare ankles where strapped down to the bed as were his wrists. His chest was bare and he had a rather large bandage wrapped around his waist. There was also ones covering his wrists as well. I moved closer noticing 3 purple lines on each cheek.

"I-Inuyasha? Can you hear me?" I watched for any movement but nothing happened. I turned to sit down but gasped when I felt his clawed hand grip my left wrist. It hurt like hell and brought tears to my eyes. He had a death grip on me and if I moved he'd probably rip my whole hand off. I turned my face towards his and tears spilled down my cheeks at seeing his eyes were open but they weren't his. It was like Sessho-Maru said, Inuyasha wasn't himself anymore. His eyes where the colour of blood with small dark pupils. His usual fangs had grown and stuck out of his mouth as well.

"Inuyasha stop! Let go it hurts! Please Inu-yasha! It's me Kagome don't you remember? OWWWWWWW!" I watch blood spill from my wrist down to my fingers and dripping onto the white tiled floor. In a matter of seconds his hand went slack and I pulled mine free placing my right hand over my left wrist to try and stop the bleeding. He was dead to the world once again and yet I still moved closer wanting to see if he was all right. I noticed his fangs had disappeared and now only one purple line was on each of his cheeks.

"Inuyasha what's happening to you?" I questioned softly. I noticed he was now groaning and I sat down on the bed looking over at him. I watched his eyes flicker open and they were amber-gold once again. I observed as they grew wider in fear at seeing me beside him and I watched as he turned his head away and spoke in a very weak and emotional voice as though he was a young child.

"I want to go home…" I bit my lip looking down at him and noticed a tear slip past his closed eyes and fall down his cheek. He felt utterly ashamed at being like this even though there was nothing he could do about it, or so I thought that is. I let the blood seep from my left wrist as I undid the straps letting Inuyasha free from the bonds that held him to the hospital bed. I moved closer lifting him to a sitting position and dangled his legs off the bed.

"Inuyasha can you walk? Do you need help?" I watched as his head was still downcast but he nodded it silently. I wrapped my right arm around his waist and lifted his left arm over my shoulder and gritted my teeth not wanting him to notice I was hurt too. He stood up on his feet and drooped slightly. I began walking to the door and I heard his muffled voice.

"I smell blood…"

"Don't worry Inuyasha I'm taking you home." I spoke back hoping this would distract him and he seemed to walk with more energy at hearing this even though he was still weak and tired. We were now out in the hallway and walking towards the waiting room. I heard Sessho-Maru's voice as he moved out into the hallway.

"I can smell blood…" He turned towards me and spoke alarmingly.

"Kagome what are you doing? What happened?" I began walking past him determinedly and replied not looking back.

"I'm taking him home, that's what he wants."

"Yeah but…"

"But nothing Sessho-Maru just come and help me!" I spoke cutting him off not letting him talk about any of the blood coming from my wrist. He came running over and stopped me from walking. I watched as he knelt in front of Inuyasha and picked him up giving him a sort of piggyback.

"You owe me big Inuyasha…" Sessho-Maru spoke and we listened to a small tired chuckle escape Inuyasha's lips as he replied back.

"Just take me home aniki…or I'll break your legs…" Sessho-Maru got up and began walking towards the elevators and I turned around seeing Rin and their parents walking quickly to the lifts as well.

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I was now sitting in Inuyasha's room in the large leather chair I had pulled over towards his bed. Inuyasha lay in the middle of the bed cradled in his mother's arms and sleeping lie a baby.

"We thought he told you when you came over that time learning about his night time form. I figured the worst when you never showed up."

"I would have come to see him everyday if I had of known. I know why he didn't want to tell me too. It's got nothing to do with trust because in some weird way I know he trusts me. He was scared and frightened I'd be freaked out. It was a shock I'll admit that but he's still Inuyasha to me." I watched as his mum placed her head against her son's and held him tighter rocking him. She spoke softly, but loud enough so I could hear.

"This has been happening ever since Inu-yasha was 10. That's why we had to move so many times. Schools wouldn't accept Inuyasha because he'd miss out on so many weeks. We finally came back here because Principal Fudo is a good friend of ours and knows about Inuyasha. Every year Inuyasha ages it seems to get worse."

"What is it?" I spoke back softly.

"Inu-yasha is a very special boy and he is my baby boy. On nights when he is usually out in the training hall, it happens unexpectedly. He'll never know when it occurs again after the last one. They are coming more frequently now and sometimes even lasting longer then usual. The demon blood that flows through my sons and my husband will change. It will turn dominant over their human blood. My husband and Sessho-Maru are able to control their blood from taking over because theirs isn't like Inuyasha's. They do change just like Inu-yasha at night but never will they become like this. Inu-yasha's blood is more powerful then we could have ever imagined or known about. That is why he is in states like this. His human form and him being only 16 like you Kagome-chan can never handle something like this. It is way to powerful for a boy his age and yet I feel blessed everytime he comes home again. He has great strength and will to come back after everything that he goes through. My boy is suffering terribly and I can't do anything to help him."

"He has powers though doesn't he? Can't we find something or help him discover his powers to rid him of this?" I spoke back hating to see him like this and his mum on the verge of tears.

"He does have powers Kagome-chan but we don't know about them. Inuyasha spends many hours in the training hall trying to find out about them through his inner self but always comes out with nothing. He knows he has a lot of strength and will to keep surviving this but I wander how long he can keep this up until his mind, body and soul can't handle it anymore. My boy is dying a slow and painful death and yet he never gives up because I know in his mind that he wants to be a normal boy. My son wants to know happiness before his time is up. Excuse me Kagome-chan…" I watch as she lets go of Inu-yasha placing him gently back to his pillows and she walks from the room sobbing quietly. Tears weld up in my eyes and I move onto the bed lying next to him. I brush my left fingers over his cheek and looked at his peaceful sleeping form. He sleeps soundlessly and yet his mind would be plagued with nightmares of dying and turning into a full demon, maybe even harming his loved ones. I hear a groan leave his mouth and I lean on my right arm looking down at him.

"Inu-yasha? Can you hear me?" I watched as he snapped his eyes open, staring up at the ceiling and then they land on my greyish-blue ones. I watch them open wide and he spoke quietly while shutting them.

"Oh no…" I watch as he turns over facing his bare back to me ashamed.

"Inuyasha it's all right." I spoke quietly placing my hand on his shoulder squeezing it lightly. He was literally shaking and I sat up turning him back over onto his back with a little force. I frowned as those eyes opened to look up at me. They glistened with tears and yet none ever fell, he being to brave and stubborn for that to occur. I placed my hand against his cheek the purple streaks had now gone. Inuyasha's eyes closed once more and he finally spoke.

"You saw didn't you? You saw everything…" I nodded my head in agreement when Inuyasha opened his eyes waiting for an answer.

"And your still going to be my friend?" Those eyes were pleading with me, hoping I'd say yes and I smiled down at him replying back.

"I'm going to be your best friend Inu-yasha, so don't hide anything anymore…no secrets…from either of us…promise?" I watched a lop-sided grin form on his tired face and he spoke while turning to lie on his left side.

"Okay… Kagome can you read something from Sengoku Jidai to me?" I nodded my head moving away for a moment to collect the diaries and moved back onto the bed leaning my back against the headboard and opened up a book.

"I'll read you some entries Kagome has written until you fall asleep okay?" He nodded his head closing his eyes and so I began to read…

"The new moon has passed and Inuyasha is his insensitive self again. Did I mention every new moon his demon blood ebbs and his human blood takes over, becoming dominant for once. This and only this is Inuyasha's weakness. One day a month he becomes like this, his deceased mother reminding him not to forget her and yet he never takes notice becoming all grumpy because of this. I know he shows fear about his human form, as he doesn't want anyone to know. I was surprised when I found out. I thought he was hurt or injured and yet when he looked up he was a normal human boy with black hair and dark eyes, no claws, no fangs and no dog-ears. Sure he was still a pain and mean at times but he had lost the gruffness in his voice, turning it sweet and rather gentle as well. He hates his human form, fearing no one will like this him and yet it showed me his softer side, his vulnerable side. We were on another mission and Inuyasha had given me tetsusaiga because it couldn't transform with him like that and he went off to go fight this spider demon thing. I was so scared when I ran into the room trying to locate Inuyasha. He looked so dead when we found him. He was poisoned and it was really bad too…because he was a human. If it weren't for Myoga I don't think Inuyasha would have survived. We were sitting in this room and Myoga sucked out Inu-yasha's poison. I was so thankful it brought tears to my eyes when he groaned waking up. He still needed a lot of rest though and he wanted to use my lap as a pillow. I remember him telling me he liked my smell, my scent. I was utterly shocked because in the beginning he hated me and hated my smell, but he said he was lying and that I had a pleasant scent. In the beginning he wanted to kill me but I still set him free from the tree. After all he did kill the centipede woman as she was heading straight for me. I wanted to ask him about what he said when he was human but he was now his usual gruff and arrogant self as the new moon passed turning him into a hanyou again. I let the thought drop, as he was an insensitive jerk once again and we were now going on another mission to find more shards." I stopped there and flipped through the pages but heard Inuyasha's soft sleepy voice.

"I'm not asleep so you can keep reading…ah…if you want to that is." I giggled at his cute statement and began reading again.

"I saw Kikyo, the one Inu-yasha is in love with. She is beautiful and very powerful. She had paralysed me near a tree and these soul things were circling around me. That's when I noticed Inuyasha was here as well but he couldn't see me. Kikyo had cast a spell, only letting Inuyasha see her and nothing of me. I could hear everything that was spoken between them as well. He never stopped thinking about her, not for one second. That broke my heart. It shattered into millions of pieces when Kikyo kissed him and although he didn't respond he didn't push her away either. She had now paralysed him in some way and she wanted to kill him, wanting to take him to hell with her. I couldn't let her do that, not to him and something happened, something inside of me snapped and it was as though I mentally hurt her in some way. That's when I began yelling for Inuyasha and he came racing over to rescue me completely forgetting about Kikyo. I was hurt seeing that and broke down in front of him but took off. I wanted to go home but had lost my way to the well. Inuyasha had caught up to me and we had a chat. I had asked him if I was just a replacement of some sort, hoping he'd say I wasn't, that I am not like Kikyo because I am me…Higurashi Kagome. He told me that in the beginning he didn't like me because I looked like Kikyo but now, Kagome is Kagome and he'd never forget that. He liked having me around and having me near him. I made him feel calm and relaxed in some way…that's all I heard because I feel asleep against him. He wasn't too impressed about that but it was okay, because even when he's angry he's still cute to me."

"They care deeply for each other." I looked down at seeing Inuyasha's eyes open and looking up into mine. I titled my head slightly and he spoke again while sitting up resting his back against the headboard.

"I was reading some of the entries before. Kagome never stops writing about him and she thinks he only sees her as a shard detector but in some weird way I know that's not true. He protects her like no one else does and he wouldn't do it for anyone else either, not even Kikyo. They have very rare sweet moments and yet they both treasure them immensely. Inuyasha can't stand seeing Kagome get hurt feeling as though it is his entire fault because he wasn't there to stop it from happening. He really hates it when she cries too because it is usually his fault because she is crying over him and of how injured he always gets or because he was just plain insensitive. He hates it when she wants to go home to her time because I reckon he fears she won't return even though he makes up some lame excuse trying to get her to stay. He could always take the shards of the Shikon no Tama off of her and yet he doesn't. So they have deep feelings for each other and not just because they are on this mission together, but they are too afraid to say something or commit to it because they are from two different eras." I looked at Inu-yasha's alarm clock and got off the bed to leave. I was placing my shoes back on and knew Inuyasha was eyeing me silently. I sat down on the edge of the bed closest to the door and spoke looking at him.

"Do you mind if I come and see you tomorrow?" I watched a lop-sided smile form on his lips and he replied back.

"And if I say no you'll still come over anyway so what's the point in asking me Kagome." I shrugged my shoulders standing up while holding the diary in my left hand.

"Pre-warning really." I picked up his hand and bent down placing a light kiss on his palm and spoke quietly to him and then left the room without turning back around.

"Sleep well Inuyasha."

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I had finally left the shrine just after lunch, as my mum was rather angry and worried at not knowing where I was. She was saddened that Inuyasha had been 'ill' and only just got out of hospital but she said I still could have rung her. She was right though so I was stuck doing chores all morning. I had been up most of the night reading the diary and a couple of thoughts hit me that I needed to run by Inuyasha. Sota had kept asking me when he was coming around next because he thought he was pretty cool. I laughed thinking about what Inuyasha would say to that or what face expression would be displayed on his face.

I came to the mansion noticing Rin playing in the front yard and picking some flowers.

"Hello Rin-chan." I spoke and she came running over and hugged me around my legs. I smiled sweetly down at her and she spoke back.

"Inu-niisan is in the training hall Kagome, just around there." She pointed around the house and I smiled my thanks and she let go running around once more. I found my way to the training hall and took my shoes off and walked inside. I smiled and blushed a little as Inu-yasha was lying on the wooden floor, eyes closed and wearing a pair of loose black pants…nothing else.

"And I thought you'd show up at the crack of dawn." I smiled as he sensed I was near but he never opened his eyes. I sat down near him and that's when Inuyasha opened them to stare up at me. He too sat up and I brushed my right hand fingers over his bandaged wrist and looked up at him and spoke two words to indicate my curiosity at wanting to know.

"No secrets…" I watched Inu-yasha bow his head closing his eyes and he moved his hands away from mine and spoke in a soft voice.

"I can feel myself loosing control. It's like it is happening in slow motion. I hate it when it occurs because I can never do anything about it. When I'm like that I feel as though I'm floating in endless darkness trying to find the light to get me the hell out of my own mind. I'm human in there but I have so much demon in me its frightening and I rip and attack myself wanting to be free. My mum caught me doing it when I was 10. I was biting my wrists and scratching at my stomach as though trying to dig my way out of the darkness. Everytime it gets worse I injure myself more and more but I know a small part of me realises that I should never go for my heart. If I did, I'd be dead. There are no scars to show for all of this because my demon side will heal itself up. I always try and injure myself hoping I would loose enough demon blood so my human side could take over once more but that never occurs and yet I still do it."

"Inuyasha?" I spoke wanting to get his attention. He opened his eyes looking at me and I moved closer sitting right in front of him our knees touching.

"I was reading the diary last night when I got home and if Kagome was the reincarnated Kikyo that means she must have some sort of mystical powers as well right?"

"Yeah…" Inuyasha had answered not to sure where this was headed.

"Well what if somehow I have it as well. I mean look at your resemblance to that Inuyasha and I read as well an experience they had at that Inuyasha becoming a full demon as well. I think in some way Kagome always got through to Inuyasha telling him to calm down to take control and he'd turn into himself again. Sure she used 'sits' as well, but we can't do that for you. Maybe, maybe I can find something to help you."

"Wha?" Inu-yasha had spoken shocked. I now sat on my knees looking directly into his eyes and spoke again.

"I know it's a long shot and I know you aren't in the demon form now but maybe I can slow it down. Maybe I can help find the source of how to stop it from happening and to help you gain control over it. Please Inuyasha can we try what I was reading last night?" I watch as he reluctantly nodded his head in uncertainty and stared into my eyes. I moved forward and placed a quick kiss on his lips. I moved away noticing he had a faint blush staining his cheeks making him look cuter and I knew I would be blushing as well.

"W-What was that for?" He had asked surprised and I spoke the first thing that came into my head.

"Just in case I hurt you." He nodded his head his blush now gone and I took a deep breath and clapped my hands together once. His eyes were still fixed on mine and I moved my hands up brushing them through his hair and placed them on either side where his temples lay. He has now closed his eyes and I speak in a calming relaxing voice.

"Relax and take me into your mind Inu-yasha." Minutes pass and I gasp in surprise. I open my eyes to find they are not mine, as I am staring at my prone form lying on the training hall floor.

"Kagome? Kagome wake up!" I see that I'm in Inuyasha and I feel as though I am shaking my form with him.

* I'm all right Inu-yasha *

"Wha? Kagome, you're in me?"

* Yes; now pick me up and take me to our room. *

* * * *

We are now in Inu-yasha's room and he has placed my body on his bed. I watch as he lies down as well looking over at me. He is rather quiet and it is becoming frightening.

* Inu-yasha you must close your eyes and relax *

He seems to comply and in a matter of minutes I am floating through darkness. I come into light and I shield my eyes coming to a complete stop. I blink a few times trying to adjust and come face to face with…ME! An older me at that!

* You are very brave in doing this Kagome. Inuyasha will be very thankful for this and he shall never forget. *

* How can this be? *

* It is all right Kagome. I am part of his mind, a part he is unaware of."

* You, you're Kagome from Sengoku Jidai. *

* Yes, I am here to help you not loose Inuyasha like I had years ago. We were from different times and could never be together. I waited and waited wanting desperately to see him but the well did not function anymore. I miss him terribly but now it is my turn to help him, to help the both of you. *

* What do we do? His full demon form is killing him. *

* The power lies in you Kagome. Only you may set him free. *

* How? I don't understand! *

I watch horrified as she fades away and I am literally pulled from Inuyasha's body. I gasp opening my eyes to see Inuyasha's looking down at me. I sit up on the edge of the bed looking down at my hands. I can feel Inuyasha kneeling behind me and his hand has now cupped my shoulder.

"Did you find anything Kagome?"

"Me…it's all up to me. Only I can set you free and yet I don't know how. If anything happens to you now, it will all be my fault." I gasp slightly as I am pulled back as Inuyasha's arms have wrapped around my shoulders and he has placed his chin on top of my head.

"Don't say that. It makes me stronger knowing that we are one step closer to finding something. Besides I know you'll work it out, you are one smart chick after all." I laugh lightly leaning back against him hearing that and close my eyes.

"Kagome its going to be okay, I'm not leaving without knowing happiness, without being normal. I don't care if I have to keep being reborn or reincarnated I'm going to have a life!" I snapped my eyes open hearing this. That's it…the well…The shrine! I jolted standing up off the bed and turn to face Inuyasha. He is a little surprised and I answer his silent question.

"I think I figured a bit of it out Inuyasha. What you said about being reborn or reincarnated made me think about Sengoku Jidai. Of the Inuyasha back there. He could still be there and I can ask him what helped him to stop being a full demon!"

"Lets go then." I watch as Inuyasha stands up as well but I place my hands on his shoulders making him sit back down on the bed. He looks up at me confused and his eyes frown when I shake my head negatively.

"You…can't come with me Inuyasha. It is too risky. Besides you should rest more." I light blush covers my cheeks as his hand wraps around mine and he speaks in a small whisper.

"Please be careful…I'll wait for you here…everyday, until you return."

"No, go to school, catch up on work and keep going on with our assignment. I don't want to fall behind…besides it should take a few hours at the most. Okay?" He nods his head and I smile down at him before leaving the room running back to my house at full speed.

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To be continued…

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