Chapter 3: Facing the Music
Recap:
"According to the pregnancy test the doctor ran as a precaution Usagi is pregnant." Haruka looked stunned to say the least.
"Could it be Mamoru's?" Haruka asked when Usagi was consciously sipping tea prepared for her by Rei.
Usagi shook her head slowly, "No. Mamoru was gone all last month and we were fighting almost the instant he walked in the door. We haven't done anything, there's no way it could. No possible way."
"What are you going to do Usagi-Chan?" Minako asked.
"I have no idea!" Usagi sobbed tears springing to her eyes.
"Have you thought of terminating the pregnancy?" Dr. Dee asked Usagi.
Usagi shook her head at the petite dark haired woman across the table from her, "The baby was a mistake but I could never do such a thing."
"All right then, do you know who the father of the baby is?"
"Sort of." Usagi nodded, "We aren't friends or anything."
"I understand the situation but I would strongly suggest getting in touch with the father. Letting him know what's going on."
"Well you see," Usagi blushed, "I'm engaged to another guy. It's a long story but I don't know if I could do that. I mean my fiancé all ready knows what I did, and I know it's going to tear him apart when he finds out I'm pregnant but if the engagement is still on then I don't want to risk it anymore by throwing the guy into the situation."
"Don't you think he has a right as the father to at least know?" Dr. Dee asked.
Usagi shook her head, "I could never do it."
"That's your decision." Dr. Dee shrugged and continued talking to Usagi about what to expect.
Two Weeks Later
"You're sending him an email?" Rei asked watching Usagi decide whether or not to send the email to Mamoru explaining about the pregnancy.
"I could never in a million years tell him face to face." Usagi swore.
"You are taking everything into consideration right?" Rei asked, "Are you sure you want to have this baby? I mean you and Mamoru's engagement is all ready on the rocks and adding this could really mean trouble."
Usagi bit her lip, "Don't you think I know that Rei-Chan? Don't you think that that is the only thing I have thought about since I found out I was pregnant? But this is my mistake and I am not going to kill a baby because of something I did wrong."
"You don't have to keep the baby." Rei stated.
Usagi shook her head adamantly, "No way. In a weird way Rei-Chan I'm all ready attached to the baby I couldn't part with it."
"I know this is hard on you but we are all going to be there for you no matter what OK?"
Usagi nodded, "Thank you Rei-Chan. I'm still sending this though, I'd never be able to tell him face to face and this may be the chicken way of doing it but this is my way." Usagi tapped the mouse and the 'your mail has been sent' sign came up.
Two Weeks Later
"Usagi-Chan you have to get up sometime." Rei insisted pulling open the drapes sunlight spilling into the guest room Usagi had made her home for the last month.
"No way Rei-Chan I am sleeping this day away. There is no possible way I am getting up." Usagi said pulling a pillow over her head.
"Usagi-Chan it is just a normal day." Rei insisted.
"No way Rei-Chan, this is not just a normal day. Mamo-Chan got in last night and he hasn't called or anything and I'm just going to sleep the day away." Usagi insisted.
"Usagi-Chan you have a visitor." Chad said sticking his head in the doorway.
"Tell whoever it is to go away." Usagi said throwing her pillow in the direction Chad's voice came from.
Chad watched the pillow miss completely and then replied, "I think this is a visitor you would like to see."
Usagi bolted upright in bed and pushed the covers back, "I'll be right out!" Chad walked away and Usagi jumped out of bed but sank slowly back down, "Maybe not right out."
"Are you OK Usagi-Chan." Rei asked.
Usagi nodded, "Yeah just a bit of a queasy stomach." When color had returned to Usagi's face she headed towards the dresser she had her clothes in, "What am I going to say to him? What should I do? Should I hug him? Should I stand there? What?"
"Usagi-Chan just slow down, just get dressed and then go see him, you can go from there." Rei replied. "Take all the time you need talking to Mamoru, I will keep Grandpa out of your way."
"Thanks Rei-Chan." Usagi said pulling out a pair of black jeans and a white ¾ length shirt.
Usagi took a deep breath and walked into the room Rei had indicated her visitor would be waiting. Mamoru stood in the middle of the room, Usagi was out of his line of vision, he stood shifting his feet uncomfortably and he held a bouquet of red roses.
"Mamo-Chan." Usagi murmured.
"Usako." Mamoru turned to face Usagi straight on. Usagi couldn't stop herself from running into his arms, Mamoru hugged Usagi picking her gently up off her the ground. "These are for you." Mamoru said handing Usagi the roses.
"Thanks Mamo-Chan." Usagi sniffed the roses gently and cradled them in her arms.
"Do you want to go to breakfast?" Mamoru asked.
Usagi didn't respond and instead stared intently at Mamoru's face, when Mamoru turned his attention down on Usagi her face fell. "You didn't get my email did you?"
Mamoru watched how quickly tears filled Usagi's eyes, instead of the bawling he had expected, silent tears slipped down Usagi's cheeks, "Usako I got your email. The day you sent it. Why don't we get something to eat and we can talk over breakfast?"
Usagi nodded and Mamoru took her hand as they walked out of the temple.
Rei watched them walk out of the temple hand in hand a smile spread across her face before she hurried back into the temple to call Haruka and reassure her that everything seemed to be OK.
"How are you feeling Usako?" Mamoru asked after they had ordered their breakfast.
Usagi shrugged, "I feel pretty good most of the time. But I was so scared Mamo-Chan. When they told me that I was pregnant I almost died, honestly. It took Ami like ten minutes to get me conscious and then all I could think of was what is Mamo-Chan going to think. I had all ready screwed things up once and you were willing to forgive that. But I just knew that there was no way this was going to be fixed. And then when I didn't hear back from you I just knew things were over and I would probably never see you again. And I know it's selfish of me to want to keep the baby but I just can't imagine putting my baby up for adoption."
"Usako slow down." Mamoru said taking Usagi's hands, "I have to admit when I read that email I decided that the wedding was off. There was no way I was going to marry you when you were insisting on keeping another man's baby. And I got on the plane coming back here with every intention of telling you that. But I fell asleep on the plane and I dreamed about the Silver Millennium. When I woke up I realized that a love that was meant to survive through death, and rebirth, and death and rebirth over and over again should be able to get around this."
"Then you don't hate me?" Usagi sighed with relief. "And we are still going to get married?"
"I could never hate you Usako. And yes we are going to get married. But under the circumstances I think that maybe we should push back the wedding date. Wait another year."
"Another year? But Mamo-Chan that's 2 years from now I don't want to wait that long."
"I know you don't but Usako think about it, a year from now you are going to have a 4-month-old baby there is no way you can have anew born and plan a wedding. Who would want to?" Mamoru asked.
"You're right of course." Usagi sighed resting her head against Mamoru's hand.
One Month Later
"Hey Mamoru." Ami greeted Mamoru.
"Hello Ami." Mamoru said looking around the temple, all the senshi, their various dates, Usagi's family, Motoki, Naru and her new boyfriend were all present.
"It's a good thing you are doing Mamoru." Ami stated as they both watched Usagi talking with Rei and Michiru.
"What's that Ami?" Mamoru asked taking a sip of his drink.
"You're being a great guy about Usagi's pregnancy." Ami stated.
"I love her." Mamoru shrugged, "And if this is the way I get to marry her, then so be it. We'll be a family."
"That's another thing I respect about you." Ami added. "You are willing to take in this child that isn't yours but except it like it is. Have you guys decided what the baby is going to call you."
Mamoru turned his gaze from Usagi to Ami, "Actually it hasn't come up, I never even considered it. I guess I just always assumed it would call me dad, considering Usako decided not to tell the father."
Ami nodded, "That's probably best, considering if the baby didn't it would always have questions about it's paternal family and acts and looks the way it does because that it what their paternal family looked or acted like."
"Ami if you are getting at something please just come out and say it."
"Mamoru you and I were both cheated out of families. I was cheated out of my father's side of the family and you out of any memory of your parents whatsoever. I don't know about you but I always wondered if maybe I wore glasses because my paternal grandmother did. Or if maybe some of my personality traits were my father's. My mother didn't always have the answers I was looking for." Ami's eyes were still firmly fixed on Usagi.
"You want me to try to get Usagi to reconsider telling the father." Mamoru replied.
"It's not my choice Mamoru-San. But I know I would have loved to know my father growing up, it was never a possibility in my case, but in Usagi's there is. Usagi said this man was a nice guy and I don't think you should cheat this child out of knowing its true father if you don't have to."
It was obvious to Ami that Mamoru was in deep thought so she didn't say another word and walked away.
"As much as I absolutely hate to admit it Usako Ami is completely right. You can not cheat this baby out of knowing his father if it is at all possible."
"It was a one night stand Mamo-Chan! I'm not going to go up to a guy I knew for one night and say oh well I'm sorry, you may not even remember me but I'm having your child!" Usagi shouted.
"Usako I know it sounds weird. But Ami makes sense and she is right I would love to know about my family. But I didn't have the chance and I am not going to take that away from this baby!" Mamoru's own voice was raised. "And tomorrow I am taking you there."
"You don't know where it is." Usagi said raising an eyebrow and crossing her arms over her stomach.
"I convinced Haruka to tell me where." Mamoru said, "Usako I love you and I want what's best for the baby and this is it."
Recap:
"According to the pregnancy test the doctor ran as a precaution Usagi is pregnant." Haruka looked stunned to say the least.
"Could it be Mamoru's?" Haruka asked when Usagi was consciously sipping tea prepared for her by Rei.
Usagi shook her head slowly, "No. Mamoru was gone all last month and we were fighting almost the instant he walked in the door. We haven't done anything, there's no way it could. No possible way."
"What are you going to do Usagi-Chan?" Minako asked.
"I have no idea!" Usagi sobbed tears springing to her eyes.
"Have you thought of terminating the pregnancy?" Dr. Dee asked Usagi.
Usagi shook her head at the petite dark haired woman across the table from her, "The baby was a mistake but I could never do such a thing."
"All right then, do you know who the father of the baby is?"
"Sort of." Usagi nodded, "We aren't friends or anything."
"I understand the situation but I would strongly suggest getting in touch with the father. Letting him know what's going on."
"Well you see," Usagi blushed, "I'm engaged to another guy. It's a long story but I don't know if I could do that. I mean my fiancé all ready knows what I did, and I know it's going to tear him apart when he finds out I'm pregnant but if the engagement is still on then I don't want to risk it anymore by throwing the guy into the situation."
"Don't you think he has a right as the father to at least know?" Dr. Dee asked.
Usagi shook her head, "I could never do it."
"That's your decision." Dr. Dee shrugged and continued talking to Usagi about what to expect.
Two Weeks Later
"You're sending him an email?" Rei asked watching Usagi decide whether or not to send the email to Mamoru explaining about the pregnancy.
"I could never in a million years tell him face to face." Usagi swore.
"You are taking everything into consideration right?" Rei asked, "Are you sure you want to have this baby? I mean you and Mamoru's engagement is all ready on the rocks and adding this could really mean trouble."
Usagi bit her lip, "Don't you think I know that Rei-Chan? Don't you think that that is the only thing I have thought about since I found out I was pregnant? But this is my mistake and I am not going to kill a baby because of something I did wrong."
"You don't have to keep the baby." Rei stated.
Usagi shook her head adamantly, "No way. In a weird way Rei-Chan I'm all ready attached to the baby I couldn't part with it."
"I know this is hard on you but we are all going to be there for you no matter what OK?"
Usagi nodded, "Thank you Rei-Chan. I'm still sending this though, I'd never be able to tell him face to face and this may be the chicken way of doing it but this is my way." Usagi tapped the mouse and the 'your mail has been sent' sign came up.
Two Weeks Later
"Usagi-Chan you have to get up sometime." Rei insisted pulling open the drapes sunlight spilling into the guest room Usagi had made her home for the last month.
"No way Rei-Chan I am sleeping this day away. There is no possible way I am getting up." Usagi said pulling a pillow over her head.
"Usagi-Chan it is just a normal day." Rei insisted.
"No way Rei-Chan, this is not just a normal day. Mamo-Chan got in last night and he hasn't called or anything and I'm just going to sleep the day away." Usagi insisted.
"Usagi-Chan you have a visitor." Chad said sticking his head in the doorway.
"Tell whoever it is to go away." Usagi said throwing her pillow in the direction Chad's voice came from.
Chad watched the pillow miss completely and then replied, "I think this is a visitor you would like to see."
Usagi bolted upright in bed and pushed the covers back, "I'll be right out!" Chad walked away and Usagi jumped out of bed but sank slowly back down, "Maybe not right out."
"Are you OK Usagi-Chan." Rei asked.
Usagi nodded, "Yeah just a bit of a queasy stomach." When color had returned to Usagi's face she headed towards the dresser she had her clothes in, "What am I going to say to him? What should I do? Should I hug him? Should I stand there? What?"
"Usagi-Chan just slow down, just get dressed and then go see him, you can go from there." Rei replied. "Take all the time you need talking to Mamoru, I will keep Grandpa out of your way."
"Thanks Rei-Chan." Usagi said pulling out a pair of black jeans and a white ¾ length shirt.
Usagi took a deep breath and walked into the room Rei had indicated her visitor would be waiting. Mamoru stood in the middle of the room, Usagi was out of his line of vision, he stood shifting his feet uncomfortably and he held a bouquet of red roses.
"Mamo-Chan." Usagi murmured.
"Usako." Mamoru turned to face Usagi straight on. Usagi couldn't stop herself from running into his arms, Mamoru hugged Usagi picking her gently up off her the ground. "These are for you." Mamoru said handing Usagi the roses.
"Thanks Mamo-Chan." Usagi sniffed the roses gently and cradled them in her arms.
"Do you want to go to breakfast?" Mamoru asked.
Usagi didn't respond and instead stared intently at Mamoru's face, when Mamoru turned his attention down on Usagi her face fell. "You didn't get my email did you?"
Mamoru watched how quickly tears filled Usagi's eyes, instead of the bawling he had expected, silent tears slipped down Usagi's cheeks, "Usako I got your email. The day you sent it. Why don't we get something to eat and we can talk over breakfast?"
Usagi nodded and Mamoru took her hand as they walked out of the temple.
Rei watched them walk out of the temple hand in hand a smile spread across her face before she hurried back into the temple to call Haruka and reassure her that everything seemed to be OK.
"How are you feeling Usako?" Mamoru asked after they had ordered their breakfast.
Usagi shrugged, "I feel pretty good most of the time. But I was so scared Mamo-Chan. When they told me that I was pregnant I almost died, honestly. It took Ami like ten minutes to get me conscious and then all I could think of was what is Mamo-Chan going to think. I had all ready screwed things up once and you were willing to forgive that. But I just knew that there was no way this was going to be fixed. And then when I didn't hear back from you I just knew things were over and I would probably never see you again. And I know it's selfish of me to want to keep the baby but I just can't imagine putting my baby up for adoption."
"Usako slow down." Mamoru said taking Usagi's hands, "I have to admit when I read that email I decided that the wedding was off. There was no way I was going to marry you when you were insisting on keeping another man's baby. And I got on the plane coming back here with every intention of telling you that. But I fell asleep on the plane and I dreamed about the Silver Millennium. When I woke up I realized that a love that was meant to survive through death, and rebirth, and death and rebirth over and over again should be able to get around this."
"Then you don't hate me?" Usagi sighed with relief. "And we are still going to get married?"
"I could never hate you Usako. And yes we are going to get married. But under the circumstances I think that maybe we should push back the wedding date. Wait another year."
"Another year? But Mamo-Chan that's 2 years from now I don't want to wait that long."
"I know you don't but Usako think about it, a year from now you are going to have a 4-month-old baby there is no way you can have anew born and plan a wedding. Who would want to?" Mamoru asked.
"You're right of course." Usagi sighed resting her head against Mamoru's hand.
One Month Later
"Hey Mamoru." Ami greeted Mamoru.
"Hello Ami." Mamoru said looking around the temple, all the senshi, their various dates, Usagi's family, Motoki, Naru and her new boyfriend were all present.
"It's a good thing you are doing Mamoru." Ami stated as they both watched Usagi talking with Rei and Michiru.
"What's that Ami?" Mamoru asked taking a sip of his drink.
"You're being a great guy about Usagi's pregnancy." Ami stated.
"I love her." Mamoru shrugged, "And if this is the way I get to marry her, then so be it. We'll be a family."
"That's another thing I respect about you." Ami added. "You are willing to take in this child that isn't yours but except it like it is. Have you guys decided what the baby is going to call you."
Mamoru turned his gaze from Usagi to Ami, "Actually it hasn't come up, I never even considered it. I guess I just always assumed it would call me dad, considering Usako decided not to tell the father."
Ami nodded, "That's probably best, considering if the baby didn't it would always have questions about it's paternal family and acts and looks the way it does because that it what their paternal family looked or acted like."
"Ami if you are getting at something please just come out and say it."
"Mamoru you and I were both cheated out of families. I was cheated out of my father's side of the family and you out of any memory of your parents whatsoever. I don't know about you but I always wondered if maybe I wore glasses because my paternal grandmother did. Or if maybe some of my personality traits were my father's. My mother didn't always have the answers I was looking for." Ami's eyes were still firmly fixed on Usagi.
"You want me to try to get Usagi to reconsider telling the father." Mamoru replied.
"It's not my choice Mamoru-San. But I know I would have loved to know my father growing up, it was never a possibility in my case, but in Usagi's there is. Usagi said this man was a nice guy and I don't think you should cheat this child out of knowing its true father if you don't have to."
It was obvious to Ami that Mamoru was in deep thought so she didn't say another word and walked away.
"As much as I absolutely hate to admit it Usako Ami is completely right. You can not cheat this baby out of knowing his father if it is at all possible."
"It was a one night stand Mamo-Chan! I'm not going to go up to a guy I knew for one night and say oh well I'm sorry, you may not even remember me but I'm having your child!" Usagi shouted.
"Usako I know it sounds weird. But Ami makes sense and she is right I would love to know about my family. But I didn't have the chance and I am not going to take that away from this baby!" Mamoru's own voice was raised. "And tomorrow I am taking you there."
"You don't know where it is." Usagi said raising an eyebrow and crossing her arms over her stomach.
"I convinced Haruka to tell me where." Mamoru said, "Usako I love you and I want what's best for the baby and this is it."
