Chapter 4: Admission, Insecurities, Cravings and Finding Out
Recap:
"Usako I love you and I want what's best for the baby and this is it."
"Does this look all right?" Usagi asked stepping out of Mamoru and her room for the 5th time that morning.
"Usako you look perfect." Mamoru said for the 5th time, this time Usagi stood in front of him in a pair of black jeans and a white shirt with red roses going down one side. "Can we leave now?"
"I don't know if I can Mamo-Chan." Usagi said biting her lip, a sign Mamoru recognized as one meaning Usagi was forcing away tears.
"Yes, Usako you can, you are strong and you can do this."
The trip to the apartment building Usagi recognized was silent both Usagi and Mamoru lost in their own thoughts, "Do you want me to come with you?" Mamoru asked when they pulled into the parking lot.
Usagi shook her head; "I would love for you to come. But this is something I have to do on my own." Usagi leaned over the armrest and kissed Mamoru before stepping out of the car.
Usagi walked up the steps she remembered being led down my Haruka only 2 months earlier and knocked on the door that she also remembered, she raised her hand and knocked lightly on the door. The door was opened seconds later by a short white haired man, "Does Kou Seiya live here?"
"Of course he does." The man replied, "This is his apartment, "Seiya! There's a gorgeous woman here to see you and if you don't get your butt to do the door right now I will be tempted to ask her out!"
"Yaten get out of the way." Seiya ordered pulling the door open, "It's you."
Usagi nodded, "Yeah, listen I need to talk to you. Is there somewhere we could talk privately?"
"Taiki! Yaten! Out of my apartment now! You have your own food over there!" Seiya called back into the apartment.
When the two exited Seiya moved out of the way and left Usagi pass, "I must admit," he said, "I never expected to see you again."
Usagi nodded, "The same here. But um my fiancé kind of insisted that I talk to you."
"I'm sorry, but why?" Seiya asked.
"The thing is, well, out one night stand has some longer term…um…" Usagi's mind suddenly went blank.
"I'm sorry but I'm just going to come out and ask you. Are you pregnant?"
Usagi blushed but nodded, "And I'm positive it's yours. I'm not asking for you to do anything. It's just my fiancé, who is being very understanding about this all, is an orphan. And he has is this idea in his head that, oh I don't even understand what it is."
"Hang on a second. I know this is going to be out there, but I'm not a bad guy and I own up to my mistakes, and I think your fiancé is right a baby should know it's father. And if you don't mind I want to be a part of our baby's life."
Usagi's jaw dropped open, "You-you do?"
"I know considering the circumstances it's kind of weird but yes I do." Seiya responded. "If it's not a problem I mean, I know I probably caused a lot of problems between you and your fiancé…"
"Do you mind if I go get my fiancé?" Usagi asked, "I'm not sure what he thought was going to happen."
"Go ahead." Seiya looked overwhelmed but resolute.
"Mamo-Chan, Mamo-Chan." Usagi exclaimed hurrying back to Mamoru's open window.
"How'd it go Usako?" Mamoru asked.
"Well you see that's the thing Mamo-Chan…He wants to be a part of the babies life. I think you need to come up and talk with us."
"All right. Let's go." It was obvious Mamoru was even more stunned by the news that Usagi was.
Usagi introduced the two men and everyone took a seat in the living room. "Mamoru-San, I know it sounds a little well, odd. But like I was telling Usagi-San I own up and take responsibilities for my mistakes. And I know I could do that by just paying child support or something, but I don't want it to stop there. I have a great job working in a record company and I am beginning to think about settling down and starting a family. I'm the oldest of five children and I know my parents are getting anxious to have grandchildren. I will pay child support but I also want partial custody."
"How often?" Usagi asked.
"As often as you will let me Usagi-San." Seiya responded, "I'm great with kids. The baby would have his or her own room, my apartment has three bedrooms, two uncles and two aunts, grandparents within a mile of each other."
Usagi shrugged, "I can't say no to that. We'll work custody and stuff out later."
"One more thing Usagi-San…"
"Just Usagi please." Usagi insisted.
"All right Usagi, the thing is I don't want to go to court. I can't imagine putting a child through a custody battle."
"I agree Seiya." Usagi said as she was helped to her feet by Mamoru, "By the way my due date is November 22nd."
Two Months Later
"How are things going Mamoru? I haven't seen you around much lately. Usagi either." Motoki said as Mamoru walked into the arcade.
"Yeah I was in the America for the last week." Mamoru responded, "As for Usagi she had been doing a lot of baby things, with the girls, with Seiya. Between Usagi spending time with the girls and Seiya I never get to see her anymore."
"You picking up and leaving probably doesn't help much either." Motoki said setting a cup of coffee down in front of him.
"Don't bring that up." Mamoru sighed, "I all ready get enough of it from Usagi. She just doesn't seem to get the fact that I don't get a choice of when I go to America. I cleared the month of November so I won't be leaving in her last month but it doesn't seem to be enough for her."
"Don't blame here Mamoru, she's pregnant those hormones are raging."
"I know. I just feel like while she gets closer to Seiya, which is good of course, we get farther apart. She spends a lot of time with him now. They are decorating one of his rooms as a nursery for now because we aren't staying in our apartment much longer."
"You sound jealous to me." Motoki commented.
"So what if I am?" Mamoru asked, "Wouldn't you be?"
Motoki shrugged wiping off the counted, "The thing is man, it's not me and you have to learn to deal with it. Because Seiya is going to be a constant part of your life from now on."
That same night Usagi woke up around one in the morning, glancing over at Mamoru she found him sound asleep. Quietly she stole out of bed and made her way to the kitchen going through cupboards, not finding what she wanted she picked up the phone.
"Hello. Yeah it's me. I have a huge favor to ask." Usagi whispered into the phone, "No nothing's wrong. But you see I am having a huge craving and part of it is peanut butter. Do you have any?"
Seiya's phone rang at one-fifteen, "Usagi? Is something wrong? You want what? I don't have any but I will check Yaten and Taiki's if they don't I will stop by a store, anything else you need? OK I will be by in about 15 minutes."
"You saved my life." Usagi giggled cheerfully as she took the peanut butter from Seiya's hands, "Come in. Do you have to work tomorrow?"
Seiya, who was cloaked in a robe over a pair of boxer shorts and an old T-shirt and wearing a tired expression, shook his head, "Would I be here if I did?"
"Probably." Usagi smiled, "Come into the kitchen. I will make you something to eat."
Mamoru was awakened by noises and finding the other side his bed empty he made his way quietly towards the kitchen until he heard Seiya's voice. With a pained expression on his face he made his way back to bed.
"No way Usagi-Chan." Seiya protested, "I have seen what you eat when you have cravings."
"It's just ice cream and peanut butter." Usagi laughed, "You at least want some ice cream?"
"Sure."
When Usagi dished out both the bowls and smothered her ice cream in peanut butter she returned to the fridge and pulled out a jar of pickles.
"See! That's what I mean!" Seiya exclaimed.
Usagi stuck her tongue out at Seiya, "I like pickles OK."
"I like pickles too." Seiya responded, "But not with ice cream." After watching Usagi take a bite of her pickle followed immediately by a spoonful of ice cream Seiya made a mock gagging noise. "That is so gross Usagi-Chan!"
"Seiya shut up and eat your ice cream would you?" Usagi asked tossing a couple sprinkles at Seiya. "So we've only begun to buy clothing and necessities for the baby. But we haven't begun to decorate the room you promised."
"Where are you going to put a baby nursery?" Seiya asked dodging the question.
"Mamo-Chan and I decided that we are going to buy a house, even before we get married. We have been looking at houses and everything, but there is no point in decorating a babies room if we are just going to move months after the baby is born."
"Usagi-Chan I've been thinking about knowing what the baby is…"
"I have too," Usagi nodded, "I know we decided we didn't want to know, but I can't wait! I just want to know!"
Seiya nodded, "I know. I decided the same thing."
"Good. I have a doctor's appointment at 9:30 tomorrow…or rather this morning. Mamo-Chan has to go to work, so why don't you pick me up at 9:15?"
"Sounds great to me." Seiya said rinsing out his dish in the sink, "And if I am going to pick you up in seven hours I better go home and finish my sleep."
"OK, bye Seiya-kun, I'll see you tomorrow." Usagi waved taking another spoonful of ice cream.
"Are you sure you don't want me to go into work late?" Mamoru asked when both he and Usagi were getting dressed to go about their days.
"Mamo-Chan it's just a simple doctors appointment I told you. You don't need to be there." Usagi replied adjusting Mamoru's tie.
"Are you sure?" Mamoru asked again, "Because it would be no problem."
Usagi rolled her eyes at Mamoru and pulled on red tank top over her very slightly swelled belly. Maternity clothes were not a necessity even at 5 months and the girls told Usagi all the time that if you didn't know it you could never tell Usagi was even pregnant.
"Mamo-Chan I'm sure. Seiya is picking me up and we are going, I will call you the instant we find anything out. OK?"
"OK then." Mamoru sighed reluctantly, "I should get going."
Usagi frowned slight and help Mamoru tie his tie, "Mamo-Chan I love, you know that right? I know this is really hard on you, but when you insisted on me telling Seiya the truth you can't tell me that you didn't honestly think there was a 100% chance that Seiya would say get lost did you?"
"I know Usako, I'll get used to it." Mamoru responded.
"I know you will. That's why I love you." Usagi said kissing Mamoru, "Now you better get going or you are going to be late for work."
"OK. What about you and I go out tonight?" Mamoru suggested.
Usagi smiled gently at him and then suggested, "What about you, me and the girls have dinner tonight?"
Mamoru sighed with aggravation.
"Mamo-Chan we haven't had dinner with the girls in over a month. I've told you about our plans all ready."
"Then tomorrow night…" Mamoru shook his head, "I know I know dinner with your parents."
"Mamo-Chan everyone wants to see both of us, and they can only do that when you are in town." Usagi reasoned.
"I know that but don't they understand that we would like to spend some time together when I'm home?" Mamoru's voice raised in anger.
Usagi's own voice raised, "If you were home more we could fit dinner with everybody in and spend time together!" Usagi dropped onto her bed wearily, "I don't want to have this fight with you right now."
"All right then, I will see you tonight." Mamoru picked up his briefcase and stormed out of the room.
"Are you OK Usagi-Chan?" Seiya asked when he arrived at Usagi and Mamoru's apartment at exactly 9:15.
Usagi rubbed her temples and nodded, "I just have a headache. Mamoru and I got in a fight about him leaving all the time."
"You know he wouldn't leave unless he had to." Seiya reminded Usagi gently.
"I know. I don't to talk about it though, can we just go?"
"Sure." Seiya nodded pulling open the door.
"A girl!" Usagi squealed for the millionth time as she and Seiya sat down at a table in the restaurant they had chosen for lunch.
If it was possible Seiya's smile broadened as the waitress walked up, "Can I take your order?"
Usagi and Seiya placed their orders and Seiya stated bluntly, "My mother wants to meet you."
Usagi's jaw dropped open in surprise, "She what? Why?"
"She just wants to get to know the mother of her granddaughter." Seiya responded, "She even suggested a party at her house, with my parents, Taiki, Yaten my sister's whom you haven't met, both sets of grandparents and your family and Mamoru of course."
"My family?" Usagi asked still stunned.
"If you don't want to do it she will completely understand." Seiya assured.
Usagi shook her head; "No it's fine. I'll talk to my mom about it."
Recap:
"Usako I love you and I want what's best for the baby and this is it."
"Does this look all right?" Usagi asked stepping out of Mamoru and her room for the 5th time that morning.
"Usako you look perfect." Mamoru said for the 5th time, this time Usagi stood in front of him in a pair of black jeans and a white shirt with red roses going down one side. "Can we leave now?"
"I don't know if I can Mamo-Chan." Usagi said biting her lip, a sign Mamoru recognized as one meaning Usagi was forcing away tears.
"Yes, Usako you can, you are strong and you can do this."
The trip to the apartment building Usagi recognized was silent both Usagi and Mamoru lost in their own thoughts, "Do you want me to come with you?" Mamoru asked when they pulled into the parking lot.
Usagi shook her head; "I would love for you to come. But this is something I have to do on my own." Usagi leaned over the armrest and kissed Mamoru before stepping out of the car.
Usagi walked up the steps she remembered being led down my Haruka only 2 months earlier and knocked on the door that she also remembered, she raised her hand and knocked lightly on the door. The door was opened seconds later by a short white haired man, "Does Kou Seiya live here?"
"Of course he does." The man replied, "This is his apartment, "Seiya! There's a gorgeous woman here to see you and if you don't get your butt to do the door right now I will be tempted to ask her out!"
"Yaten get out of the way." Seiya ordered pulling the door open, "It's you."
Usagi nodded, "Yeah, listen I need to talk to you. Is there somewhere we could talk privately?"
"Taiki! Yaten! Out of my apartment now! You have your own food over there!" Seiya called back into the apartment.
When the two exited Seiya moved out of the way and left Usagi pass, "I must admit," he said, "I never expected to see you again."
Usagi nodded, "The same here. But um my fiancé kind of insisted that I talk to you."
"I'm sorry, but why?" Seiya asked.
"The thing is, well, out one night stand has some longer term…um…" Usagi's mind suddenly went blank.
"I'm sorry but I'm just going to come out and ask you. Are you pregnant?"
Usagi blushed but nodded, "And I'm positive it's yours. I'm not asking for you to do anything. It's just my fiancé, who is being very understanding about this all, is an orphan. And he has is this idea in his head that, oh I don't even understand what it is."
"Hang on a second. I know this is going to be out there, but I'm not a bad guy and I own up to my mistakes, and I think your fiancé is right a baby should know it's father. And if you don't mind I want to be a part of our baby's life."
Usagi's jaw dropped open, "You-you do?"
"I know considering the circumstances it's kind of weird but yes I do." Seiya responded. "If it's not a problem I mean, I know I probably caused a lot of problems between you and your fiancé…"
"Do you mind if I go get my fiancé?" Usagi asked, "I'm not sure what he thought was going to happen."
"Go ahead." Seiya looked overwhelmed but resolute.
"Mamo-Chan, Mamo-Chan." Usagi exclaimed hurrying back to Mamoru's open window.
"How'd it go Usako?" Mamoru asked.
"Well you see that's the thing Mamo-Chan…He wants to be a part of the babies life. I think you need to come up and talk with us."
"All right. Let's go." It was obvious Mamoru was even more stunned by the news that Usagi was.
Usagi introduced the two men and everyone took a seat in the living room. "Mamoru-San, I know it sounds a little well, odd. But like I was telling Usagi-San I own up and take responsibilities for my mistakes. And I know I could do that by just paying child support or something, but I don't want it to stop there. I have a great job working in a record company and I am beginning to think about settling down and starting a family. I'm the oldest of five children and I know my parents are getting anxious to have grandchildren. I will pay child support but I also want partial custody."
"How often?" Usagi asked.
"As often as you will let me Usagi-San." Seiya responded, "I'm great with kids. The baby would have his or her own room, my apartment has three bedrooms, two uncles and two aunts, grandparents within a mile of each other."
Usagi shrugged, "I can't say no to that. We'll work custody and stuff out later."
"One more thing Usagi-San…"
"Just Usagi please." Usagi insisted.
"All right Usagi, the thing is I don't want to go to court. I can't imagine putting a child through a custody battle."
"I agree Seiya." Usagi said as she was helped to her feet by Mamoru, "By the way my due date is November 22nd."
Two Months Later
"How are things going Mamoru? I haven't seen you around much lately. Usagi either." Motoki said as Mamoru walked into the arcade.
"Yeah I was in the America for the last week." Mamoru responded, "As for Usagi she had been doing a lot of baby things, with the girls, with Seiya. Between Usagi spending time with the girls and Seiya I never get to see her anymore."
"You picking up and leaving probably doesn't help much either." Motoki said setting a cup of coffee down in front of him.
"Don't bring that up." Mamoru sighed, "I all ready get enough of it from Usagi. She just doesn't seem to get the fact that I don't get a choice of when I go to America. I cleared the month of November so I won't be leaving in her last month but it doesn't seem to be enough for her."
"Don't blame here Mamoru, she's pregnant those hormones are raging."
"I know. I just feel like while she gets closer to Seiya, which is good of course, we get farther apart. She spends a lot of time with him now. They are decorating one of his rooms as a nursery for now because we aren't staying in our apartment much longer."
"You sound jealous to me." Motoki commented.
"So what if I am?" Mamoru asked, "Wouldn't you be?"
Motoki shrugged wiping off the counted, "The thing is man, it's not me and you have to learn to deal with it. Because Seiya is going to be a constant part of your life from now on."
That same night Usagi woke up around one in the morning, glancing over at Mamoru she found him sound asleep. Quietly she stole out of bed and made her way to the kitchen going through cupboards, not finding what she wanted she picked up the phone.
"Hello. Yeah it's me. I have a huge favor to ask." Usagi whispered into the phone, "No nothing's wrong. But you see I am having a huge craving and part of it is peanut butter. Do you have any?"
Seiya's phone rang at one-fifteen, "Usagi? Is something wrong? You want what? I don't have any but I will check Yaten and Taiki's if they don't I will stop by a store, anything else you need? OK I will be by in about 15 minutes."
"You saved my life." Usagi giggled cheerfully as she took the peanut butter from Seiya's hands, "Come in. Do you have to work tomorrow?"
Seiya, who was cloaked in a robe over a pair of boxer shorts and an old T-shirt and wearing a tired expression, shook his head, "Would I be here if I did?"
"Probably." Usagi smiled, "Come into the kitchen. I will make you something to eat."
Mamoru was awakened by noises and finding the other side his bed empty he made his way quietly towards the kitchen until he heard Seiya's voice. With a pained expression on his face he made his way back to bed.
"No way Usagi-Chan." Seiya protested, "I have seen what you eat when you have cravings."
"It's just ice cream and peanut butter." Usagi laughed, "You at least want some ice cream?"
"Sure."
When Usagi dished out both the bowls and smothered her ice cream in peanut butter she returned to the fridge and pulled out a jar of pickles.
"See! That's what I mean!" Seiya exclaimed.
Usagi stuck her tongue out at Seiya, "I like pickles OK."
"I like pickles too." Seiya responded, "But not with ice cream." After watching Usagi take a bite of her pickle followed immediately by a spoonful of ice cream Seiya made a mock gagging noise. "That is so gross Usagi-Chan!"
"Seiya shut up and eat your ice cream would you?" Usagi asked tossing a couple sprinkles at Seiya. "So we've only begun to buy clothing and necessities for the baby. But we haven't begun to decorate the room you promised."
"Where are you going to put a baby nursery?" Seiya asked dodging the question.
"Mamo-Chan and I decided that we are going to buy a house, even before we get married. We have been looking at houses and everything, but there is no point in decorating a babies room if we are just going to move months after the baby is born."
"Usagi-Chan I've been thinking about knowing what the baby is…"
"I have too," Usagi nodded, "I know we decided we didn't want to know, but I can't wait! I just want to know!"
Seiya nodded, "I know. I decided the same thing."
"Good. I have a doctor's appointment at 9:30 tomorrow…or rather this morning. Mamo-Chan has to go to work, so why don't you pick me up at 9:15?"
"Sounds great to me." Seiya said rinsing out his dish in the sink, "And if I am going to pick you up in seven hours I better go home and finish my sleep."
"OK, bye Seiya-kun, I'll see you tomorrow." Usagi waved taking another spoonful of ice cream.
"Are you sure you don't want me to go into work late?" Mamoru asked when both he and Usagi were getting dressed to go about their days.
"Mamo-Chan it's just a simple doctors appointment I told you. You don't need to be there." Usagi replied adjusting Mamoru's tie.
"Are you sure?" Mamoru asked again, "Because it would be no problem."
Usagi rolled her eyes at Mamoru and pulled on red tank top over her very slightly swelled belly. Maternity clothes were not a necessity even at 5 months and the girls told Usagi all the time that if you didn't know it you could never tell Usagi was even pregnant.
"Mamo-Chan I'm sure. Seiya is picking me up and we are going, I will call you the instant we find anything out. OK?"
"OK then." Mamoru sighed reluctantly, "I should get going."
Usagi frowned slight and help Mamoru tie his tie, "Mamo-Chan I love, you know that right? I know this is really hard on you, but when you insisted on me telling Seiya the truth you can't tell me that you didn't honestly think there was a 100% chance that Seiya would say get lost did you?"
"I know Usako, I'll get used to it." Mamoru responded.
"I know you will. That's why I love you." Usagi said kissing Mamoru, "Now you better get going or you are going to be late for work."
"OK. What about you and I go out tonight?" Mamoru suggested.
Usagi smiled gently at him and then suggested, "What about you, me and the girls have dinner tonight?"
Mamoru sighed with aggravation.
"Mamo-Chan we haven't had dinner with the girls in over a month. I've told you about our plans all ready."
"Then tomorrow night…" Mamoru shook his head, "I know I know dinner with your parents."
"Mamo-Chan everyone wants to see both of us, and they can only do that when you are in town." Usagi reasoned.
"I know that but don't they understand that we would like to spend some time together when I'm home?" Mamoru's voice raised in anger.
Usagi's own voice raised, "If you were home more we could fit dinner with everybody in and spend time together!" Usagi dropped onto her bed wearily, "I don't want to have this fight with you right now."
"All right then, I will see you tonight." Mamoru picked up his briefcase and stormed out of the room.
"Are you OK Usagi-Chan?" Seiya asked when he arrived at Usagi and Mamoru's apartment at exactly 9:15.
Usagi rubbed her temples and nodded, "I just have a headache. Mamoru and I got in a fight about him leaving all the time."
"You know he wouldn't leave unless he had to." Seiya reminded Usagi gently.
"I know. I don't to talk about it though, can we just go?"
"Sure." Seiya nodded pulling open the door.
"A girl!" Usagi squealed for the millionth time as she and Seiya sat down at a table in the restaurant they had chosen for lunch.
If it was possible Seiya's smile broadened as the waitress walked up, "Can I take your order?"
Usagi and Seiya placed their orders and Seiya stated bluntly, "My mother wants to meet you."
Usagi's jaw dropped open in surprise, "She what? Why?"
"She just wants to get to know the mother of her granddaughter." Seiya responded, "She even suggested a party at her house, with my parents, Taiki, Yaten my sister's whom you haven't met, both sets of grandparents and your family and Mamoru of course."
"My family?" Usagi asked still stunned.
"If you don't want to do it she will completely understand." Seiya assured.
Usagi shook her head; "No it's fine. I'll talk to my mom about it."
